Disclaimer: If we owned Grey's Anatomy today would be Grey's Day, not Grey's Eve. Because we're officially impatient.

Meredith's hand squeezed mine tightly, almost too tightly as we pulled up to the building. I pulled up to this building almost every day, and never had it looked more threatening than it did right now. I don't even know I was scared, it was Meredith's first appointement. There was nothing major in that. And she'd be seeing Addison, who was by far one of the best. This should be easy. When we had told Dillon that we were going to the doctor that morning, he told us to ask the doctor to tell his brother to come earlier. Meredith had been too nervous to remind our son that she could be having a girl, and I was too nervous to remind him about the timeline of his sibling being born. I got out of the car quietly, opening the door for Meredith as she grasped my hand, fear in her eyes.

"It's going to be fine," I tried to reassure her. But it didn't sound convincing, it didn't feel convining. It was hard telling someone not to worry when you were terrified.

"What if something's wrong?" she sighed. "I mean, I had the flu for three days, what if that messed something up?"

"I'm sure the flu wouldn't have hurt anything. Nothing will be wrong," I told her, wrapping my arm around her as we headed towards the hospital.

"And this Dr. Montgomery, is she good?" Meredith stammered. "I mean, obviously she's good but is she good?"

"She's one of the best in the country. And she's a friend. You'll like her," I whispered soothingly.

"A friend?" she turned to stare at me. "What kind of friend?"

"The friend kind, Mer," I shrugged. Meredith kept staring at me, her eyes more fearful than before. "We dated a few years ago, casually. It was casual and definitely not serious."

"You dated her?" she asked, tears entering her eyes. "You're taking me to your ex girlfriend?"

"She's not an exgirlfriend," I told her, quickly shaking my head, knowing I should have told her about this earlier. "We went on a couple of dates, nothing more happened."

"Why didn't it work out?" she asked. "And are you sure it was nothing? Because this could be awkward for her, Derek. And me. And awkward. Awkward sucks."

"It was nothing. And I don't know why it didn't work, it just didn't. It was fun but there just wasn't anything there. It didn't fit," I told her with a wink, hoping to god that it would make her smile.

"Is she gorgeous and thin?" Meredith whimpered. She was starting to gain weight and this was definitely going to be a continued fear through out the pregnancy.

"Mer, that really doesn't matter. I love you. I think you are by far the most gorgeous woman alive, pregnant or not. It doesn't matter what she looks like," I answered, hoping she'd let it go at that.

"So she is gorgeous," she stated as we stepped into the elevator.

I nodded my head. There was no use denying the fact. If I lied Meredith would just get angry when she say Addison, because Addie was gorgeous. Just not my type. "Mer, there's no need to worry about this."

"I can't believe you're taking me to your gorgeous ex girlfriend," she muttered.

"Meredith, she's the best ob/gyn in Seattle. I want the best for my child and my future wife," I said, giving her hand a tight squeeze.

"Still your ex," she stated.

"Your ex and I are making plans to go to a hockey game in Vancouver sometime," I pointed out. "I think you can withstand my ex taking care of our baby."

"Fine," she said. "Let's go."

I grabbed her hand and headed towards Addison's office. This was going to be fine. Everything would be good. Addison and I had been over for years, there'd be no awkwardness. Things would be fine. And the baby would be fine and Meredith would be fine. Everything was going to be good.

"Derek!" Addison smiled at me when we walked in, giving me a tight hug. "How are you?"

"I'm great, Addie," I said hugging her back. "And this is Meredith, my kind of fiancee." I smiled at Meredith encouragingly.

"Kind of fiancee?" Addie laughed. "It's great to meet you, Meredith. I've heard a lot about you."

"Nice...nice to meet you too," Meredith said sounding a little shy. "And we, we decided to get married. But Derek wants to get a ring and do the knee thing and whatever. So kind of fiancee."

"Congratulations!" Addie grinned at me. "I can't believe it, Derek Shepherd actually getting married. Hearts will break, Der."

Meredith face scrunched slightly at the use of the shortened version of my name. Maybe it wasn't the best idea to have Addie be the doctor, but she was good. She was the best. "Yeah, they will. But it's time. Mer's it for me."

"I'm really happy to hear that," Addison nodded and then turned, becoming professional. "Please, sit down. Meredith, how far along are you?"

"About two and a half months," Meredith tried, smiling for the first time since we had entered the office.

"Any bleeding, cramping?" Addison was making up a chart for my fiancee, writing quickly and easily.

"No, it's been fine. Fine is good, right?" Meredith asked looking nervous.

"Fine is very good," Addison nodded reassuringly. "Have you been pregnant before?"

