PS- This is a long one!!!!!!! so if ya gotta go to the washroom, go NOW!!!!!
PSS- I was up to midnight, since I took my meds and i couldn't get to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
Febuary 14th 1999
January opens her locker, a red note falls to the floor. She bends down and lifts it up. 'i love you... change back to the january i love! i didn't fall in love wit jinx! love 4ever cody' January threw the note into her locker and slammed it shut.
"Burn in hell love, Jinx and January -the forgotten one!" She muttered to herself and walked out to the cold world of winter.
Chapter 4
The Unforgetable Weeks of Tears, Barf, Mew Mew Cafe & Pain But More Or Less Love...
I lift my hands up as I yawn, 'it's nine hours ahead of normal time in tokyo!' Carter looks at me, and I smile. He puts his arms around me, and warms me up. I pull away and ran into the hospital. The nusres smile at me, some look at me with a werid eye since I'm wearing a not Japan uniform. I smile and run up to Carter's room, I could hear him behind me. I jump on the bed, my skirt flies up and I pull it down. Carter jumps beside me, I look up at the celing. My eyes go blank and I'm in my own little world.
'i'm back... after everything i'm back! but only for 14days... only 14days... i'll be sooo tired!' Carter pokes my side and I yelp. I look over to him and glare, he smiles and keeps poking me. I yelp and laugh as the nusre enters and throws a robe at me.
"Get out of those Salt Lake clothes and put this robe on with a nightgown!" I nod and go into a washroom and get changed. I pass her my uniform and it goes and gets it washed. I come out and jump back on to Carter's bed. Then I sit up, Carter is up at the door, he waves to me and leaves.
"Where are you going?" I shout to him. "Chemo!" I nod and go to the comupter and log in.
Jinx
hey lindsay how r ya doin?
Linda
good u?
Jinx
awake and ready 2 party! woot!
Linda
haha, well it's 8:45pm here there?
Jinx
um.. i don't know... it feels like 4:50pm...
Linda
yeah you said it!
Jinx
i'm at the hospital of cancer, u?
Linda
the brooklyn songs, i'm here with lana & lynne
Jinx
y lynne she lives salt lake
Linda
here father sent her here after he couldn't find a place 4 her.
Jinx
oh...
Linda
where carter?
Jinx
chemo... he needs it. where's the new place gonna be?
Linda
well the site says that it's gonna be sent down new york city. i don't have to fly far if it is, but u and all the other girls will have a rough time getting here and staying awak.
Jinx
new york eh? sounds cool.
Linda
yeah... i hope it's in one of the states, you know brooklyn, queens, the bronxs, or any other (forget the rest!)
Jinx
the bronxs would be cool or queens! well i gotta go... i'll talk or see u later! bye!
Linda
bye good luck on everything!
xXx
I dailed the number then hung up, then dailed again then hung up. Carter grabbed the phone and dailed the number. He listened and smiled, I could feel my face go pale white. He puts the phone down and leans forward and kisses me on my cheek. "He's not home." I nodded and start to bite my nails.
I feel a nusre tap my shoulder, I stand and walk to the room. I sit and bite my nails even more, Carter sits on my bed and strokes my hair.
"Hey baby girl? Are you okay?" I feel tears start to burn my eyes, they fall on the bed. Carter leans to me and kisses my cheek again. "I'm gonna see if they can let us go out today... okay?" I nod and close my eyes as he leaves.
'most boys are jerks... but...' "January?" I sit up at the sound of my old name, in the door way I see Cody standing his school page over his shoulder. "It's Jinx..." I say sitting up, he got on the end of the bed and moved closer to me.
"I missed you so much," He pushed me down, and kissed my cheek. I started to push and shove him. "Cody... stop... Cody get off of me! Cody... Cody!" Then I felt a heat on my face, I touch it and look up to Cody. "Did you just slap me?" He nodded and kissed my neck, "Your still too fat!" I look to the door. Carter drops our coats, I reach out my hand out to him and he grabs me and pulls me off the bed.
"Get out of here Cody! You think you can come in here and just love her again?" Cody stood and nodded, he reached out to grab me agin when Carter pulled me away and lifted up my dress. I was in shock, I look to Carter he had tears in his eyes.
"See! You made her think she was fat and she's dying right in front of you! I'm helping her, and you? You come here and slap her! And call her fat?" I sallowed a rock in the back of my throat. 'it waits to come out, it has to! i ate, i failed! make it stop please make it stop!' I push Carter away and I run down the hall grabbing a toothbrush. I hear Carter yelling at people to stop me, but I just run past them and bang the bathroom door open, lock it. I lean over the toilet and stuck it down my throat, everything I had for dinner came up. ' it's been 20min, i'll get most of the fat out...'
