Never Again Chapter 5: The Return, an instant star fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do own some of the poetry and the songs used

Song Used in last chapter was by Backstreet Boys

Chapter 5: The Return

I walked over to the stove to kiss Tommy and he kissed me back deepening the kiss. He pushed us back and he sat me on the island and he continued to kiss me all over my neck, my chest and my collar bone. I let out a slight moan and I heard the front door open.

"Jude Tommy anyone home?" They asked in unison.

"Kitchen" I yelled and they came back to the kitchen were I was still sitting on the counter and I was pulling away from a kiss with Tommy.

"EWW!" They both yelled then Tommy moved away from me and placed his attention on the stove.

"Hey guys." I said and they had very wide eyes, and their mouths were on the floor.

"You're pregnant?" Mason asked me.

"What else does it look like?" I asked.

"Wow" was all Chaz had to say about it. "So Tommy, I hope you can finally settle down now." Chaz added in.

"You always were a smartass weren't you Chaz?" Tommy said after he stirred the marinara sauce. Then he turned around and helped me off the counter, because he knew I was about to myself.

"You know Jude you never cease to amaze me." Mason said coming over to hug me.

"Why do you say that?" I asked him as I pulled away.

"You're stunning still after all these years." He said.

Chaz came over to me and he hugged me next. "You look great Harrison." He said letting me go.

"You're never gonna stop calling me that are you?" I asked him smiling.

"Nope" He said.

Tommy was finishing up dinner and I went to set the table. After I was done Tommy brought the food over to the table and we sat down and ate. The thought just occurred to me that this was the first meal that I had eaten sine I found out about Jessica. It also didn't occur to me how hungry I was until I saw the food.

"So why exactly are you down here?" I asked them suspiciously.

"We just want to see if we could help." Mason said and Chaz agreed with him. Mason couldn't lie to save his life so I knew something was up, especially since his eyes were twitching like crazy.

"Stop lying." I said and Tommy, Mason, and Chaz looked straight at me. "What Mason's eyes twitch when he lies and they were doing that just a minute ago.

"Number one, I would like to kill you both since neither I nor Mason was invited to the wedding." Chaz said.

"And number two, we didn't know you were pregnant either." Mason added.

"Alright, only Kwest, Sadie and SME know about the baby and you Mason, were in Europe touring, and Chaz you were in India with some woman." I told them they took a minute to think about what I said and to let it register.

"Oh yeah, I was in India with Tara that time." Chaz said sheepishly.

"You're right I was touring in Europe around then." Mason said.

"Sorry about that then," Mason said to me.

"And we really do want to help." Chaz added onto what Mason last aid.

"You can help but, there's not much you can do." Tommy said.

"Tom, who is Jessica's mother?" Chaz asked him.

"Portia."

"Where is Portia at?"

"I don't really know and right now I could careless." When Tommy said that, the doorbell rang. I got up to answer it and I couldn't believe who I saw standing there.

"What do you want?" I hissed at Portia and Darius. Portia punched me and I tumbled backwards to the table behind me, hit my head on it, and I fell to the ground.

"What the hell is going on in here?" I heard Tommy ask when he came in and he helped me up off the ground.

"You didn't answer my question." I spat as Tommy looked at my lip to make sure the cut wasn't deep.

"I want my daughter." Portia coldly said. Mason and Chaz walked in when she said that and they just looked at her.

"Well your daughters not here." Mason said.

"You lost Jessica, Tommy. How irresponsible are you?" Portia asked Tommy.

"Number one, she is my daughter she wants nothing to do with you and secondly, if you would read the newspapers and watch the news you would know that she was kidnapped three days ago." Tommy shot back at her.

"She what?" Portia asked bewildered.

"Someone grabbed Jessica on her way to catch a plane to Tijuana, and we found out three days ago."

"What have you been doing about it?" She asked.

"It's none of your damn concern." I told her coldly.

"Jude, this doesn't concern you." Portia said.

"You know what this does concern me. First off, did you not notice that I am pregnant secondly, I am Tommy's wife, and considering the fact that Jessica has been calling me mom everything concerning her is my business." I said to her, and she looked at me stunned.

"Tommy you let Jessica do this?" She asked him.

"Jessica can make her own choices if you hadn't noticed Portia."

"Get out." I said to Portia and Darius.

"What?" Darius said.

"I said get out of my house,"

"Or what Jude, your going to call the police."

