A/N: Hey all, I'm truly sorry for the posting delay. I've been on vacation, as well as doing other things which I hope will inspire me for future installments in this story.. (heh, heh, heh, - Suggestive chuckle :) )
I did manage to sneak away long enough to post this, so hopefully, this will satisfy those who wish we'd hurry up. :) :) :) Don't worry, we're not mad, we need some prodding to write sometimes, so keep prodding. :)
Okay, insert usual stuff here, like the "characters don't belong to us" and "Don't read if under 17 or prudish" speech. I don't feel like going into detail today. :P
The story is still dedicated to my Makoto, who is not as much of a coward as she is in her story, but I'm still glad I did something first.
Chapter Seven:
Consequences
I spent the rest of the day swinging back and forth between emotions, Libra style. Half the time I was mad at myself for missing such a good opportunity to reveal my true feelings to Makoto. But the OTHER half of the time had me being mad at MAKOTO for missing such a good opportunity to reveal HER feelings. Either way, depression weighed down on my shoulders like… something heavy that really weighs down shoulders.
In other words, I'm a total mess.
As Usual.
After school I bolt out the classroom and the building without talking to Makoto… And Ami and Usagi for good measure. I really don't want to talk to ANYONE right now.
So I pass up the bus that would take me home and go straight to the park. Here I hope to burn off some of my pent up steam, and hopefully I won't kill somebody in the process.
But dang it, like earlier in the school halls, I keep bumping into couples that are making out! Heck, some of them were really going at it in the bushes. Faint moans of passion easily give them away.
And here I am alone, un-making-out-less. Even though I KNOW the object of my affection likes me, too, but dang it, why won't she admit it???????
Why won't you be my prince and sweep me away to happily ever after, already, Mako-chan?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Maybe she doesn't WANT to be my prince. Maybe she's waiting for ME to tell HER and sweep her away to happily ever after.
Can that be it????
I know Mako is trying to hard to be feminine so hard it does look more like an act some times, but I know deep down inside she's really a prince rather than a princess. Behind the pastels and long dresses, I'm sure there's a tomboy in Makoto somewhere…
And this is NOT just wishful thinking on my part. I mean she's a prince during my Moon Kingdom fantasies. Heck, I actually remember having to help her dress girly for a special ball or something because Queen Serenity (or Princess Jupiter's mom) had her heart set on her royal court wearing matching gowns. Besides the sailor fuku and those few times were the only time Princess Jupiter wore a dress.
So what the heck happened to Makoto in this life that got her wanting to be girlier than me?!?!?!?!?!
"What am I going to do with you, Makoto!!??" I scream in one particularly strong moment of passion. In doing so I cause a nearby passerby to go deaf, cause I practically scream it in her ear.
Oops, it's Rei.
"Sorry, Rei," I say sheepishly.
Rei doesn't answer at first, being too busy trying to relieve her ear of what must be a real loud buzzing sound. "Honestly, Minako, what's wrong with you?" She asks in true irritable Rei fashion.
"Nothing, no, wait, just one thing.. everything!" I say in true scatterbrained Minako fashion.
"Well, that certainly clears things up," Rei says, dryly. "Spill it."
When Rei tells you to 'spill it' you 'spill it'.
"Well, I'm secretly in love with Makoto…I know that sounds crazy, but why limit love to just to the opposite sex? And I've been in love with her since the Moon Kingdom yeah, I actually remember that, crazy isn't it? But for some reason Makoto doesn't want to return my feelings, wait, that's not accurate. I can tell she WANTS to return my feelings (I've always been able to tell things like who likes who and who likes someone else and things like that.) but something is stopping her, and that's so frustrating cause I am so waiting for her to confess her love to me and sweep me off my feet, and even tough I have been hinting so much, she's just not getting it! And she had such a great opportunity, too!"
Yes, I know I'm whining (and am slightly out of breath at this point), but by now I don't have any pride.
Rei's response? ---à "Why don't you just tell her?"
She says this without even blinking.
Not even a look of surprise.
Kami, am I that transparent?
No wait, this is Rei that I'm dealing with. Rei the Psychic Girl. Nothing gets by her.
