Chapter 5. Trouble

I felt the cool hands of someone holding me down with force. Something was wrong. I could feel worried eyes staring at me…and I was completely lost.

"It's not working Jasper." I heard the faint voice of what appeared to be Carlisle's.

"She's still tense…" It was Alice's voice…

"Yes…Just make sure you keep Jasper at a clear distance. She's still slightly bleeding." Again, Carlisle spoke.

"But she's calming…look." I then heard Emmett's voice.

My muscles felt tightened as I opened my eyes. It felt as if I was still struggling…as if my mind had no hold over my actions. I focused on whoever I noticed first; Jasper. His smile was warm and shy as always. "Sorry I wasn't much help." He said quietly. I nodded, though; I didn't know what the 'help' was and why I needed it.

"How are you feeling?" I turned around to see Esme. "Um…good." I replied unsurely; my voice shaky. My hands and body trembled as I tried to sit up. My head pounded and up and down my arms were faint bruises and cuts. "What the hell happened? W-where's Edwards?" I asked.

"Do you remember anything…from today?" Carlisle asked, his face concerned.

"Hunting…and then I passed out." I said. "But there was a fight or something…I heard growling, Edward yelling…and, someone was screaming."

"You didn't pass out, Bella." Esme said, "And all that was you…you lost control."

"I…lost control?" I then remembered something. He told me about not wanted me to ever going hunting with them, because they had a hard time keeping themselves in control of their actions. I looked down at my arms; I must have fought him. Through my shirt you could see small cuts and tiny places where the blood seeped through. My legs and arms were covered in bruises. How bad the wounds were at first, I wouldn't know…but they healed quickly.

"Did I…?" I didn't want to think of me…hunting like a blood thirsty animal, snarling in rage, killing…

Carlisle nodded slowly.

"No…" I weakly roared, kicking the sofa. It flew backwards, almost making it towards the wall.

"Is Edward okay?" I asked, a patch of tears slipping down my face.

"Yeah…" Alice replied, "But, Esme? We might have to replant those trees…"

What?! I looked at Alice, who was looking out a window. I looked out with her. There he was, on his knees around fallen and broken trees. "Oh, Edward…" I sobbed. Unsteadily, I went running outside.

"Edward! Stop!" I said, grabbing a hold of his arm. He immediately dropped an enormous oak. Before I knew it, I was embraced in his hug.

"You're okay!" he said, putting his hands on my face, stroking my cheek with his thumb.

"I'm okay! Are you okay?! Edward, what is all this!" I said, pointed at the splintered branched and trees lying around.

He sighed, "You have no idea how bad I feel…"

"About what? I'm the one who lost it!"

"Look at you! I promised…I swore that I wouldn't hurt you!" He said, staring at my arms and body.

"You had no other choice." I said simply. "Besides, they'll heal."

He shook his head. Something else was on his mind. He wasn't himself and I hated seeing him like this.

"Edward…" I said, "What's wrong…"

"I talked to Carlisle…" he whispered. "He's not sure if you'll ever completely change."

"I don't get it…"

"You might not be able to complete the transformation, Bella."

"As in…"

"Bella! You might die! Okay? He doesn't know what going to happen!" He hollered.

I didn't know what to say. "Edward…"

He stood there, motionless. "You are the only thing that has ever brought this much happiness." He cried. He had no tears to shed, but I still did. I sobbed, standing behind him.

"S-so…what happens n-next?" I asked.

"The venom will enter the heart. The pain…it's unimaginable torture. Your heart will cease to beat, and slowly, you'll stop breathing." He turned to me, putting a hand on my cheek. "I refuse to lose you…"

"Edward…if I go, you won't have control over that."

"But I have control of what I do." He said, "You jump, I jump. Remember?"

(I smiled at his saying, remembering the Titanic. We had watched it together. And I, being the sap that I am, cried in Edward's arm the rest of the movie.)

"But, I want you to live…make a life."

"You are the only reason I live, Bella. That is…if you call this living."

"What about the rest of the family. They love you."

"They don't need to put up with me…"

"Doesn't mean that they don't want you. They're family to you! Jasper out of all of them, he needs you."

"I told you, I'd do anything to stay with you."

I still cried. I wasn't mad at Edward…but I hated his words. I hated this discussion. I hated this! Nothing in my life, except meeting Edward, had ever gone right. It was always me. Always me…

"Edward…" I whispered, "Please…" I said. For once, my thoughts were clear. And he heard them.

He seemed surprised to be able to hear me, but still, he did…and smiled. "I love you too…" he said. I ran to him, gasping into his chest.

"Nothing is going to happen to you, Bella…"

"Nothing…" I whispered back.

"Come on now, let's get you home."

They gave me a long sleeve shirt to cover up my arms. Edward walked me home; almost silent the whole way. We reached a point to where we could see my house. "Good night" He said, staring at the sunset. "You rarely see sunsets…or the sun in Forks." I smiled. The colors of the sky reflected off of his skin. "I should go before someone see's me." He said.

