Author Notes: I'd like to thank RoxasIsLove for all their wonderful comments and always offering help when I'm stuck about what to write next. I'm glad I'm a super-duper person in your books!

Random...I think i heard you squeal you know...Sorry for making you sad while waiting for my update.

Noperfect917 – Axel is yummy all over...So is Cloud...I also think I'm getting addicted to Saïx... -wonders who she could pair him up with-

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Disclaimers: I don't own KH/CoM/KH2/FF, they belong to SquareEnix. Leila belongs to RoxasIsLove. Thanks for letting me use her!

Story Notes: BOYS KISS BOYS! BOYS ANGST OVER BOYS! Don't like? Sucks to be you.

Nobodies Loveletter

It was such a strange feeling; not knowing what to exactly feel. His head was spinning with all the emotions he could choose from. He'd try one on for size, then change his mind and try a completely different and opposite emotion. It was rather surreal and it made his head hurt.

It was a mad rush of emotions, all trying for top spot.

It made him feel sick.

Unable to choose an emotion that fitted, Roxas settled on being angry at his cousin for telling other's about the kiss while being angry at Axel for having him as a back-up plan. He chose to focus much of his anger into a glare at the redhead who was finishing his cigarette. It seemed to help him feel a little better, for now at least.

Axel sighed, the last tendrils of smoke curling from his parted lips as he crushed the cigarette stub into an empty soda can Riku had been drinking from. "Look, I don't know how this will work itself out, okay Gumdrop? I like Roxas; I've always liked Roxas. But Zell...We fit. I know I can never go back to being Roxas' school yard bully, but I want him to take me for what I am"

Roxas scoffed. "Yeah, like that would ever happen," He rolled his eyes, relinquishing the glare to simply stare at the sky above. "Your an arrogant, cocky, son of a bitch and you play people like cards."

This amazed the small group. Sora thought that his cousin and Axel might get together; Riku was amazed to hear such words from one so innocent looking; and Axel just felt hurt. Maybe his plan was going to fail and then Zell would leave him and he'd be alone all over again. Right about now he felt like running to Demyx's and getting drunk and passing out on his couch. He didn't even care if the male and his new boyfriend were screwing on the couch either. Roxas had completely shot him down, even after how it had felt so wonderful that morning.

For comfort, he dug out another cigarette and quickly lit it.

"Your going to have no lungs left," Sora said, scrunching up his nose in disgust at Axel's chain smoking.

"So?"

"Just saying, that's all. Its your body, do with it what you want,"

Axel grinned, taking a long, deep drag. "Its a known fact that not smoking will cause you to live fifteen years after you've stopped being useful," he said after blowing out the smoke from his lungs. The reply brought out a chuckle from Riku, and even Roxas tried not to laugh a little. He was currently very pissed at the older male and wasn't going to give him credit for his 'joke'.

Riku glanced at his watch, then gave a soft kiss to Sora's cheek before he stood up. "Class; Sora," he said, offering his hand to help his boyfriend rise. "Catch you guys later" he said, then began walking off towards the school.

"Bye, bye!" shouted Sora, waving his arm madly in the air, before turning and running after Riku, leaving Axel and Roxas alone.

"I suppose you hate me now more than ever then?" Axel asked, green eyes watching the embers burn on the end of the white stick he held in his hand.

Propping himself up on his elbows, Roxas once more glared at Axel. "I'm a fucking back-up plan for your useless love life, Axel. I do not want to be used, especially for your own personal gains. So you can fuck yourself before you even think of fucking me!"

"So if I drop the plan and ask you to go out with me, will that make you happy?" Axel asked, green eyes focused upon the spiky blond as if he were staring down the barrel of a gun.

"Yes!" Mouth worked before his brain had chance to even get into gear. Once he'd realised what he had said, a hand flew to his mouth and he stared, dumbfounded, at Axel.

Green eyes widened at the sudden reply. "Yes?" he asked, just to make fully sure that was what Roxas had said,

With his hand still firmly covering his lips, Roxas nodded slowly. Slipping his hand down, he breathed in deeply, giving his brain chance to work before his mouth did again. "Yes. I mean, I don't know..." He sat up and pulled his knees to his chest, fingers pushing into his blond hair, head bowed, resting his forehead upon his knees. "I mean that I'd like to go out with you, I think. I'm not sure. My head is pretty fucked up lately" He sighed heavily before lifting his head to look at Axel, confusion in his bright blue eyes. "I need to think on it more,"

The cigarette was added to the previous one, and Axel moved closer so that he was sitting right beside the younger teen. "Does that mean I can at least take you out on a date?" he asked hopefully.

