Author Notes: I lost my Internet for what seemed to be an eternity. BT is sooooooooo horrible to me!!! -cries- I didn't expect to be gone so long, I doubt I'm still a member of some forums I joined...Oh well...Better go beg to be let back on. I also can't believe how well this story is doing. I began on a whim, not sure what the hell I was writing; just that I wanted to write something RoxasxAxel. You're all god-darn lucky I was writing this before my boyfriend gave me a great suggestion for a RoxasxAxel fic. I might write it up in the future, if he doesn't beat me to it. He's as straight as they come, but he came up with such an amazing story! It involved drugs, sex, booze and Sora getting a black eye at one point...

But enough with tempting you all, here is the long awaited chapter thirteen! Everyone say 'yay!'

Disclaimers: I don't own KH/CoM/KH2/FF, they belong to SquareEnix. Leila belongs to RoxasIsLove. Thanks for letting me use her!

Story Notes: BOYS KISS BOYS! BOYS ANGST OVER BOYS! Don't like? Sucks to be you. I write each chapter as a separate entity from the story, and as part of the story (if that makes any sense) and each chapter is based on how I was feeling when I wrote it, what music I was listening to, even what food I'm eating at that time, so if things feel random to you, it's because of how I write.

Nobodies Loveletter

Hand in hand with the one person he never thought he'd ever hold hands with; which wasn't including the time when they're were really young and Axel had been bullying him so much that little Roxas had thrown a punch and the teacher made them stand by a wall and hold hands, and he was enjoying it. They were headed in the complete opposite direction from his home, but right now he simply didn't care.

His head was swarmed with emotions of bliss, causing it to spin.

It made him feel sick.

The whole world was as if a blur. A dream world state where the buildings melded into one another and the people drifted by as if they were not actually even there. Roxas found himself holding tighter onto his only grip of reality, clutching Axel's arm until a noise that sounded like the older male was in pain snapped him back to this time and reality.

"Holding a little tightly there, Roxas," he said, looking down at him.

Roxas blushed as he looked up at him. "I'm sorry. It just all feels like a dream. My head is spinning and I feel like I'm either gonna faint or throw up,"

"Woah there! Don't go blowing chunks on my clothes!" Axel said, pulling away slightly, but his fingers remained linked the younger males. He wasn't going to let go of him any time soon, even if the boy did vomit. "We're nearly there, you can throw some water on your face or something, because you do look kinda pale"

"Nearly where?" he asked, slipping his other arm from around Axel's arm to rub at his face to try and find a way to stop his head from spinning.

"I have some friends to introduce you to," he explained, smiling brightly as he lead Roxas to a small café/coffee shop tucked neatly away down a side street of the main shopping area of the city. As they approached the building, with the few tables and chairs set outside, the open door allowed the scents of food to drift out into the street.

It did nothing to help Roxas stomach.

Inside, Axel looked around and soon spotted the small group that he'd spent away from school with, two of which were lip-locked in a deep kiss. If it wasn't for the fact his head was swimming, Roxas would of stared at such a display of affection between the two males. A whisper to his ear suggesting he head to the bathroom, and a pale hand pointing to the door, Roxas' hand was released so that he could move away.

As the blond left, Axel plopped himself down on the wall seat next to a blue haired male with glasses, his nose buried in a book. "Yo," he said as he tried to get comfortable, using his elbow to nudge the male beside him. "Didn't I leave those two like that?"

The blue haired male shrugged. "You might of done," he said simply, not taking his eyes from the pages of the book. "They'll be needing artificial oxygen soon though, Demyx is going purple"

"I am not!" breathed the blond, glaring over at the other two, while the others at the table laughed.

There was a total of four at the table, five including Axel. The long, plastic topped table was set in a corner, a long blue velvet wall seat running along almost all the walls in the little café that also doubled as a coffee shop as an attempt to survive a world filled with big companies. Zexion and Demyx sat to the right of the male with the glasses, and across from him was a dusty brunet sitting on one of the seats backwards, leaning over the backrest to scribble words down into a note book.

"You were," said the writer. "Did you two not get anything this morning so you were making up for it with tongue sex?"

"Elliot," said Zexion, rolling his eyes at the male. "Do you have to be so crude?"