"Yeah," I answered for her as she bit her lip looking slightly ashamed. I ran my hands through her hair, trying my best to comfort her. "She has a son named Dillon, who's six."

"How is he handling the news?" Addison dropped the professional veneer for a moment, a smile creeping onto her lips.

"He's thrilled. Although he refuses to think it's anything but a boy. Derek and I have tried to tell him, but he won't listen. And he's going to be so upset if it's a girl. But he just won't listen. Which I know is bad, he should listen," Meredith rambled. She was adorable when she was nervous.

Addison laughed a little and then put her pen down. "Meredith, you don't need to be nervous," she said softly. "This isn't at all awkward for me. I'm happy to see Derek happy. This is what he's always wanted, a family. And you seem perfect for him. So there's no reason to feel awkward, okay?"

"Okay," Meredith said quickly. "And I'm not, I mean, it's not big deal that you used to date him. I'm good."

Addison smiled at me and then nodded. "Okay, then. We're going to do a complete medical work up, blood test, urine test, pap smear, everything. And then we'll do an ultrasound to see how baby Shepherd is doing."

"Okay," Meredith said, looking at me as I nodded encouragingly at her.

"So let's get you in a gown and in a room," Addison stood. "And Derek can stay with you the entire time."

Meredith grabbed my hand and looked at me desperatly, as if she almost expected me to run off to perform some emergency craniotomy. Lucas and I might be on our way to being friends, but I could briefly hate him for making Meredith do this alone the first time. "It's fine, I'm not going anywhere." I said squeezing her hand.

"I'm scared," she murmured as we followed Addie towards a room.

"I know," I whispered back. "It's going to be fine. I'm here."

"What if something's wrong?" she whimpered. "Something could be wrong."

"Everything will be fine. And I'm here, even if something is wrong, I'm here," I reassured her squeezing her hand.

We went into the room where Addison drew blood, had Meredith pee in a cup, and then changed her into a gown, and getting her into the stirrups. Meredith was practically shaking by now, her hand gripping mine so tightly I could feel the circulation being cut off. "Okay, Meredith," Addison smiled after an exam. "Everything looks good. How about an ultrasound?"

Meredith didn't answer, she just looked at me, her eyes deep and pleading. "An ultrasound sounds good," I answered for her.

"We'll be able to see the baby," Addison told us. "Though he or she is nothing more than a peanut right now. But you'll be able to see the heart beating."

I smiled at Meredith. We were going to see our baby, we were going to hear our baby. I was happy to see her smiling back as she squeezed my hand. "Okay," she told Addie.

Addie smeared a cold gel on Meredith's belly and then turned on the ultrasound machine, moving the device around before finally settling on a spot. I had seen this done before. I had done it before myself during my internship. I had always considered it to be a part of my job, but as my baby came onto the screen, I felt a rush of emotion and I squeezed Meredith's hand, struggling to keep back tears.

"Wow," Meredith breathed, looking at the image of our child on the screen. She didn't bother to keep the tears back.

"There's the baby," Addison smiled at me. "There's the heart beating, right here." She pointed at my child's small heart beating. "Would you like to hear it?"

"Yes," I answered quickly, squeezing Meredith's hand hard.

With a flip of a switch, a soft whoosing sound filled the room and Meredith took a deep breath, turning to stare at me. "Der," she whispered, tears streaming down her face.

"That's our baby," I whispered, letting my own tears fall, as I moved to rest my forhead against here. "Our baby, Mer."

"Everything looks great," Addie smiled at us as she looked at the ultrasound. "Development looks good, right on track. I don't want to make any promises, but I'd say it's safe to tell people."

"That means it's time to tell my family," I nodded at Mer, wipping some tears of her cheeks.

"Yeah," she nodded, grabbing my face and kissing me.

"I love you," I whispered, pulling back slightly.

"I love you too," she whispered back before turning to Addison. "Sorry."

"It's okay," Addison laughed. "This is how expecting parents usually act. Would you like a few minutes alone?"

"Yeah," Meredith nodded. "Please?"

"Of course," Addison said, giving me a smile and leaving the room, as I shifted onto the bed, pulling Meredith into my arms.

"That's our baby," she whimpered as we stared at the picture on the screen together.

"It's our baby," I whispered, blinking back another onslaught of tears. "God, Mer. We're having a baby."

"Yeah, yeah we are," she laughed through her tears. "He looks good, doesn't he?"

"He? Dillon's gotten to you, hasn't he?" I laughed, shaking my head.

"She," she laughed. "Or he. It looks good, right?"

"She or he looks amazing," I agreed, lightly kissing Meredith's forehead. "Addie's going to have to print off a copy for Dill."

"I wish we could tell," she smiled. "If we were having a boy or a girl. You'll want to find out, right?"

