Chapter four- misunderstandings and heart crushed

---There is a little bit of swearing in this chapter. Just a heads up.---

"What a God damn jerk." Uo said after Tohru told her best friends the event last night and this morning. "He's such a jerk."

"What do I do?" Tohru asked her face puffy from crying.

"That's really up to you," Hana said, her arm around Tohru looking forward. "We can only give you our opinions. You can choose to make that your decision or not."

"Shut up Hana." Uo said. "Tohru listen to me. He's a jerk and as much as I hate saying this he only used you. But, you can't let that control you. Forget it happened and move on." Uo said holding Tohru's hands in hers.

"Do you really think Kyo would use me?" Tohru wondered painfully.

"He's a guy, there is only one thing on guys minds." Uo answered just as painfully.

Tohru nodded. She loved her friends. They were always there for her. Always there to answer her questions and to make up her mind when she didn't know how to.

They walked out of the bathroom when Tohru calmed herself and her face was normal and Uo finally promised not to kill or wound Kyo.

Kyo was twirling his pen between his fingers looking out the window. His teacher went babbling about some math thing when Kyo completely toned him out.

"That was the best good night I ever had." He smiled as he remembered Tohru's words after their first kiss.

'What a goof.' He thought.

Outside of the window we could see Hana in her classroom. He watched her for a second. She suddenly snapped her head and looked right at him.

'Yeah that's just creepy.' He said looking away. 'I want to see Tohru.'

He got up and walked out of his class.

"Mister Sohma, where do you think you're going?" his teacher asked, shocked that he was just walking out during his lecture.

"Um… bathroom." Kyo muttered and walked out the door.

He walked down the hall and spotted Tohru walking his way. She was headed to the girls' locker room to shower from gym.

He braced himself against a locker and watched her walk closer. She had a huge smile on and was talking to a girl in her class. When she spotted him, her smile faded. So did Kyo's.

As she passed him she looked at the ground, glancing up at him with want he think was a small smile. He watched her turn into the girls' locker room doors.

'I'll wait for her and walk her to her next class.' He decided.

He waited for ten minutes when girls started to leak out of the locker room.

'There's something wrong with Tohru. I can just feel it.' He thought.

About the third group Tohru came out walking alone. She looked up and saw Kyo. He looked right at her. She gave him the same small smile and walked in the opposite direction she would normally go.

Kyo sprinted to catch up with her but before he could she walked through the door that went outside. Kyo speed up to reach her but when he walked outside Tohru vanished within the students making their way to 3rd period.

Kyo looked around but gave up and walked to his next class.

'What was that about?' he questioned.

He walked in the classroom and sat in the back and began twirling his pencil.

'Maybe she regrets last night. Maybe she wishes I didn't kiss her." His thought began to over come him. 'Oh God, what if she thinks if she likes me Akito would take her memories. Maybe she doesn't want me because we could never hug or maybe she realizes I can never truly hold her.' His sadness began to turn into small drops of liquid that threaten to burst out of his eyes. He bit his tongue and fell into a depressing daze as the worse 'what if's' filled every inch of his mind.

'what the fuck was I thinking kissing her?'

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It was lunch and Tohru and Hana walked out to their spot by the fence. Tohru smiled and waved when she saw Uo and Yuki talking. Before she could reach them a strong hand grabbed her wrist and pulled her into a pine tree.

Kyo's eyes were all she saw, well besides the lust and worry that filled them.

The pine tree coned out, giving the right amount of room for two people to have some privacy.

"Hey," he said, his voice husky.

"Hey." Tohru was trying to keep calm.

"I think you've been avoiding me." He said.

"Well, I think that's what you want." Tohru said, trying not to cry.

"Why would you think that?" Kyo asked a little hurt.

"Well, this morning when you didn't tell everyone about me and you and the way you walked behind Yuki and I, I just figured you thought you made a mistake." Tohru said, feeling worse now that it was said out loud instead of in her mind.

"Do you think we made a mistake?" Kyo wondered.

"No I… I never slept so well, and I loved waking up next to you." She answered.

"I feel the same way." He replied, realizing she was already down stairs cooking when he woke. "But I didn't wake up next to you but waking up in your bed was just as good."

"Then why did you hide that from everyone? Wouldn't you be happy to share the thing that's going on between us?" Tohru asked, gaining a little strength.

Kyo looked down at the ground. She was right. If he did feel this way about her he wouldn't want to hide the fact they were together.

"I don't have a good excuse why I didn't tell everyone. It's not that I was ashamed or embarrassed. I just… I was afraid that if Yuki found out he might be mad. Mad enough to tell Akito and if Akito found out he might take you away from us… from me. And if Shigure found out, he wouldn't like it go and if Akito did take you away he would remind me everyday how I caused you to be taken away. So I figured if we just waited a while and see if this is really love or something we really wanted to have before telling everyone, including Akito." Kyo finished.

Tohru felt a little better that he didn't think he made a mistake but a new pain over came her when it hit her. 'He has doubts' she realized. 'He has doubts.'

Kyo could see something was wrong when she bit her lip to hold back her tears.

"You have doubts." She finally said.

"Not doubts," Kyo replied. "But I'm not 100 percent sure if this is something you want."

"I want or you want?"

"What you want. I figured you'd have some doubts or questions. Especially when you realized I could never hold you, or Akito would hate you even more, or the possibility of losing your memories."

"Kyo, if I had any doubts you would know." She said starting to understand.

"How? How would I know." He asked.

"Because I wouldn't do this." She happily answered stepping forward.

She reached up to pull his head down into a kiss.

He grinned widely when he realized what she was doing. He bent down a little more so she wouldn't have to strain just to meet his lips.

When the kiss broke they both took a deep breath, but they were both smiling.

Kyo wrapped his arms around her and Tohru curled hers up in between them. They stood for several moments in the pine tree.

When they heard Uo start questioning Tohru location loudly they decided to end their embrace. They snuck out of the tree on the other side where Kyo pulled her in.

They giggled at themselves sneaking around. Kyo looked down at her if love in his eyes. They meet each other in a kiss and parted. Tohru walked around the tree to Uo and now Hana. And Kyo ran back into the school.

But Yuki on the other hand stood frozen inn his spot. He couldn't believe what he just saw. The milk carton in his hand suddenly dropped.

Kyo and Tohru?

That didn't make sense to him. Haru and Kyo made more sense.

He didn't know what he felt more, pain from his heart being crushed or rage.

Rage from not acting on his feeling for Tohru sooner, or that cat acting too soon.

Ok, there is four. And all I have to say is how much fun it is to write and how good it feels when I see people urging me to continue. I love you all! Oh can you guess whose heart that's being crushed in the title? It's so sad. Where will I take it next?

Oh and I was brought to my attention that in chapter 3 I wrote close when it was should to be clothes. (When Kyo wakes up and looks around.) I'm sorry if it was confusing or threw anyone off.

PLEASE R&R even if flames.

-Counting Down The Days-