'You left me all alone'
By Silva-Trees
Disclaimer: I don't own Roxas or Axel or any of the KH Characters. If I did, I'd scrap the stupid bit where Roxas walks away from Axel saying 'Nobody would miss me' and have Axel swing him round and yell what he says at him. Then 'MWAH!' biiiig kiss. But that's just me ;;;; Hehe.
Summary: Axel and Roxas were best friends before Roxas was taken at 14, now two years later he returns and is a completely different person. Can only Axel draw out the person he used to be? His twin brother Sora has also changed, but he's found Riku and it's for the better. Yaoi. Zemyx, AkuRoku and SoraXRiku. May be more pairings later.
I'm not quite sure how I will write this, occasionally in POVs or maybe just third person. If there is a POV I will state whose it is before typing any further. This is a Yaoi/Shonen-ai fic, if you don't like that kind of thing (e.g. BoyXBoy) then I'd advise you not to read.
The characters might be OOC if so, I'm sorry but it's just how I write. Also this is an AU (Alternate Universe) fic, which means it will differ completely from the game. Nothing in common really, except for the characters being from the game.
I was writing my other Kingdom Hearts fic, when I realised I hadn't written anything AkuRoku yet, which is amazing as that's the couple I fell in love with before I even played any of the games. So here is my AkuRoku fic. It does have other pairings in it, but it's based mainly around Axel and Roxas. I also had to throw in Zexion and Demyx as I am gradually coming to love them too.
This chapter is mainly third person in it, but also has POV's too, so basically I'll show a break when it's different POV's/third person. It starts off in third person but focuses mainly around Axel :)
Dark days followed after the disappearance of Roxas.
Cinnamon spikes, crushed by the arms holding it down, shook with tears and sobs. 'It's all my fault. All my fault.' Dejected sky blue eyes stare down at the pebbled ground, speckled with chewing gum and bird crap.
'If I hadn't been sick, I should've been there. Why…Why did I stay off?! It's all my fault. I hate myself.' Hands hammered at his head in anguish. Sora was beating himself up over the loss of his twin.
He failed to notice the tall, long haired shadow that approached his small quivering form. 'Sora? What are you doing?' Crouching down, the taller person tried to comfort the elder twin, yet was also suffering with the loss of Roxas.
'Why? Why him? Why take Roxas?!' Sora raised his clouded eyes, staring into the jaded eyes that stared back. 'Why Axel?' Axel's mouth quivered as he tried to think of comforting words to say. 'I don't know Sora. I wish I did. But…I don't.'
Taking a deep breath, he tried to conceal the mounting emotions that threatened to break. He had to be strong. He couldn't break down. If he did, the tears would never stop. His usual vivacious spikes hung limply in front of his eyes, eyes which lacked a soul. That had died when he had discovered Roxas was gone.
'Come on Sora, we have to get you inside. You'll freeze otherwise, or catch a chill from the rain.' His arms ghosted around Sora's shoulders, unsure of what to do. 'You have to get in the warm; you can't do much good ill.' As soon as he spoke the words, he knew they were the wrong things to say to a distraught Sora.
'I can't do much good anyway, can I, Axel?! What can I do?! My twin is missing and it's all my fault!' 'No Sora it's no-''YES Axel! Yes it IS my fault, because if I had been there today, then he never would've been taken. I should've been there. I could've, I could've-' Tears rolled down Sora's face as he spun around and ran away.
Axel didn't understand. He couldn't know what Sora was going through. That was what Sora thought, but in reality Axel did understand. He understood how Sora was feeling more than anyone else possibly could.
He stood there watching Sora run away, eyes downcast. 'It seems like I am the one that's no use to anyone. I can't even comfort a friend.' Axel turned and walked away, unsure of what would happen from then on.
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Green eyes snap open, Axel rubs his head slowly, he hadn't had that dream in quite a while. I suppose mainly because it was in the past. Axel didn't tend to like to dwell in the past, well except where Roxas was concerned.
There he only had the past.
Glancing around him, he noticed that Riku was awake with the radio on quietly, his head moving along with the beat. Swiveling around, it appeared that now both Roxas and Sora were asleep. Sora's head was on Roxas's shoulder and one of Roxas's hands was gripping tightly at Sora's top.
Axel smiled slightly. Well, he couldn't help it, it was an adorable scene! Sighing slightly, he faced back towards the windshield. "Just woken up, huh?" Riku asked quietly, voice lowered as not to wake the twins. "Yeah. Hey, we nearly there? Sorry about leaving you driving alone." He sighed and tapped his foot along with the music.
