'You left me all alone'

By Silva-Trees

Disclaimer: I don't own Roxas or Axel or any of the KH Characters. If I did, I'd scrap the stupid bit where Roxas walks away from Axel saying 'Nobody would miss me' and have Axel swing him round and yell what he says at him. Then 'MWAH!' biiiig kiss. But that's just me ;;;; Hehe.

Summary: Axel and Roxas were best friends before Roxas was taken at 14, now two years later he returns and is a completely different person. Can only Axel draw out the person he used to be? His twin brother Sora has also changed, but he's found Riku and it's for the better. Yaoi. Zemyx, AkuRoku and SoraXRiku. May be more pairings later.

I'm not quite sure how I will write this, occasionally in POVs or maybe just third person. If there is a POV I will state whose it is before typing any further. This is a Yaoi/Shonen-ai fic, if you don't like that kind of thing (e.g. BoyXBoy) then I'd advise you not to read.

The characters might be OOC if so, I'm sorry but it's just how I write. Also this is an AU (Alternate Universe) fic, which means it, will differ completely from the came. Nothing in common really, except for the characters being from the game.

I was writing my other Kingdom Hearts fic, when I realised I hadn't written anything AkuRoku yet, which is amazing as that's the couple I fell in love with before I even played any of the games. So here it is my AkuRoku fic. It does have other pairings in it, but is based mainly around Axel and Roxas. I also had to throw in Zexion and Demyx as I am gradually coming to love them too.

Axel's POV:

'SHUT UP! And stop calling me Roxy!'

I manage to stifle a chuckle, some things never change. Riku is also smiling although he's not bothering to mask it, behind his hand. Belle stands in the doorway smiling at both of us, she insisted we call her Belle as 'Roxas or Sora's Mom' sounds lame and 'Mrs Harada' makes her feel old. Hey don't look at me, I Dunno what she means….She IS old after all. Oh. Now she's glaring at me, I hope she can't read thoughts else I'm dead.

ARGH!! What if she's realised how I feel about Roxas?! Wait…How do I feel about Roxy? I guess I've never really thought about it in a lot of detail, although I know that I care about him a lot and the years when he wasn't here were hell. Is that love? Is that what I'm experiencing? I guess I'll just have to wait and find out.

Roxas walks through the door, anxiously pulling down the sleeves on him hoodie which already cover his hands. Its just one of the many quirks he has which I notice about him. Like when he's also nervous he bites his lip and ruffles his hair up a lot. Just one of those few things that make Roxas, Roxas you know.

'Uh…Hi guys. Long time no see.' 'Rox how are you? It feels like it's been an age.' 'Oh…I'm okay. Well better now.' What does he mean by that, and why can't I say anything. So far it's just a one sided conversation by Riku and Roxas.

I better say something quick, before it seems like I'm unhappy about being here. Uh...What to say?!

'MONKEY BUTTERSCOTCH!!'

Shit!! Why when I want to say something cool, do spazzy words like that come out? Its official my brain hates me. Even worse all the occupants in this room are staring at me like I've gone insane. I better cover that up.

'I just like it…' Lame Axel, incredibly LAME. 'You like monkey butterscotch?' Riku raises an eyebrow, lips twitching slightly under the pressure of not laughing out loud. I glare at him and look a\way, eyes falling on Roxas I see him looking out the window, tugging at his sleeves every once in a while.

Its times like these that I miss my old best friend so much, he was never like this before. Before he would've been laughing at me the loudest and it would end up with us teasing each other and starting a food fight or outrageous dares. Now…Well now it feels like I never knew him and that he no longer even wants to be my friend.

What did I do wrong? Where did I go wrong?

Roxas' POV:

Seems Axel hasn't changed. I still can't stop myself from looking away and masking my emotions when I feel something. Like now I'm having trouble trying not to laugh. When you live a life like I have…Well you learn to hide your emotions and put on a mask of indifference, then they lose interest in you and leave you alone. Better alone than in the company of one of them.

Looking back and Riku and Axel I meet with Riku's eyes and he smiles encouragingly while teasing Axel and the same time. He understands…I don't know how but he just does. Axel…I see the pain in his eyes, and for some reason it brings tears to my eyes, but we're not supposed to cry. The male population I mean, we're meant to be strong and protect people, then why is it that I can't?

