Chapter Six: These are my Confessions...
SONG: "Name" by the GooGoo Dolls: Secrets between lovers.
Tristan's POV
I was trying to form the words to tell him everything I should have told him so long ago, so that maybe telling him what happened in the kitchen wouldn't be such a shock, but there was a lump in my throat that just wouldn't go down. I felt like my life was on hold. Just last night we were a happy couple. Just last night I helped him get one step closer to overcoming his fear of losing me, and now I have to tell him something that will more than likely make him feel cold and distant from me.
He just sat down across from me on the ottoman and waited. And waited. And waited some more. Maybe twenty minutes passed before I could spit it all out.
"Do you remember last year, when we broke up for about two months?"
He nodded.
I swallowed my heart. It had leapt up into my throat when Lori kissed me, and it felt good to finally choke it back down. "Well, about a week after we broke up, my boss sent me and Lori to New York for some field work. I was still really reeling from our break up and felt really...unlovable, frankly. And, um--"
"Did you sleep with someone?"
I nodded.
"Honey, I don't really care. I mean, it was so long ago, and we weren't together when---"
"It was with Lori." I cut him off. I had to. If I didn't, I'd have probably never told him.
His face when to ash, and a confused look over came him. "So, are you, um..."
"It was a one time thing. I just wanted to feel loved. And when I came back, you were there at the air port with flowers and an apology. "
"So, what the hell does that have to do with what happened tonight?"
"She kissed me, and I kissed her back, and then I dropped the cheese puffs, and ran away. I tried to tell her even before she kissed me that I'm really hopelessly in love with you, but I guess she thought she'd try to change my mind."
"Did she?"
"No. I don't think at this point, anyone could."