Elliot smirked, looking up from his note book. "I can be worse if you want me to be"

"Please don't," said the male who still hadn't taken his eyes from his book. He had though, turned the page. His voice was almost emotionless, like he wasn't interested in talking. "So was that him?"

Axel's green eyes stared in amazement at him as he asked the question. "You saw him with your head in a book?"

"I'm gifted," he said, a small smirk on his lips as he turned the page again. "So does that mean we get to question him?"

There was a slight blush on Axel's cheeks. This small group was probably the nearest thing he had to close friends, ranking even higher than Larxene and Vexen, so he was interested of what they thought about his love interest; especially since a few of them knew more than enough about Axel's failed love life. The one known as Elliot had been a short fling that simply went nowhere. Neither cared; Elliot was obsessed with someone and even the redhead had done nothing to quell the obsession.

"I guess you can..." he said, eyes downcast out of embarrassment.

"Dude, that's the reason why you brought him!" said Demyx, his breathing finally back to normal now that his kissing session with Zexion had been interrupted. "But what's wrong with him?"

"Axel's that bad a kisser he made the poor boy sick," Zexion said with a snigger.

"Axel is not a bad kisser!" protested Demyx. "I've personally kissed him!"

The redhead at the brunt of the conversation rolled his eyes at the only one of the group trying to stick up for him. "Nice way to fight for my pride, Demyx"

"I'm sure you kiss like a Goddess Axel..." murmured the blue haired male, still not taking his eyes from his book.

"River!" whined the blond, glaring at the male with the glasses. "You're just plain mean! Axel's kisses are always hot!"

"Ummm...How do you know?" came a voice from somewhere near Elliot. The male sat back, holding onto the backrest of the seat so that he didn't topple backwards and smiled at Roxas who was trying very hard not to glare at Demyx.

Axel smiled, patting that space beside him for the other to come and join him, but Roxas was reluctant to do so. "Roxas; this is Demyx, the one I told you about with the food named cat."

"Pizza?" Roxas asked, slowly piecing things together in his mind, which at the moment was working very sluggish.

Demyx purred. "My lovely ittle Pizza!" he hugged his arms, almost swooning as his pet became the current topic of discussion. "My sweet widdle Pizza!"

Beside him, Zexion sighed softly out of annoyance and shook his head. "Now look what you did. He'll be rambling about his cat for hours now..."

"Kiss him. That'll make him stop," suggested River, looking over the top of his book at the complaining male.

Roxas' gaze drifted over each of the male's in Axel's company, and finally decided to sit beside Axel, who promptly wrapped arm arm around his waist and pulled him close. The male smiled brightly at him, then looked back at the group while they attempted to stop Demyx from rambling like an idiot about his cat. Shaking his head at the group and chuckling to himself, he looked back to the younger teen at his side who seemed to be looking a little better now that he'd visited the bathroom.

"I bet you're wondering whom everyone is, right? He asked, and Roxas nodded his reply. "Right, well the one talking about his cat is Demyx. He was that guy I told you about a few days ago. On his right is Zexion; they've been seeing each other on and off for years, and have finally decided that they want to be a couple," he explained, using his free hand to motion to each of the males in turn as he introduced them. "The one over there sitting the wrong way on the chair is Elliot. He really, really, really likes this guy named Saïx, who's some weird psycho, but you don't need to know about him. Elliot likes rabbits about as much as Demyx likes his cat."

As he was being introduced, Elliot waved a hand at Roxas, and the blond noticed the strange facial tattoo on the man's right cheek. "What's the tattoo all about? It looks like VII?"

Elliot smiled, nodding. "Long story," he said, holding out his hand for Roxas' to shake. He hand a firm grip, and wore several rings on his fingers. His nails were also painted purple, matching the light dusting of eye shadow around his eyes. "Nice to meet you, Roxas,"

Then Axel nudged the reader in the arm again. "And this one here who never seems to take his eyes off the book is River," he said, then leaned in closer to Roxas' ear to whisper something to him. "His real name is Riven, he doesn't really care what you call him though..."

Roxas glanced around Axel too look at the male with the glasses. Both corners of his lower lip were pierced with a silver ring, and he had one blue eye and one green. "Leila has eyes like that..."

"Leila?" Axel asked, looking curiously at his companion. "The blonde girl with the same amount of energy as Gumdrop?"

Roxas nodded. "Do you know her, River?"