"I can't tell her! Because… Because.. " All the reasons rush through my mind in alphabetical order, overwhelming me, and finally all the frustrations of the day explode out of me at once. "I just can't!" And then I do something horrible. I break down and start crying. Usagi-style. I'm talking full out wailing here. It was awful.
And for once I surprise Rei and she is actually pretty nice and compassionate about it. She hugs me and murmurs comforting stuff like 'there, there."
"Rei, you have to promise me you won't tell her" I say once I'm under control again.
Rei seems reluctant. "Uhm, I'm not sure.."
"Please, Rei-chan," I say, trying to purposely be Usagi-like. Everyone knows Rei can never say 'no' to Usagi. Come to think of it, none of us senshi can.
"I just know I'm going to regret this" she says, which is the closest Rei will come to saying 'yes'.
"Thank you, Rei!" Now, I'm sure Makoto and I will work this out without interference.
I hope so anyway.
If I had slipped into the realm of 'self pity' while I was talking to Rei, I was definitely back to being mad by the time the monster attacked.
I dunno if I had decided to ignore Jupiter on purpose cause I was still mad at her, or if I was subconsciously avoiding the conversation that was inevitable.
Or maybe I was just punishing her and myself while I was at it.
Kami, I am a bad person.
Jupiter must realize I'm mad now. She is over by Mars and Mercury, who seem to know something is up, too. Moon is of course oblivious, and I'd like to keep it that way.
I just know Mars and Mercury are talking about me. They keep sneaking glances in my direction, then go back to whispering.
"SHE WHAT?" Mercury cries, looking horrified.
Yeppers, definitely about me.
I try to ignore it, but I feel my cheeks burn. What horrible (but true, cause as I acknowledged earlier, I AM a bad person) things are they saying about me?
Even Moon has finally noticed their weird behavior. She glances back and forth between the whole bunch of us, before finally jumping over to Jupiter.
"Oh, come on, Jupiter! Tell me, tell me, tell me! Is it juicy?!"
Oye, at this rate, we're never gonna moon dust the monster. I think at this point I'm the only one that is concentrating fully on killing it. And you can see how distracted I really am!
Moon's still harassing Jupiter: "Who's it about?! Do I know them? Are they cute??"
Okay. That's it! I've had enough!!
Out comes Evil Minako™.
"Don't bother asking HER, Moon," I actually sneer. SNEER! ME?!?! I NEVER sneer! But now that I've started I can't stop!
"She can't tell her secret, it's 'something she has to deal with on her own'!"
And now I'm suddenly good at sarcasm! That could have been a Rei response!
But I would gladly take those words back once I see how they affect Jupiter. She slowly droops more and more, and recoils back, like I had physically struck her.
"What's she talking about, Jupiter?" Moon asks.
"Look I don't want to talk about it, ok?" Jupiter replies.
"No surprise there!" I hear myself saying.
Kami, what have I become when I'm purposely hurting the one I love so much? But I can't seem to help it!
I try to dispose my anger constructively at the monster. My attack was enough to obliterate the thing without help from Moon's finishing touch.
Hot damn, my anger is powerful stuff!
But even though I wasted a good deal of negative energy on the now speck of dust monster, it doesn't do anything to fill the utter emptiness in my heart.
My words had hurt my Love. And for awhile there, I WANTED them to.
I don't deserve to have her.
Without a word to the others (I'm now afraid to even open my mouth, in case I say anything else I'd want to take back) I turn and run away.
Running from Jupiter?
Running from myself?
I just wish everything would just go back to the way it was before.
The minute I get home, I catch my mom in the act of packing everything in the kitchen drawers into cardboard boxes.
"What's going on?" I gasp, knowing full well what an empty room full of boxes means. I've seen it before.
My mom gasps in surprise and clutches her heart. "Minako, you scared me!"
"What's with all the boxes?" I ask, willing her to just say it.
"I was going to tell you this morning… Your dad's been transferred back to England. We're moving in a week."
I nod.
Moving, yes. This makes a lot of sense.
My life is already going down the toilet, might as well add moving out of the country to my list of troubles. Kami knows it isn't already long enough.
