ok so once again not mine, doesnt even matter that i had a dream about Ranger, cause he is not mine. The song is by RBD, can we say perfect song or what. hope you like it. R&R is always a good thing, cause it makes me happy, and I like to be happy
I wanna be the rain that falls on you
washes away your pain
I wanna be the sun that shines on you
warms your world each day
I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you
so you never lose your way
I wanna be the wind that kisses your face
I wanna be the rain
Steph could not believe what she just heard, was this really what Ranger was saying to her? The title of the song fit with what he said to her in the car. Yet Steph was confused, what was Ranger trying to say to her, he said his life did not lend itself to relationships, and that his love can with a condom, but no ring. This song though, its says the opposite of what Ranger said, its almost like he wants to be in her life. Steph had to listen to it again, just to be sure she heard it correctly, it was a beautiful song, and it said everything she wanted to hear form Ranger, but she would never admit that out loud.
Steph was driving around for what seemed like hours. She wanted to see Ranger but she was scared of what was to come. This felt like something new happening in her life, a new step toward something bigger than she ever dared dreamed. She knew what she wanted, and what she wanted was something that neither Joe nor Ranger could give her. At least that's what she thought at the time, the song Ranger told her to listen to changed everything. Steph did not want to get married, well that's to say she did not want the Burg version on married, where the woman stays home and takes care of the kids, maybe gets a part time job. That was not her that was not what she wanted. She wanted a relationship where she was a partner, someone that was willing to make compromises with her and work together to get things done. Someone that would love her and protect her but at the same time let her fly, some one who would not be mad that she was not the type of person who could take care of a house, but would do everything to make home happy. Did she want to be a mother? Not really, at least not the Burg version of being a mother. She could just not see herself teaching her kids the same things she was taught, and her biggest fear, was that she would turn out to be her mom, a woman that did not want to encourage her children to be their own person. In truth she wanted none of the things the Joie wanted.
She also did not want to be a bed partner to Ranger. She need to be in a committed relationship, it did not have to be marriage, she could be happy without it, just as long as she new he would never cheat on her, that he loved her and would always be there for her. She did not need a ring to know that someone had her heart and soul and she had theirs. That was what a marriage was, the rings were just a show piece of that, and really did not mean anything is the other person did not take the love seriously enough. Love, Trust, Honesty, Friendship, a bit of Lust, and Understanding was all that a relationship needed. Without that the rings were meaningless. This was not what Ranger wanted, he said that to her in just about the same words.
Now comes this amazing song, that is so sweet and it is something that Ranger wants her to hear. This song is everything to her, it says exactly how she feels, and what scared her was that it came from Ranger. She has worked everything out in her head, it was all set, and she knew that she loved him, but she thought that that love was not returned. She was not completely happy, but she was not unhappy either with the friendship they had, even though she wanted more she wanted Range in her life any way she could have him, and did not want to scare him off by saying something stupid like she was head over heals in love with him.
Something changed though, and here Ranger was saying everything that Steph wanted to hear. Ok so it wasn't him exactly, it was a song but still it basically came from him. She could never explain to anyone how wonderful it felt to be in the same bed as Ranger, to wake up wrapped up in his arms, she liked to think it was because he wanted to keep her close to him at all times. She did not get that with Joe, they had their own sides, and they would only cross it if they wanted sex, well it seemed more often then not that Joe was the one who wanted the sex, Steph would have been happy to just sleep with arms around her. She found it much more intimate to sleep with Ranger, than to have sex with Joe. It was a wonderful feeling to wake up in Ranger's strong arms, she felt safe and cherished there. It just seemed that Ranger was happy to hold her; after all she reasoned that if Ranger was just interested in sex, why wouldn't he just kiss her, when he crawled into her bed, sometimes it was just hard to say no to that man.
So here she was standing in front of his door wondering how her life was going to turn out after this conversation. She was just about to knock when the door opened.
"Babe are you going to come in?"