A/N Hey all! Thanks for all the reviews they are so important to me! Here it is, chapter 5, I hope you enjoy it! Sorry for the mushy ending but I think it needed it after all the heavy Bones introspective stuff. I really hope you like it! As always R and R. This will be the last chapter for a while as I'm going on hiatus while I do exams, so the next chapter will be up sometime in late June. In the meantime you can be thinking of baby names! And this is just a little 'author insight' but the name that Bones suggests near the end is actually my grandmother's middle name. No one knows why... But yeah, I digress, so enjoy! [This chapter was reuploaded on May 24th 2010 due to formatting errors]
"There is no way – no way – that I'm letting you call our baby Tibia!"
Even though there was no one they knew in the doctor's waiting room, at this time during the early afternoon filled with the elderly or young women with children, Temperance still didn't feel comfortable discussing her pregnancy with Booth. She was still terrified someone would overhear, and she hated not being in control of a situation. If people found out before she was ready to tell them, she thought she might just die.
But hearing him say it, our baby, just made it seem more real and the fear seem more and more prominent.
"Why would I do that?" she asked him, hoping he was kidding her, and that he didn't really think of her as just 'the weird bone lady'.
"Because you're Bones. Bones are your thing."
"Doesn't mean I'd name a child after a bone."
This was a subject Angela was very keen on discussing. Baby names. She had gone out and bought a book full of weird and wonderful names, and taken it to work to show Temperance. They were the first ones at the lab, so the two of them spent about fifteen minutes looking over it, but mostly just pointing out the ridiculous names, before they hurriedly put the book away when Hodgins came in. If it had been Zack, they wouldn't have bothered, because even after Angela almost let the cat out of the bag, he still hadn't realised, and they had altogether given up on being subtle around him.
The real challenge had been when everyone had met up at Wong Foo's – Bones, Angela, Booth, Zack and Hodgins. Never normally one to pass up on an alcoholic drink, it took a sharp look from Angela's direction before she had realised she had ordered a glass of wine. It sat on the table untouched for the remainder of the evening, but no one really noticed. She almost didn't expect them to – even though they were her only close friends, it was just she and Angela who were really close. And that's how it had been her whole life. So to them everything was absolutely normal, to them she was the same old focused and work-obsessed Brennan, they had no idea just how terrified her impending motherhood made her, how she hated not being in control of this one aspect of her life, how she found it so difficult to concentrate for a few moments before her thoughts drifted to horror stories of giving birth and breast feeding. Babies were all she had thought about for what seemed like an eternity, and the fact that she had actually slept with Booth had never actually entered into her mind – at first she was too embarrassed to think about it, then when she found out she was pregnant she hadn't had the time to, as mad as that sounded.
Temperance suddenly felt incredibly embarrassed, and in her head could see herself blushing – Booth had seen her naked! The full reality of their situation had just struck her, as if she was standing on the tracks and a train had hit her head on. Thankfully, before she could get up and run away, the nurse called her name into the relative silence of the waiting room, that had been previously punctuated only by coughs and sneezes.
"That's you." Booth said.
"I know...You look nervous, maybe you should wait here?"
"No way! I said I'd come with you, and that's what I'm going to do. Let's go. And just so you know, I'm not nervous. Just want to make sure everything's OK. Although this whole thing doesn't quite seem real yet."
The fact that he felt the same way she did made her feel better. Sort of.
About thirty minutes later, Brennan and Booth were back in the waiting room of the doctor's office. Everything had gone fine with the scan, and now they were just waiting for the print out of the ultrasound – something he was more excited about than her, as she had already seen a picture from her first scan. She still remembered the fear she had felt sitting in the same room, possibly even in the same chair, all on her own before she had told anyone that she was pregnant. Even though Booth knew now, she still felt fear, but it was more of an uncertainty. He had told her that he would be around to help her out, to be their for their child, so that he or she never had to feel alone like Temperance had as a kid, but who could be sure if he really meant it. Of course, it was a quaint notion (although obviously this wouldn't be a traditional set-up) but he couldn't be expected to put his life on hold for her. He was an attractive man, and eventually he would meet someone else, they would get married and have their own children – the type of relationship that she knew he really wanted – and Temperance and the baby would be forgotten, visited once a week like they were something to be ashamed of. That was the last thing she wanted.
But before she could torment herself with thoughts of the future anymore, he grabbed her hand.
"Bones, we need to talk about our...situation."
"What about it?"
"What abou...?" he began, exasperated. "What about it? How about the fact that we are soon going to be parents, or the fact that there are so many things we need to work out? And how we are going to go about telling people?"
He leant forward and rested his elbows on his knees, his head in his hands. A sigh escaped his mouth.
"OK, we can talk about it after we're done here. You want to get coffee?"
"Whatever. I can't believe I'm about to have another child out of wedlock..." He sighed again, and looked away. He hadn't been meaning to say it, but the words had just fallen from his mouth.
"So that's what this is about? I don't mean to disappoint you, but I'm not going to marry you just so you feel better."
"I'm not asking you to..."
"But this is going to be different than it is with Parker. You can see the baby whenever you want, believe me after a while no doubt I will be sick of looking after it. And I will make sure you get a say in everything, I won't make a major decision without asking you first. I might actually let you have a say in the name. For the record, I like the name Newton. Boy or girl."
He smiled that smile that she thought he only used on her. He had his 'I know you killed him and now I'm trying to get you to crack' smile, and his 'I'm going to find the person who did this ma'am' smile, and his 'for God's sake, Angela, stop flirting with me' smile. But this was his 'Temperance you are awesome' smile. It was basically the same as all the others, but wider with more teeth.
"Thanks Bones."
They both looked at each other for a few seconds, neither able to look away, before a nurse came over with the scan print outs.
Booth stared at his with a looked of amazement on his face. He had looked the same way in the side room, as she lay on the bed with her shirt over her stomach, both of their eyes glued on the screen in front of them.
After what seemed like years, he finally said; "This is going straight into my wallet!"