Swallowing hard, Roxas gave a soft and slow nod. "On one condition,"

Brow arched gracefully. "Which is?"

"Kiss me again. Like you wanted this morning," His eyes almost seemed like he was pleading with Axel for that kiss. "Like I wanted..."

Axel couldn't believe what he was hearing. Lifting a hand, he tenderly cupped Roxas' chin, holding his head as he brought his own closer. Eyes became half-lidded as the gap between them was closed. He could feel Roxas' nervous breathing upon his own lips that soon closed over the other's mouth.

There was smoke on the kiss, the taste of the cigarette that Axel had just crushed out, yet it didn't put him off. Instead it gave Axel a fiery taste that Roxas wanted more of. Lips moved together, parting when the smoky tasting tongue swept across his lower lip, granting it access to his mouth; granting it access to his own tongue that was quickly claimed and petted, encouraging it to dance with Axel's own.

Roxas moaned into the kiss while Axel lowered him back onto the grassy ground slowly, thumb caressing the soft as satin flesh of Roxas' cheek. Eyes were completely closed now, fully submerged in the kiss that Roxas had asked for. That Roxas had wanted. Passion soon melded into the kiss, Axel deepening the kiss even more. Lips parted so that they both could gain air, Roxas gulping it down while Axel shifted his position so that he was now leaning over Roxas, legs aside him, weight upon arms that propped him up.

Orange-red hair fell over his shoulder as he leaned down for a quick claim of Roxas' lips, green eyes looking deep into the blue that reminded him so much of a beautiful lagoon. "You're so beautiful, Rox,"

He blushed softly. "I thought you didn't like romantic stuff like that,"

Axel smirked slyly. "For you Roxas, I'll do anything."

Hands lifted to push slender digits into the orange tresses, pulling his head down for another locking of their lips. "Then kiss me again," he demanded, before pressing their lips together, mouth parting within moments to capture Axel's tongue and suck upon it gently.

Electricity ran through Axel's spine and he was amazed at what Roxas was doing. His tongue was soon freed again and it dove deep into the hot, wet cavern, exploring every inch, Axel locking into memory everything that he did that would cause Roxas to moan and writhe beneath him. Stealing a chance, Axel ground his hips down, eliciting a beautiful sound from Roxas that the redhead quickly drank up. It was such a pleasurable moan, it was a shame it was muffled by their kiss.

So Axel did it again, only this time parted their lips to hear the seductive sound that escaped the blond. He'd never heard something so wonderful, and it came from a wonderful creature, which made it even more wonderful.

The bell had long since rung to announce that classes were once again starting, and for the most part, all students were in attendance. Two that were missing from their respective classes were laying on the front lawn, Axel's lips attached to Roxas' exposed neck, said blond purring as he accepted all that Axel gave to him.

However, despite classes having started, not all teachers had classes.

"Axel!" came a shout from somewhere behind the pair. "Get off...Roxas?!" The voice sounded amazed once he spotted whom it was that was beneath the redhead. "Both of you, up, now!"

Quickly sliding off Roxas and sitting beside him on the grass, Axel grinned up at the mathematics teacher like a cat with cream. "Mr.Ansem? What brings you out here?"

Roxas was blushing madly and too embarrassed to say anything. He just stared at his shoes and hoped that Ansem would dissolve in a puff of black smoke.

"And just what is it you two are doing here exactly?" asked the teacher, eyes firmly set upon the student who didn't seem to care he was going to be in detentions for the rest of his life.

"I was checking to see if Roxas has tonsillitis, sir"

There was a sigh and the man rolled his eyes. "Seriously Axel, I am not stupid"

"Then why did you ask, sir, if you knew what we were doing?"

"Why are you doing it during class time?"

"Because the bell rung and I was having too much fun to move," admitted Axel, quite happy to be having such a conversation with someone of authority. Axel wasn't know for respecting authority anyway.