I slowly turn and then run to my room, slamming the door as hard as I can behind me.
End Chapter Seven
I did manage to sneak away long enough to post this, so hopefully, this will satisfy those who wish we'd hurry up. :) :) :) Don't worry, we're not mad, we need some prodding to write sometimes, so keep prodding. :)
Okay, insert usual stuff here, like the "characters don't belong to us" and "Don't read if under 17 or prudish" speech. I don't feel like going into detail today. :P
The story is still dedicated to my Makoto, who is not as much of a coward as she is in her story, but I'm still glad I did something first.
Chapter Seven:
Consequences
I spent the rest of the day swinging back and forth between emotions, Libra style. Half the time I was mad at myself for missing such a good opportunity to reveal my true feelings to Makoto. But the OTHER half of the time had me being mad at MAKOTO for missing such a good opportunity to reveal HER feelings. Either way, depression weighed down on my shoulders like… something heavy that really weighs down shoulders.
In other words, I'm a total mess.
As Usual.
After school I bolt out the classroom and the building without talking to Makoto… And Ami and Usagi for good measure. I really don't want to talk to ANYONE right now.
So I pass up the bus that would take me home and go straight to the park. Here I hope to burn off some of my pent up steam, and hopefully I won't kill somebody in the process.
But dang it, like earlier in the school halls, I keep bumping into couples that are making out! Heck, some of them were really going at it in the bushes. Faint moans of passion easily give them away.
And here I am alone, un-making-out-less. Even though I KNOW the object of my affection likes me, too, but dang it, why won't she admit it???????
Why won't you be my prince and sweep me away to happily ever after, already, Mako-chan?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Maybe she doesn't WANT to be my prince. Maybe she's waiting for ME to tell HER and sweep her away to happily ever after.
Can that be it????
I know Mako is trying to hard to be feminine so hard it does look more like an act some times, but I know deep down inside she's really a prince rather than a princess. Behind the pastels and long dresses, I'm sure there's a tomboy in Makoto somewhere…
And this is NOT just wishful thinking on my part. I mean she's a prince during my Moon Kingdom fantasies. Heck, I actually remember having to help her dress girly for a special ball or something because Queen Serenity (or Princess Jupiter's mom) had her heart set on her royal court wearing matching gowns. Besides the sailor fuku and those few times were the only time Princess Jupiter wore a dress.
So what the heck happened to Makoto in this life that got her wanting to be girlier than me?!?!?!?!?!
"What am I going to do with you, Makoto!!??" I scream in one particularly strong moment of passion. In doing so I cause a nearby passerby to go deaf, cause I practically scream it in her ear.
Oops, it's Rei.
"Sorry, Rei," I say sheepishly.
Rei doesn't answer at first, being too busy trying to relieve her ear of what must be a real loud buzzing sound. "Honestly, Minako, what's wrong with you?" She asks in true irritable Rei fashion.
"Nothing, no, wait, just one thing.. everything!" I say in true scatterbrained Minako fashion.
"Well, that certainly clears things up," Rei says, dryly. "Spill it."
When Rei tells you to 'spill it' you 'spill it'.
"Well, I'm secretly in love with Makoto…I know that sounds crazy, but why limit love to just to the opposite sex? And I've been in love with her since the Moon Kingdom yeah, I actually remember that, crazy isn't it? But for some reason Makoto doesn't want to return my feelings, wait, that's not accurate. I can tell she WANTS to return my feelings (I've always been able to tell things like who likes who and who likes someone else and things like that.) but something is stopping her, and that's so frustrating cause I am so waiting for her to confess her love to me and sweep me off my feet, and even tough I have been hinting so much, she's just not getting it! And she had such a great opportunity, too!"
Yes, I know I'm whining (and am slightly out of breath at this point), but by now I don't have any pride.
Rei's response? ---à "Why don't you just tell her?"
She says this without even blinking.
Not even a look of surprise.
Kami, am I that transparent?
No wait, this is Rei that I'm dealing with. Rei the Psychic Girl. Nothing gets by her.
