WARNING! Very angsty chapter here! Sorry guys, but I couldn't help myself...PLEASE review! It really makes my day...Well, enjoy!

Lovies!

Lillium.

Daylight pierced through the room, and Remus scrambled to close the curtains while being careful enough to not wake Luna. As usual, his relationships with women took forever and a day to start, and then they whirled by faster than a tornado and BOOM! They ended not so happily. Tonks had needed him for a short while, but they grew apart within months. She had tried to be nice about it, but he packed up and left when the last shred of need was gone. She still owled him occasionally, and she was now married happily to a muggle named Indiana Jones. She was currently in Tibet, and her happiness and welfare were all that Remus had hoped she would have. Right now, however, was different from anything he'd ever known. Luna had known him for years, and they had been the best of friends for ages…But intimate relationships were harder than being 'best friends', it was a commitment that could take a lifetime of effort to make it function at its best, and he didn't really have much left. Luna was barely twenty four, while Remus was nearly forty two, an age difference of eighteen years. He wasn't quite sure if age made any difference, but it would certainly make their lives a little more interesting in the meantime.

Luna stirred slightly, and Remus pulled her close to his chest and watched her sleep until she opened her eyes and yawned widely.

"Morning Remus." She smiled, and kissed him lovingly on the cheek.

"Good morning Luna." He replied, smoothing her hair out of her face with the back of his hand. She tangled her own in his hair and stared into his amber eyes before she thought of what to do next. She nuzzled his nose with her own and tried to kiss him on the lips, but he drew back.

"I'll go get breakfast ready." He smiled at her, grabbed his shirt, and disappeared down the hallway steps.

Luna got up and leaned in the doorway, staring after him for a moment before she went in to get dressed. She pinned her hair into a messy bun and changed into a black turtle neck sweater dress. She never wore it when others were around, as it accented every curve of her body, making her blush whenever someone saw her in it but herself. But today was special…At least, it felt special; so she didn't mind Remus seeing her like this since she had told his she loved him the night before. Things seemed to be looking up, even though it had started to drizzle outside. She glanced at herself in her floor-length mirror before running down the stairs for breakfast.

Remus was tense; he was unsure of what the future held, but for now he would just take life one day at a time. But he had to talk to Luna, for all he had an odd feeling whenever he was near her, he remembered her as a student. She had been overly bright, courteous, and answered any question he asked her. During the war they had become great friends, and he had learned that she knew that he was a werewolf since the fist day of class. Now, she was all grown up, still exceedingly brilliant, and she loved him. She loved him, and he didn't know what to do next. He looked up as Luna entered the room and hurried to grab her plate so that they could eat.

"Everything alright Remus?" she asked, cutting her sausage into small pieces.

"Yes, why do you ask?" he said, sliding into the seat across from her.

"It's just…Well, I kinda threw a lot at you last night. And, I just hope that you're alright with everything I said…Because, I do love you…and I-I don't want anything to mess that up." She said, worrying her hands and looking at her meat. It sat on her plate in shreds, like shredded beef that had been tortured for years.

"Luna," he kneeled next to her. "We became the best of friends during the war, and you have always been there for me. Now I'm here for you, whether that is to help you, or be your friend…I am here for one reason: you." He took her hand and stroked it with his thumb thoughtfully.

"Remus, look at me." He glanced up quickly and stared back at her hand. "Do you love me?" She tilted his chin up so that he would face her.

"Luna, you are so - so,…young. It's hard for me right now to be your friend and all of a sudden become your lover. I am old, I am terrifying, I am strange, and I only stay when people need me. I stayed with Tonks for two months and then I left…What would you do if I just left one day?" He turned and leaned on the back of his chair, facing the fireplace.

"B-but," She stammered, "W-why did you…W-what was…I um, Why?! Why did you love Tonks? And what about Sirius, did you just love each of them because they needed you? And what about me? Did you only come because I needed you? No, wait, Harry sent you here, you didn't know that I needed you, so why have you stayed here?" Remus was silent of what seemed like ages, but he finally whispered a short remark.

"Tonks was hard to love, it was a quick arrangement. I was more of a brother than a lover. And Sirius – I did love him, but it took us years."

"Remus, please…" Luna sighed, and Remus turned to face her.

