Soil: Well, 10 reviews. Thats nice XD. This will probably be the last chapter for the time being, since i will lose my access to the internet this friday. but i will continue writing. so, next time i update, it'll probably be a few chapters in one go. i have plans to visit my brother this summer, probably sometime in the middle of july. i will update then.
Thanks to all the reviewers, for showing support to a somewhat insecure writer.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in Inuyasha, or anything else concerning it. Except for the characters I create. So don't sue me, Ok?
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A person like me
Chapter 6: Emotions
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Sesshomaru just sat there, his back against the tree, lost in his own little world. His emotions were resurfacing, and no matter how much he tried, he couldn't shove them away. This time they seemed to be determined to continue being a part of him. Even his determination to kill them, was fading.He could still remember...
Sesshomaru, age 8, was a large crybaby and coward. His emotions were always active, making him a very sensitive child. He was always being picked on because of his strange markings.
But in the midst of everything, he actually had a friend. Her name, was Yoko. She was a gentle soul, not participating in the other childrens teasing. she actually stood beside him all the time, supporting him through hard times. As a result, she was a target for their teasing as well.
Together, they had managed to create a barrier. A barrier protecting them from the other kids.
A short time afterwards, Yoko lost both her parents in a car accident. She was destroyed. They had been a big part of her strength. With them gone, she steadily grew worse.Sesshomaru tried to cheer her up, but withoutsuccess.She retreated into herself more and more, leaving him on his own.
To make things worse, her adoptive family treated her badly, not showing any love or understanding for her. Sesshomaru grew a little colder, getting very depressed from time to time.
Then came that fateful day, a little more than eightyears ago. Going home from school, Yoko burst into tears. She turned to Sesshomaru, and said:
"If this is what being a human means, hurting and hurting, I don't wanna continue." She turned around, saying very quietly "Emotions are evil, kill them all."
Sesshomaru had been stunned by her words, so full of pain, grief and sorrow. He hadn't been able to move a muscle, when she ran forward. She had jumped out in front of a truck. It hadn't been able to brake, the distance was to small.
Sesshomaru could still hear the sounds, playing through his head. his only friend, taken away by a truck. He only stood there, stunned, crying.
He promised himself one thing, watching as an ambulance made its way to the scene. He was going to kill his emotions. He was not going to end up like her. If he did, who was going to remember her?
Shortly after this, the kids at school had gotten tired of the teasing, since he no longer reacted to it. His face was now a cold thing to watch, totally free of emotion, growing colder each passing day. He was freezing his emotions, never planning to let them awake again.
Well, here he was, his feelings all too real and living. He also understood one thing now. during theese past years, he hadn't been in control of his feelings, as he had thought. He had in fact been running from them, scared that he would end up like Yoko. But now he knew. He needed to get control of them.
He noticed a suspicious person walking around on the shrine ground. as he looked on his wristwatch, he noticed that the time was quarter past ten. He not seen either kagome, her mother or grandfather come homeyet, and this person was neither of them. Sesshomaru rose and stealthily walked towards the man, as he made his way towards the door to the house.
Sesshomaru ran up behind him, gripping his arms in a locked position. The man screamed as sesshomaru whispered in his ear
"Who are you, and why are you sneaking around here?"
"I-I'm here to get my kid, who's in there" he said, motioning towards the house.
"What is the name of your kid" Sesshomaru asked, knowing that the only kids in the house were Souta and Rin. Shippo had been picked up earlier.
"Her name is Rin, if you must know" he said. Sesshomaru answered his lie with a painful yank to the arms.
"Lies!" Sesshomaru breathed, almost lost in anger. "The police would have contacted us if that were true"
"Oh, then this will be easy" the man said, smiling. He quickly kicked sesshomaru leg, making him tumble backwards, loosening his grip on the mans arms.
Sesshomaru quickly came back up on his feet, and launched for the man. The fight quickly got ugly. The stranger was actually apretty decent adversary, and landed quite a number of blows on him. Not that he got away easy.
After a while, sesshomaru could feel the beast inside him awakening, and fought both to survive and to not change into the monster he was. He noticed how his hearign got even better, his eyesight improving and his sense of smell skyrocketing. He had never felt this way before.
Suddenly, he picked up a scent, all to fmiliar to him. He heard the door open. Both combatants turned around, and saw Rin, standing there, slightly scared.
"Rin! Get back inside and lock the door!" Sesshomaru screamed, while the stranger started laughing.
"Thanks for saving me the trouble, little girl" he laughed, as he pulled out a gun. He aimed it at Rin.
'Oh no you won't!' Sesshomarus thoughts screamed, as he launched himself in front of Rin.
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Three large bangs were heard, each one followed by a sickening thud.
"SESSHOMARU!" Rin screamed, tears falling from her eyes.
"go... in... lock... doors..." he panted. "call... ambulance..."
Rin did as he said, quickly shutting the door, calling for Souta.
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"That won't help, you know" the stranger said, as he looked at Sesshomaru, who still stood in front of the door. "She will follow you shortly"
Sesshomaru felt the beast awkening, and for the first time, he welcomed it.
'I failed you, Yoko.' he thought. 'I will see you soon.'
The man got a little terrified as Sesshomaru stepped forward, blood running down his arm, his torso and abdomen. He got even more terrified as Sesshomaru tilted his head upwards, his eyes completely red,his mouth sprouting large fangs.
"Wh-what kind of demon are you!" he shouted, aiming his gun towards Sesshomaru again.