I can't stop the tears, maybe it's because of the years when I couldn't cry, because I wouldn't let myself and so I am reaping what I sowed all the years before. At night I'll go to sleep…well attempt to and suddenly feel tears dripping from my eyes, soaking into my pillow. There's never any noise just the tears.

'Could you excuse me a second.' I try not to sound rude, nor run from the room as I feel my eyes begin to fill up and my vision blur. Mom knows I cry, I think. Sora may know but Axel doesn't. That's something I want to keep that way, if he saw me cry…Well I don't know what would happen. Maybe he would be disgusted and never want to be my friend again.

I don't think I could live with that.

Walking quickly to the downstairs bathroom, I hurry inside and lock the door, I can still remember the first time I didn't lock it and Axel walked in on me. It would be the time I decided to test out my mom's new makeup, hey I was six! Give me a break, okay maybe that's a little odd for a perfectly normal six year old to do but whatever. He wouldn't shut about it for years after.

Staring in the mirror, I look a mess. Urgh. My hair's horrible dishwater blonde and my eyes are like murky swimming pools that kids decided to swim in but are too young to be potty trained. Aren't I just a stunner? Can you hear the sarcasm dripping from my voice?

Here we go, this waterworks have begun. I stand silently, just watching the tears slide down my face. Yet…This time I actually feel the pain and sorrow that is causing these tears, Axel's face pops into my mind and the tears run faster. The very thought of him hating me, hurts so much. I guess I really am screwed up.

Sliding down the wall, I hunch into a tight ball, and try to muffle the noises that accompany my tears. Again another first for me, usually its just silent liquid crystals dripping down my pallid cheeks. I just hope no one can hear me…Although judging by my luck, I bet they can.

After a moment of thinking calm thoughts of blankness, which is gradually drawn and coloured on with the paint of my imagination; I am finally prepared to rejoin the guests that are waiting anxiously for me.

Glancing in the mirror once more, my eyes don't look too red, just a little pink round the edges. Makes me think of the albino guinea pig Sora used to have, its eyes were a pale pretty pink round the edges. I remember I used to be so jealous that Sora got the cute guinea pig and I got left with the mottled shades of brown one, which resembled a pheasant more than a guinea pig.

Smiling slightly, I unlock the door and walk quietly back into the room, looks like Sora's finally ready. I guess we can go then, let's just hope no one notices that I've been crying, although Sora will probably know, but Axel and Riku…Hopefully they won't.

'Rox, you ready to go?' Looks like Axel has finally regained the ability of speech. He looks concerned, damn, did I ever cry in front of him when we were younger? Oh well, if I did its too late now. 'Yeah, where we going?'

Silence.

Okay…That's kinda creepy, why aren't they saying anything. They're just exchanging glances and shuffling nervously. Well, Axel is. I guess that means I'm not going to like where we are going. Oh great. This should be fun. Just as long as it's not- -

'It's the once in a lifetime, teenage experience!!! You'll love it Roxy!' Oh brilliant, the stupid dumb place that recently opened which Sora wanted to go to so bad that he memorized their saying on the TV advert. 'Fun…Don't call me Roxy.'

'Oh we're also meeting Zexion and Demyx there too, Demyx has wanted to go for ages and well…Zexion can't really say no to him.' Sora chuckled, oh yes you laugh. You'll be having a ball while I'm bloody freaking out from all the psychopaths who might be there. I'll just stick close to Axel…Only because his hair is like a warning beacon. That's all, not because he's tall and strong and protective. Not at all.

'Fun, I haven't seen them in a while.' Yeah like three days. Boy, Sora likes keeping in contact with everyone thoroughly. I guess that's good though as I'm pretty anti-social, somebody needs to be outgoing in our family. 'Well…Shouldn't we get going then?'

'Oh yeah!' 'Smart Idea Rox!' 'That would work.' They're a bunch of morons all of them. Well that's a bit harsh actually. We all shuffle for the door, grabbing our jackets on the way out. I wonder whose car we'll be taking.'

Walking out the front door it seems Riku has a new car, guess it'll be his, that old banger has finally bit the dust. Perhaps I should inform him of that. Should be fun. Without thinking I blurt out. 'Finally! It's about time that old scrap heap you called a car bit the dust.' Wait…Did I just say that? Oh shit, now what do I say?! Maybe I insulted him.

