Disclaimer: I AM NOT WORTHY!!!!! SOB It's all J.P. and ML'E!
Ok, sorry about the shortness, and sap. I love sap, and FAXNESS, but it's also got revenge, and is also sort of a songfic. By Barlow Girl.
At the talent show, the following night
Max's POV
At first the waiting was really hard, I was going to be last, the closing act. The end of the performance. I just wanted to get it over with, but then as the second last act, the girl in the seat next to me was taken back, I wanted the next act to go on and on. Then when it was my turn to go back, I almost panicked. But the others did this, and I can too.
When I got on stage, while waiting for the music to start, I scanned the crowd, my raptor vision picking out individual faces. There, I spotted him, in the middle, on the left hand side. Fang was looking back at me, completely expressionlessly as always, with Iggy and some other kid sitting on either side of him. Then the music started.
Why,
why are You still here with me?
Didn't You see what I've done?
(coughcouhfangcough)
In my
shame I want to run, and hide myself
(you really should)
But it's
here I see the truth
I don't deserve You (nope.
You don't. and I should never forgive you, either.)
A couple of people had started waving their arms, and others were joining them.
But I need You
to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And
I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I
already have
I need you to love me
More
arms were waving, Fang and Iggy joined in. It seemed like the
bernies had started it, they were almost all arm-waving.
I,
I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just
never saw how you, could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has
all things
And still You want me
And I need You to love
me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll
stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already
have
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
I
remembered how bad it felt to see him kissing Lyssa, but this was a
hundred times worse. Then, I wasn't expecting anything, but now, I
had hoped. Really hoped, that he'd ask me, and he almost did, but
he was joking. And he had no idea how much that hurt.
Your
love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who
I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have
been
Woah-Oh-Oh
Even more
people were waving their arms, but I didn't care, I just tried to
keep watching Fang, between all the waving arms.
And I need you to
love me yeah
I need you to, love me, yeah yeah yeah
And I'll
stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already
have
I need you to love me
I need you to love me, yeah
I
need you
to
Oh-woah-oh-woah-oh-woah
Oh-woah-oh-woah-oh-woah
Oh-woah-oh-woah-oh-woah
Love
Me
Love Me
There, that was the big finish, and I ran off stage. I could here people clapping, and as I sat back down, in the performers chairs, people were all congratulating me and patting me on the back. "Thanks, you were really good too." I smiled tiredly. They had no idea how hard that had been. Oh well, it was worth a try. Back at the cabin, people kept saying things like "wow, I didn't know you could sing that well!", or "that was really great.", they were all really nice about it, only Mel was sympathetic "well, you did the best you could, and that's all anyone can ask. But he had to notice something. You were staring at him the whole time. I think he noticed. He better have." At least the voice stayed quiet during all of this having nothing to add to make my day worse.