A/N:
Hey a new chapter, sorry if it seemed like ages, my comp had a field day last night.
Was it my music or was it my nightmare, it was either all.
Its somewhat fixed now.
Anyway hope you enjoy the new chapter, in Miley's mussing you may guess what's going to come up soon.
Tell me what you think in a review.
On with the story………..
Oliver's mussing
Argh why did I even bother going around to Miley's house, I feel ten times worse now.
She will never look at me, the way she looks at him.
Why is it that all girls fall head over heels for pretty boys with money and good looks while the half decent semi waged guys are left in the dust?
Well no need to answer that, because I know why and the truth hurts.
Why doesn't Jake just shove a sword through my heart, it would hurt less then the feeling of never having her in my arms.
One more thing.
Fuck you Jake Ryan.
Wow the feeling of hurt lessened somewhat, now to actually say it to him.
Miley's mussing
Oliver was acting weird before, which I suppose for him is normal but that's beside the point.
He just seemed eager to leave once I arrived.
But I sort of don't blame him, he was the fifth wheel, geez being a third wheel is bad enough.
Oliver needs a girlfriend; I need to hook him up with someone.
As if I'll like him in the process, it has happened to some people.
It won't happen to me.
Will it?
Oliver is cute and… what the heck…..Oliver is just a friend.
I'm going to help my friend find a girlfriend.
That's all…..
Normal P.O.V
Oliver walked to school, the following morning, feeling like a deer right before a lion was about to attack it.
Low and scared, he was scared of facing her.
But he was also scared of the carnival that was on that afternoon.
It was a back to school carnival to celebrate back to school ness.
He wasn't the only one who thought that wasn't a reason to celebrate.
But all ideas on that were diminished when they heard the world Carnival.
Oliver repressed a shudder.
Ok why didn't he like carnivals?
Oliver thought back to when that was…
A ten year old Oliver ran into the carnival, excited about all the stalls and rides with a big smile on his little face.
"Honey slow down" his mother said, catching Oliver in her arms as he tried racing past her.
"But I want the candy corn" he shouted and strained in her grasp.
"Son you mean Carmel corn and you got to wait till we ridden all the rides first ok" Michael, Oliver's dad exclaimed.
Oliver stopped struggling and sighed in defeat.
His mum smiled and let got of him and led him over to a ride.
"Mum can I go find the clowns?" he asked, tugging at her jeans.
"Well you must go with you father… Oliver come back here" his mother Julie yelled loudly, as Oliver raced to find clowns.
He turned a corner and found himself out the back of a tent, a clown was sitting smoking and talking to his other clown friend.
"Hey mark, there's a kid over there" Marks friend said.
Mark stubbed his smoke and advanced on Oliver who didn't seem to notice how dodgy the man was.
"Clown" he exclaimed.
Mark grinned and lifted Oliver and started taking him to the tent.
"What are you doing?" Oliver asked, fear shadowing him.
"Doesn't your mummy ever teach you to not talk to strangers" Mark said and threw Oliver on the floor of the tent and starting pulling his pants down.
"Mummy said I don't fear clowns" he yelled and kicked out, crying as Mark tried to tug his pants off.
"Stop struggling it will be over soon" Mark said, he leaned forward and Oliver screamed loudly with all his might.
He could hear the laughter in his ears, ringing through his soul as his virginity was stole from him in a darkened tent.
The other clown was laughing and smoking.
"Tell anyone and a clown will come to you in your sleep and kill you" Mark breathed and stood up; he kicked the shaking Oliver once and walked out of the tent.
Oliver crawled slowly and escaped out the other side.
He pulled his pants up and managed to run to his mother Julie.
"Honey don't cry, where were you?" she asked, stroking his hair.
"I fell over" Oliver lied.
"Come on let's go find your father" Julie said and took Oliver away; he glanced back at the tent and closed his eyes.
"Can't tell the clowns will kill me" he whispered and turned away, ready to push the memory aside once and for all.
Oliver had stopped on the street and closed his eyes, blinking back tears.
No one knew what had happened five years ago; it had been his dirty secret.
The reason he couldn't watch the movie IT or listen to 'cants sleep the clowns will eat me' by Alice Cooper.
Why he always had trouble sleeping, but he couldn't tell anyone.
Or what the man said could happen.
He arrived at school, feeling ill and desperate to go home.