They're just staring at me…I knew I should've kept my big mouth shut. Stupid Roxas! Stupid! I hang my head and mumble a quiet, 'Sorry, I didn't mean that.'

'NO!!! Don't apologise Roxas, I was just surprised, you sounded so like your old self it caught me by surprise. There's no need to apologise.' Does he really mean that? Glancing at Sora and Axel I see them both smiling at me, well Sora's smiling Axel's positively beaming at me. It's like a 1000 watt bulb.

Axel's POV:

I can't believe it, he sounded so much like how he used to be, and it was like all those years hadn't passed. Maybe there is hope. He doesn't seem to have much confidence though; it's almost as if he's afraid to experience feelings…Like something terrible will happen if he does. Its times like these that I really wonder what happened to him.

My mind can't help but expect the worst. Even as I think this I can feel that smile sliding off my features. He's experienced something that I can't even begin to imagine, mainly because he won't tell me but even if he does I doubt I could ever truly understand what he is going through.

Oh well, off to this teenage experience crap. I guess I have no choice since Sora wants to go and what Sora wants goes, according to Riku anyway. I'll just have to make the best of it, atleast I'm spending time with Roxas. What more could anyone ask for?

Riku's POV:

I guess Rox is finally letting go, well part of him is. He wouldn't admit it if you asked him, but that little part of him deep inside, remembers what it feels like to be safe and a normal teenager. I can understand how he feels though, even if I myself have not experienced it. I'm just glad that he's trying…Or that little part of him is growing and trying to break free.

It'll be good for him, and Sora. I'll just have to wait till then, but everything returning to how it was, isn't as far away as it used to seem. Maybe there is hope. We just have to keep trying.

'Right, my car it is, and Roxas you better not diss this baby! Else she'll bite you.' Did he just scoff at my car?!! Oooh I don't care how mentally scarred he is, he better apologise soon else Nadia going to kick his ass.

Besides this baby is beautiful, not even Axel could find a fault with her. 'Riku if this car doesn't stall once then I'll apologise, but until I see it she's still a bundle of junk to me.' OH THAT'S IT!!! Roxas you're going down! Right Riku play it smooth…

'Yeah you wish, you're just jealous that I actually have a car, and you don't.' Ha! Let's see you retort to that pretty boy! 'I don't need a car when I have people offering to drive me around. Oh? Does no one offer to give you a ride Riku? Guess you just don't have my charm.'

He did not just say that! I have charm! I do!!! Right? Just because I can't do the huge, kawaii eyes like he can, doesn't mean that I'm not oozing charm out of every pore. Haha! I still got it. Sora and Axel are watching our banter with open mouths, come to think of it. Isn't this the most that Roxas has said in like…two months?

Wow! I brought him out of his shell! I ROCK!

Sora's POV:

HOLY HELL! Riku's good, that's the most I've heard Roxas say for ages. Riku brought all that out just by introducing Roxy to his car? Sheesh, I spent many a month trying to engross Roxas in simple talk, and Riku does it in like 5 minutes without even meaning to!

He is good. Well it seems that maybe Riku should be Roxas' twin rather than I. Actually watching him dance his 'victory dance' is kinda disturbing; maybe Roxas would be even worse with Riku as his brother. Is that even possible?

I…Guess it is, since Riku just began chirping aloud, 'I rock! I rock, who rocks? RIKU!' Its times like this that I wonder, why is this maniac my friend? I mean even I'm not this bad! Well…not unless you give me a combination of mint imperials and candy floss then it's Doomsday for all. Heh heh, Riku even hid in the closet when I went sugar high.

I guess that's why we're best friends. Even though…I want to be more. Oh crap. I did not just say that! Thank god that I didn't speak that out loud.

'Say what out loud Sora?' What is Roxas on about? OH NO!!! Did I actually say it out loud?!! Shit shit shit!

'Uh…Dude? We can still hear you, you know, and stop making Roxas sound like a nutcase, you're the loony who's speaking without realising it.' Oops. 'Sorry Axel, I didn't realise I was speaking my thoughts…Ummm How much did I say?' There, that's was smooth without revealing too much.

Oh. Why's Axel grinning evilly? 'Well Sora…That depends on how much you think you revealed, I'll say it was very interesting to hear.' He raised his eyebrow suggestively. OH GOD! What did I say?! 'I…Uh...I mean I well...It's…complicated.' Why is it always me? Nobody else loses their cool or babbles stupidly their private thoughts.

