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Ch.4: Together and Apart

BPOV:

Just when I thought I was done with vampires and werewolves, and when I thought I had the chances of living a normal life, it all comes back. Why? Why me? I thought.

I was just 17-year girl. Forks was just a small town. So how did I find a nightmare?

But no. It was never a nightmare. I was living a pathetic dream. How could I ever think I was good enough for him?

He said it himself when he left. I wasn't good enough for him. And the only way I could be, but he never gave it to me.

I want to hate him. But I can't.

I want to be 18, and in love.

But how can I hate him when I know he's coming back?

The memories of the Cullens rushed into my head, all the good times, all the bad.

But when the past comes, can I really stay away from it?

And deep down inside, I know the answer.

Edward's POV:

I shouldn't come back. I shouldn't try to see her. She has a normal life…except for the dogs, of course.

The dogs have to go.

I'm not good enough for her.

She couldn't love me. And I can't love her.

Until… until the end.

Now I know how Quil feels.

To not love someone, but to care so deeply, you want to watch over them. I may have read his mind, but I can't know how he feels. But now I do.

I'm just a bloodsucking monster that broke her heart. And Bella is an angel. I can't go ruin her life by coming back.

She'll hate me. Want to stay away.

And I don't blame her.

But I just can't stay away.

But will I be strong enough to say goodbye one day?

Only the day I follow.

Alice's POV:

Those stupid idiots!

Why couldn't they just realize that they need each other?

Their decisions are changing so fast…

Sometimes they never see each other, and sometimes they stay away.

Why can't they just make a decision?

And a good decision…

I knew it! They are made for each other!

" Edward! I saw you…and you were happy!" I sang out on my cell phone the second he answered.

"And…was I with Bella?" Edward asked, chocking with happiness.

And I knew if he were human, he would be sobbing.

"Of course…but there's something you should know…" I said hesitantly, knowing his reaction.

Edward was silent as he read my mind, then the most painful thing I had ever heard rung out. For a moment, I couldn't believe it was my own brother making this noise.

"Alice…is there any other way?" Edward asked, his voice dripping with pain.

"No." I told him, heartbroken for my brother.

"But you couldn't change anything, you know, right" I asked him. He just had to know.

"Yes, Alice. That's what makes it so hard."

And with that, Edward hung up, leaving me with nothing but the dial tone.

Jacob's POV:

I softly helped Bella get into the passenger seat of her pickup truck, the jumped into the driver's seat.

I was bringing her to the doctor. She hadn't been looking too good lately.

I put the truck on the maxim speed, around 55 or so, and sped down the dirt road, leaving La Push into my dust.

At the doctor's office, I was almost afraid of what the doctor would say.

BPOV:

Stupid Jacob. Why would he make me go to the doctor's office? I was just fine.

I looked around the familiar room. Sadly, I had been here often without –Him- to catch me every time I fell.

Every few moments, Jacob would shot me nervous glances, driving me crazy. I was fine? What could be wrong?

The doctor walked into the waiting room, which was completely white. It smelled of bleach.

" Mrs. Cullen, would you step inside here please?" I got up and walked into the room.

Jasper's POV

"Alice, what's wrong," I begged her.

She didn't answer. I sighed. Alice was harder to deal with when she was anxious then all the newborns combined…

"Bella," Alice answered. "She just got the news…"

A/N: Sorry if this chapter was kind of confusing; it will all make more sense after the next couple of chapters. I'll update as soon as I can. And keep reviewing Please!!!