He didn't have to go to the carnival.
'Face your fear sometime Oliver and Miley will be there' his brain shouted at him.
Oliver ran a hand through his hair.
He had to be brave, but only for her.
Everything he did was for her
HM
"Yah I love carnivals" Miley exclaimed as she walked into the carnival entrance which was the football yard.
"Err their alright" Jake said, dislinking his hand from Miley to show his school id to the doorman.
Lilly and Miley did the same.
"Where's Oliver, is he meeting us here?" Miley exclaimed looking around.
"Who knows, he'll find us, he's a big boy" Lilly said to Miley who rolled her eyes in response.
Jake laughed and slung an arm around Miley's shoulder.
"It's a shame Jackson couldn't come, I'm a third wheel now" Lilly said angrily.
"Well he's a senior and this is a freshman carnival" Miley said.
Lilly just sighed then suddenly perked up.
"Wow the rollercoaster" Lilly yelled to Miley and they raced off excitedly.
HM
Oliver walked over to the entrance; ignoring the wave of nauseous threatening to crash the shores of his mouth.
"ID kid" the door guy said.
Oliver rolled his eyes and fished out his school ID from his bag.
"Alright, here's your pass and food cost extra. Have fun" the guy said.
"I'll try but no promises" Oliver retorted, the man shrugged and served the next person.
Oliver did an once-over of the location; he noticed a whir of curly hair on the rollercoaster.
Bingo, he had spotted Miley.
He walked over and stopped, noticing the Mr. Ego himself watching Miley.
Oliver stormed over and stood next to him, he shielded his eyes and looked up, noticing Miley and Lilly laughing as they went upside down and as the rollercoaster paused.
He removed his hand from above his eyes and turned to Jake 'ego' Ryan and attempted a half arse smile.
Again this was for her.
"They're having fun aren't they" Oliver managed to say, even though the urge to punch the git was empowering.
"Yeah, but I think sex is better" Jake said, in a bored tone.
Oliver clenched his fists.
"What" he spat.
"I said" Jake started, facing Oliver.
"Miley has more pride then to sleep with a dick like you" Oliver spat before he could stop himself, Jake was pushing his buttons.
Seeing he had struck a nerve, Jake kept on talking.
"She has though, and sounds like this… ohh Jake, harder, yes" Jake said and smirked.
Oliver stepped forward menacingly.
"What's your problem, do you want to be fucked up today" Oliver snapped.
"Simple, you're a threat" Jake said and turned back to watching Miley, as the rollercoaster had started up again.
Oliver laughed.
"And how is that, must of taken all of your willpower to admit you think I'm a threat" Oliver said and looked at the rollercoaster which was slowing down.
"You love her, that's why… I'm not completely blind" Jake spat and turned to Oliver.
"I'm watching you ok, don't fuck up my relationship with Miley or I will fuck you up" Jake snapped.
"Wow, big words Jake, I'm fucking scared. Not." Oliver snapped and folded his arms.
"Since when did I give any indication to liking Miley Huh?"
"It's so obvious that I almost tripped over it" Jake said.
Oliver laughed.
"You're a dumb arse, seriously. I'm her friend. I care for her and I would rather she be with someone who returns the favor… you don't. She's a trophy to you" Oliver snapped and grabbed Jake's shirt.
"If you do hurt her, I will make you wish you had never known me" Oliver whispered dangerously and let go of Jake's shirt.
Jake just sneered.
"You best keep your distance; you're only her best friend and nothing more... I mean please you're pathetic. As if a girl like her would ever go for a guy like you, I'm surprised she's even your friend" Jake retorted.
"What Jake" Miley snapped, Lilly was standing next to her.
They had just gotten off the ride.
"Yes Jake, what?" Oliver said slowly, he felt angry more then he had ever been.
Jake was a fucking jerk, acting like Oliver was lower then him.
"Nothing sweetie, just a disagreement" Jake said.
Miley looked at Oliver who didn't acknowledge it.
"Ok if you're sure, you guys are ok right, are you friends? I want you to get on with my friends Jake" Miley said.
Jake smiled a sickingly sweet smile and hugged Miley, so her back was to Oliver.
He smirked at Oliver and said "yes best of"
Miley pulled back, grinning.
"That's great, since we're all here let's go play go karts" she exclaimed and pulled Jake along.
