Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own some of the poetry and the songs used.

A/N: So it's been crazy and my birthday was on 6/16 so I haven't been able to update and my internet crashed so I hopefully will be updating more lately, since my finally new computer isn't acting up.

-Amanda

Chapter 7: What Was I Thinking?

So I woke up the next morning and I put my plan into action. I kissed Tommy on the forehead and I left him a very long letter. I got into my car with my bags and I drove to my destination.

"I know you're in there?" I said banging on Jamie's door. He came to it and he just looked at me.

"What the hell happened to you?" He asked in surprise.

"Who do you think?" I said and I heard a car pull up behind us. It was the paparazzi and I knew what was going to happen. I let tears fall from my eyes down my face and Jamie hugged me.

"Come inside." He said grabbing my bags and closing the door. I walked over to his couch and sat down. I buried my face in my hands and I felt him rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry I came here in such a mess." I said tearfully.

"Jude, explain to me exactly what happened?" He asked me. I dried my tears and sniffled a little bit and I started my very convincing lie.

"Tommy, happened. It's been happening and I had nowhere else to go, so I came here and hoping that you'd forgive me."

"Jude, you don't know how long I have been waiting to hear that."

"I'm sorry about everything that happened. I mean it." Jamie said to me. I leaned in and I kissed him. I don't know how I mustered up the courage to kiss him but, I did and I was dying inside. "Jude, I have to go to work but, make yourself at home while I am gone." He said and I caught him before he left the room.

"What time are you going to be home?" I asked him.

"I hate to say it but late, Darius has me working with a new artist. I will be home as soon as I can." He said and he left the house.

I waited five minutes before I pulled out my phone. I dialed the first number in my last calls list and I waited for my answer.

"You must have done good sweets." Tommy's voice said to me.

"You think so?" I asked.

"The press believes it. Did he believe I hit you?"

"Unfortunately, I hate doing this. He's already kissed me." I said in disgust.

"I'm sorry."

"Since Jamie is gone why don't you bring me some breakfast and help me search his place." I said to him.

"How do you plan on me getting there?" He asked me.

"There's aback street, and use a disguise." I pointed out to him. "Oh yeah, use Jessica's car." I reminded him.

"Give me ten minutes. I'll be there soon." He said to me. "I love you." Were his final words before he hung the phone up.

I snapped the phone shut and I put it back into my pocket. I looked around the house and I looked into what amounted to be Jamie's bedroom. I had a deep pang of fear, and idiocy eating at my stomach, and it didn't help matters that the baby was doing summersaults in my stomach.

About ten minutes later I heard someone at the back door and it was Tommy. I unlocked it and I let him in. He had a bag of food which I was always great full for. I smelled it and I sat the bag down on the counter.

I got as close to him as I could and I kissed him hard. He deepened the kiss and I finally pulled away after a very long moment. I inhaled his sweet scent and I opened my eyes. He pulled a paper out of his back pocket and I saw it.

I looked at the headlines and I was amazed at how good of a liar I was. The press actually believed that Tommy hurt me, and I was back with Jamie. I was stunned and then Tommy's phone went off.

"Hello?" I heard him say to whoever it was. "Mason, Chaz calm down. All will be explained when I get home but, for now cool it." Tommy told them and he snapped his phone shut.

"What was that about?" I asked.

"They saw the papers and they were concerned." He said to me and I hugged him tightly. I looked up at him with loving eyes and he kissed my forehead. "I don't blame them but, Sadie and your dad aren't going to like this at all." He said to me and I kept holding him.

"I don't care, after we find Jessica I will explain everything to everyone and it will be dealt with. Plus, the press will see that I am deeply in love with the man that I should have married twelve years ago." I stated to him.

"I'm glad to know it." He smirked at me.

"I want this to all be over. I just want it all to go away." I groaned at him.

"I know, here is your food, and I am going to take a look around this place and see if I can find anything." He said and he pulled a kitchen chair out for me and I sat in it. I pulled the food out of the bag and I looked at it. Tommy cooked for me; I was in love with his cooking.

He made me bacon, eggs, sausage and pancakes. I was gratefully happy now. As I was eating I was thinking about how I was going to explain this to everyone. This mess was going to spread like wildfire and I wanted to contain it but, it was going to be very hard to do.

I finished eating and I went up the stairs to look for Tommy. I found him in Jamie's music room.

"Find anything?" I asked him.

"Nothing remotely incriminating."

"Something has to be here or else this wasn't worth it." I pointed out to him.

"I know sweets. I'm trying to find something without making it obvious that I was here."

"I know it's just frustrating. I'm stuck in this hell hole until we find her." I groaned at him.

"I wish I could help you but, volunteered for this."

"I know it but, he's going to expect me to kiss him and he all ready wants me to sleep in the same room with him again. It's disgusting." I said and it disgusted me to even think the words, and let alone say them.

"I guess we well have to work fast then huh?" He asked me.

"Stop it, I hate this." I said to him. "I'm going to look in the basement, I'll be right back." I told him.

I got down to the basement and I looked around. There were pictures of me everywhere. When I was going to and from the store, in my pajama's at home, before and after my wedding, everywhere. I was a little freaked and then I felt Tommy's arms around my waist.

"Look at this." I told him.

"He has her, now we have to find her."

"This is too creepy." I said to him. He kissed my forehead and the got down on his knees and put his ear to my stomach, and he began to sing something. I felt my stomach ease at the sound of his voice.

I loved it when he sang, and I was guessing that the baby did to because she seemed to calm down when he sang to her. I closed my eyes and I got lost in the beautiful music that Tommy was singing.

"Better?" He asked me getting up.

"Lots." I said wrapping my arms around him for protection.