"Okay…"

"I can't see you tonight…Carlisle needs me."

I understood and nodded. "Night" He said again; this time kissing me on the forehead. He watched me walk to my house and waved. He turned away, and was out of sight.

I didn't fall asleep until after 4:00 a.m. and got three hours of sleep. I walked downstairs, noticing my dad cleaning up the house.

"Uh…Dad?"

"Oh, morning Bella! You mind getting the vacuum from your room?"

"What's with the cleaning?" I asked.

"Well, we might have company…I'm just trying to tidy it up a bit." He smiled.

I went to my room and grabbed the vacuum cleaner. It's weight felt like nothing in my hand. I remembered how I hated lugging that thing around; struggling to get it.

After I vacuumed the entire house within a minute, (and I have to say, the house seriously need to be cleaned…) I walked into the laundry to where Charlie was, washing our clothes.

"So…who's the company that's coming?" I asked, curious.

And then the door bell rang. "Well, you'll see…" he said, rushing to answer the door.

A strange fragrance ran up through my nose. It was just as the Cullen's described it. A werewolf…Jacob was here.

"Jacob…" I sighed, as he and his father walked into our living room. "Bella! Charlie!" Billy boomed.

"Hi." I waved, looking at Jake. I weakly smiled at him. He just glared, his arms folded and his faced twisted into a scowl.

Billy and Jacob sat on the couch for a while. Billy and Dad talked about various things; about how life's been and so on. Jake kept his eyes fixed on the floor.

"Bella…" He said, getting up and heading over to me.

"Hey." I said, worried about what he wanted.

"Can we talk outside?" He asked, glancing over at our parents.

I nodded and we walked out the door.

"Sam's outside somewhere…" He warned.

"Okay…"

"They know about you…Sam and the others."

"Oh…" I knew they did.

"I didn't say a word to them…"

"Jake, its okay…Do you want to walk?" I said, heading into the forest. He followed without a word.

"You're not suppose to come to La Push…Sam said it was fine, this time. They do like you, Bella, but you can't come there anymore."

"Jake, slow down! I know the whole deal. It's been explained on many occasions. Relax."

"Okay…"

"Jacob…" I said, "I don't care what Sam and the others think. I care about what you think. I want to keep this friendship..."

"Bella…They won't approve-"

"You still haven't answered my question! Yes or no?"

He sighed, "It's gonna be hard…"

"So…" I looked at him with hope. He held my shoulders and hugged me. I felt like I could melt against his chest; his entire body feeling so warm.

"I can't do anything about the Treaty though…" he said, "I'm sorry."

"I know…"

He immediately broke away from me. I turned my head to where Jake was looking. Sam stood, staring at us, with a mild look of shock on his face.

"Jake," Sam said, urging him to come, "Can I have a word with you?"

"Yeah…" Jacob sighed, "Bella, I'll be back."

I nodded, feeling panicked. "Wait! What did Jake do?!" I yelled after them.

Sam turned around as Jake walked back to me. "Bella, its okay."

"Are you in trouble?" I asked frantically.

Sam shook his head. "No, everything is fine."

Why I overreacted…I didn't know. But I said 'okay' and Jake then walked back to Sam. They stood in front of me, talking quietly. And all I could think about was Jake getting in trouble.

"Bella?" I heard my name, though it sounded distant. The second call sounded more frantic. "Bella!" they called again.

I collapsed and felt myself lying on the cold, wet ground. Shivering…shaking uncontrollably.

"Is she having a seizure?" Sam asked.

Jake didn't respond, he ran to my side. "Are you okay?!"

I shook my head, clutching my hand. "No…I need-"

Sam then cut in. "I'm getting Charlie." He said, running off.

"No!" Jake hollered. "Her father can't know about this! We have to…" He trailed off, thinking. Sam stood almost out of sight, but didn't proceed to get to the house. Jake then immediately picked me up and ran off in another direction.

"Where are you taking her!?" Sam called after us. I knew where he was taking me.

"The Cullen's…" Jake said reluctantly.

I smiled at him before I lost focus on his face. "Thank you…" I whispered as everything became dark once again.

A/N: Hey, first off, I want to thank all of you for reviewing! Thanks so much! Especially Zinthafan!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!! And a big thanks to Bella for editing!!

It's taken me forever to write this chapter...and I know that once school was out I got on this writing frenzy. So when I reread this, it seemed a bit rushed, but I didn't know how to add more without it feeling like I was just dragging the story out. Please tell me what you think of it...constructive criticism is always welcome. I know that I need it. And I plan and editing EVERYTHING once I'm completely finished with this fic. So yes, please R&R! Reviews are always welcome too!! hehe
Thank you guys once again!!

-Annie

Happy Holidays to everyone!

...Be safe.