Oliver went to follow rather reluctantly but Lilly grabbed his arm stopping him.
"What was that argument really about?" she asked.
"And don't lie; I've known you too long, I'll see right through it"
Oliver breathed in deeply.
"I love her lil" he managed, it felt good to get it off his chest even though he sure Lilly already knew.
Lilly smiled, and hugged him.
Oliver was taken aback, but he hugged back.
Ignoring the hole in heart from the pain of how much Jake's last words had really hurt him, even though he had let on they hadn't.
"Um as much as I like hugs, why are you hugging me?" Oliver asked.
"Because, I knew you liked her but I was waiting for confirmation. Now I can play matchmaker" Lilly said and pulled back, looking very excited.
"Don't, she's with Jake" Oliver said, blinking his eyes furiously.
The tears were close to escaping the eyes ducts now.
"But I… Oliver, are you crying" Lilly said, shock apparent on her face.
"No I have something in my eye" Oliver said and before Lilly could stop him. He took off running.
Unfortunately, being very athletic, Lilly caught up to him and pulled him around into a strong hug.
Oliver collapsed into it gratefully, fuck he hated being weak, but it felt good to just let it out.
"Oliver, god you really do love her" Lilly whispered, stroking his hair.
Oliver pulled back, as it was getting awkward.
"No I love Santa" he muttered in sarcasm.
Lilly just rolled her eyes.
"I know it's hard but why don't you try telling her how you…' Lilly started.
"No I cant, look can't we just forget this for now, and I guess I'll tell her in my own time. For now I'll just deal with it" Oliver said, knowing he was lying.
Lilly sighed, putting an arm around his shoulder and leading him to a seat.
"But you're not, dealing with it; that's the problem" she said.
Oliver wiped his eyes furiously.
"Thanks captain obvious, look I can't do anything. She'll never feel the same. I'm her dorky best friend and that's just all I'll ever be and the sooner I accept that. The better it is for everyone" Oliver muttered.
Lilly just sighed.
"Boys" she said and turned Oliver's head to her.
"Do you know what would have happened if I hadn't told Jackson how I felt or him tell me?" she asked Oliver.
"I don't know he would have turned gay" he said.
"Be serious Oliver, you can't have an emotional moment without turning it into a joke" Lilly said and sighed.
"Well we both would have wondered what if and ended up being with people we didn't like for no good reason but anyway even if Miley doesn't feel the same way, it's a strong if cause I'm sure she does feel the same, well if you tell her at least you wont keep wallowing in maybes and what if's as it does your head in believe me I know" Lilly said.
"What have you been reading your mums therapy books again" Oliver joked.
"Oliver, I'm serious. Ok you don't have to tell her now, but will you do it eventually" Lilly stated.
Oliver sighed.
"Fine I will" he said.
"That's great now let's go find Miley and Jake the idiot… what I hate him too" Lilly said, as Oliver stared at her in surprise.
"Really or are you pretending for me" Oliver asked.
"No I think he's a self centered jerk, I've seen him flirt with other girls in front of Miley and she ignores it" Lilly said.
Oliver grinted his teeth.
"Don't do anything stupid ok" Lilly warned him.
"Aw you don't let me have any fun" he whined.
"But if you want Miley to not be angry, then punching Jake will err make her angry" Lilly said.
"Yeah I guess you're right, I hate when that happens" Oliver muttered.
"I'm a woman, it's my gift to be right, anyway let's find…never mind they're heading over" Lilly said, as Miley and Jake walked over.
"Hey there you guys are, Oliver your eyes are red you ok?" Miley asked in concern
Jake looked at her then at Oliver who avoided his gaze.
Oliver felt his heart beat fast and his palms start to sweat.
'She just asked if you're ok, not profess dying love to you' his brain mocked.
"Um..." Oliver started.
Lilly elbowed him.
"Im fine" he corrected himself.
Miley nodded.
"Hey let's go see the clowns, I know it's babyish but I want to feel like when I first went to a carnival so yeah let's go" she chorused.
Lilly giggled and stood up, but stopped noticing Oliver wasn't following or being excited.
He looked scared.
"Miles um come here" Lilly said.
Miley walked over, Jake followed looking impatient.
"Oliver?" Miley questioned, waving her hand his face.
Oliver looked up at them.
"What" he said, trying to stop his heart from flying from his ribcage.
