A/N: Well this the next chapter. I realize that these are short, but i promise that they will get longer. Well Please review and let me know how good or bad it is.

Disclaimer: I really wish I owned Kenji...but i don't.

Hidden Motive

"Kenji…. Kenji….. Kenji. What an amazing name. It must be foreign. I have never heard it before." I said dreamily looking at the ceiling, and yes I was talking to myself. My parents had stepped out to go to the bar for a little bit. So I was left alone in our room. Don't even ask how I got out of that whole mess with my mom. Let's just say that it took a lot of easy trending. It was twenty till eight and I was getting excited about the meeting that was coming up. I had changed back into my swim suit with a white tank top and short blue jeans shorts over top of it. I kept looking at the clock willing it to speed up so that I could go see him. Well by 10 minutes to eight I had grown to impatient and I went ahead and went downstairs to the pool . I went over to the spot where we had been talking earlier on that morning. I sat down and started to think about what we could talk about this time. 'Maybe I could ask him what he likes to do and what grade in school he is in. That kind of stuff should keep the distance between us good.' Okay, I know that your probably now saying, "Wait a minute didn't she say that she didn't mind that closeness?" Well yes I didn't and I still wouldn't mind it. It's just that it was very nerve wracking to be that close to him. I just couldn't think straight.

Well anyways, I sat down on one of the lounge chairs and leaned back. I closed my eyes and just relaxed.

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'So her name is Melissa. That's a different name, but I like it. I don't know why I do. I just do. She is also very beautiful. Her eyes were such a pretty hazel color and her long golden blonde hair that seems to have some dark brown highlights and her….. "So how did it go?" Asked a deep voice.

"Just as planned master." I replied. "She has no clue who I am and I think she liked what she saw."

"Good. Keep it up and don't find yourself falling for this girl or you will pay greatly. This mission is to important for a stupid screw up."

"I know and I understand. I don't have any feelings for people anyways, remember? I kill without having a second thought and without regret. Don't worry, it will stay under control." I replied darkly.

"Good. I will be keeping an eye on your mission as it progresses. Good day"

"Good day." I replied to the already closed door. 'So he thinks that I'm going to fall for this girl huh? I'll prove him wrong…….. I hope. I can't deny that I was thinking about her before he came in but that was just me recognizing my subject. Wasn't it? I should already know it. I've been researching for this mission for months. I already knew what she and her family looked like. Oh well. It's best not to dwell on it.' I looked at the clock to realize that it was a quarter after eight. 'Shit now I'm late. I hope she is still there'
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There was blood all over the place. In my hair, on my clothes, on my face, and everywhere around me. 'Where am I? How did I get here?'

I looked up and I saw a big blurry shape in front of me. I tried to make it out , but then I felt something grab my shoulders and start shaking me. I started to scream. 'What the hell is going on!" I cried out in my mind.

I woke up screaming and felt hands on my arms. I started to struggle. I was throwing punches and kicks anything to get out of this persons grasp. Then that's when I heard him say, "Stop struggling! It's just me, Kenji. I'm not going to hurt you." I started crying then and fell into his embrace. I know that I shouldn't have done that, but I needed someone to lean on. I had no idea what the dream was about or what it meant, but it scared me to think about it. "Ssshhh. It's okay. I'm here for you. Don't worry about anything. Nothing can get to you as long as I'm here." Kenji whispered softly into my ear.

I felt warm and safe in his embrace. I really felt loved and cared for. My tears started to slow down after a few minutes of being in his arms. I could feel him stroking my hair with one hand and rubbing soothing circles on my lower back with the other. Then he asked in a soft voice, " Are you going to be okay now?"

"Yeah." I said quietly in a relaxed voice. I really didn't want to move. I really liked this feeling I was getting. I felt as if I could stay like this forever.

"We probably should go somewhere that no one can see how close we are and report it back to your parents." Kenji suggested in a concerned voice.

"Oh. Yeah. That's probably a good idea." I said with understanding. "However we need to keep track of time. My parents are at the bar, but my mom has never been one to stay there for long. They have already been there for about an hour. So I would guess 2 more hours till she comes back so we should plan to be back by then." I explained nervously. I was so afraid that he would change his mind knowing that information but I was surprised when he took my hands and helped me stand up and linked our arms and started to walk towards the back exit. I was looking at him with astonishment. I couldn't believe how bold he was being. This wasn't normal custom, but I wasn't going to argue. I liked how close we were. I turned my gaze forward again. We walked in companionable silence for awhile. Then, out of no where, He pulled me into an embrace with our faces only inches apart. We were looking deep into each others eyes. While I was looking I noticed that his eyes held much sadness mixed with pain, but that only came through his eyes for a split second then it was replaced with love, caring, and happiness. I was a little taken aback. I mean how can you be sad one second and then loving and happy the next. Before I could ask him anything he closed what little space there was between our lips and gave me a chaste kiss. I had closed my eyes and gave into it, but before I could kiss him back he pulled away. I opened my dazed eyes and silently pleaded with him for another kiss. To my utter and complete joy, he came in again to kiss me. This time I was ready and I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him in for a deeper kiss. He willingly obliged. I found my self lost in that kiss I don't even know how long we kissed. What I do know is that it was the most amazing kiss I had ever received. When we finally pulled apart we were both a little breathless. Then, all of a sudden, I realized that I was laying on the ground with him on top of me. 'When did we get here? I really don't remember that happening.' I thought to myself.