'Cool it Sor, Axel's just messing with you. You never really said anything other than, the being glad that you didn't say whatever you were thinking out loud.' 'Thanks Rox'

I feel that, glaring at Axel is pretty much justified. I see Roxas smiling slightly up at Axel who's giving him a hurt, injured look. Just between you and me, brain, I think Roxas doesn't mind Axel hovering around him worriedly that much. Nor Axel minding Roxas ruining his fun, now if it had been me or Riku we'd be getting glares and pranks for weeks.

I guess that's just his bond with Roxy.

If you ask me, they both care for each other way more than just friends, but they don't seem to realise it yet. Well Roxas doesn't, if Axel does he's doing a pretty damn good job of keeping his feelings reigned in.

I wish Riku felt like that about me…But to him, I'm just a friend. That's all I'll ever be.

A friend.

Zexion's POV:

'YAY!!!! The ONCE IN A LIFETIME TEENAGE EXPERIENCE!!!!! We're going Zexy!!! We're actually going!!! I can't wait!!!'

Oh God. Shut up Demyx! It's too freaking early for his hyperness. Its time like this that I ask myself, why? Why do I like Dems? Was my brain or heart like high when it decided that it cared about him?

All I know is suddenly my feelings changed from hating his guts, to wanting to be around him all the time. Even freaking early hours of the morning, because if it makes him smile it's worth it. That's all I want; to see Demyx smile.

'Yes…Demyx we are going to whatever the hell you said the crap we're going to is. I don't want to go, but we're going.' Maybe I shouldn't have said that, he looking all guilty now. Oops. 'Dem you know I'm kidding right?' Well not really, but he doesn't need to know that.

'Yeah! I knew that…I knew that…' He didn't know that. The edges of my mouth twitch into a small smile, but Dem knows that I found it funny. Most people can't tell but he's perceptive on that front. Funny really, he's like ultra dense about everything else, but when it comes to my feelings he's highly aware.

'So…I hear Roxas is meant to be there today, you'd think he'd be fed up with Sora's hyperness already…Funny huh?' Oh Demyx it's pretty funny that you cease to realise that you are much more hyper than Sora ever is…By that I mean you on a low setting as well.

'I guess he is, we should feel honoured Roxas makes a rare appearance. I swear Sora's trying to kill his anti-social tendencies a day before school starts up.' Infact thinking about it, Sora probably is. Roxas needs to socialise more with the outside world if he wishes to survive at high school.

It's hell.

Made even worse so that I have to watch girl's swooning around my Demyx. Of course there's the slight hitch that he doesn't yet realise that he belongs to me. I should probably fill him in soon…Oh well, plenty time for that later.

He thinks we're just best friends. Pfft. Yeah…friends. That's all I want to be. Not. You'd think the whole slipping on the floor at New Year and accidentally kissing him might shed some light into our relationship. Of course for Dem this is fartoosubtle.

He just apologised (!!!) and ran into the living room with the popcorn because Princess Bride was about to start. It was my fault not his anyway. I mean come on! How many straight guys do you know watch Princess Bride eagerly with unshed tears in their eyes at the ending when Buttercup is saved?!

Who do you think has to sit beside Demyx and watch it every freaking time he wants to see it? Yes. Me. Don't get me wrong, I liked the actual film…the first hundred times. I swear last year it was Dem's favourite film of all time.

You don't want to know what was his favourite film before that…Oh screw it, I'll tell you. It was The Little Mermaid. Yes. The freaking Little Mermaid. I can't quite remember why he liked it so much, other than it was all under the water. Demy is obsessed with Water.

Oh lucky me. I'm just waiting for his next torture plan – I mean phase – that he thinks up. I once tried to wrestle away all his Disney films. Big Mistake. I spent the night apologising to the cover pictures of Aurora, Belle and Ariel. Yes…I tried taking The Little Mermaid away.

Let me tell you, those things may be light but they're sharp. Demyx kept swinging them around in frustration while trying to explain to me why they were quite so important. To his defence, he only jabbed me in the eye twice.

'WE'RE HERE!!! YAY!! Zexy look! Where's SoraRikuAxelRoxas?! I can't see them…They are coming right?' Well let's view my options. On one hand I'm alone with Demyx, on the other he's hyper and will most like me drag me around all the exhibits before the other arrive and then do it once more when they finally get here. Well it could be much wor- OH GOD. They have a tank with dolphins.