"Nah, it's cool. Was quieter and more relaxed without your choice of music blaring from the radio." Riku smirked at him slightly. "They both asleep?" He asked still smiling. "Yeah, curled up around each other. Kinda cute." Axel said looking back at them with a smile on his face.
Riku sighed, "I just don't know. Sometimes I want to tell Sora that I really care about him, but on the other hand, I'm just happy being with him and I don't want to spoil that for anything. No matter what my feelings are. He means too much to me to be torn out of my life by something so foolish."
"Still no luck on discovering his feelings then?" Axel questioned all attention on Riku. "No, he's like an extremely complex rubix cube. Just when I think I've got him all figured out, there's a new layer that's screwed up with the wrong colors. It's almost like he enjoys keeping me guessing."
He couldn't help but smile at Riku's analogy. "You know, I think he really doesn't have a clue. It's like he's just this one big ball of denseness. In the end, if you want to take it further, one of you is going to have to make a move, and I kinda doubt that it'll be Sora. But then again, it's not for me to say. I mean, look how I'm going with Roxas. He barely even talks to me. He speaks more with you, and I'm supposed to be his best friend…Well I was."
A bright, sparkly sign signaled the turning off point for the 'Ultimate Teenage Experience'. Axel stared at it wondering how teenagers and glitter can possibly relate. "Oh God…What are we getting into?" Riku grinned, "Well you never know till you experience it. But…" He grin turned demonic, if it was even possible. "If it makes you feel better, Zexion has been stuck with Demyx for an hour now. I just happened to forget to tell him that we'd be there an hour later than them. My bad."
Axel laughed out loud. "Dude, you're taking full responsibility for that. I had nothing to do with it. Man you're screwed!"
"Who's screwed?" A sleepy Sora ruffled his mussed up spikes. "Oh, just your boyfriend." Axel waggled his eyebrows at Riku, who was glaring at him and mouthing 'You. are. so. Dead.' at him, out of Sora's vision. "Oh, Riku? Why? What'd he do?" Then Axel's words sunk in.
"BOYFRIEND?!! Riku's not my boyfriend! Axel...Wha?! I mean…Geh?! Eurgh! I'm sooo confused. My head hurts." Sora clutched at his head, "I think my brain's overheating." He failed to notice Riku dismayed expression at his outburst.
"Don't worry Sora; I just forgot to tell Zexion we'd be an hour later than him." Riku's words were devoid of emotion. Sora just didn't seem to notice, or he chose not to notice. "Oh, well then yeah, Riku, you're screwed." Sora laughed. Maybe he really was that dense…
'Roxas has been really quiet throughout this; surely he's not still asleep? He's the lightest sleeper here.' Axel thought philosophically. Well, philosophically for him anyway. Sure enough, as he looked back towards his friend, there he was. Awake and watching everyone silently.
"Goooood morning, ROXIE!!! Did you have a good nap?" Axel yelled, starling everyone around him and making them jump a mile high. A second later they all broke into choruses of complaint. "Axel you moron! Do you want me to crash this car?!" "I think you just killed my eardrums man…Owwie." And finally, "Well, it was good until a red haired baboon decided to bless me with a headache."
"Baboon? But Roxy, this is an adventure park thing not a zoo. Don't be silly! There are no baboons here. Let alone red hai- Oh…You meant me. Sorry." He smiled sheepishly and crept back round to facing the front again, trying to ignore the death glares he was receiving from all parties in the car.
Riku parked the car and everyone leapt out, eager to be out of the cramped space that was known as Nadia. After a pat from Riku they were off, to explore and hopefully enjoy the Teenage Experience.
Elsewhere
A disgruntled teen had somehow found himself dragged into the gargantuan tank with his best friend. Not to mention there were dolphins. Zexion was not as amused as you might've guessed. Being clad into a curve-hugging wetsuit and being doused in many gallons of water every time a dolphin flicked its tail at him was not Zexion's idea of fun at all.
Not even close.
After half an hour had passed, Zexion gave into Demyx's pleas that they swim in the tank for a couple of minutes. "It won't be very long Zexy." He had said. They had been swimming for so long that Zexion's skin had begun to wrinkle and his legs felt heavy.
"Demyx my legs are dying, can we get out?" It took him a few attempts to convey that across to Demyx because his mouth kept filling up with water. Demyx nodded, slightly dismayed. Zexion sighed in relief; he would soon be back on dry land.
