Hello again… another chap here… hehehe… thanks for those who read and reviewed… love ya'll so much… I'm sooo sooo sorry if this is soo soo late!! i hope someone still notices that i updated... Sorry!! Gomen nasai… pasensya na… and all other SORRY's in different languages… lost all my files… I sorta… kinda… accidentally erased my old files… hehehe… ;p…
Disclaimer: I do not own CCS or any of its characters… I really really really wish I did!!! Don't own the song either…
Sunshine of my Life
Chapter 4------------ Because of You
Japan
"There's a pant dance next pant week!!!" Tomoyo exclaimed as she reached Sakura's locker… She was running all the way from the music room to the girls' locker room.
"Huh?" Sakura asked not understanding what her friend just said.
"I said, there is a dance next week and I'm chairman of the committee assigned to prepare the dance… It's called… Tomoeda Jr. High's Annual Dance… pretty lame name if you ask me but who cares, the lame title will go unnoticed when the room will be filled with pretty lights and pretty people… Yay!!! This will be the best dance ever… of course I need more support. Eriol volunteered on helping me of course or did I force him to? Hehehe… doesn't matter as long as he's helping. You are helping me too, right? Saku-chan?" Tomoyo smiled ever so sweet that Sakura just nodded in approval. And Tomoyo continued to babble on and on about how she's going to make this dance a success. "…And there'll be a band playing while everyone will be eating… and I'm going to let you sing, Sakura-chan… What do you think? Please sing… please!!!" Tomoyo pleaded which got Sakura's attention, she was not really listening to what Tomoyo was saying, and she was more like thinking deeply…
"I can't sing in front of the whole school Tomoyo." Sakura answered. "You have a way better voice than I, you can do the singing and I'll do the… um… something else… like the… um… lights… yes the lights, that's right." Sakura continued making Tomoyo pout.
"Oh, gee… hmm… what if I sing first then you go next… please Sakura… I want you to wear something extra special and I don't want it to go unnoticed… hohoho." She stated this with sparks in her eyes…
"Oh, Tomoyo… oh, fine I'll sing but you have to let me choose the song. I don't want to sing something I do not like." Sakura just gave in… She badly wanted to stay home during the dance but she'll go for Tomoyo… She's the only one giving her life when she's in school…
"Yey!!! I knew you'd love to sing… I tell you Saku, this will be the greatest thing that'll happen in your life." Tomoyo said as Sakura looked at her as if saying… is-there-something-behind-my-singing-and-all-that-i-do-not-know-of… Tomoyo just gave her an innocent smile…
"Well, that's all… I'll go to your house to give you a list of songs so you can choose your song and then the band can practice it. This will be so great." Tomoyo then waved goodbye and did Sakura… "See ya."
"Sakura's singing on the night of the dance." Tomoyo told Eriol who just grinned in return… And then replied…
"Great then…"
"What are you up to, Eriol?" Tomoyo asked wanting to find out why he's acting strange.
"Nothing, nothing…" Looking at Tomoyo as if saying -- i-am-so-innocent-i-did-nothing-absolutely-nothing
(a/n: I'm letting time fly fast here…)
-Sakura's thoughts…-
Sigh… only one more day till the dance… As they say time flies fast for those who are having fun and slow for those who are waiting… in this case I'm waiting that this dance will be over soon… Savinelle is so stupid asking me to the stupid dance… grr… I can't believe he still likes me after all the harsh things I've been telling him… He must be deaf or blind or something…Anyway, I'm wearing something nice tomorrow, one of Tomoyo's creations but I have no date. I really like the dress she made, simple but elegant BUT it sort of hugs my body so much… but Tomoyo said it was perfect on me. My father bought me these nice sandals that had very high heels… I'm worried 'cause I might trip or something… I do not want that to happen… but at least the dress won't reach the ground that much when I wear that sandal. And the gym is nicely decorated… I could not even say that it was once the school gym…
Sleep at last came to Sakura… If ONLY she stayed awake one more second she would've noticed a familiar aura just outside the house… This aura was not a harmful one but in fact it might give our card mistress a safe feeling, a feeling of contentment perhaps…
"Welcome to our school's annual dance… where everyone can dance all night to just every tune. May it be romantic, jazz, and of course everyone can enjoy the snacks prepared… You can also request a song to be sung here in stage… our band is ever so ready…" Tomoyo stated as the fun began… Eriol adjusted the lights to fit the atmosphere of every song that came… Many danced, some just sat and ate… a few waited…
"And now it is time for our dearest Ms. Kinomoto Sakura to sing for us all…"
Sakura rose from where she was seated and walked slowly to the stage, secretly praying everything will go alright…
Now standing in front of the microphone and in front of everyone, she wanted nothing more but to have this part of the party done… so, she signaled the band to start… and she tells her self… this is it, it's now or never… I'm only doing this for Tomoyo… to make her happy…
"This song is for those who are confused and in great pain." Sakura says before she starts…
Ohh ohh mmm
Ohh ohh mmm
I will not make the same mistakes that you did and
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Feeling the chorus… she closed her eyes as everyone just watched in awe as Kinomoto Sakura, now labeled by some as Ice Princess sings this with all her heart… it seems to catch her… but others knew her oh too well to think that she is a cold-hearted lady… she just needs her space and her time…
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
She just needs someone to give her a reason to smile… a reason to laugh… and someone who'll be there at her best and worst.
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Tomoyo felt Sakura's sadness just by listening to her… she felt a little guilty… Why did I let her sing? This is entirely my fault… She chose a song that reminds her of how she felt after losing Syaoran… But she hasn't lost Syaoran… She just thinks that… Be positive for we won't really know what's coming until it slaps us in our face…
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you...
I am afraid
The meaning of the song went into the depths of the heart of the listeners… Sakura, on the other hand is having a hard time keeping her tears as she continued singing…
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing..
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you...ahahahahhhhh...
Because of you...you... mmmmmmmmmm...
The music faded slowly… Sakura took her bow and saw that few of the students in the crowd had been crying while listening to her… Did I really make that much impact? How freaky… Concentrated with what she was doing… She was not able to notice the tall figure looking at her from a great distance…
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- that's all for now… hehe… wow… that was like.. more than a year… hmm.. being a college freshie got me really drained and really got me real busy… -
I already have the next 3 chaps but they need a lot of editing and the like…
-with love,
-liangxin-