Lily

Sirius just charged at Malfoy he fell to the ground while Sirius stood over him. James slumped to the floor falling from his knees to his chest; with a cold hard thud he hit the floor. He isn't getting up just laying on the ground, his eyes are closed they don't flutter, his mouth doesn't move, James is still.

'No no no, please James wake up for me James please?' Lily's thoughts screamed as she watched his stillness. Forgetting about her knee she crawled over to him, Lily ran her fingers over his cheek. She then maneuvered herself so she could place James' Head softly on her lap with his face looking up at her.

"James wake up please, just wake up and listen." Lily whispered in to his ear "please please." When he didn't stir reality hit her like a sucker punch to the stomach.

"he wont because he cant… he cant because he's dead. No not now James you promised that I'd die first you promised. Please, I have so much more to tell you, please wake up just to listen, to live, to live with me." Her voice was cracking.

Lily bent down and kissed his lips softly, all she wanted was for him to respond. For him to open his eyes so she could see their hazel glitter, to smile back at her tear streaked face and laugh, but there was nothing.

'James, you have to wake up I need you. Laugh, your laugh gets me through the day. Walking in to the common room and seeing you smiling at me makes living worth while. I want you to hold me when I cry, I want you to help keep away my fears and cuddle with me at night. Tell me things that only you can say, Kiss me good morning and kiss me good night and ever hour in between.' Tears started to well in her blood shot emerald eyes.

'but you cant, not any more at least. Always to late aren't I? I was late for you and you are all that ever really mattered to me. Your voice haunts my dreams, my thoughts, my life, but I love it all of it because it all comes from you.' Her thoughts began to voice what she has denied for so long. Lily started to run her hand through his messy sweat and blood stained hair, wishing, hoping, fearing all at once.

'I cant live with out you James I never could, I love the way you taunt me. I wont live with out seeing you every day, hell is better a life with out you.'

"Lily we need to go back hang on to the portkey and I'll grab James." Sirius' voice said. She had forgotten he was there. She took a hold of the small piece of cloth not really knowing what she was doing, or even knowing where she was. There was a small pulling at her navel as she left the dusty cobblestone floor.

Lily fell from the air with a thud she landed on the ground in the hospital wing, She opened her eyes to find that she had landed on top of James.

'Im not going to fight it any more…' her mind wandered. Lily's vision started to blur, her body started to go limp and felt heavy.

"James…" she whispered only loud enough to be heard. Then Lily gave in to the darkness obscuring her body. She'll see him soon was all that Lily could think before her world went totally black.

James

"Hurry Lily come on!" James yelled as they raced down the dark corridor lit only by the glow of the torches hung on the walls.

"I. Cant." Panted Lily as she ran behind him holding the stitch in her side.

"Yes love you can, we're almost there look I can see the light just ahead!"

There was a soft thud behind him, James turned his head to look and saw a body with red hair laying on the stone ground. He stopped and ran back over to Lily, James pulled her off the ground and in to his arms he then continued to run down the hall.

'just a head' he thought but James never made it. There was a loud crash as James and Lily fell through the floor the hit the stone hard and painfully. An evil laugh filled the room it was cold and made the hair on the back of his neck stand on end.

"Thought that you could get away from me did you boy?" said the man with the cold laugh. James said nothing.

"I see now what you care about in the world most." Said the man. He looked straight in to James' eyes penetrating the fog in to his mind.

James knew what the man was trying to do so he tried hard as he could not to think of Lily Evans but her smiling face kept popping in to his mind.

"I knew it was so." said the man that James recognized to be Voldemort, he turned to lily and raised his wand.

"Don't you dare hurt her!" James yelled to Voldemort in an almost pleading way.

"Oh I will do more then that." He said "Avada kedavra!" there was a bright green light.

"Lily!" James yelled.

His eyes shoot open and James sat up from where he had been laying down. He looked around the room trying to figure out where he was but more importantly where Lily was. James saw many made beds and lots of bright windows but before he could examine more of the room he was pushed back down on to the bed by a man with brown hair.

James strained against him but gave in after finding that he was to strong, James let him push him back. Though his body was being still his mind raced at speeds that could surpass a runaway train. The man backed off him after he found that James no longer put up a fight.

"Prongs, what happened, are you okay, what did he say, what did he do to you, can you hear me, do you remember who I am?"

