Realizing how important you are to us
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Dayxxdeamer: Sorry for the wait but here it is… my story is dedicated to Kibasfangirl527, with out her it would have taken a lot longer to complete this chapter and continue on with my story, she's one of the nicest people I've have the pleasure of talking to.
Sasuke's P.O.V.
I hate this, lying awake staring at me ceiling thinking about someone I desperately want but probably never be able to have. At first I thought it was simple crush something that would past but no, the truth is inevitable, I'm in love with Naruto. But we can't become anything, I have Itachi to kill and he has to become the Hokage. I'd never put Naruto in that kind of danger because if Itachi ever found out we were a couple Naruto would be his new target. There's also the fact that he could just flat out reject me and then he'd most likely be to scared to ever come near me again. I let out a heavy sigh and turn on my side to seem my clock. Five am, That gives me enough time to take a shower and get there before everyone.
I lift myself from bed and grab a towel that was hanging in the chair by my desk and make my way to the bathroom. I slid my silk black boxers off and stepped into the steaming hot water. I leave the water trace down my body leaving the heat of the water relax my muscles, how will I ever be able to get over someone like Naruto? His gold like blond hair that goes in every direction, that flawless sun kissed skin or those beautiful big blue eyes and I'll never be able to get over those perfect rosy pink lips. I feel a twitch in my lower region…. Damn I'm half hard. I sigh once more making a note to myself that if I sigh once more today that I'll punch myself in the face. The image of Naruto comes back to my mind, my hand unconsciously wonders off to give it the attention that it pleads for. Now that I realize what I'm doing I think why not, I had walked in on Itachi more than once when I was younger and he'd make me stay in the room until he was done so he could make sure I swore that I wouldn't tell anyone.My hand gently grazes my member sending millions waves of pleasure. I already feel my legs become weak. I decide to get it over with quickly so I wrap my hand firmly around my shaft which causes my hips to involuntarily buck making me moan. I start moving my hand up and down my hips having a mind of their own matching my hand movements making this more pleasurable. The heat of the water and the heat of my body are combined wrapping me in ablanket of untamable lust, my legs give out and my back hits the wall and I slowly go down to the bottom of my shower, my hand or hips never stopping, I'm not sure I'm even with them anymore, but I feel my climax coming. I moan in anticipation wanting it to be here already but something's missing, a yes I begin to picture Naruto in my mind, I scream something even I can't make out as I cum all over the shower walls. Panting I slowly and shakily pull myself back up to wash off, I can't be late for our meeting, everyone is suppose to be there apparently, damn that means I'll have to deal with Sakura and Ino. Damn them all to hell…When I'm done my shower, I do a quick brush of my hair knowing it'll fall into place, then grab my clothes and weapons then set off, making sure that I'm going to be the first one there.
When I confirm that I am the first one there and that I'm alone I leave my posture slip a bit, it sucks having everyone think you're perfect all the time… but when I'm with Naruto I can leave my posture slip a bit and I can smile a really smile, only when he's not looking though or else he might think me smiling is the sign of the apocalypse, which I find very amusing, but the thing is he's the only one who can get me to smile and I'm sure after the first few times he's seen me smile he'd already be used to it and except my smiles whole-heartedly. I lean against a tree with my arms crossed making sure it looks cool… I can't leave my image get tarnished. Though Naruto wouldn't care, he'll except everyone for who they are as long as they don't try to do something evil, hell he's even excepted that crazy blood loving lunatic Gaara and moresurprising he's gotten him and Neji together, I'd be lying if I say he didn't work miracles. Gaara and Neji have a healthy long distance relationship, I envy them somewhat, they can be with the person they love while I'm stuck admiring from afar even thought I can only blame myself for it I'm too much of a chicken to risk rejection.Hmm I must have been really thinking because almost everyone's here now, I'm not to sure what the mission is about wasn't paying attention to the old hag, oh well I'll just get filled in on the way or something. Naruto just arrived he's looking perfect as usual, Kami I get so mad knowing he's so close but just out of my reach. I hate myself for being such a chicken, how will I ever beat Itachi if I can't even do this??! Hmm we've already started moving.
"Ahhh" I hear Naruto yellI look back "What is it now dobe" damn my voice sounded annoyed well I am but just not at him, to late to say sorry now, Uchiha's don't say sorry, Kami I hate whoever came up with Uchiha crap. What the hell did Sakura just say to Naruto, I wish I could ring her neck then stab kunai in her eyes that b- thank you Shikamaru I never thought having your lazy ass around would be so helpful I'll always respect you for sticking up for Naruto, we're Turing get back on our journey but I don't hear Naruto's footsteps behind us "Oi, Naruto are you coming?" I call to him. I hear him sigh and god that hurts me more than he'll ever know, I wish I could go wrap my arms around him and tell him everything will be alright because I'm here. " Naruto why don't you just drop dead you'd be a lot more helpful then!" Sakura yells at him, it's taking a lot right now not to kill her. Each time I hear her name I get a bad taste in my mouth.
"Sakura shut up. God why do you always have to be so mean to him" Tenten retorts to her… go Tenten.
"No it's fine ha…ha let's uh go" Naruto says then jogs up to us I watch him the whole way I wish he'd notice but his eyes won't leave the ground. If only I could just take him and kiss away his sadness, I think I'm now hopelessly in love… Oh Kami.. The others are taking about something when I hear a thump behind me, where Naruto is suppose to be… I quickly turn around to see him lying on the floor I hear the others saying things but I can't focus on any of it there all just something in the back round I can only see Naruto lying there, I think my hearts stopped and my stomach is trying to throw it up. They've brought Kiba's giant dog to him, I think we're bringing him back to the village, I don't really know I can't hear anything right now but I know that I'm going wherever Naruto is going.
In the hospital I start to hear again, a lot of people are here for Naruto, Everything feels so numb, my body, my brain, my spirit… my heart. I don't know how long I've been here, but it already seems to long. Tsunade has finally come out, some jump up to see her I want to join them but I know it's not my place. She starts explaining something that makes my stomach turn… how could Naruto have been sick and training without me knowing!! I should have known then maybe I could have helped him.
"..we just didn't see what Naruto was hiding from us; we never took the time to care so I guess it made his job easier" I catch Neji say and realize it's true I never really checked to make sure he was ok, I don't deserve Naruto's love…Was the last thought I stood in front of my house that has been inhabited by only myself I'm positive Naruto could give this place life again, that's it I decide that I'm going to prove my love worthy of Naruto I'll never let him act his happiness again.
Dayxxdreamer; Thank you for reading