Author Notes: Got side-tracked for a while xP I do apologise!

Disclaimer: All products of the KH/FF-verse does not belong to me. Tetsuya Nomura is my God. I do own the idea behind Pizza the cat, Elra and anything not KH/FF related.

Story Notes: This is an AU with slash pairings, mature content, swearing and often random ramblings that make no sense whatsoever so don't worry too much. Sometimes in the AU-verse there will be little mentions of the games, including spoilers and what I would like to happen in KH3, because we all know that it'll happen! There may even be sexual scenes and what-not, so you have been warned. Remember, this fanfic contains slash themes!

Nobody's Loveletter

When it rains in those blue eyes, it just sends a tingle down one's spine that just doesn't fit right with the body. A sense of knowing that those tears are deeper than what they appear to be, and all the he knew was that he was seeing these tears from the other side of the mirror. For once, he was not a factor behind the cause of the rain in the beautiful blue.

It was terrifying and amazing.

It made him feel sick.

Head rested in his lap, hands clenched into fists under him, shoulders shaking with the sheer weight of it all; whatever it was. He was leaning forwards, one hand resting lightly upon the teen's back, while the other brushed slender fingers in the kind of way that could make a person's skin shiver if used in the right situation. This wasn't the right situation, but they doubled as a way to calm a person.

This situation felt so foreign.

This situation felt strangely nice.

"Hey, we gonna stop crying now?" Axel asked in a hushed voice, leaning down to whisper near the other male's ear.

With his hand on Roxas' back, he felt the shiver race down his spine. Brow curved, raising above the other. Not a reaction he was expecting from Roxas. Especially from Roxas.

Head shook in his lap. The crying had slowed now, save for the occasional sob, but the blond just didn't seem to want to lift his head. There was some sort of comforting warmth being nestled up close to Axel. Without even realising it, he'd shuffled further, nuzzling more into his stomach, unaware of the blush that rose in the older male's cheeks

"Come on. I need a cigarette, and I'm gonna have wet patches on my jeans," Hand stroked gently over the blond hair. "I would smoke, but I don't want to get ash in your hair"

"Don't care," came a muffled voice. Arms moved from beneath him and wrapped around Axel's thin waist, pulling him closer so that Roxas could properly nestle into his stomach. Then one hand travel to pull a silver zippo from his back pants pocket and held it up for the red head. "M'jus too comfy to move"

This all sent shock waves of red to flush in Axel's cheeks. What on Earth was Roxas playing at? Swallowing at a lump that had formed in his throat, he tentatively took the lighter, pulling out a small packet of cigarettes from his own pocket, using his teeth to pull one out. Once it was lit and the scent of smoke was around them, the redhead passed the lighter back. At least the cigarette was helping to calm him down.

"For being such a fucking skinny twat, your legs are comfy," Roxas muttered, moving his head so that one blue eye; somewhat reddened by his crying, could look up at the older teen. "Do you not eat?"

Axel smirked, although even that one blue eye managed to send sparks running through him. Even with a reddened face, Roxas was still rather cute. "I'm on a diet"

"Bullshit!"

"That's what its called, yeah."

"Bollocks!"

"No, not that. What sort of diet name is 'Bullshit Bollocks?"

There was a semblance of a smile on the blond's lips. "I mean, your not on a diet. Not after how much you ate at my house,"

He gave a sort of one-armed shrug and took a long drag on the white chemical filled stick. "I'm just naturally thin"

"You never used to be this thin though. And what was with the gorging on my aunt's cooking?"

"I like her cooking," Well, he was telling the truth.

Roxas snorted, then sniffled. A hand moved to rub at the one eye that was looking up into the emerald eyes. Those eyes seemed to mirror the set of the Nobody that was in his mind. The person without a name or a face, but with a beautiful set of eyes that looked at him in such a way, with that burning inner fire that made him crumble at the knees. This time though, he didn't force himself to look away.

Axel took another drag, and sighed as he let the smoke drift from his parted lips. "Well, since you've told me something, I guess I can tell you something," he began, mind working to figure out how to put the words right. How best to tell Roxas that he was avoiding his own mother like the plague. "My mother is currently very, very, very pissed off with me. Last time she saw me, she told me that she never dreamed she'd end up with a son she hated"

Roxas seemed baffled by this, brows furrowing. "What? Why? I thought your mother used to dote on you. You always seemed like you were spoilt rotten"

The redhead shrugged nonchalantly. "I was. Till I did something that made me into the son that she never wanted"

"What did you do?" Knowing Axel, he probably did something amazingly stupid, like burnt down her entire kitchen and flooded her bathroom, all in the same day.

"Kissed a guy," He shrugged again, as if kissing a member of the same gender was no big deal.

Roxas seemed to turn to stone in his lap. It was amazing just how much he tensed up. "What?"

Green eyes rolled in their sockets and he crushed out the cigarette in a discarded cup on the table. "Oh come on, you live with it. Don't tell me it bothers you. Plus, your the guy nuzzling into another guy's lap. You even said I was comfy"

His body seemed to loose the rigidity about it, and Roxas relaxed. "Just never thought you were, you know, gay."