"I can't tell her! Because… Because.. " All the reasons rush through my mind in alphabetical order, overwhelming me, and finally all the frustrations of the day explode out of me at once. "I just can't!" And then I do something horrible. I break down and start crying. Usagi-style. I'm talking full out wailing here. It was awful.
And for once I surprise Rei and she is actually pretty nice and compassionate about it. She hugs me and murmurs comforting stuff like 'there, there."
"Rei, you have to promise me you won't tell her" I say once I'm under control again.
Rei seems reluctant. "Uhm, I'm not sure.."
"Please, Rei-chan," I say, trying to purposely be Usagi-like. Everyone knows Rei can never say 'no' to Usagi. Come to think of it, none of us senshi can.
"I just know I'm going to regret this" she says, which is the closest Rei will come to saying 'yes'.
"Thank you, Rei!" Now, I'm sure Makoto and I will work this out without interference.
I hope so anyway.
If I had slipped into the realm of 'self pity' while I was talking to Rei, I was definitely back to being mad by the time the monster attacked.
I dunno if I had decided to ignore Jupiter on purpose cause I was still mad at her, or if I was subconsciously avoiding the conversation that was inevitable.
Or maybe I was just punishing her and myself while I was at it.
Kami, I am a bad person.
Jupiter must realize I'm mad now. She is over by Mars and Mercury, who seem to know something is up, too. Moon is of course oblivious, and I'd like to keep it that way.
I just know Mars and Mercury are talking about me. They keep sneaking glances in my direction, then go back to whispering.
"SHE WHAT?" Mercury cries, looking horrified.
Yeppers, definitely about me.
I try to ignore it, but I feel my cheeks burn. What horrible (but true, cause as I acknowledged earlier, I AM a bad person) things are they saying about me?
Even Moon has finally noticed their weird behavior. She glances back and forth between the whole bunch of us, before finally jumping over to Jupiter.
"Oh, come on, Jupiter! Tell me, tell me, tell me! Is it juicy?!"
Oye, at this rate, we're never gonna moon dust the monster. I think at this point I'm the only one that is concentrating fully on killing it. And you can see how distracted I really am!
Moon's still harassing Jupiter: "Who's it about?! Do I know them? Are they cute??"
Okay. That's it! I've had enough!!
Out comes Evil Minako™.
"Don't bother asking HER, Moon," I actually sneer. SNEER! ME?!?! I NEVER sneer! But now that I've started I can't stop!
"She can't tell her secret, it's 'something she has to deal with on her own'!"
And now I'm suddenly good at sarcasm! That could have been a Rei response!
But I would gladly take those words back once I see how they affect Jupiter. She slowly droops more and more, and recoils back, like I had physically struck her.
"What's she talking about, Jupiter?" Moon asks.
"Look I don't want to talk about it, ok?" Jupiter replies.
"No surprise there!" I hear myself saying.
Kami, what have I become when I'm purposely hurting the one I love so much? But I can't seem to help it!
I try to dispose my anger constructively at the monster. My attack was enough to obliterate the thing without help from Moon's finishing touch.
Hot damn, my anger is powerful stuff!
But even though I wasted a good deal of negative energy on the now speck of dust monster, it doesn't do anything to fill the utter emptiness in my heart.
My words had hurt my Love. And for awhile there, I WANTED them to.
I don't deserve to have her.
Without a word to the others (I'm now afraid to even open my mouth, in case I say anything else I'd want to take back) I turn and run away.
Running from Jupiter?
Running from myself?
I just wish everything would just go back to the way it was before.
The minute I get home, I catch my mom in the act of packing everything in the kitchen drawers into cardboard boxes.
"What's going on?" I gasp, knowing full well what an empty room full of boxes means. I've seen it before.
My mom gasps in surprise and clutches her heart. "Minako, you scared me!"
"What's with all the boxes?" I ask, willing her to just say it.
"I was going to tell you this morning… Your dad's been transferred back to England. We're moving in a week."
I nod.
Moving, yes. This makes a lot of sense.
My life is already going down the toilet, might as well add moving out of the country to my list of troubles. Kami knows it isn't already long enough.
I slowly turn and then run to my room, slamming the door as hard as I can behind me.
End Chapter Seven