Chapter 4

"Why do we hate each other?" the words flew out her mouth before she even registered it and they both stared at each other.

Nathan stared at Haley as if she came from another planet. He couldn't believe that she was actually asking him that…after almost two years of ignoring it she was really going to bring it up again.

"How can you even ask me that?" he spat out as he jumped up, pushing his hands into his pockets. Haley flinched at his harsh words but didn't back down.

"I asked why we hate each other… I want to know Nathan. And seeing as you are the only one that can tell me I guess you should…" she stated and Nathan didn't even try to hide his confusion.

"You're supposed to know…why do you need to ask me?" he asked and Haley gave a sigh as she wrapped her arms around her body.

"I'm having a bit of a memory lapse okay…not that it's any of your business…and I need to find out. So are you going to tell me or not?" Nathan's face etched in pain as he looked at her.

"Why don't you just go ask your sister…she knows everything!" Haley's brow creased as she gave him her best confused look. She realized that she had that a look a lot lately.

"What does Taylor have to do with this?" she asked confused and Nathan laughed.

"Not Taylor…Rachel! You really do have some kind of memory lapse…you'd never forget your own sister…" he stated and Haley smiled as she recognized some of the old Nathan in him. But old Nathan was only there for a few seconds before his face went blank and he gave her a cold stare.

"But you'd think that you'd remember aborting our child."

Haley's intake of breath was the only noise that filled the space around them. Every part of her wanted to believe that he was lying but when she looked up into his eyes she noticed the horrible truth…he wasn't lying one bit. She saw all the hurt and hate in his eyes and she knew it was true. Haley felt her body lose its power to hold her up but she didn't give her anytime to fall down. Instead she turned and ran…ran as fast as she could. She was sure Nathan was calling after her but she didn't stop.

Haley only stopped when she reached the one place where she felt safe. With tears streaming down her face she knocked on the door and when nobody opened she started to bang her fists against the door. Suddenly it swung open and two arms came around her – pulling her into a fierce hug. Slowly she was led into the bedroom where she had spent so much time crying her eyes out. She sat down – the arms still around her – and cried into her shoulder.

"Haley-Bop what's wrong?" she asked worriedly and only when the other girl spoke did Haley look up. Though it felt weird to see Rachel (who didn't look the same as in her real life…she was fat here) being so worried about her. Even weirder was to imagine fat Rachel as being her older sister (A/N: Rachel is a few years older in the Nightmare Universe). But Haley had seen enough weird things in this nightmare to not be bothered by it. She smiled at Rachel – a broken smile – before she felt her sister hug her tightly.

"Hales…you need to tell me what happened…" Rachel urged and Haley shook her head – unable to form the words.

"Honey Nathan called me a few minutes ago…he said you were acting all weird and you freaked out." Her sister informed her and Haley looked up – surprised.

"He…he called?" Rachel smiled down at her and nodded her head.

"Nathan still cares Hales…he'll never stop caring about you no matter what happened…" Haley sat straighter and pushed away the tears with her hands.

"Rachel…you have to tell me the truth…about the abortion…" her voice broke but she knew her sister understood. Nathan had probably filled her in on the memory loss.

"You and Nathan started secretly dating when you were both 15. Nobody saw it coming…but you two made each other happy. You kept it secret for 7 months until you found out you were pregnant. I guess you and Nathan must have had a huge fight about it afterwards. He wanted to keep the baby and you tried to explain to him that having a baby then wasn't the right thing. You said you wanted an abortion and Nathan blew his top. You guys didn't talk for weeks." Rachel said with a frown and Haley felt her heart stop.

"So I did it? I killed my…" she couldn't say the words but Rachel shook her head.

"You told me you had doubts…that maybe you and Nathan could make it through with a baby. You were starting to like the idea of having his baby. Then one day you came to me and told me you were going to keep the baby. You were suddenly so excited to have it. You went running down the stairs to tell him but on the last step you tripped and fell."

"Oh my god…" Haley breathed out as her hand went over her stomach.

"The miscarriage came as a huge shock to you and even to me. But you refused to let me help you through it. Weeks went by before you finally went back to normal and by then Nathan was sick with worry. I don't know everything but you told Nathan you had the abortion. You knew it would hurt him and push him away from you and you wanted that. You didn't want him near you because as you said it… he reminded you too much of the baby. So that's how you two started fighting. A few months later you and Chris were married and that's about it."

Haley's tears didn't stop as Rachel hugged her closely again. She laid on the bed – staring up at the roof – as Rachel called Chris and told him she was spending time with her sister. She was fast asleep by the time Rachel called Nathan.