But sesshomaru was too quick. before the man had settled the aim on him, Sesshomaru was behind him, tearing the whole arm off that held the gun. He then quickly tore the other one off too, leaving the man totally without arms.
"AAHH! It hurts.. i-it h-hurts" the man cried, staggering round a little, confused.
"More to come" said a voice so totally absent of anything human. The man turned around, and could only call what he saw one thing.
The Angel of Death.
"Tell me your name, before i tear you into even smaller pieces"
"J-jaken" he mumbled.
"Are you here on an assignment, or of your own free will" Sesshomaru asked.
"I-I was sent" he said, getting foggy from the blood-loss.
"Who sent you?" The demon in front of him inquired
"Na-ra-ku" he panted.
"Thank you for your answers." the demon said."May your soul repent for your evil deeds in hell"
With that, Sesshomaru tore Jakens heart out, the man falling to the ground. dead.
"And may my own find it's place, beside Yok-" he started saying, but was cut short when his energy faded, falling to the ground.
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He was in a warm place, feeling no pain.
"So this is death, huh..." he sighed, looking around.He wore very baggy white pants, and a loose white shirt, where pure silver wings extended from his back.He was in a big beautiful flower field. A lot of people where there, having picnics. He quickly recognized a family, sitting under a great cherry tree. he made his way toward them, greeting the people he passed.
"Mind if i sit down?" he asked, looking at the small family.
"Go ahead Sesshomaru, we've been waiting for you!" the woman said, smiling happily. Two names came to him. Sakura. Toshi.
"So, you met your family here after all" he said, as he smiled towards the eight-year-old beside him. "How've you been Yoko?"
"I've been great!" She said, smiling widely.
They sat there, talking about old times. Then, suddenly, a stranger sat down beside them, and spoke up.
"You know that this is not your place yet" he said. "As long as you do not have control over the beast inside you, this is not you place."
"I could almost have guessed that" Sesshomaru sighed, as he rose. "I caused a lot of damage in my life. I have yet to repent."
"Yes, that is true. But the time to repent will come later." the staranger said, suddenly smiling. "You have to return now."
"R-return?" Sesshomaru said, slightly surprised. "Am i not dead?"
"No, but you were very close to it." the old man said, smiling even wider.
"We will wait here until the end of time, Sesshomaru" Yoko said. "So, when you've completed your life, come see us again, okay?"
Sesshomaru couldn't say a word. He felt large pain, as he felt his body fading away.
The old man didn't seem finished though. He said one thing, that imprinted itself in Sesshomarus mind.
"Remember, you must control youremotions to control your beast".
Sesshomary passed out, and felt himself being pulled away.
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His eyes jerked open. First, he could not see anything, but slowly his eyes gained focus. He was in the hospital.
"Yoko..." he said, feeling tears in his eyes.
"Oh, good! You're awake!" a nurse said, sticking her head through an open door. "Your friends will be so relieved."
She turned and left.A very short moment after, Rin ran through the door, quickly followed by Souta and Shippo. After them came Kouga, and, to his surprise, Kagome.
"How you feeling, Sesshomaru?" Kouga asked. "Haven't seen you in a state this badly before."
"Yeah, well, how about you go get a bullet in you upper arm, shoulder and stomach, and see how well you look" Sesshomaru remarked back, with a tiny smile on his lips.
"Have you been crying, Big brother?" Rin asked suddenly, adressing him as a family member for the first time. There are a few things that bring people closer, and protecting someone from being shot is one of them.
"Big brother had a very strange dream, Rin" he said, looking at her.
"Okay, as long as you're okay" she said, smiling a little.
"You must've been so brave" said Shippo, the first time he spoke directly to sesshomaru, looking at him with huge eyes filled with admiration. "I wanna be like you when I grow up" he said, smiling a little shyly.
"I will guide you" Sesshomaru said, "So you won't make the same mistakes I did."
Looking around, he noticed that everyone was smiling rather warmly towards him. He felt kinda secure, with them here.
"While I'm in the hospital, i'll leave it to the two of you to keep rin safe" he said, looking at both Souta and Shippo.
"OK!" they both said, and took their places on each side of Rin. She giggled a little.
"Kagome, please let Rin stay at your house until I'm out." he said, turning towards her.
"Naturally" she said, smiling a little towards him.
"Kouga" he said, turning to the last of them. "I will leave the rest to you."
"Gotcha" he said, smiling.
They stayed by his side, talking, for almost one hour. Then the nurse came in and told them that visiting hours where over. Everyone turned to leave, when Sesshomaru called out:
"Kouga, stay a little longer."
Kouga stayed, while the others left.
"What did you want?" he asked
"If you find out anything concerning a person named Naraku, please let me know."
"Okay, I understand." at that, Kouga turned and left.
Sesshomaru was all alone in his room again. Now he could let his feelings flow. He started crying.
"Yoko..." was all he said, for a very long time. Then he remembered what the old man had said. To control his beast, he had to control his emotions.
"I will make you proud, Yoko. I will not run from my feeling anymore, I will master them."
He suddenly felt very tired, and quickly fell asleep.
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Well, here is yet another chapter. For those who thought this only would be lots and lots of humor, sorry to disappoint you. But with this part out of the way, the story can now evolve more. And so it will. Also, you might notice that this chapter didn't switch POVs that much. please compare this to the previos chapters, and tell me if this is a good change, or if i should go back to the way it was before.
Well, until next time, See ya
/Soil