'It was five years ago, conquer your fear' his brain snapped.
Oliver stood up.
"Ok let's go" he managed to say.
HM
"Ok there they are" Lilly exclaimed and pointed to two clowns by a tent, one was smoking and the other was trying up a balloon for a little girl who took it then raced off giggling.
Oliver gulped, his insides turning to ice.
He felt ill as he took in the clowns.
Lilly and Miley walked up to the one with the balloons.
Jake was walking over when he stopped and turned to the frozen and scared Oliver.
"Hey Jake" Amber said, her and Ashley were walking along, linked arms and pretty much looking as skanky as ever.
Some things didn't change.
"Um hey, bye" he said distantly.
They scowled and started walked off, not before winking at Oliver.
He hadn't noticed as he was still staring at the clowns in shock.
"Earth to Oaken" they said.
He didn't reply.
"Oken" Jake said and followed his gaze to where Miley and Lilly were getting balloons and the other clown was smoking still.
"Aw is Oliver scared of clowns" Jake said and laughed.
Ashley and Amber joined in thinking Jake might like them if they did.
Oliver stopped staring and looked at Jake with a half attempt at a scowl.
"What" he said angrily.
"Are you scared of the big bad clown" Jake asked and laughed harder.
Miley and Lilly were walking back.
"Jake I have my balloon let's..." she started to say but Oliver had grabbed Jake's shirt and pulled him roughly towards him.
"Shut the fuck up" he said dangerously.
"Or what you'll send the clown after me" he said and smirked.
Amber and Ashley giggled; they stopped off Lilly's glare.
"Bye Jake" they chorused and walked off.
"Oliver let go of Jake" Lilly said gently.
"You'll shut up Jake if you know what's good for you" Oliver snapped and let go of Jake who started singing a song.
"Can't sleep or the clowns will eat me" he sung.
Oliver, who had begun to walk off, stopped and turned around.
"What did you say?" he demanded dangerously.
"I said, 'can't sleep or the clowns will eat me', it's a song haven't you heard it" Jake said as if talking to a five year old, he ignored Miley and Lilly arguing for him to stop annoying Oliver.
"I know what song that is" Oliver said and sighed.
"I'm going home"
"Why did the clowns scare you away" Jake asked and snickered.
Miley glared at him, including Lilly.
Oliver scowled.
"That's it, I'm sorry Miley, Lilly" Oliver snapped and he swung his fist, enjoying the sickening crunch it made when it connected with Mr. Ego's face.
"Oliver" Lilly and Miley exclaimed in horror.
"I told you not fuck with me" Oliver said to Jake.
"Geez get a life, I was only being stupid. Just because you're a little baby who's scared of clowns" Jake spat, blood dribbling down his face.
Oliver felt his face grow warm, and before he could stop himself he shouted.
"I WAS RAPED BY A CLOWN OK, THERE NOW YOU KNOW WHY IM SCARED OF THEM, SO TELL ME YOU FUCKING CUNT HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU WERE ONLY TEN YEARS OLD AT YOUR FIRST FUCKING CARNIVAL AND A FUCKING CLOWN DRAGGED YOU INTO A TENT AND ASSULTED YOU. I HAVE HAD IT UP TO HERE WITH YOUR SHIT OK, SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE"
Oliver screamed, then after his rant clamped a hand to his mouth as if hoping he could retrieve his words back and stuff them back in.
But it was too late.
"Look what you made me do" Oliver whispered.
Ignoring the fact that a lot of people were looking at him, including the two clowns, with their mouths open.
"You have no idea what you've just done do you, I didn't want anyone to know that, now they do. Are you fucking happy ok. I hate you" Oliver said even then he knew how silly he sounded, he couldn't think of what else to say so he then took off, unable to face anyone especially her
HM
Lilly stared after her best friend as he disappeared through the crowds.
She felt an icy feeling down her back.
Why hadn't she noticed that something might have happened to him at the carnival, the way he acted towards clowns or carnivals in general would explain it.
Why hadn't she noticed?
What kind of friend was she?
"Fuck, your loser friend did a number on me" Jake snapped.
Miley just scowled and shoved Jake, who looked at her in confusion.
"Miles?" he questioned.
"Save it Jake, how could you be so horrible to him. I just… argh I can't even look at you.
Think about what you did and call me later and maybe I might still consider being your girlfriend" Miley snapped and hurried off after Oliver.