Shit.

'Demyx why don't we go this way…The Lions look awfully hungry and…err…pretty?' 'Zexy you wanna see the Lions? OKAY! Wait…Are those dolphins...' His eyes swell to insane proportions, I wince waiting for the volcano to erupt.

'-deep breath- OHMYGAWD!!!! Zexy do you see the Dolphins, I'm going to call them Ariel and Sebastian. Can we go swimming with them?!! Or feed them or…or…DOLPHINS!!! Do you see them Zexy?'

I knew it. Sora you're dead when you get here. I don't care how Riku feels about that. Infact you're worse than dead. I'm going to lock you in a room with Demyx, his sitar and a TV with Disney films…Actually considering its Sora the sick bastard would probably enjoy that. Damn. Now I must think up an alternative punishment for even mentioning this stupid place in a mile radius of Demyx.

He's jumping up and down and pointing at the dolphins. Why? Why do you hate me so Karma? There's only one thing I can say to him. I'm sacrificing myself…well actually that poor person in the Little Mermaid costume. 'Look Demyx! Isn't that Ariel for real?!'

Cue the 360 degree spin as Demyx registers what I just yelled at him. God. I pity that poor sod, but it's either me or them and sorry but I choose life. Okay so maybe one small tiny evil giggle escaped from my mouth, but I couldn't help it. When you see Demyx running and leaping onto a tiny 4ft 10 midget. It is pretty hilarious.

You know this place actually might not be that bad.

Roxas' POV:

God. Who decided to let Axel sit up front? Well I suppose nobody really got a chance to tell him no, he just threw Sora bodily out of the way and clutched at the radio possessively. As long as he doesn't play his crappy music I'm okay with it.

I think.

He's reaching for the radio player. Oh shit. We're doomed now, might as well just die now rather than strangled by Demyx later as he attempts to hug without physical contact. A thing that is impossible to do yet doesn't stop him from trying. I wonder what song we'll have first. I'm guessing one I will hate.

Axel presses the play button after discreetly inserting a disk.

'If your ass is a chinese restaurant Ill have the poo-poo platter'

Oh God now…He had to choose this one didn't he?! Just had to. Kill me now, maybe I can smother myself in this hoodie.

'My friend jerry vandergrift kissed me in home Ec. Class
Later in the afternoon some jarheads in the locker room kicked my ass
I said guys Im like you I like monster trucks too
Wanna see how many push-ups I can do?
I just wish I was queer so I could get chicks
Chicks dig guys that are
Queer guys that don't dig
Chicks that don't dig guys like me
See Im not queer Im too ugly
But if I were handsome just imagine how great it would be
Incognito as gay though but not actually that way though pseudo homo phony
Maybe its a stupid theory or maybe just stupidity
But if I was a queerbee in the fashion industry
Scoring with a super model would be easy
Cause super model means voluptuous but is also is synonymous with super dumb'

It's not working! Axel you have no idea how much I hate your music taste right now. Yes you sing along with the god-damn awful lyrics as this is the last singing you'll ever do by the time I'm finished with you.

'Ya see Id be a good listener so shed treat me like a sister and soon Id become
That trusted friend that cares that rubs her back and braids her hair
No it wouldn't be a week before Im in her underwear
I wish I was queer so I could get chicks
Chicks dig guys that are
Queer guys that don't dig
Chicks that don't dig guys like me
See Im not queer Im too ugly
Doesn't matter what Im packin in my denim its what's in my genes
The only smoked meat the only sausage I would eat is made by jimmy dean
See Im not to keen on the smell of vaseline
No Im not princess di and I don't wanna be a queen
I wish I was queer so I could get chicks.'

Silence. I peek my head out of my hoodie and see Riku glaring at Axel with his finger on the eject button. 'Axel change the music now. Else get in the back.' Riku I love you! Well I don't actually mean that, besides I'm pretty sure he's taken by Sora. Even if he doesn't know it yet.

Hmmm…It looked like Axel was actually considering climbing into the back with us. 'Okay I'll change it…I guess 'Discovery Channel' by Bloodhound Gang is also a no-no?' 'YES.' 'Okay okay I get it, no more Bloodhound Gang. Sheesh, chill it wasn't that bad. Besides…' Here is where he grins evilly, and glances around the car once before finishing his sentence. 'I'm pretty sure none of us are straight.'