"Luna, I was merely sent here to revive and to visit you. I hadn't seen you in awhile. So I did have reason to be here. Harry and Ginny needed me to."

"Well then, Remus Lupin, if you need to be needed then I'll put my need in there as well. I need you now, and I always will." Here usually misty eyed demeanor vanished from her face. Remus recoiled slightly, surprised by her I-mean-it-damnit-and-if-you-don't-think-I-do-you're-if-for-a-big-surprise look. He sighed heavily and walked over to her.

"I am here, because you need me now." He stated, hoping that Luna would accept his decision…But she stood up and threw back her chair.

"But do you love me Remus. Tell me you love me!" She demanded, then hushed her voice to a whisper, "Please, that's the only thing I've ever wanted to hear. Remus please…please. I love you." She sobbed into his robes. She stood there for what seemed like hours while Remus tried to sooth her and decide what he wanted. He was torn between his love for Luna, and all of the consequences she'd have to face later if the relationship lasted. He sighed and held her tightly, exasperated and overwhelmed. She finally looked up at him and, with a clear and determined look on her face; she walked outside, and slammed the door behind her. Remus watched as she walked out to the middle of the backyard and sat down. He turned and cleaned up the dishes as quickly as he could, feeling Luna's stare piercing through him. He'd only seen Luna this angry once when Severus had slapped a drop of silver onto his skin while he had slept. Luna's tirade had woken him, and kept him up for the next three nights. She had hexed him in the end, turning his hair a permanent hot pink colour until he had apologized to both Luna and himself…Which took a month of humiliation and screaming fights between them for him to do so.

It was starting to rain, but she still sat there, looking pained and powerless – as if she didn't care what happened anymore. Remus walked out to the living room and summand his book. Luna would come in when she wanted and she wasn't stupid. She hated rain, which meant she would probably lock herself in her room for the rest of the day. Remus read a chapter within five minutes and went back to the kitchen. He quickly lifted the locking curse that Luna had put on the back door and stepped outside.

It was pouring so hard that he could barely see Luna, who was still rooted stiffly on the ground.

"Luna! It's pouring, come inside now or you'll get sick." He called, but she stayed put.

"Luna please, don't make me come out there!" Luna laughed, a gruff hollow sound.

"Oh no, I wouldn't want you to come out here…Go get someone who cares." She snapped.

"Luna, enough, get in here now." He shouted, and Luna got up.

"OH! I see, so now you get to order me around huh! I'm just a little useless toy you keep around to control and manipulate. But you care obviously enough. Are you trying to keep me out here so that I can get sick?! Then you'll stick around until I pass out and then you'll LEAVE FOREVER!" She screamed. Remus slammed the door, making her shriek. He walked over to her and grabbed her by the shoulders.

"Look. I am too old, too poor, and too dangerous for you to 'love' me. And right now, we need to get inside before you get sick. ALRIGHT?!" He spit tersely. Luna struggled, and broke free from his grasp.

"FUCK IT! FUCK IT ALL! I LOVE YOU!" She laughed coldly, "Nothing matters. Besides, I see were you're coming from! Who could love me?! Poor little 'Loony Luna Lovegood' the girl who everyone loathes so much that they steal from her and they hurt her! Bloody fucking wonderful." Her voice broke and she staggered backwards, breathing heavily. Remus reached out a hand to steady her, but she smacked it away,

"Don't TOUCH me."

"Fine." Remus began to walk away

"STOP IT! For god sakes Remus, stop feeling sorry for everyone else and get what you need Even if it's not me, you've got to need something Remus." He stopped and looked at her, her hair streaming down her body like tears, her dress clinging to her body so stained with rain that it was nearly see-through…He apparated to his rooms as quickly as he could think and heard a door slam, then hurried footsteps and the slam of Luna's door on the floor below him. He sank into bed, exhausted and soaking wet…He cast a quick drying spell and tried to think…

Luna sat head in hand behind her door with one leg bent upwards, the other sprawled across the floor awkwardly. Her body shook as she sobbed heavily, flooding her room with tears until she had no more. The sky darkened, and she leaned back and closed her eyes; a nightmare captured her shortly, and she wrestled with it for the rest of the night.