"Kenji, I have never felt this way before. No man has been able to do this to me. I don't even remember how we got into this position." I told him breathlessly.

"Me either. No women has ever had this strong or quick of an effect on me. I don't know what it is about you , but you make me feel like I can be myself around you. I have never been able to do that before and I thank you from the bottom of my heart." He replied just as breathless, but also with a tint of sadness in his voice. Even though it was dark, I could see tears welling up in his eyes. As soon as I saw that, I knew that there was so much more to him that I wanted to know. I didn't want to ruin the mood so instead of asking questions I just pulled him into a loving embrace. His head was resting on my chest and his arms were wrapped around me as well. I noticed a wetness on my shirt and I could feel his ragged breathing. I knew that he was crying. I was so surprised by his sudden reaction that I couldn't help, but ask, "Why are you crying?"

"Many reasons. Mostly because I don't feel that I am worthy of this kindness that you are showing because of the sins that I have and am still committing." Came his muffled reply.

I gently pushed his head away from my chest and looked deep into his eyes and asked, "What kind of sins could you commit that you would feel unworthy of my kindness?" Instead of answering me he stood up pulling me up with him. He pulled me in for another deep but short kiss and took my hand and started leading me back towards the motel. Finally, after a long, uncomfortable silence, he calmly said, "I would rather you not know what sins I have and still commit. It will be safer and better for you. I'm sorry I wish I could tell you but I just don't want this burden to be on your shoulders unless necessary."

"Okay. I understand. I just hope that someday you will trust me enough with your secret. I want to be here for you and help you in any way I can." I replied giving him a look of concern and understanding. We walked the rest of the way back to the motel in silence. We walked into the lobby hand in hand. I was about to head to my room when he tugged on my hand and asked, "May I walk you to your room?"

"I would like that." I replied kindly. I lead him all the way to my room on the 2nd floor. When we were in front of room number 210 I said, "Here we are. Would you like to come in for a minute?"

"I would love to, but what about your parents?" He asked curiously.

"Oh yeah." I replied disappointment in my voice. I had looked down at my feet tears starting to well in my eyes. "Well then I guess that this is where we part then."

"Please don't cry." He pleaded placing his hand under my chin and lifting my face up so that we were looking into each others eyes. "We can see each other tomorrow. I promise. I will meet you in our usual spot at 3:00 p.m. If you can make it that is."

"I will definitely try." I whispered back. I then leaned in for a kiss good night, but I heard noise within my room. I turned toward the door and saw that the handle was moving down. I turned around to get a quick goodnight kiss, but Kenji was already gone. When I turned back toward the door my mom was standing in the door way. "Who were you talking to?" She asked curiously but sternly.

"No one." I replied. "Just to myself like always."

"Okay if you say so." She answered unbelieving. "Come in and go to bed."

"Okay." I said while I entered the room. 'Goodnight Kenji. I can't wait for tomorrow'
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'Wow that girl is so amazing. I just wish I didn't have to do all this for an undercover reason. I wish that I could love her without having to worry about my assignment.' Kenji thought as he walked down the hallway on floor 3. He was headed to his room for the night. He was tired, but glad that he had gotten to spend some time with Melissa today and would be able to spend time with her again tomorrow. There was only one problem….. He was supposed to get close to her and get her to trust him. It was all apart of his assignment. 'Why me and why this girl? I have had many similar assignments, but I have never felt like this towards any of them. What is wrong with me?'

"What are you thinking about?" a deep mysterious voice asked from a dark corner of Kenji's room.

"You can never mind your own business can you?" Kenji replied in a monotone voice.

"Maybe but if it has anything to do with that girl you better get over it and you better do it quickly." He replied in a serious tone. "Besides you aren't allowed to love and if that is where this relationship with this girl is going then stop or you know the consequences." "Yeah I know." Kenji replied calmly. 'I really wish he would just leave me alone I already know that she will be in danger if I keep this thing up with her. What ever this thing might be. What is this thing between us anyways? Do I really "love" her?'

"There you go again lover boy. You better get your head out of the clouds and concentrate on your mission. If you don't I will have to have a talk with the boss man. Well I will let you go back to doing whatever it was that you were doing. I will talk to you later. Bye." The man said.

'Thank god he is gone. He's right though. I do need to concentrate on my mission. It's just so hard with her around. I don't understand why, but I just get so happy and distracted and I don't mean a fake happiness. It's a true one. One that I could live with for the rest of my life, but I can't and never will get that happiness that I so desire.