Yes yes Axel say what you want I'm just glad the music's of- wait what?! 'What?!! I mean…err…I don't like guys. I like Naminé!' Well not actually anymore, but neither am I admitting to being gay. Wait…Is Axel including himself? I always had my suspicions about him…

'Oh come off it Roxas, you got over Naminé ages ago. Besides she's going out with Xaldin…Why, I have no idea. What does she see in him?' Axel does have a point. I'll just settle into dignified silence.

'Awww quit sulking Roxy. You know I'm just teasin' ya.' Eye twitch. 'I was not sulking, it's called dignified silence. Now I'm going to ignore you.' He faces back forwards again and ponders awhile before selecting another disk from his CD collection.

'Oh-o-o-oa
Oh-o-o-o

Oh-o-o-oa
Oh-o-o-o'

Well this is marginally better, atleast this doesn't make my eardrums bleed. Although it is increasingly annoying. I swear he and Demyx have too close a taste in music. It's creepy. I wouldn't be surprised if somewhere out there Zexion is killing himself with a Spork, as he tries to ignore the terrible music that he is being subjected to.

'Sweet little bumble bee I know what you want from me
Dup-i-dup-i-do la la
Dup-i-dup-i-do la la
Sweet little bumble bee More than just a fantasy
Dup-i-dup-i-do la da
Dup-i-dup-i-do la da'

Just think Roxas, think of the open air and free spaces you can run to away from Axel, just another hour in the car with this lunatic who is your best friend. Just one more hour…One…Only One. Eye Twitch. God I can't take it anymore.

The ground looks very inviting right now, now if I can just wind down this window and just out before anyone notices. Slowly slowly…creeeeak. Shit. 'Uh…Riku? Axel? I think Roxas is trying to kill himself. OH MY GOD!!! Roxas Nooooo!!!!'

Damn Sora and his quick reflexes. If it wasn't for him I'd be a squished blob underneath someone's tyre right now. He had to grab my clothes and drag me inside, right at the climatic moment.

'Glare at me all you want, but do you realise how dead I would've been if I had to go home and tell mom that you attempted to leap out of a car window because of Axel's terrible taste in music?' Hmmm…True. 'HEY! My music isn't that bad!' Yes Axel. Yes it really is.

Axel is now facing us and watching me hawkeyed. Guess no more suicidal attempts today. Now he appears to be thinking. 'Hey Rox…How could you fit through that tiny crack? I mean unless you've lost a hell of a lot of weight, and those clothes you wear are really baggy.'

'Well yeah Axel, Roxas' always been really thin and well…You don't eat much do you Rox?' Shut up Sora! If you tell him that he'll go around trying to stuff food in my mouth every chance he gets. Besides the crack isn't that small, granted Sora definitely couldn't fit through but then I'm younger than he is. Well…by like six minutes.

'Yes, I wear baggy clothes because I like baggy clothes and they hide what I really look like.' Damn. I didn't mean to say that last bit. 'I mean they're comfortable.' Maybe with them being the idiots they are, they'll miss that little slip up. Well Riku won't but maybe he'll be quiet because he's nice like that.

Axel is frowning at me, and glances at my clothes once more before turning around once more. 'How about Silence for a while? How does that sound?' Good. Very good infact. Silence is good.

A stifle a yawn and face the window, my eyes feel so heavy. Although I guess that's understandable considering that I haven't slept more than three hours a night for about three months and less before that. It's amazing I'm still alive.

Pity. I wish I was dead.

Axel's POV:

Glancing behind, I can see that Roxas has fallen asleep. 'Okay Sora, tell me honestly do you think he's okay?' He raises an eyebrow and snorts without humour. 'Of course not, he barely sleeps, barely eats and says little. Does that seem normal to you?' I guess not…But how was I meant to know?! If no one tells me anything, how am I meant to guess the truth?

Sora glances over at his brother worriedly. 'Although he has been worse lately, it could be the nervousness of going back to school, but I'm not buying that. It's something deeper, some secret that he's hiding and doesn't want any of us to know about. I can only guess what, and why he won't tell us.'