The next thing he knew, he was barreled under the water by a passing Dolphin's tail. 'Fucking Dolphin. I knew you hated me, more so because I'm taking Dem away from you and your tank. Well…SCREW YOU.' He knew straight away his legs wouldn't be able to bring him back up to the surface. Folding his arms in submission, all he contemplated was 'I knew life was out to get me, so why bother fighting it?'
Strong arms came out of nowhere and fastened tight around his waist. 'Demyx.' Maybe life wasn't out to get him after all, glancing down he spotted a snake tattoo, as the hand dipped slightly lower. 'When did Dem get a tattoo? He hasn't got one…But that means…FUCK! Random stranger! Eeew!!'
He began to writhe and struggle with his new found energy. The stranger just drew him closer and angrily nudged him in the side. As soon as they broke the surface, Zexion leapt away. "Kid! What the hell is wrong with you, you were drowning and I try to save you, then you freak out and begin wriggling away. Do you want to die??!"
Zexion just ignored him and swam over to where Demyx was dipping his legs in the water. "Ready to go now?" He asked trying to conceal shudders everywhere the guy touched him. "Dem?" Said person blinked and smiled up at Zexion. "Sure…"
They were finally escaping the treacherous dolphins that had it in for Zexion. Animals just didn't seem to be fond of him. So far, the day had been pretty dismal. He had been woken up early, submersed in a tank that stank of fish, and then molested by a random stranger. Brilliant. Just fucking brilliant.
He looked around and spotted a glint of silver. Riku was the only person Zexion knew who had that silver long hair. "Demyx…Is that Riku?" he asked, not willing to make a fool out of himself once again. With his luck it was bound to be someone who looked like Riku but actually wasn't. Demyx raised his head, "Yeah. It is, and that's Sora next to him, with Roxas and Axel behind them." He then went back to thinking what he was before he was interrupted.
They both stopped and waited for their friends to come to them. Zexion was still fuming slightly. 'Gee Demyx thanks; I never knew you cared so much.' He shook his head to remove those thoughts. Demyx probably didn't notice so he couldn't blame him. As much as that hurt to admit.
"Hey! Zexion, Demyx! How are you guys?" Sora's enthusiastic voice echoed loudly around the open ground, many people turned to see who the animated boy was yelling at. "HEY SORA! We're great! What about you?" 'Sure, go ahead and assume Demyx.' Riku, Axel, and Roxas all walked slightly behind Sora as he ran towards Demyx. Zexion trudged after his overly loud best friend.
Sora and Demyx were chatting about something. When he saw a gesture towards the dolphin tank, he felt his blood run cold. Not the dolphins…the freaking dolphins. Already Sora was tugging Demyx towards it. "H-hey Dem…I'm going to sit out this time okay?" Zexion stuttered, shuddering slightly as he remembered his clothes were still wet and cooling quickly.
"Oh, okay Zexy. You stay there and…" The teen paused, as a thought crossed his mind. Murmuring quietly to his smaller friend, they both ran off towards the tank. 'Nice to know that I'm cared about so much.' Zexion gave in, he couldn't do this anymore. It was obvious that Demyx didn't feel the same way he did. It had taken him five years to come to this conclusion.
He'd always cared about him, ever since he met him, and when they were both 12, he realised he cared more than a friend would. Deep down, he had always hoped that even if the blond didn't feel the same way straight away that he would learn to care about him.
Guess it just goes to prove, hope is for fools.
"Sora…Do you think I should leave Zexy alone like that?" His tone was hesitant and thoughtful. "Why not? Did something happen?" Brilliant azure eyes looked up curiously. Demyx shifted, slightly uncomfortable.
"Ummmmmmm…well, its just that ZexywasnearlydrowningbecauseadolphinIthoughtwasniceturnedtonotbeniceandwelldecidedtohurthimandthenthisrandomdudehadtosavehimandIthinkhesannoyed." He then breathed deeply, glad to have gotten it all out in one breath.
Sora stared at him bewildered. "Ummm…in human language, not monkey or…fish. If you don't mind, I didn't understand a word of that." Demyx sighed, "Well see we were um…swimming in the dolphin tank and well…A dolphin decided he didn't like Zexy."
Sora snorted, "When does any animal ever like Zexion?" Demyx glared. "Sorry, go on…"
"Well, so the dolphin whacked him under the water and Zexy didn't bother to try to swim back up because he was tired and so he was drowning. I was worried, but then before I could go save him this random guy jumped in and well…grabbed him. I think Zexy's all annoyed because well he was kinda…molested and Zexy doesn't like being touched at times. So...Yeah well…Erm…He could be annoyed."
