8. I Hate Redheads!
Rory spent the next four weeks mainly in Stars Hollow together with her mom. They had one big argument because of the fact that Lorelai had slept with Christopher but they had worked things out and since then Rory tried to stop Lorelai from ignoring Luke, but she wasn't successful with it.
Through this whole story there had been no opportunity to tell her mom about Finn and Rory was quite thankful for it. She still felt bad for the whole thing, though Steph tried to tell her not to each time they saw each other.
The girls spent quite some time together and Steph invited Rory to her birthday party in August. Rory looked forward to it even though she knew she would meet Finn there.
The two hadn't talked to each other since their kiss in Vegas. In fact, they didn't even meet. Mainly because Finn stayed in his dorm most of the time. He still felt bad because of what he had done but the worst thing was that his feelings just didn't go away. In fact, it was quite the opposite, they grew with every thought of Rory.
Colin always tried to get him out and one evening he had succeeded in dragging Finn to the pub. There they had met Rosemary and her friend Juliet and Finn had decided to try to fight his feelings by going out with his favorite redhead several times. He felt good around her, though she couldn't make him forget Rory completely, and so he decided to invite her to Stephanie's birthday party. That way it would be easier for him to keep away from Rory.
Rory didn't bring anyone as it would have been inappropriate because of Logan. But Steph had assured her that she wouldn't stick to Colin all evening and that they would have lots of fun together. So both of them, Rory as well as Finn, looked forward to the party, oblivious what a fateful night it would be for their relationship.
"I need a brake!" Rory yelled at Steph. They had been on the dance floor together for about an hour and Rory was really exhausted by all the dancing. The party had been great up until the point Finn had showed up. Rory knew that seeing him again would be awkward, but there was one thing she didn't expect: Finn had a date for the evening!
She knew Rosemary for quite some time now and they had become friends, but the second she walked into the room with Finn's arm around her Rory couldn't help but get angry. Deep down in her heart she knew she was jealous and was fully aware that this was far from being a good sign, but she just couldn't help. She couldn't bare to see another girl in Finn's arms because she wanted the one to be that close to him.
She had tried to drown this disturbing feeling in alcohol, but Steph had stopped her. "Remember Vegas!" she had whispered into her ear without knowing that Finn actually was the reason for her drinking again. Steph had just acted like a concerned friend. She knew Rory didn't drink without a reason and she didn't want her to become that kind of person who got drunk to forget problems that would come back anyways. So she dragged her away from the bar to the dance floor.
"Okay, I'll come with you!" Steph yelled back and followed Rory to a table in a hidden corner of the room, where Colin sat together with Robert, another member of the LDB. Just few moments after they arrived at the table Steph and Colin were completely lost in their own world and Rory started to talk to Robert. After a while he asked her to dance with him and she agreed.
On the dance floor she soon regretted her decision because Finn and Rosemary were just a few meters away, dancing in a way Rory would've rather called dry humping than dancing. Finn looked up and realized Rory was staring at him, but all he did was getting closer to Rosemary.
Rory realized he wanted to tease her, maybe he was angry because she had avoided him after their kiss in Vegas. But whatever he intended to do with his actions, he made her angry. Did he want to make her jealous?
Do you really think this works? She thought angrily, not noticing that it already had worked. If you want to play that little game, Finn, it's fine with me. You're not the only one who knows the rules! she told herself and pulled Robert close to her.
At first he was a little bit surprised but soon he pulled her even closer. He knew she was Logan's girlfriend, but he had never really liked Logan anyways and she had been the one to start, so why shouldn't he have a little fun with her. Pretty soon he could feel himself getting hard and Rory realized that, too.
Maybe I've gotten a bit too far! she thought to herself just as Finn left the dance floor and Rosemary went off to the bathroom. That would be her chance to talk to Finn. She excused herself and could see the disappointment in Robert's face.
Rory chased after Finn and found him outside the club where the party took place. "What is it that you are doing, Finn?" Rory asked and couldn't hide the anger in her voice.
"Don't you think I am the one to ask this question?" Finn gave back, not looking at her. Did she really think she had any right to get angry on him? "And by the way, do you really think it is appropriate to make a guy hot on the dance floor if you've got a boyfriend? It looked like you and Robert would be getting it on any minute right on the dance floor."
"As if you cared that much for my relationship with Logan!" Rory yelled at him. He had no right to judge her actions. "And how can you criticize my way of dancing. I mean, you and Rosemary where dry humping on the dance floor all evening."
Finn couldn't remember to have been so angry ever in his life. "First of all, I do care for your relationship with Logan. If I weren't I wouldn't have stayed away from you but rather tried to get in your pants." After he said those words Rory wanted to scream something back at him, but he didn't let her start.
"And to that 'dry humping on the dance floor', maybe we did that but even if it's so you have no right to judge it. We are both singles, we've got an affection for each other, so why shouldn't we show that. What is your problem with Rosemary?" Finn yelled at her. Why did she do that to him? He had just been about to forget her and started to develop feelings for Rosemary and then she appeared and acted all jealous.
"I hate redheads!" Rory screamed irrationally. She knew she sounded like a five year old, but she couldn't help it.
"Wow, now you sounded like a real grown up!" he said sarcastically. "Come on, let's face it. Rosemary isn't your problem. Your problem is that you wanted to be her. You wanted to be the one I was dry humping with on the dance floor. That's why you danced with Robert, you wanted to make me as jealous as you got when you saw me with Rosemary. You can't stand the thought that another girl gets close to me." he told her and approached her until he stood directly in front of her.