"Worse, I am six months pregnant, I haven't slept in three days and I have hormones going crazy, and they drive me crazy now you can either get out or suffer the damned consequences." I said, I walked to the door and I opened it for them. They walked out, and I slammed the door.

"I have never seen you that mad." Mason said.

"Me either." Chaz said after Mason.

"Well, she pissed me off really bad." I said. Tommy walked into the kitchen and came back into the living room with, a towel and some ice. "Tommy, I'm fine. I don't need this." I said to him as he sat down on the coffee table in front of me, and he put the towel on my lip.

"Shut it Jude, you're not as tuff as you think." He said as he held the towel on my lip.

"Hey we are gonna go to the hotel and we'll see you both tomorrow." Mason said.

"No you're not," I said removing the towel from my lip. "Where is you're stuff?"

"Right here by the door." Mason said.

"Then it's settled. There are three rooms open upstairs, the three on the right hand side of the hallway." Tommy said and they went up the stairs to find their rooms. "Jude, be still." He told me because I kept moving my head.

"Oh hush it Quincy." I snapped.

"You hush it Harrison." He said out of old habit.

"Ouch" I whimpered.

"See I told you that you weren't as tough as you thought you were." He told me and he kissed my forehead.

"Oh my god, I was hoping that today would be stress less." I moaned.

"So was I." He said still holding the towel to my lip. My lip was now almost frozen solid.

"I have an idea for a song; I'll be in the studio." I said and I walked down to the basement and I grabbed my guitar and I walked over to the couch that was down there and I sat down. I started strumming random chords until I found some that sounded like what I was looking for.

I started chord progressions and humming a tune to the song. I wrote lyrics down, and scratched out the ones that didn't fit. I laughed silently at myself for, trying to play the guitar when I was as big as a whale.

Eyes like fire - Burn desire
As we dance away into the night

This attraction - Fuels a passion
That's just too strong for us to try and fight

I kept humming the tune after I sang the lyrics. I knew that Chaz and Mason had entered the room, and were silently trying to watch me.

Each moment we're together
I just never want to end
'Cause I could never feel this way again

'Cause nothing else had ever felt so right
To feel your body lying next to mine
As the rhythm of your heart beats through me
All through the night
I never thought I'd ever realize
A long that feels so close to paradise
Boy I could spend my whole life living
Forever in your eyes

I automatically knew the song was for Tommy. I looked out of the corner of my eye and I saw Chaz and Mason swaying to the beat of my guitar. They still thought that I didn't notice them.

Lips so tender - I surrender
Everything I am is yours alone

When you touch me - All that I see
Is feeling that my heart has never known

You're all I ever dreamed of
you're my every fantasy
Whoever thought on angel could bring heaven here to me

You're the one my heart beats for
You're my everything and more
It's a burnin' love I can't seem to ignore
All the things I feel inside
Are too strong for me to hide (baby)
I need you by my side
'Cause I could live forever in your eyes

I finished the song and I wrote the lyrics down. I turned the page and began another song. I started new chords and a new tune until I got what I wanted.

Down to the earth I fell
With dripping wings
Heavy things won't fly
And the sky might catch on fire
And burn the axis of the world
That's why I prefer a sunless sky
To the glittering and stinging in my eyes

"You know if you're both going to stand there you might as well let me see you." I said after I stopped singing with my eyes still closed.

"Keep going." Chaz said.

"Yeah, don't stop on account of us." Mason said and I began to strum and sing again.

I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

Gleaming in the dark sea
I'm as light as air
Floating there breathlessly
When the dream dissolves
I open up my eyes
I realize that
Everything is shore less sea
A weightlessness is passing over me

I feel so light
this is all I want to feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

Everything is waves and stars
the universe is resting in my arms

I feel so light
this is all I want to feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

I finished the song and I looked at Mason and Chaz who were staring at me with wide eyes. "What?" I asked them breaking the awkward silence that filled the room.

"Nothing" they said in unison. "It was perfect." Chaz said.

"Awesome and more." Mason added. "You need to be pregnant more often."

"Why?" I asked him curiously.

"Because those were amazing, duh." He said sarcastically.

"Why thank you sir. But, you can tell me the truth if they sucked or not." I told them.

"Now why would they want to lie to you, when we all know that they were some of the best?" Tommy said leaning against the doorway. He walked over to us and he sat down beside me.

"Funny Quincy." I smirked at him.

"We'll leave you two alone to talk." Chaz said and he pushed Mason up the stairs. They shut the door behind them.