Sora blinked. "Well yeah, I guess he would be…wait…You mean a guy seriously felt Zexion up? Dude…That's gross! Get back to him now!!! He must be traumatized! Geez, Demyx! How can you be so cold and unfeeling?! GO NOW!" The next thing Demyx knew, he was being shoved back to the others with a towel in his hand.
Demyx mumbled, "I was going to go back. I'm not that cold!" Mumbling under his breath and pouting, he walked back to Zexion. It was only then he remembered what Sora said. "HEY! I don't talk like a fish or a monkey!" Fuming, he wandered back to Zexion who appeared lost in his thoughts with melancholy expression across his features.
Dropping the towel on his head, he collapsed onto the floor next to him. "Hey, Zexy…Are you okay?" His voice jolted Zexion out of his daydream. With a small nod, Zexion went back to gazing into the distance, after removing the towel from his head and holding it loosely.
With a frown, Demyx swiped it out of his limp hands and wrapped it around him. "Zexy you're going to catch a cold if you're not careful. You should take better care of yourself. If you don't then I will for you." With a huge smile he moved the towel until it was covering both of them and pulled his silent best friend closer.
This jolted Zexion into reality, "D-Dem…W-w-what are you d-doing?!" He stuttered nervously, a faint blush dusting across his cheeks. He looked away embarrassed and tried to shuffle slightly further away. Demyx just smiled more and pulled him closer again, pulling Zexion onto his lap almost. If he hadn't been blushing before, well, he was crimson now.
"I'm keeping you warm with both our body heat." Zexion stopped stuttering and just stared at him incredulously. "What? I do pay attention in biology sometimes! I'm not a complete retard." Demyx huffed and turned his face away, causing the other to smile and unconsciously snuggle closer.
Axel smiled wistfully, watching Zexion and Demyx just did that to him. They were so lucky! They didn't seem to realize it though. Arguments between them were sorted out so simply, it made him envious.
Sighing, he watched Riku struggle with himself for a moment before he ran after Sora. "Hey! Since Dem dropped out, I'll come with you." "Thanks Riku!" Even glancing around lazily, he could spot all kinds of couples, smiling and just having a good old time. It seemed everything was going good for anyone except himself.
"Axel…Um…" His eyes widened. Looking down, he saw a slightly nervous blond fiddling with his sleeves. "Yeah Rox?" Roxas jumped slightly and pointed to the rollercoaster ride to their left. "Um…Wanna go on that…With me?"
His eyes avoided Axel's like a plague, focused totally on his dark sleeves. Axel smiled softly, "Sure." Roxas's head whipped up and he stared at Axel for a while, before his eyes softened and he smiled slightly. "Cool."
"Hey, Zex, Dem, we're going on the rollercoaster, see you guys soon." A small nod and wave were all he got from both of them. Smiling, they both headed over to the rollercoaster. Roxas just happened to by chance pick the largest rollercoaster in the entire theme park/zoo place they were in. Oh well…Good thing I have no fear of heights. I think.
Many loops-the-loops and sore heads later, Axel and Roxas emerged from the rollercoaster ride. Axel swearing quietly, so only a few words could be made out, Such as: 'Fucking Rollercoaster' and 'You fucker.' (1) Roxas seemed perfectly fine, even a small smile curling at the corners of his mouth.
Demyx and Zexion hadn't moved much from the spot where Axel and Roxas had left them, except instead of sitting down with Demyx curled around Zexion, they had substituted their position to one of lying down tightly entwined around each other. It had attracted a few love-struck fans, which were standing, gazing at the slumbering duo lovingly.
Roxas and Axel looked at each other before slipping through the crowd beside their two friends. Axel squatted down and gently shook Demyx awake. "Hey, you've attracted a crowd. So you might want to move before they start glomping Zexion." He stated with a twinkle in his eye. He then stooped to shake Zexion out of slumber.
"Wait, don't wake him." A quizzical brow was raised. Demyx blushed slightly, causing the watching fans to coo in delight. Roxas looked quite bemused at their show of love for two boys they didn't even know. "Well…He hasn't been getting much sleep because of me lately." Axel's eyebrow rose higher and suddenly there was silence. Demyx stuttered. "N-NO! That's not what I meant…I've just made him watch DVDs with me late into the early hours of the morning. That's what I meant."
Skeptic eyes followed his every movement. "I-I-Its true!" He ducked his head, ears and cheeks crimson. Roxas smiled softly. "I believe you Dem." Axel looked up, then sighed and went "If Roxas does, then I guess I have to agree. Right now, what do we do with Zexion?" He straightened, scratching his head. "We can't just leave him here…Well we could but I kinda like having the use of my legs."