Rory looked up at him and tried to hide the fact that he had just described the way she felt. "You're crazy!" she told him but her voice didn't sound very convincing.
"Maybe I am, but that doesn't mean I'm wrong with what I said. Come on, Rory, what do you expect me to do? You know pretty well that I've got feelings for you, but Logan is my best friend and you're his girlfriend, I have to accept that. I respect Logan and I'm not going to help you cheat on him." Finn told her determinedly, though he knew that all it needed was one kiss from her to destroy all his determinedness.
Rory looked up into Finn's eyes and started trembling. Somehow she knew that she had to make a decision and no matter what her decision would be, it would hurt her. She needed Logan, he was her boyfriend after all, the one she loved. But at the same time she felt the desperate need to be close to Finn, which only grew bigger the more she told herself it was wrong.
"And I know you don't want to cheat on Logan." Finn stated simply, turned around and wanted to go back inside. But Rory grabbed his wrist and held him back.
"I need you, Finn!" she whispered. Tears were now running down her face. "I don't want to want you, I tried to stop feeling this way. But I can't. I need you!" she repeated.
Finn turned to her and looked into her sad eyes. He pulled her close to him. He knew he should run away from her as fast as he could, but he couldn't move. All he could do was holding her in his arms.
After a while Rory pulled herself out of his hug and placed a soft kiss on his lips. Finn kissed her back more forcefully but suddenly he came back to his senses and broke apart from her.
"I can't do that, Rory. I can't do that to Logan. And you know you can't do it as well!" he told her and finally found the courage to leave her alone.
Rory stood outside for quite a while and cried silent tears. What happened to her? Why did she have to destroy everything around her? She was happy with Logan and Finn could have been happy with Rosemary, but she had to step in and ruin everything.
Before she found the courage to go back inside she heard Steph's voice behind her. "I think it's time for you to go."
She turned around and looked into the other girl's face. She looked angry and concerned at the same time. "Don't you want me to be here anymore?" she asked. Did Finn tell her what happened? There was no other reason why Steph would send her away.
"Honey, you know I would never send you away from my birthday party because I don't want to have you around anymore. But I think it's better for you if you leave now." Steph explained.
"Finn told you, right?" Rory asked, her voice shaking.
"No, he didn't. In fact, he left a few minutes ago. I wanted to come outside to get a bit of fresh air and couldn't help but hear the last part of your argument."
"You spied on me?" Rory asked in disbelief.
"No, I didn't spy on you. Don't even dare to get angry on me, Ror. If anyone gets angry it's going to be me!" Steph made clear. "I didn't want to listen but you two were screaming so loud I couldn't change it. And I'm kind of glad I heard it. Rory, seriously, what were you thinking?"
"What kind of question is that, Steph? I have no idea what I was thinking. I don't know what's wrong with me!" Rory yelled. That was just too much for her, she couldn't stand herself anymore.
"Ror, I understand that you are a bit confused. And I don't blame you for having a crush on Finn. That happens once in a while. But you should be smart enough not to do anything about it. I mean, you've got a crush on Finn but you love Logan. Or don't you?"
"No. I mean, yes, I do love Logan." Rory replied quietly.
"See, that's what counts. You and Finn might have a crush on each other, but if you don't do anything about it it'll go away. I mean, Finn has got Rosemary, the two are perfect for each other, and you've got Logan. That's what matters. Right?"
"Right." Rory confirmed.
"Okay. So why don't you just go home and sleep over everything. And the next time, make sure you don't get jealous at Rosemary or any other redhead." Steph said with a little smirk.
"I wasn't jealous!" Rory answered her back.
"You want me to say something to that?"
"Come on, Steph, don't do that. Don't treat me like a little child. I'm grown up and I can decide what I am doing on my own. I don't need you to tell me how I should act in this whole situation with Finn. It's none of your business." Rory knew Steph only wanted her best but she just couldn't help it, the words just slipped out of her mouth.
"Fine. I thought we could do this without fighting, but it seems like fighting is all you can do to tonight. So listen to me, and you better listen carefully as I'm only going to say that once." Steph stated on a hard voice.
"What you are doing is up to you, but it starts to be my business as soon as it is my circle of friends you are destroying with your actions. You can do whatever you want to do, but I can assure you that I won't be on your side any longer if you really are going to cheat on Logan. He is one of my best friends. You are a friend of me, too, but that is going to end the second Logan gets hurt by all this."
Rory started crying again, but was unable to speak.
"It is your decision, Rory. You can chose whether you want to keep our friendship and your relationship or if you're going to mess everything up and hurt a lot of people. You can decide on your own what you want. But I'm not going to help you with it anymore. I only wanted your best, but I don't have to do this if you don't want me to." With that Steph went back inside and left Rory alone with her thoughts.
For a moment she wanted to follow Steph and tell her how sorry she was. But then she just decided to leave before she screwed up even more.
Back at her apartment she changed to her pajamas and wanted to go to sleep. But before she could go to bed she heard a knock on the door.
Who can this be at 1:30 at night? she wondered. She opened the door and was shocked to look into Finn's face. He looked as confused as she had felt all evening.
"I went home, but all I could think of was you. I don't want to hurt Logan but I can't help it. I need you, too!" he admitted.
Rory wanted to answer something but before she could do his lips crashed into hers and they kissed each other passionately.
A/N: I have to admit, I'm not really sure about some parts of this chapter, so I would love to hear what you think about it. Oh, and just so you're warned, the rating might change for the next chapter, but I don't know that for sure yet. Okay, that's it for now, please don't leave without a review.