Raised a pierced right brow as he turned the page, he pulled his gaze away from the book at looked at the boy. "Don't think so. I've been told though, but then people come out with the comment that her eyes are 'brighter' than mine. So I punch them in the face..." With that said, he turned back to his book.

"River is kind of like a street thug..." murmured Axel nervously.

"River is a mercenary for hire," chimed Elliot. "Local gangs hire him to beat people up. Its how he got his name,"

Demyx nodded. "The River Is Wild!"

"I'd prefer it if you didn't use that in public, Demyx," said River in a matter-of-fact tone. "But yes, I beat people up for people who can't do it themselves. Rich shits with no strength of their own."

Roxas frowned at the way River described what he did as if it was like a job to him. "But that's horrible!"

Book was lower, a thumb keeping the page, his other arm resting over it. "Not really. See, I tell whomever it is I'm about to beat the shit out of who sent me and if they want me to, I can go return the favour. For a price of course"

Blue eyes darted around the group. "And you guys are okay with your friend doing that?"

Zexion snorted. "River has beaten us all up in the past. We've known him for years, we know when he really means business. If he really wants to hurt you, River is one hell of a son of a bitch, and it will all be free of charge."

Axel nodded in agreement. "Lexaeus likes to us me as a punching bag because I know River. He'll find any reason to punch me. The latest one was because of Elizabeth; she complained when I walked past her smoking, so I told her to stick it. Lexaeus then thought he'd beat me up for it," he motioned to the faded bruise around his eye. "He wants me to send River, he thinks he can beat him."

River chuckled slightly. "Lexaeus is the only person I won't do. I want him to personally challenge me"

"So Axel just gets beaten up for it!" concluded Elliot. "None of us have ever liked Lexaeus. He lives near me. He's an extreme anti-gay, although you probably know."

The whole group seemed to be such good friends, despite one of them being a thug for hire. But looking over River, he simply didn't look the type to be able to throw a punch. He wore glasses, his hair was dyed blue and cut to varying length, most of which he kept back with a pale purple bandanna. He was pale skinned and had a lithe and slender body shape. He just didn't look the type to do much damage in a fight.

Elliot had a dusty brown hair, which reached his mid-back and pale violet eyes. He wore make-up and painted his nails. He seemed to lack a sense of style with his dress sense and wore whatever he felt like.

Zexion had lilac hair that fell over one eye and he seemed like the type that was hesitant to trust people. Demyx on the other hand, trusted people easily and seemed rather happy with the whole world. Glancing to Axel, the red head just seemed to fit so well with the rag-tag group.

"You have the weirdest friend," he said, receiving a soft laugh, and an affectionate ruffle to his hair. "But they're okay. They're not too bad, I suppose"

Axel nodded, smiling brightly. "Glad you like them, they're judging you"

Blue eyes widened. "What!?"

"Yeah, kid," River said, once more reading his book. "See, Axel spends a lot of his time with us, and doesn't want to loose his friends because of a new love interest. We had to put up with the wreckage that Zell left behind and we don't want to see that happen to him again. He told us Zell wants him back, but he's really taken with you. You've not admitted you're gay, so Axel's not sure what you think of him and he's got Zell to worry about too that he needed a little extra help in deciphering you"

The explanation caused Roxas to question if Axel really did want to be with him, or if he was just playing the odds to keep himself from heartbreak. Hearing the Axel really did like him coming from someone else caused him to blush slightly though.

Seeing Roxas' reaction to River's words, Elliot leaned over and gave a friendly rub to Roxas' arm. "Look, you're still young, but you've got to grab hold of your feelings or you'll end up hurting someone. We've all been in your shoes, that guy that you really like but you're just not sure why you feel that way. If he likes you back, you can't leave him hanging; you could end up seriously hurting him without wanting to."

Roxas looked up at Axel once Elliot had finished talking, and said male looked back at him. The green eyes burned with an inner fire that Roxas just wanted to wrap himself within. There was just something about Axel that Roxas couldn't explain, but he knew he wanted it. "Because it felt right..." he whispered, mainly to himself.

Axel heard and cocked a brow. "What?"

He smiled. "Because it felt right."

The redhead was still unsure of what Roxas was saying. "What felt right?"

