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Chapter 12: Don't Let Him Go

I just sat there. Sobbing onto my clothes. It felt like I couldn't move, like I couldn't breathe. I just wanted him to be all right. I didn't want him to leave me. I can't help but think that this is my fault. I mean if I hadn't wanted to go through with this plan we wouldn't be here. The man that I love more than life itself wouldn't be here in the hospital almost dying.

I walked out of the room I was in and across to Tommy's room. I watched them work on him. It hurt me to see him like that with tubes down his throat and his chest wide open to get the bullet out. I let one more tear fall down my face.

I walked into the room but, I stood in the back out of everyone's way. I didn't want to be in the way at all. I just wanted to be near him, to see him again. I just wanted him to be all right. I could see his heart-rate and it wasn't good. It was slowing down minute by minute.

"What's wrong with him?" I sobbed to the doctor when he came back into the room.

"Are you family?"

"I'm his wife. I want to know what's wrong with him." I was still sobbing when I said it.

"The bullet was shot directly into his heart and it made an exit wound. If we don't get blood for him fast he will die soon."

"What blood type is he?" I asked. I couldn't believe that I didn't even know his blood type.

"AB Negative."

"I'm AB Negative. I'll give him blood."

"Your pregnant. It might cause harm to the baby." He shot back at me.

"Look, my baby will be fine but, if you need blood and I am AB Negative then transfuse him all ready." I snapped at him.

"All right, I'll do it. I do advise against this." He said and he went over to the crash cart and pulled out a transfusion line and he led me to Tommy's bed.

I sat down in a chair beside him, and he poked the needle into my arm. He hooked the other side up to a blood bag and he moved the latch to start the transfusion. When it was over I breathed out a heavy sigh and I opened my eyes. Tommy's heartbeat was getting back to normal again and I smiled.

I pulled the needle out of my arm and I sat on the bed with him. I laid down beside him and I wrapped my arms around him. I felt good to have him next to me again even though it's like this. I missed him so much.

I drifted off into sleep which I was really lacking. I woke up and Tommy's arm was around me and he was sleeping peacefully beside me. I looked at him, and I kissed him on his forehead lightly.

"Hey girl." He said weakly to me.

"I'm glad you're okay." I said to him.

"Me too. Can you hand me some water?" He asked me.

"Yeah. I got up off of the bed and I walked over to the table and I poured him a glass of water and brought it back. "Here sit up a little bit." I said and he moved as best he could without wincing in pain.

"Thanks." He said taking a sip and laying his head back down on the pillow.

"Tommy, why did you jump in front of the bullet?" I asked him.

"Because I didn't want the bay to be hurt. I didn't want to take a chance."

"You almost died. I almost lost you." I said letting the tears fall again. My head fell onto his chest and it hit the spot that was hurt right on his heart. "Sorry." I said to him.

"It's all right. Thank you for the blood." He said kissing my forehead.

"Your welcome." I said to him.

"Jude, I love you more than anything in this world. I can't believe that I almost lost you." Tommy said letting a tear fall down his cheek. I had never seen him cry before, never.

"I know." I said resting my head back on his chest.

I heard a knock at the door and it was Mason, Chaz, and Jessica.

"Hey guys." I said.

"Damn, you two have been out cold for three days." Chaz said to us.

"I didn't know you both could sleep that hard." Jessica and Mason said in unison.

"Oh hush it. All of you." I said to them.

"We're just teasing you Mom." She said coming over to hug me. "I'm glad you're okay."

"Me too." I said to her finally letting her go. "Did you find Jamie?" I asked Mason and Chaz.

"Yeah, he is in police custody as we speak." Mason said to me. It felt like another heavy burden had been lifted off of my chest.

"Mr. Quincy how are you feeling today?" The doctor asked him.

"Better."

"Good, we still need to keep you a few more days before you're free to go."

"All right," Tommy replied. He knew I would sleep in this bed with him because I would follow him anywhere.

"Mrs. Quincy, thank you for helping earlier." He said to me.

"It's no problem. He's my husband." I said looking into Tommy's eyes.