"Jinx! Stop it please, stop!" 'keep pushing jinx.. all that fat gone in 5 mins of barfing!' The door bangs open and Carter grabs my wasit and pulls me away from the toilet. He holds me tight, I can feel tears on my back.
"Jinx! No more, I beg you! Stop, don't let him control your life!" I nodded and lay down, Carter lays beside me in the womens washroom.
xXx
I stand outside waiting for the taxi, Carter rumbs my shoulders as I freeze to death. We see cars pass by us, little kids staring at us. Carter truns my head to his, and opens my mouth. "You teeth are going yellow." I smile at him. "I haven't brushed in a week." Carter couldn't help but laugh, but I knew he was being serious. A honk sends me into orbit, the cab driver waves to us. Carter pulls me to the taxi and let's me get in frist. I pull at my school uniform, and tug at my hat. I click and unclick my chains, Carter hits my hand.
"Stop that! Bit your nails, or something..." I smile and bite my nails. The cab driver stops and lets us out. Carter pulls me out and lends me up to the doors, he truns around and gives me $30.
"Listen, take the subway home and no detours!" I roll my eyes, "And don't take candy from strangers and don't take weed esle the guy says so because he wants to rape you at night, and knows that you touch-" "KO, I get it." He leans and kisses my cheek again, and runs back to the cab. "No detours!" "Or Weed!" I yell to him as the cab drives away.
I look up and down at the doorm the pink door. 'how many times have i went through these doors?' I open the doors and duck.
Kikki goes flying over my head, out the door into the snow. I re-stand and walk forward, Renee's eyes open wide to me. She slams the bill on the table to a lady and asks her to leave. The lady gets up and walks out, Renee locks the doors. I see Zoey peek out of the kicthen, she runs to me. I hug her and look over to Corina sitting at the table, Corina finshes her tea and walks over to me.
Renee grabs me and truns me around. "What are you doing here?" I sit and point to the door. "Did you guys forget about Kikki?" Renee truns and runs back to the door, Kikki runs in and jumps on Zoey. "She locked me outside!!!"
Elliot and Welsey walk out to me and smile, Welsey sits and passess tea. "How have you been doing?" "Better," I say as I push the tea away, Welsey frowning and then nodding sadly. I turn to the girls, and pull out my powerpendent.
"Lynx eh?" Elliot nods grabbing the pendent and placed it on the table. "Yes... but your lucky that you live there now, because we got a major tip that something is up. A girl named 'Phoniex' is ruling the skyes and a new girl named the 'Midnight' is ruling the ground. Ever since you left no one has see Midnight any where, dare to explain?" I roll my eyes and slump in the chair.
"It's me of cousre!" I yawn, and look at Renee. Her eyes said death just like Beth's did. "But if you dare to dream, I ran away and someone saw me. They were getting mugged and I saved her, no BFD!" "BFD?" Zoey said looking at me, I sigh and wave her off. "Anyways, I have things to do in such little time! I'll talk to you later, bye ya!" I walk out covering my head with my school hat and fixed my srcaf.
"You better choose sides, you hear me." Renee says before I leave, I smile to her. "I choose to skinny and not have yellow teeth.. but to have one I have to give up something to get the other... and I'm not willing to do that!"
xXx
I sit down at the grave, and run my hands over the dead flowers. "I miss you guys soo much... Carter didn't mean to kill you, he was under control by the dark evil that had his soul! It's been three months since I've been here, I was drunk... the second time, then that same day I went to school! I was so dumb and I got sent to the hospital and they weighted me and gound I weighted 87pounds... then they told me, I smiled and said good..."
I pulled out the dasies and laid them on the graves. "Then I was sent to the hospital and put on a deit of fat, I would fake it and run to the washroom. I would puke... I was a jinx in your world and everyone esles... I didn't want to live anymore, I tried it again... to kill myself but Carter pulled me off that cold icy bridge. The couple months after were hard, but they said they wanted me to go to the Salt Lake clinic, I said no and ran away. Then i came here and drunk some more, and almost let my blood kill me... I'm sorry!"
I laid on the ground and pulled a bright yellow sunflower out and placed it on the graves. "I'm sorry... I love you but... I'm still Jinx..." My tears frooze on my face, I my fingers along the sunflower.
"I hope... this won't break your heart... just one cause for your tears but I'm sorry soo... sorry..."
I feel a hand go on my back and run up and down. I feel a hand go around my wasit and lift me up. My body went limp and looked up to Carter.