Jake followed her running with his eyes.
He turned to Lilly who was sniffing, meaning she was crying.
"Lilly could you talk to Miley for me?" he asked.
Lilly let out a pained wail; a few people looked at her.
She turned to Jake who was eyeing her oddly.
"You bastard, leave Oliver alone ok" she snapped.
"For fucks sake, I wasn't the one that raped him. Don't lose it at me ok" he spat.
Lilly cried louder and raced off leaving a confused and broken nosed Jake Ryan behind.
HM
Miley found Oliver outside the front of the school, sitting with his head in his hands.
She walked over cautiously.
"Miles" Lilly said, walking up to her.
"Oliver" Miley said, ignoring Lilly.
He didn't move.
She grabbed Lilly's arm and they both walked over to their friend.
Lilly sat on one side and Miley on the other and placed an arm each around him.
Oliver let out a sob.
Miley felt her heart clench at the sight and sound of her friends pain.
"Oliver why didn't you tell us what happened to you?" Lilly managed to ask.
"Would you have believed me, because it seemed so surreal to me that I didn't think anyone would believe it" Oliver whispered, he looked up at Lilly.
His face was tear streaked.
He sniffed and wiped his face on shirt sleeve.
Miley resisted a comment; she turned his face to her.
"I'm sorry about Jake" Miley said.
"Don't be, you shouldn't be apologizing he should be, you're dumping him aren't you" Oliver stated.
Miley didn't answer, she looked down.
"You're not" Oliver asked, his face fell.
"I can't, I like him too much, I..." Miley rambled.
"What I can't believe you would after what he said to me… I... argh, just forget it… go back to your selfish boyfriend." Oliver snapped and turned to face Lilly, showing Miley he was ignoring her.
"Oliver" Miley said, grabbing his arm.
He shock it off.
"Just go Miley, if you can't see how much of an idiot he is then it's not my problem" Oliver spat.
"Oliver he's sorry ok, he was only kidding about the clown thing. He didn't know you were you know by one" Miley said timidly.
"Raped, you can say it ok, I did" Oliver spat, turning to face her.
Miley blinked, tears welling in her eyes.
Oliver felt his heart beat in his chest; he couldn't stay mad at her.
He loved her too much even if she loved that jerk.
"I'm sorry" he said.
"What?" she asked.
Lilly stood up, walking off to leave them to talk.
They needed time.
"For snapping, I've kept it a secret for so long so I guess it just came out, I took offence to what he was saying. But he doesn't like me ok" Oliver said.
"He's probably worried you will hit on me or something, I don't know. He's coming round so don't worry" Miley said.
Oliver shrugged.
"Since you like him then I guess I can make more of effort but he has too as well ok" Oliver said, that took a lot of effort to say that.
Again it was for her.
"Thanks Oliver" Miley said, hugging him "you should tell your parents about the carnival"
Oliver pulled back.
"Sometime, not at the moment. Need to get my head round shouting it too half the school" he answered.
Miley just nodded and rubbed his back.
"So you coming back in?" she asked.
"No I'll see you tomorrow at school ok, need a lie down" Oliver answered.
"Alright, are you going to be ok, I could walk you home" Miley said, giving him a concerned look.
"Miles, I'll be fine. I'll ring you and Lilly later ok" he said.
Miley nodded and hugged him goodbye and raced inside.
Oliver breathed heavily and headed home, even though he said he would be ok, he knew inside that he wouldn't be.
Not while she was with him
TBC…
A/N
Hey sorry if some of them seemed out of character but it's just what had to happen for the chapter to work.
Most of them time I do write characters differently cause that's what is fun.
Anyway this was a hard chapter to write, so much emotion.
Jake is the biggest git ever, tell me how we can crush him in a review lol.
Anyway soon Oliver may realize he has to move on and guess what that could be when Miley likes him.
Dun dun,
It will be revealed soon.
Sorry about the lack of Jackson and Robbie Ray, they will be in the next chapter.
Thanks to reviewers:
Crono, iheartdisney128, mileyclover, sexystar101, bookworm, anmieaddict13.
In answer to bookworm's question, he's just a random person who works at Ricos lol.
Well I should have a new update soon.
Remember review review….
It makes me happy and well u won't like it when I'm angry.
Lol I'm being silly.
Anyway till next time
KAT