Deciding that talking with Axel was a lost cause, Ansem turned his attention upon Roxas. "I have nothing against your personal preference, young man, but I would of thought you of all people would of not done such a thing during your class time. I'm ashamed at you, Roxas. What would your aunt say?"

No amount of hoping was going to make the teacher disappear. "I'm sorry, sir." he said while pushing himself up into a standing position. Dusting the dirt from his pants, blue eyes looked to the teacher. "I'll be getting to my class now,"

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Its hard to keep rumours to a minimum when one walks in late for class after being spotted by several students with the other half of the rumour, but somehow Roxas had managed to get through his last two classes without too much to deal with in the way of curious students, or the more anti-gay students that inhabited the school. They'd been easily ignored for years, ever since Sora and Riku had come clean. Now it was a natural thing to see two people of the same gender holding hands. Only those at the very top of the social ladder disliked the whole 'gay community' that the school was bringing up.

Leaving the classroom to head home for the day, he was quickly jerked from his thoughts by a tap on his shoulder. Spinning around, he could of sworn his knees had turned to jelly when a pair of exotic green eyes came into his view. "A-Axel..." he stuttered, trying his best not to loose his balance.

There was an impish smirk upon Axel's lips as he stood there before the blond. "Can I walk you home?"

Roxas nearly choked. "What?"

"Can I walk you home, please?" Axel asked, his voice playful sounding.

Roxas shrugged nonchalantly. "I was gonna get the bus..." he replied, trailing off, his gaze drifting from the taller male.

"We're going the same way, I'll get the bus with you!" Axel chirped, rocking back and fourth on his heels. After a few moments, he straightened out his features and leaned forwards, bringing his face towards the smaller male. "Do I get to hold your hand?"

Now his knees did go weak and Roxas nearly went crashing down. He stuttered whatever it was that his frazzled brain was trying to get out, then stared up at Axel from his spot on the floor. "Y-You want t-to hold my hand?"

Axel was standing there laughing, one hand curling around his body to clutch his side, while the other partially hid his face while he laughed at Roxas. "Yes," he said, still laughing. "I want to hold your hand. Is that so wrong?"

Scrambling to his feet and brushing away the dust, the spiky blond shook his head and looked up once more at the older male while he tried to cease laughing. "Alright, I suppose you can hold my hand..."

"Great!" And with that, Axel grabbed Roxas' hand and tugged him into a brisk walk and the pair of them set out of the school and headed for the bus stop together.

All the while, Roxas was fighting the blush that was fighting to redden his cheeks, staring down at his feet while he walked hand in hand with the other male. After leaving the school ground, Axel had slowed his walk to allow Roxas to easily keep up with his longer legs, and their bodies were much closer, hands locked together. He could feel the warmth radiating from the redhead's hand and squeezed tighter, looking up at his face, gaining a smile in return.

He smiled back and moved in closer, wrapping his other arm loosely around the one holding his hand and cuddled up close against it. It was a thin, bony arm, but to Roxas it was rather comfortable.

The bus stop was in sight, with the rabble of students waiting around it. Riku and Sora were there, happy in their own little world. But they kept walking, straight past the waiting point, Axel not even pausing to wave to Sora who by now noticed his cousin walking away, holding hands with the taller teen. Roxas' blue eyes shot up at the other's face, unsure of what was going on. "The bus stop..."

"I know," he replied smoothly. "I want to walk you home. Is that wrong?"

He shook his head and cuddling the arm he was holding. "Not at all."

Axel glanced through the corner of his eye down to the one holding his arm and smiled happily. There was a hidden motive besides the simply want to walk with Roxas, but he wasn't going to divulge that other with it just yet. He just hoped that they were all still at the coffee shop where he'd left them when he'd skipped his last two classes of the school day. After such a heated kiss with Roxas, Axel had no intention of going back into school and sit through two boring lessons and probably get thrown out of one or both anyway. Plus, he'd never written that stupid letter of apology that his biology teacher had wanted him to write as punishment for swearing.

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Author's Note: I sooooooooo sorry for how long this took. I'd like to wish RoxsIsLove a late merry birthday, and for helping me out of my rut x3 I also can't wait for more of your story!

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No, they're not a couple yet. There's still more to come!