"I'll carry him. I'm the only one he won't murder or mutilate when waking up to discover he's in someone's arms." Axel and Roxas both nodded. "That's true. Well, looks like it's up to you Dem. Although I suppose he isn't that heavy, I mean look at the size of him, he's only just bigger than Rox." A death glare was sent his way. "Eh heh…Just kidding Rox, you're not small. Nooo, not at all."
Demyx just shook his head to clear the grogginess, stooped, and gently picked up Zexion without waking him. This had to be an art, because Zexion woke at the sound of a pin drop. Then they walked towards the dolphin tank determining that that was where Riku and Sora were.
The splashes and shrieks (Well manly yells) backed up their judgment.
Sora was a fish. Well, figuratively speaking. He lacked the gills and fins but other than that came pretty close to being a fish. Riku was not a fish. He disliked water and tolerated it only in the shower, where it would enhance his hair's beautiful shine.
So needless to say, water that stank of fishes and had no benefit to his hair did not a happy Riku make. Why was Riku suffering like this you ask? It was due to his smaller best friend who had an unnatural fixation with dolphins.
If Riku was less sure of himself he would hate the dolphins for fascinating his Sora. Yet strangely the dolphins loved Riku, must be his shiny hair. He always knew his hair would save him when most needed. So as he sat there, smug smirk on his face and floating easily, he was totally unprepared when a brunette cannonball leapt on him and submerged them both under the water. Sputtering, Riku raised wiping his streaming eyes and glaring at said best friend. "Sora…What was that for?" Sora was giggling to himself. "Why are you laughing?" "N-Nothing, Riku I just…Never imagined y-you would squeal like a girl!" Sora collapsed into tears of laughter.
As the remainder of their group discovered where they were hiding out, more giggles and chuckles surrounded Riku. His day was officially going to be terrible. Not only was he being laughed at by friends (who he doubted would ever let him forget this incident), but now he would smell like the terrible critters that reduced him to this (fish), for the rest of the day.
He decided that he could quite sympathize with Zexion. No wonder he had looked so miserable when they first met up. Riku had seen the light! He wouldn't be mean to Zex anymore…Wait a minute! Isn't that him snoring away in Demyx's arms? Do…Do I see a towel?! Screw the niceness, Zexion had Dem to look after him, he'd be fine. What about poor Riku?! Nobody would look after him.
So Riku did wither away from lack of attention and love. His gravestone a blank memorial with merely his name and dates, no personal touches. No one cared. His hair was cut off and then placed in a museum to dictate the tragic life of a teenage tragedy whose life was over before it even began. Riku shook his head. Dude that had been freaky! It was like foreseeing his own death, except…God Riku hoped that wasn't how he would go!
Axel yawned loudly. "Guys, we've been walking in circles for an hour now, its obvious there's nothing left we want to do. Let's just go home. I'm tired." There was a murmur of agreement throughout the entire group. With the exception of Zexion whose quiet snores could barely be taken as compliance, but they doubted he would disagree anyway.
They separated and went their own ways, meaning that Demyx walked off with Zexion, and the rest stumbled zombie like to Riku's car. It had been a long day. One that many would hate to repeat. In fact, thinking about it, only Sora or Demyx would be inclined to return.
After a non-descriptive journey, resulting in two twins slumbering gently in the back, they arrived home. Riku picked up Sora who was out like a light, (Actually, he guessed that even if he dropped Sora, he would probably stay asleep.) while Axel just shook Roxas' shoulder gently. Sleepily, the blond raised his head and, yawning, tripped out of the car and up the stairs.
Axel stayed outside, waiting on Riku to return. He received nothing more than a quiet "G'Night." From Roxas, but for Axel that was enough. The twilight masked the small smile that crept across his face.
"Goodnight Roxas. Sleep well."
A/N:
(1) – This was actually my reaction on a rollercoaster in
Paris, yeah there were like 7 loop-the-loops in one go and your head felt like a bruised banana when you finally got off lol. So yeah Silva swears on rollercoasters. ;)
TA-DA! I finished at long last! I have to admit though, this chapter has taken me a long time to finish and so I apologize for all the trouble I've caused. I've had many things on my mind, I know that doesn't excuse it, but hopefully as it's the holidays I can update more frequently :D
On a second note, I have a lufferly Beta now :D Ladies and gentlemen, I do welcome into the YLMAA cast and staff: Forgotten Melodies.
She's awesome and I luff her: D (Psst, you guys should also be glad because she encourages Silva to move her lazy ass and start writing lol.) (B/N: Damn straight!)