What have you done?!
"Alright listen I know I've been a bitch, but it just took over. I couldn't help it. The point is I am sorry." Rogue look with a satisfied smile to the thing in front of her. From the corner of her eyes she looked to the mirror. In front of her there was a blue bal pinned on a broomstick and beside her she had positioned a large and long mirror so she could study her movements. The last times she had tried to talk to Kurt she had always messed it up and she didn't want to do that again, this might very well be her last chance. She had practiced and thought over her speech a few times and she was pretty happy about the progress she had made. Now she just stood there looking in the mirror considering if she should ask someone to give his or her opinion first or not. But who would she ask: Logan or Kitty. She knew Logan had experiences with difficult situations and she knew he would be there for her if she needed him but at the other hand maybe his aggressive attitude weren't really ideal for this mission and then there was the fact that Logan wasn't such a talkative person. So even if he knew what to do he probably couldn't explain it. Then there was Kitty. She was Kurt's best friend and knew everything about him but she'd probably hated her right now because she had hurt him and even if Kitty was a lot more talkative she wasn't very good at explanations either. Maybe she should just do it her way, maybe she was just meant to do this alone. Just as usual. The smile left Rogue's face as she kept looking in the mirror with a sad expression, thinking it all over. She just couldn't afford to mess this up. She might not have cared much about losing her mother but she couldn't afford losing her brother.
"Listen Kurt I really do know what you are going threw we'll both keep looking and we'll find our answers together some day."
"Either way sis we're in this together. I mean it Rogue what ever you're going true I'm here for you, okay."
She shook her head slightly tearing her conscious back to this world? She had made a promise and she wouldn't break it.
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Kurt had gone to his room immediately after he had met Kitty on this way in. Since he had talked to Toad he had been thinking about a way to talk to Rogue but he had came out blank. Kurt was never too good at the problems talking thing, he was talkative enough but that was just a mask. Of course he was jolly and stuff like that but never less he was very sensitive as well and he didn't like to show that too much. It made him feel so vulnerable. As a helpless prey for a predator. "Damn vere is it?!" he turned all the things in his closed up side down. What if someone had found it? What if? No it couldn't be… Kurt started to panic lightly and kept throwing cloths to all directions. When he had talked to Kitty it had struck him, he knew where he could find the needed support to talk to Rogue. A support that would be unique: someone who would listen and wouldn't interfere, who wouldn't try to stop him who would just be there and that was all he needed. Yes, founded it. He had moved it so many times he hadn't been able to remember were he had put it at the end. He carefully picked up a small packaged, which was carefully stuffed in an old paper. He then carefully wrapped the old paper of it and looked at the object with a mixed expression: happiness and grieve. He putted it on his closed and then took a nearby chair and sat on the edge of it leaning backwards looking at the item he had just placed in front of him. "Ich going to talk to her." he started "I'm still angry but their right you knov: I need someone und so does she. You might alvays have though ve didn't but ve do and I do not vant to end like you. I don't vanna be lonely I need her und I know she needs me even if she vill never admit it…So I vill talk to her, you knov first I though I should prepare vhat to say but that von't help it never does. Vhen you think of vhat to say before it just von't be natural and it might not be right vith vhat you feel so I vill just let the vords come. I just needed some moral support that is al." he ended smiling slightly, although it wasn't a happy smile.
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Rogue was walking down the hallway towards Kurt's room, her hands clenched together while she tried to remember what she was going to say. She was way too nervous and just couldn't think of anything else then of all the possible mistakes she would make. She almost didn't notice it when she arrived. She closed her eyes, breathing in and out a few times. "I can do this, this is no problem." She reasoned with her self. "Ow my god, how is this possible. I fought in battles which could have meant the end of the world and now I'm nervous? This is just simple ridicules. Well here goes nothing." She said as she carefully pushed open the door. Great I forgot to knock what a terrific start, well too late to go back now. She silently walked in only now noticing that Kurt was talking to someone or something. She didn't understand what he was saying as he was talking in German. "Eeuuh Kurt." She started.
Kurt who hadn't heard anyone come in had the shock of his life and fell backwards with his chair as he had lost his balance. "Rogue?" he mumbled trying to control his hart beat again. "Vas are you doing here?" too much in a shock to sound angry. "I'm sorry if I scared you I just came to talk to you. But to who were you talking?" she said turning to the desk her eyes widening when she saw what her brother had been talking to. She stood there her jaws open, forgetting why she had even came there in the first place.
"Rogue listen…" Kurt started but she turned to face him, an enraged expression.
"How could you?" she screamed hysterically.
"How could I?" Kurt snapped back his eyes narrowing to her, forgetting all about the apology he had wanted to make.
"You knew what she does to me and after all what happened you still take her in."