"Neither did I. Never thought about it much either to be honest. But he was just something that I thought about, a lot. He was always on my mind, and I couldn't get enough of his company. I was fifteen; I didn't know what to do, but he seemed to make everything make sense, which was amazing, since he was a crazy kind of guy. Were he any more hyperactive and he'd be like Gumdrop. But, he did have his moments when he allowed the world to take a back seat. Plus, I just adored the way he seemed to turn into a little kid whenever he had hot dogs."

Watching and listening to Axel talk about this guy amazed Roxas. His whole face seemed to change; eyes looked into the distance and seemed to sparkle in a way he'd never seen before, although it still made him feel like his knees would give way were he to stand up. "How come your still not with him, or is that your mother's fault?"

"He's going out with some girl with pigtails now. We didn't last. Not really had a relationship since, although I've been with a few other guys. There is one guy I might try it out with, but we just can't seem to click in that way"

"What way?"

"That way," he said, absent-mindedly stroking his fingers though Roxas' hair. He'd even moved now, so that he was sitting on the small couch with him. Roxas' head was still in his lap, laying on his back with his legs over the edge of the seat. A rather couply scene, but neither seemed to mind. "You know; the 'can't eat, can't sleep, can't stop thinking about you' way. He's all you can think about, and all you want"

"Does he feel that way about you?" Roxas asked, resting his hands on his stomach. His face was less red now, and his eyes no longer puffy and tear filled. Talking with Axel was like the night he spent chatting with Naminé, only this time he wasn't thinking about how much he hated the red head.

Axel's shoulders rose and fell in a slight shrug. "I've not asked him. Never really had the chance too, privacy is hard to come by at his place, he's always got some friend or another around. Plus his cat looks at me like I'm trying to take his owner away. Stupid Pizza"

There was a soft chuckle coming from Roxas now. "He named his cat Pizza?"

Smirk formed on Axel's lips and he gave a nod. "Yeah; Pizza the Cat. The guy adores his cat too. Its a pretty big cat, and is like a dead weight if he ever falls asleep on you," Axel thought he'd never be talking about Demyx's cat with anyone other than Demyx himself, or Zexion on ways to eliminate the feline furball. He was also amazed that he was talking about Pizza when he wasn't at Demyx's place!

"So, back to you not eating,"

"Knew you'd get back to it at some point Rox. But yeah, I can't eat at home incase she sees me. If I can't find a place to crash, I climb in my window when its so late she must be sleeping. I'm surprised she doesn't think I'm missing...Or dead"

"How did she see you kiss the guy?" He didn't know that Axel was in hiding. Maybe he wasn't such a bad guy afterall. He was still a jerk, an idiot and someone most people didn't get along with, but he didn't seem that bad anymore.

"Wrong place at the wrong time. We'd been messing about in my room and she wanted to know what the noise was. She opened the door at the point we were lip-locked. I was only fifteen, and she flipped"

Blue eyes widened in amazement "You've been avoiding her ever since?" he gasped.

Red hair moved with the motions of Axel shaking his head. "She got worse about a year ago. I used to avoid her before too, but she wasn't as bad. Now she shouts and rants and raves. I preferred it when she just couldn't look at me, rather than her glaring at me and screaming at how much of a failure to her I am."

"Why the change?"

"My father had an idea for a big business merger by me marrying some guy's daughter. When she told him I was gay, he got pissed. Apparently the merger would bring loads of money into the family and my mother would get a bigger house and we'd have to move. Its stupid I know, but that's the way she is" Then again, even if he wasn't gay, Axel still wouldn't of married the stuck up princess even if his life depended on it. She just seemed to act like she was smarter than he was. Even if she was, there was no need to rub it in. "She only ever does things for herself, even when I had all the latest things when I was a kid. It was all about showing off to the other parents, making her look good. I bet your parents fell for it too"

There was movement in his lap. Roxas was nodding. "My mom used to say that it was horrible how she spoilt you. Said that you would grow up to be a horrible, nasty person and it was no wonder you picked on me so much. She said, those that have everything always take it out on those that have little"

Brows raised on his face, and Axel chuckled slightly. He then shook his head. "I never picked on you because I thought I was better than you,"

"Then why?" If Axel hadn't made it his personal goal in life to make Roxas' life a living, miserable hell hole, then what was the insane reason behind it all?

Axel grinned, but it soon faded and he seemed a little ashamed now that he actually thought about it. "To get some attention from you,"

Roxas sat bolt upright and stared at the other teen, mouth agape. "Attention? You threw rocks at my window at all hours of the night just for me to notice you?"

There was a slow nod in reply.

"I ought to punch you for that" But he smirked and sunk back into the comfortable position on Axel's lap, nestling into the warmth that the other male seemed to radiate. He wasn't gay, he didn't go for guys, but it sure felt nice being like this with Axel. At least he knew why the other did what he did. "So why did you want my attention?"