It took only but a minute for James to recognize the buy with sandy hair that kept rattling off questions, it was none other than Remus Lupin.

"Shut up Remus you worry wart." James said as a smile played across his face. Remus' mouth stopped moving but he smothered James with a hug. Finally when Remus let go he looked at his friend expectedly.

"What?" James asked with a confused glance at him.

"Well… what happened back there?" Remus said as if he were testing the waters.

James' mind had slowed so he tried to remember what had happened, it was then that his arms felt heavy and like electricity pain shot through his body. James groaned, he closed his eyes tight wishing the pain to go away. He grinded his teeth but the pain had gone just as soon as it had come, James took a deep breath relived that the episode was over.

When he opened his eyes he saw the school healer; Jane McCrery, and Remus standing over him.

"W-what was that all ab-b-out?" He stuttered asking the healer.

"Its an after shock of the particular curse that was placed on you, usually it will happen a few times before you are ready to do regular activities." Jane stated. "This will make your body immune to the shock waves, Numborse." she stated mater a fact way. And with a swish of her wand James' body started to tingle. Jane left having stated that her work was done for the moment.

"Where's Lily? James asked Remus.

"over there…" Remus pointed to a bed with the curtains pulled tight around it.

'no, no, no, no, no, no,' A voice inside James head screamed.

He didn't care if he was to stay in his bed or not all that mattered to him was Lily. James flung the covers off his body and ran to the bed that Remus said was Lily's.

'no, no, no, no, no, no, no,' his head echoed with the words.

Once reaching the curtained area James flung back the curtains to see Sirius sitting in a chair asleep and Lily with her beautiful red hair fanned out across the pillow where she rested on the bed.

Sirius

It had been Days since they rescued James and Lily from the clutches of Voldemort. Once they had arrived by porkey Lily passed out just as James had but her last words still rang in his head. Every second he saw her on the hospital bed.

"James..." After that moment Sirius may have realized the power and devotion of love.

Lily would let herself die if she thought that James was already dead; Just so she could be with him Madam McCrery had told him and Remus that James would be alright but when he asked about Lily Sirius recalled what she had said.

" Miss. Evans I don't know about, I seems to me that she has lost something so dear that she doesn't want to come back to us. It seems to me that only she can bring herself back."

Those were the exact words that James had said. Remus and Sirius hadn't left the hospital wing since the conditions of their friends were known. Each spent an hour with one then they switched to the other. Sirius' time with Lily was spent telling her that James was ok and that she needed to some back to them. Sirius closed his eyes trying to remember what he had said to Lily only a day ago.

"Lily James' is alive, he is hear asleep waiting for you to come back to us. He wants you here with him."

There was the loud noise of curtains being shoved aside that brought Sirius out of his memories. He opened his eyes to see James leaning over Lily her small hands in his. Sirius watched as James sat down in a chair and started to whisper things in to her ear.

Again the world seemed to stop as if just for them, things moved in slow motion as James whipped Lily's bangs away from her face. There was a warm hand placed on Sirius' Shoulder, he turned to see Remus standing beside him.

"C'mon Lets leave them alone." He whispered.

"Yeah maybe he can help…" After those words said both Remus and Sirius left for a long needed dinner and some rest back in their dorms.

Lily

The sun was setting over the tops of the tall forest trees casting an orange glow over the Hogwarts grounds.

Lily sat at the edge of a dock with her feet dangling in the cool water just below. In her hand was a folded piece of parchment, it was a note to her from one of the marauders, She had done this many times before. Each time Lily hoped that the note would be from James, but it never was.

Each time she would sit at the dock with her feet skimming the waters surface waiting for one of them to appear. But they never did, all that she ever saw was the sun setting and heard voices in her ear whispering away to her.

Some times it would be Remus' voice, he would tell her about his life, and what the weather was like where ever he was. Sometimes she would hear Sirius' voice, he would tell her about James and how much He and James and Remus missed her begging her to come back to them.

But no James was here, she was sure of it, Though she had never seen him Lily convinced her self that he was there hiding around the next corner. But she never found him.

Lily's hands started to tingle, she looked at it but saw nothing. She looked around franticly with hope apparent in her eyes but saw nothing. Though she couldn't see him she could feel him, James was the only one who could make her tingle when he toughed her. The only one who could make her stomach turn to butterflies, the only one that that made her feel truly happy. She knew that he was there just where…

"Lily, Lily can you hear me?" his soft voice whispered in her ear.