"Meine Gott, Rogue get over it!" Kurt snapped angrier then he ever had been. "She's dead, you personally took care of that one, vhy are you afraid of her? She can not hurt you any more."
"Speak for your self!" Rogue snapped having a creepy déjà-vu feeling.
"I am. Cause really Rogue she's not the one causing the problems nov but you." He said accusingly but immediately regretting he had said that.
Rogue looked hurt but her expressions changed, she wasn't about to let herself get that defenceless. "I should have known! You're just like her: a blue freaking demon. It surprises me that you didn't join them?" she yelled to him.
Kurt looked at her in shock but then his eyes narrowed "Ich bin keine demon!" he said "und I vould never have done that."
"You adored her." Rogue shot back tears filling her eyes.
"I did not!"
"Yes you did, you always choice her site, you said we're in this together but you always choice her site."
"I did not. That I'm not of the exact same opinion as you doesn't mean I'm against you. And ve are in this together but really it's really hard if you keep refusing to let anyone in."
"Hell yeah, and most certainly not you." She aimed to push the piece of statue of Mystique to the ground.
"Nein!" Kurt yelled as he pushed her a side before she could damage it and before they knew it them self a fight had start.
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"Charles, I wanted to talk to you about something." Logan said as he joined Xavier in the living room.
"Ah Logan, of course but you mind if I ask you a question first?"
"Sure what 'ca wanna know?"
"Did you talk to Rogue yet?"
"Yeah, I did actually."
"Perfect, and what did she say?"
"She looked positive enough."
"Great, now let's hope thing go better."
"Can't you just read their minds?"
"Yes I could but that wouldn't help. This is something they have to do on their own."
-Bang-
"What the hell!" Logan ran to the great hall, which led to the garden, his claws extended prepared for what ever would have cause the noise. Xavier following him. Kurt and Rogue came down the stairs fighting and not only with words. Kurt kept teleportating from the one side to the other while Rogue shot fire bolts at him as she had stolen Magma's powers as they had passed her in the hall way.
"What the fuck?" Logan exclaimed watching the fight retiring his claws.
"You know I was on my way to apologizes but hell I'm I glad I didn't, you betrayed me, twice now!" Rogue screamed as the got into a hand-to-hand combat now.
"I betray you?" Kurt dodged a punch "I never did anything to hurt you. You took avay my chances but vorse then that: you just don't care." He continued as he threw her over.
"I don't care?! Now maybe you're right, I don't but maybe that is because your faget mother killed me from the inside and you were just watching at the side line." Rogue screamed tears in her eyes while she was shooting magma. "Would you mind if hurt you."
"Would you mind if I tried to?" was the respond she got followed by a kick.
"Turning into my worst enemy."
"That's it!" a voice broke in. Rogue and Kurt felled themselves been lift up, floating in the air unable to move.
"That has been quite enough!" the professor said.
"Talking about quite a brother sister fight." Logan commented taking out a cigar.
"He's not my brother." Rogue spat.
"I vouldn't vant to be either." Came the immediate reply.
"Now calm down children we're going to have a nice little talk." Xavier continued.
A second after he had said it a bunch of the students came in looking panicked, Scott at the head of the group carring an unconscious Amara in his arms.
"Sorry professor but we heard a noise and came to see, what happened? Is the brotherhood attacking?" Scott said not noticing Kurt and Rogue. "I found Amara uncurious in the hallway, I guess an intruder must haven taken her down."
"Don't worry Scott the situation is under control now. And you don't have to worry about Amara she will be quite fine. You can bring her to Hank and leave her in his care. I have some urgent things to do and if Rogue and Kurt don't mind I would appreciate it if they joined me. Logan can I count on you take care of this mess."
"Consider it taken care of." Logan growled.
"Good. Now let's go we have some work to do." Xavier continued as he led the way to his office followed by Kurt and Rogue. None of both said a word or even dare looking at each other.
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Kitty had been standing at the end of the group of students and even if she was the one most at the back she had been the only to notice Kurt and Rogue hanging in the air there faces wet with tears shooting dead glares at each other.
"I knew advice from the Toad could never be a good one." She mumbled to herself feeling guilty. When she saw them and the professor leave she quickly tried to run after them. No one paid attention to her they were all to worried for Amara, not even having a clue what was really happening. If she was quick she could phrase into the closed of the professor unseen and follow the conversation. This is going like great! She thought but then she felt a hand grab her.
"Were do you think you're going half pint?" a voice growled.
"Ow well quite a funny story actually, I just simply want to use the bad room."
"And after all these years that you live here you aren't aware of the fact that the bad room is on the other side of the house?" Logan said lifting a brow.