"I just thought you were so cool. You didn't take the world so literally, but you weren't as hyper as gumdrop," he explained, running his fingers through the blond locks once more. The soft sigh from the younger sent a shudder through his spine.

He liked the noise.

He wanted to hear more.

- - -

It was such a strange feeling, especially when it began to fade. It was like a sense of a comforting home was slowly slipping away from him. He wanted to put a reason behind it, why all of a sudden there was a piece missing in his already incomplete jigsaw of his life. It just seemed to leave him with a burning sense of need to have that slowly increasing void filled, but whatever filled the void had no name, no face.

Hands clasped and unclasped in a repetitive fidgeting motion, a grasp that twisted and turned.

He looked to those hands, willing them to keep still.

They wouldn't. So he pushed them forcefully into his hair with a low growl.

The party was possibly still going on, but he didn't stay till the end, much to Hayner's disapproval. He really wanted to enjoy himself, but for some reason he just felt like bursting into tears every few minutes.

He'd rang home, and Cloud came and picked him up. Sora, however, said he was going to be staying Riku's house after the party was over, so he declined on the offer of a ride home.

A set of blue eyes looked over to the passenger seat as the growl came; a brow raising. "My driving irritating you Roxas?"

Snapped from his thoughts, head jerked towards the older man and he stared for a few brief moments. When the real world sunk into his brain, he shook his head, hands falling into his lap. They were pushed between his thighs in an attempt to keep them still.

"I just feel weird," he said.

"You've not been drinking or something have you?" There was concern in his voice. "Because I don't want Elra getting upset that I left her son there if there's a cause for concern as big as that."

Roxas shook his head. "I'm not a big fan of mind altering drugs. It gets people hurt"

Cloud nodded respectfully. "Elra told me. But something is bothering you. Not girl trouble is it?"

Again, the teen shook his head. He couldn't understand what it was, just that there was a Nobody in his mind and he could feeling himself falling for them. "You've been in love right?"

"Currently am," replied the older man with a soft chuckle. "Every moment away from her I feel like I'm loosing the most important part of my life"

"But its only a feeling right?" Big blue eyes looked up to the other blond for reassurance. "You can make it go away can't you?"

There was a knowing grin on Cloud's face. "So it is girl trouble!"

"Not girl trouble exactly. More, a person trouble"

"Your cousin getting to you? Whatever floats his boat. Riku seems to treat him nice"

"No, not like that. Well, maybe like that. Argh!" Head sunk into his hands and he slumped forwards in the seat, held up only by the safety belt. "Its nothing"

"Well, when you decide what it is that's bothering you Roxas, do let me know. I'm here if you find your unable to talk to your aunt"

Roxas nodded, smiling a little. Cloud wasn't as bad as he first thought. All his feelings of the man stealing away his aunt seemed to be ebbing away. "Thanks Cloud"

- - -

Home, and he flopped onto his bed in his dark room, staring up at the ceiling above him. Naminé was asleep by now, and Cloud had retreated to bed with his aunt. However, he was still felt wide awake.

In the darkness of his room, Roxas allowed himself to focus on that person in his mind that was bothering him so. Maybe if he concentrated on it, then perhaps it would become a little clearer than a pair of sparkling green eyes that burned with a inner fire. He could feel his knees weakening at the thought.

However, he wasn't allowed the luxury of focusing on his Nobody for too long.

'Thwack'

Opening eyes that he'd closed to concentrate, Roxas slowly sat up, feeling his knees already turning to jelly.

'Thwack'

Grumbling to himself, he made his way to the source of the noise.

His window.

'Thwack'

It was a familiar sound, but at the current moment in time, the teen couldn't seem to place when and where he had heard the sound before.

Slipping between his curtains, he nearly jumped as a rock hit the window pane, making the strange noise again. Growling as he realised the source of the sound, all the memories of being awoken by the rocks hitting his window at all hours of the night, he hoisted the window up and stuck his head out.

Cast in a soft light of a street lamp, tossing a stone in his hand, ready to throw another was a red head with an emerald gaze that had Roxas griping the windowsill for something to hold onto.

Roxas' jigsaw of life pieced itself together as eyes adjusted to the light and took in the slender red head's figure, with a smile on his lips, a cigarette resting between them. Hand reached up to remove it, smoke tendrils slipping forth from slightly parted lips.

"Finally. You left me hanging dude. What's the matter, my company not good enough for you?"

He chuckled and shook his head. "Yeah, I was getting bored of you,"

Axel moved closer to the house, standing right below the window now, head tilted back so that he could look directly up into Roxas' face. "You never told me why you were crying"

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Author's Notes: Another chapter complete!

Riku: I'm not featured again!

Pizza: -purrs happily-

Roxas: I'm not a whinny little kid who cries all the time! Stop making me seem like that!

Thank you everyone for all your wonderful comments!

As for the hidden FF characters from chapter three they are:

Nida, Zone, Lank and Port!

They're minor characters and don't feature in my story xP They're also all from FF8 -drools over the thought of Irvine's cute butt-