"Yes, yes James I can!" she tried to say but her lips didn't move nor did any sound come from her mouth.

"Please don't leave me, I just cant do any thing with out you! Please come back to us Lily."

She tried again "Yes James I'll come where are you?" but again just as before no sound came out.

"I want to see your green eyes, I want to see you smile. Just wake up."

"Your smile is the most beautiful thing that I've ever seen, don't deprive me the glory of seeing it again, I want to be the one to make you smile like you always do."

"All the time I've been asleep I dreamt about you, every time I close my eyes I see you. When Voldemort captured us all I could think about was getting away from him so I could save you. Lily I love you I have since third year when I knew what love was!"

Lily leapt up from where she sat on the dock and began to search the grounds for James.

"When we sit in the common room doing work and your hand lightly brushes against mine my stomach does a flip flop, and my skin tingles. You make me want to be better, do better, and help other people. Getting through the day is so hard when an other option it grabbing you hand and taking you away to a place where it'll only be us two."

Lily was running as fast as she could through the castle, by this time she had covered three floors starting from the dungeons up, only seven more to go. Her side was beginning to hurt but she had to keep going she had to find James.

James kept on whispering sweet things in to her ear for hours more while she searched for him. His voice started to soften even more, his words took longer to pronounce and soon his words were no more.

"No James don't leave me! Please tell me where you are!" She screamed but still no sound. Lily sunk down against a wall and began to cry. She cried in to her knees, James truly wasn't there, he never was. "Take me to where he is please, he wants me to go with him stay with him! So why cant I?"

There was a loud creak that made Lily's head snap up from her knees, she looked up in time to see two large wooden doors swing open.

Out of curiosity Lily walked over to the doors, they lead to the hospital wing she looked in but found things the same as they usually were. Suddenly her eye sight went blurry, Lily rubbed her eyes and looked around the ward once again.

But this time She saw James, Lily ran over to his sleeping form and placed her hand on his back but found that it slipped right through. She tried it a few more times but the result didn't change. Once again the room started to blur Lily looked up And jumped by what she saw before her.

Lily saw herself on the bed her own red hair fanned out against the pillow, Lily touched the side of her own face but instead of falling through it started to glow.

Lily gasped and this time sound came out! James stirred from the edge of the bed his head rose from the bed his expressing sleepy and dazed. Lily pulled her hand from her face and tried to touch him. But he didn't seem to notice, he stood up and walked right through Lily to kneel down by her sleeping head.

"Please come back to me soon Lily." He whispered in to her ear.

" I am James I just don't know how!" lily screamed but this time no sound came out.

James walked back to his chair and fell asleep. Something in Lily's head clicked, she walked over to her sleeping self and laid down into it. There was a bright light that made lily close her eyes not to open them until she felt warm for the first time in days.

Opening her eyes lily took in the hospital wing and smiled to herself when she saw James sleeping by her bed his head resting near her hand.

"home" She whispered to herself before falling asleep herself.

Hours later, Lily woke to darkness out side, she looked around the small enclosed area where james had once sat in a chair was now gone. She felt alone, so very alone. The air smelt of daffodils mixed with some clean lemony sent, and just outside the curtains that enclosed her she heard a familiar voice.

It was the headmaster Dumbledore and it seemed he was speaking to a healer… Lily tried to concentrate on the words he was saying but only caught a few.

"I believe that was the first, the first of three…" Professor Dumbledore said. Lily heard a gasp form the Healer. And then the crack of open doors. And their conversation stopped.

"Mr. Potter, Mr. Black, Mr. Lupin, how nice of you to join us here, I believe you friend Mrs. Evans has awoken" Dumbledore said. Lily smiled at her all knowing headmaster. Soon there was the sound of shoes slapping the hard stone floor as they rushed towards her. The curtains were flung aside and three men appared…

She'd be ok, she knew it… and so would they…

sorry for the really long like year it took me to up date, I had some personal problems. And didn't have my computer. I hope you like it. I had to change the ending though, the original one I had drug out for ever… but then again… so does this one. Any way reviews are like wonderful! So send me some! Thanks!

Mel