"Ow now that you mention it." Kitty said in a nervous chuckle. When she saw that Logan wasn't buying it she left just passed the act. "Alright you like totally caught me." She confessed. "It were Rogue and Kurt fighting right?"
Logan looked at her "Why would you think that half pint?"
"Ow come on mister Logan we both know them a bit better then that don't you think. I just wanted to go to them, like give them some moral support"
A small smile appeared on his face now "You're a good friend Kitty but I'm afraid that this is one they have to do on their own." He said as he posed a hand on her shoulder.
Kitty sighted "I know, but it's just…you know. It's like so hard to see them suffer like that."
"I know half pint but in this battle they have to help themselves." As he saw Kitty's disappointed face he added. "If you want to help them you can help me come up with a good explanation for this mess. All they need right now is everybody's comment!"
Kitty grinned lightly "Alright, what do you think of something with sales in the mall and aliens?"
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Silent…. That was all there was: silent tears and pain cutting true the uncountable silent. Rogue sat on the large sofa her arms wrapped around her, her make-up spread over her face because of the tears. Her eyes dazzled not seeing anything. She did not care for anything right now, she just wanted to sleep. A long, dreamless sleep, a sleep that would refresh her, make it able to breath again.
Kurt was sitting on the other chair, and suddenly finding his shoes the most interesting thing in the whole wide world. He quickly whipped away his tears, wondering if Rogue had cried as well. He hadn't seen it, he had seen nothing, blinded by his own tears. He trembled for a moment, had gravity always been so heavy? He felt like some unseen force was trying to squash him making it unable for him to breath, to think.
"Are you two calmed down a bit now?" the professor asked after a long silent. There was not the slightest sign of respond. "Are you both alright? No wounds?" he tried again. Still no motion. Xavier wrapped his hands together in front of his head he had bow down after a while he looked up again. "Alright listen you two. We've tried to let you do it your own way, not putting any pressure on you at all but this can not be left like this." He started looking at them. They both dully looked at him still not dearing to face each other. "Listen Rogue, Kurt it hurts me see you like this and not only me. The others are greatly concerned for you as well. Beside you are hurting other this way as well."
"I…I'm sorry professor." Rogue said hoarsely referring to Amara. "I didn't meant to hurt her."
"That is the least of our worries Rogue. Amara will be alright but I expect you to apologies."
She nodded dully.
"But you two are my greatest concern right now, I can't take it to see my X-Men like this so why won't we 3 talk? I'm sure we could work it all out." He said mildly smiling warmly to both of them. For a few more moments there was a silent.
"What have you done?" Kurt asked out of the blue looking up at Rogue.
Rogue looked at him but didn't know what to say, sitting there biting her lip. Kurt didn't looked pleased at all that she didn't respond and continued with a hard but yet trembling voice.
"I know I'd better stop trying, you know that there's no denying, I won't show mercy on you now."
"I know I should stop believing, I know that there's no retrieving, it's over now."
"What have you done…"
"There's a cures on me." Rogue responded in a whisper looking to the ground.
"No, there's a curs between us, between me and you." he repeated as he stood up turning his back to her ready to leave.
"I've been waiting for someone like you but now you're slipping away." Rogue managed to say, her voice trembling but clear. She looked up at him her eyes wet with tears again.
"Why, why does faith make us suffer." She continued.
"I wish you had aloud me to save you." Kurt answered and ported away.
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Authors note: This chapter is bases on the song "What have you done" of "Within Temptation ", the lyrics I used during this chapter don't belong to me but to Within Temptation.
About the little 'v' accent thing: I asked my teacher German (and yes she is a real German) about the 'v' at the end of the word. I know (some) Germans will say knoW if they are familiar with English but still it isn't wrong nor fake if you change the end w into a 'v' for the accent. When people speak a languish that isn't their own they often fall back into there old habits. And I know what I'm of speaking believe me. You can find e.g. with a lot of other languishes as well from as well their way of pronouncing things as the words and sentences they use. E.g. is that some French speaking people often roll with the 'r' or have a special 'g' with the 'w'-'v' thing it is just the same it is not about replacing the letter but how you pronouns it. But to have everybody happy I'll put in both know and knov.
Again about the German: I know I wrote that Rogue didn't understand what Kurt said because it's in German. I didn't actually translated it to German because it was too long (and I'm too lazy '.) So I just used some German words in it, here's the translation for who needs it.
ich I ; und and ; vas (not written this way but pronounced) ; Meine Gott my god ; Ich bin keine demon I'm not a demon ; nein no.
Now that all that is settled: I sincerely hope you guys liked this chapter. Sorry for those who were expecting that they would make up so soon you'll have to wait a little longer for that one. I also wanted you guys to know that I planned a Pietro Wanda chapter some were in the near future. PLEASE REVIEW.