"Carter-" "No talking, I knew you would come here... so I just made the taxi go this way. Don't worry..." He looked down and kissed my forehead. "I'll tell no one that Jinx Black crys," I smile and close my eyes.
"Thank you..." I say looking down.
xXx
The next three days I laid in my bed, I felt Carter move my hair and kiss me but I didn't respond. He would leave and the room would be cold and dark, I would sit knowing I had 5days left, 4 days left, 2 days left... no more days left. Carter lifted me up and touch my forehead.
"You don't have a fever..." He says in shock, and moving away my hair again. "I just don't want to live anymore," Carter drops me and stands. "Not this shit again!" I move to sit up when, I fall back down and close my eyes. I sit back up and look at him.
"I'm sorry..." Carter pulls my jacket down and throws it on the bed. "Get ready, we have 12hrs before your flight comes! I have to get on the plane and get you there... then I come back to Japan." I nodded and pull on my uniform.
Carter opens the door to a limo, and we get in. "Why are we in a limo?" I look to the front and see Mr. Lenny. He passes Carter a bag, he smiles and passes it to me. I give him a werid look and look in, I gasp then look up to him.
"Where?" Carter smiled and leaned back. "Not telling, but you have to get dressed-" I leaned forward and hugged him tight. "Thank... you!" I said threw tears. I jumped out of the car and ran to the dressing room, Carter went with Mr. Lenny to the seats.
I looked at myself in the mirror, black dress with a sliver star and purple necklace. I smiled, and began to cry again. Corina comes in and hit my arm, I look up. She smiles down to me.
"Hey... um... you're up next!" I nod and stand walking over behind the curtian. I smile and close my eyes. They part and I look out and see everyone smiling at me. I feel tears fall on my volin and I begin to play.
xXx
Jinx
i'm on my way back...
Linda
i'm staying here
Jinx
y r u better?
Linda
no, the clinic has been moved to the bronxs. a long fly jinx, good luck!
Jinx
thanks... very much... xoxo see you in time...
xXx
I cry as me and Carter walk out of the termail, Carter rumbs my shoulders as we enter. Tears fall like a fountian of the past, I remember when I would cry this hard. Someone would hug January, but I am Jinx... and I. DON'T.CRY!!
Carter truns me around so he can look into my eyes. My eyes flood more with tears, as he hugs me. I see all the girls looking at me, Beth stands to get a better look. Lindsay starts to cry, Lana and Lynne cover there mouths so they won't barf from their tears. I see Rozette and Liza holding the nusre's hands. Luke stood with Lucky, both had tears falling from there faces.
"But, I don't want to go back... please don't make me go back..." Carter hugs me tighter and speaks into my neck. "I want you to go back, please?" I shook my head and let my head fall, I looked to the carpet. Carter hugged me tighter and looked at all the girls. "They're all are sick, family and friends around them. But your different you have something speical." "What?" I ask, as he leans forward and kisses my lips. I feel my legs trun to jelly, and I almost fall.
"Me." I smile and walk past the doors, Lindsay gives me hug and so does Lana. Lynne sits with tears running down her face.
xXx
I sit in the back of the coach bus going to the Bronxs. The red heads are at the front watching a movie. Lana is reading Harry Potter, Lynne is staring out into the rain. Lindsay is typing on the new laptop her mom got her, and I'm listening to Christina Agurelia on my walkman.
Everyone is qiuet, after going back to real life and coming back to the Clinic is hard on a person. The nurses sat up in the front, I look down into my bag. It was big and fat. 'carter packed it,' I lifted it up and pulled out a stuffed black cat. A note fell and read it from my seat.
"get better soon! Love all your friends and family... xoxox" I held the cat tighter and looked out the window. Lindsay comes back and hands me a CD, I look up to her and look at the CD.
"What's this for?" "Well, since it's 2002. I got you a CD, hope you enjoy!" I nodded and opened it. It had the title Let Go and by a girl named Avril Lavigne. I look up to Lindsay she winks and sits back down.
xXx
I flop on my bed, theres only 2 bed, 2 pine chest, 2 computers, 2 lamps and 2 bathrooms. I hear my room mate flop on the next to me, I look over to her. She smiled, it was the new girl.
"Sage LeClare. Sage or Lune. Prais, France. Everything..." I nod and trun over. "January Black. Call me Jinx or esle! Tokyo, Japan. Everything too, and heart broken... Mrs. LeClare, welcome to Clinic Helpful. Sunrise School, and Sunset Clinic for the eatting disordered."
TBC...