"I think we should," I nodded. "So we can prepare Dillon for whatever it is."

She nuzzled her forehead against mine and then turned to look at the picture. "Derek, you did an OB rotation, didn't you?"

"Yeah. It was hell. Why?" I asked her.

"Just," she sighed and I noticed she was tensing up, "you look. You look at the ultrasound and tell me everything is fine."

"Mer, Addie said everything was good. And she's much better at this than I am," I said, trying to calm her.

"Derek, please," she pleaded. "Please. She might try to sugarcoat. Please, Der."

"Okay," I reluncted getting up off the bed and going to look closer at the screen. I knew I wouldn't find anything that Addison had missed, I knew she wouldn't sugar coat anything but I looked anway. Because I'd do anything to make Meredith feel better. And I didn't mind taking a closer look at my child. "Everything looks good, Mer."

"Yeah?" she whispered, tears coming to her eyes again.

"Yeah," I told her, walking back over to where she sat. "You are growing a beautiful healthy baby."

There was a soft knock at the door and Addison walked in, a smile on her face. "Everything all right?" she asked, noticing our tear stained faces.

"Everything is great," I answered her, while smiling at Meredith. She looked beautiful in her hospital gown, glowing and perfect.

"Good," Addison nodded. "Meredith, I'm going to give you a prescription for prenatal vitamins. You are losing a little bit of weight, so make sure you eat and call me if the vomiting becomes a concern."

"Okay," Meredith said, some fear creeping back into her voice.

"I also noticed your blood pressure was a little high," Addison stated. "It's nothing to be concerned about. Just make sure you cut any unnecessary stress out of your life. And rest. I know it's hard with a six year old, but you really need to make sure you're getting enough sleep."

"I'll watch out for her," I told Addison, thankful that the Lucas stress had finally come to an end. That would help.

"I know you will," Addison smiled at me. "And don't hesitate to call me with any questions. Just so you know, this pregnancy will be a little different from the first. You'll start showing a little earlier, the morning sickness won't last as long or be as bad."

"Thank god for that," Meredith laughed, leaning against me slightly.

"All right," Addison made some final notes in Meredith's chart and then smiled. "I'll see you in a month, Meredith. It was wonderful meeting you."

"You too," Meredith said, her voice sounding a lot more convincing than it had at the beginning of the appointment.

Meredith got up to get changed back into her clothes and Addison smiled at me. "Well, Derek, you're finally settling down."

"I am," I smiled. I knew it was the smile that Mark had dubbed the happy idiot smile. "And it's wonderful."

Addison watched as Meredith went into the bathroom and then sighed, "I am happy for you."

"Thanks Addie," I smiled at her again. "And everything is fine? Mer's worried and she's got me worrying. Everything is good? Anything I should be concerned about?"

"I'm a little concerned with her blood pressure," Addison admitted. "I'd watch her closely. She seems nervous and tense."

I laughed slightly at that, a worried laugh. "That's my Meredith. She's had a rough life, nothing has ever come easy to her and now, now that she has me and things are coming together, it scares her."

"Well, just make sure she relaxes," Addison nodded. "Otherwise, really, everything is fine, perfect actually. Make sure she's eating."

"I can do that," I nodded. "Thanks, Addie. For everything."

"No problem," she hugged me. "I'll see you in a month."

"We'll be here," I told her.

Addison nodded and left the room just as Meredith came out of the bathroom, a smile on her face. "My pants are getting tighter," she told me.

"Are they? I thought I noticed the beginnings of a bump," I said, smiling as I took her into my arms again.

"Just a little," she whispered as she nuzzled her head into my shoulder. "I love you."

"I love you too," I whispered back. "Want to get out of here?"

"Definitely," she nodded. "And you know, Dillon is at school..."

I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Your pregnancy hormones are going to kill me."

"Come on, old man," she grabbed my hand and started to lead me out of the room before turning to look at me. "Though, I've heard interesting stories about on call rooms..."

"We are not having sex in an on call room. We have a house. And it's my day off," I whined.

"It would be an adventure," she giggled before kissing me deeply.

I laughed and grabbed her hand, dragging her along with me to a close by on call room. "Just wait until we become an old boring married couple."

"Us?" she laughed as her hands already found the hem of my shirt. "We had sex on a ferris wheel."

"And we all know how that ended it up," I laughed, brushing my hands across her belly.

She giggled breathlessly as she locked the door and pushed me against a wall. "We'll never be boring," she murmured as she kissed me again. "I need you."

"Hmmm..." I murmered kissing her hard. Maybe she was right, having sex in the on call room was hot. And I hadn't partaken in years. And with Meredith everything seemed a little hotter.

Now I think I'll get through the end of the world.