Leaning up, Roxas captured Axel's lips in a soft kiss. The group in the background made various noises of delight, encouragement and surprise. Smiling as his eyes slipped closed, Roxas allowed Axel to wrap both arms tightly around him and pull him so close that he was lifted onto the aforementioned teenager's lap so that they're chests could press together.

However, the group was getting rather noisy, and a young waitress came over, peering through a pair of thin rimmed glasses as she glared at the group, most of which looked back at her. Two were too busy to even notice she was there.

"I have nothing against you," she said sweetly. "But you are bothering other customers. If you're going to be kissing like that, I'd prefer it if you took it elsewhere before I start getting worse complaints"

Her voice caused the pair to break apart and Axel looked up at her, instantly recognising the blonde. "You're Quistis!" he stated, pointing an accusing finger at her.

She seemed unimpressed and motioned to her name-tag with her pen.

"No, you're the Quistis! Zell's ex!" explained Axel.

This brought out a shocked look from her. "You know him?"

"He's pissed at you," said Axel. The whole group was focused on her now and she was feeling uncomfortable and very vulnerable.

"Well he should be!" she protested. "I caught him kissing Larenne!"

This brought out a gasp from most of the group. Elliot looked over at her with shocked features. "But Larenne's dating my brother!"

She huffed, folding her arms across her chest. "You better get your facts straight...Well, as straight as you can. Larenne's a right whore! I've seen her with several other guys, even that Lexaeus guy!"

Elliot growled and lifted his bag from the floor, rummaging through the contents in search of his phone. "That little piece of shit..." he muttered.

"Elliot, calm it..." said River, his book closed with a book mark in place. Currently the real world was proving to be much more interesting that his book. He looked over at Quistis. "When did you see them?" he asked.

"About a week ago..." she said, pulling out the seat beside Elliot and sitting down.

"But Zell told me he hadn't seen Larenne in a while," explained Axel, one arm wrapped tightly around Roxas' waist, squeezing him for support. The beautiful creature beside him was the only thing keeping him from blowing his cool and marching straight over to Zell's and punching him in the face.

She sighed softly, looking over at the redhead. "When did you last see him?"

"The other day. He wanted me to go back out with him. I'm Axel, did he ever tell you about us?"

Quistis nodded. "Said he was your first or something. I'm sorry about all this"

Demyx chuckled. "Good thing you found out, eh?"

There was a screech of chair legs on the tiled floor and Elliot rose from his seat, phone clutched in his hand and held to his ear. With a slight wave of his free hand to the group, he headed outside so that he could talk with his sibling better. Watching him go, River stood from his own spot and followed him a few moments later when he started to hear shouting from outside. "I'll sort him..." he said as he left.

Zexion watched the tall male leave. "River likes Elliot's little brother," he said. "He thinks we don't know though..." he explained to Roxas, who seemed lost in all the sudden conversations, then looked to Axel. "So what are you going to do about Zell? Hopefully you'll think of something before River beats him up"

Quistis scoffed. "I'd let him. Zell is probably playing us all and seeing which he can score with. I never thought that about him though..."

Axel shook his head. "That's not like Zell. He can't play the field, he gets too scared that someone will find out and it eats him up inside. How do you think we ended? He told me there was this girl he really liked, but he didn't know what to do and didn't want to hurt me"

The female nodded slowly. "Same here...He told me he'd like to go out with me, but Larenne was in the way. I told him to follow his heart"

Listening to them all, Roxas sighed, staring at the tabletop. Sometimes the heart could be easily broken, and watching the events unfold before him, he was scared about what would happen between Axel and himself. There was a soft, comforting squeeze to his side and a hand found his own, thumb stroking his hand.

"Don't worry..." came a whisper in Roxas' ear. "I won't leave you"

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Author's Notes: Hey, a chapter containing one scene!!!!

Elliot and River(Riven) are my characters. I might have a scene where River meets Leila and a staring contest ensues, or something. I'll have to ask Leila's owner about it...

Zell's not cheating, but Larenne is an evil witch and will appear at some point to stir things up! (Although she's managing it now...) She might not though...Depends on how I feel...

Axel: I demand a smut scene at some point woman!

Roxas: Y-You d-d-d-do?

Axel: -smirks- Darn right I do. I wanna put my -bleep- in your -bleep- and then -bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep- until we collapse and fall asleep in each other's arms. Then in the morning I'll wake you up by -bleeeeeeeeeeep-

Roxas: -fainted- xP

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