A secret? I guessed that much, it's most likely what happened to him while he was gone. No one has managed to discover what it was, Roxas says little about it, and when you press him for information he clams up like a clam.

'Although he let mom go out alone yesterday for a morning jog. Usually if he's awake when she leaves, which is pretty much all the time, he'll insist on going with her. He doesn't want her to be alone and vulnerable. That's understandable, I guess. If you glance at him you would never guess that he was anything other than a normal teenager, although it's his dreams that worry me the most…'

This is the only time I've ever seen Sora look so serious. I almost dread what he's going to say next. Just thinking about what could've happened is enough to send shivers down my spine and make me feel all superstitious.

'He doesn't know, but one of the rare times he was asleep and I was awake, I was on my way to the bathroom and I heard Roxas murmuring in his sleep. Being in the inquisitive individual that I am, I was curious and moved closer to his room. I could only make out a few words but they were enough to terrify me. But the worst thing…The thing that terrified me the most, was his voice. It sounded so broken and pitiful. I could hear him crying in his sleep. Roxas. My brother who never cried, since he was five he's never shed a tear. To hear him whimpering like that and begging whoever was in his dream not to hurt him, that caused my heart to wrench. I've never even told mom. She doesn't have to know.'

Roxas…What happened to you? And why won't you let anyone in, why can't you see that if it's possible for a person to be hurt by another then it's possible for that person to be healed by another.

Author's Note:

I'm so sorry for not posting/writing this sooner, but I've been so busy with all that's happened these past few weeks. Infact I still have a chemistry test to sit tomorrow and I should really be revising for it. Shit. I hope I don't fail. Haha!! I just realised I made Roxas sound so emo in this!! Oops...Uh sorry if some of you guys take offence. I didn't mean any. XD Lolza.

I want to thank Forgottenmelodies personally because she's the one who sent a note which made me get a move on, as I had been sitting around all depressed and just being downright a moody teenager. Which I am most of the time lolza XD. Although all my wonderful reviewers are awesome and I lovity love you!!! Showers with Virtual AkuRoku, Zemyx, RikuXSora goodies

Urgh!! School's terrible, I went through all my classes today and all I could think about was ideas and plots for stories, this one and others. Also annoying songs kept going through my head, infact I couldn't sleep last night because I had four flamin' songs going round and round my head. If anyone cares to know, they were 'Scotty doesn't know', 'Discovery Channel (as mentioned in this chappie XD)', 'I Wish I were queer (also mentioned LOL :P) and 'Gay boyfriends'.

I ask you, why the hell does my brain decide to focus on these songs at 1a.m in the morning?! Not too mention that in physics I had 'Charliiiiee, Chaaarliiie. Wake up Charlieee, we've found a map to Candy mountain Charlieee. Caaandy Mountain Charlieee.' Going round and round when I had an assessment to finish XD.

It just goes to show, my brain hates me, it truly hates me.

Please all who enjoy this review, it brightens up my day and I swear tomorrow its going to be crap. dies in anticipation and thanks to all who do review. I wuv all of you!!

Silva has Axel muses knawing on her brain, not to mention little Roxas muses that have small pitchforks of ideas that stabbity stab my brain with ideas. OOOH!! I'll use that in my next chapter, the stabbity stab pitchfork of ideas. XD

Oh P.s I'll try to update my other Kingdom Hearts story soon, if it's not within a week please somebody send a note yelling for me to get off my ass and begin writing again XD.

P.P.s I just realised what a spaz I am, last chapter I asked for you to guess the name of the chapter, but you can't see it if there aren't more than one chappie up. Oops sorry lol, anyone guess now? Hopefully you can see the names of the chapters in the little periwinkle box (that is Zexion's hair colour) Oooh and another reason for Zemyx to be is the whole Zexion - 6 Demyx - 9 Put them together and whatcha got? 69!!! Hee haw!! Lolza I know everyone's already noticed this but...But!! It's sooo true. Hehe am off to try and regain my brain which a lost due to sleep deprivation. Ciao all!

Silva over and out.

GAH!!! P.P.P.s Mucho thanks for shrouded-Obsession as they kindly pointed out that I made a minor typo that made a huuuuge difference!! Eh heh…Atleast now we don't have Naminé with that psychopath kidnapper (just kidding…I don't mind Xiggy that much…), he has been replaced with ooogly Xaldin. (Come on you have to admit he's ooogly XD)