I could hear Charlie's heavy footsteps echo on the old wood stairs as he walked up to my room. I sat in Edwards arms on my bed with my head leaning against his chest, I couldn't bring myself to care about what Charlie would do. Much more important things clouded my mind.
"Bells you in there?" Charlie asked from the other side of the door.
"Yea" I said weakly. The knob turned and I could feel Edward position his hands to move me off him, but I shook my head and he just held me again. Charlie stepped inside the door, his eyes widened as he took in what he saw.
"Oh um, hello Edward" Charlie seemed to stumble for words; his eyes looked from Edward to me.
"What's going on?" Charlie asked hesitantly, as if he was wondering if he really wanted to know. I opened my mouth not know what I was really going to say, but Edward spoke before I could.
"Bella didn't want to be alone, she's feeling a little stressed so I came over to comfort her. I hope its ok Chief Swan" I doubt anyone could have suspicion Edwards intentions, he is always very pure, or just a very good liar.
"Call me Charlie, uh ok. I ordered pizza, Dr. Cullen said you should exert yourself. Its down stairs" As if on command my stomach rumbled. Edward lifted me up and set me on the floor, he stood up next to me and lead me down stairs.
I hungrily ate up two pizza slices from the local pizza chain restraint, it beat the hospital food with flying colors. Edward of course declined food politely, just like always.
At around 9:30 Charlie glanced at the clock a couple times then looked to Edward sighing loudly and getting up off the couch.
"Well Edward your parents will be wanting you home now probably" Charlie said shoving his hands in his pockets. Edward nodded, we both stood up. I lead him to the front door, though he already knew where it was.
I didn't want Edward to leave, with out him I would be forced to think about everything I don't want to. With out him I'll be scared, I need him probably more than he realizes. To make bad things worse this will be my first night with out him in a week.
Edward keeps the nightmares at bay. It kills me that he has to leave tonight, when I need him the most. I know he has to leave though, he cant stay here forever. I know that. I opened the door and stepped outside on the porch with Edward, glancing nervously around before looking back at Edward.
My heart was racing, outside is no longer a fun place for me. I'll never know when he's coming, I can only count on the fact that he will be here and he wont be happy. I took a deep breath before speaking.
"So I guess I'll see you tomorrow" I tried to look calm and collected, but failed miserably. Edward looked down sadly at me, he frowned and touched my face wordlessly. I leaned into his cool touch.
Looking up into his topaz eyes I felt relaxed and safe. Unconsciously I leaned towards him slightly, his eyes were so alive with passion and emotion I could get lost in them. I suddenly had the urge to kiss him, press my lips against his. I cant do that, I turned my head away looking down slightly.
Edward turned away and walked gracefully back to his silver car. I watched him slide into the seat and the car purred to life. He spared me one last glance before speeding off into the black night.
I wrapped my arms around my waist and looked around at the dark tree's, invisible birds sounded from somewhere in the forest. Who know's what else or who else is hiding in there. I turned quickly and flung the door open and sprinted inside the house.
I went to my room quickly, not wanting to force small talk with Charlie. As I was changing I couldn't help but see the only burse left on my body was a fading one on my rib cage. It seems like forever ago that I wished my memories would disappear with the marks. That didn't happen.
I lazily slid into bed, but I tried not to sleep. I don't want to dream, I cant dream. Its now when I wish I would tell someone so I could get the sleep medicine that makes you not dream, but Its not really worth it.
Edward and I sat in a generic field, he was holding my hands and looking into my eyes. He leaned in and pressed his lips to mine softly, I pulled his arms so he would move closer to me.
"Bella!?" Drew's furious voice echoed across the open area, I ripped my self away from Edward and turned wide eyed to stare at Drew. He started screaming at me, I turned back to Edwards chest but it wasn't Edward anymore. It was Drew. A small scream left my lips as I pushed away from him.
Drew didn't let go though, he just kept telling me how stupid I am, and how selfish I am, he screamed horrible things in my ears until I though I would go deaf. I frantically turned around scanning my surroundings for anyone. Edward was standing only a few feet from me looking down at us. I tried to yell for him but no sound would leave my lips.
He just looked down at me and shook his head, the look I feared was evident in his face, not only disappointment but also disgust. I tried to call out to him, make him come back but my voice still wouldn't work.
I was forced to watch as Edward walked away leaving me with a monster. Just the sight of his retreating figure was enough to bring tears to my eyes.
I jolted awake with a start, my vision was fuzzy from tears remaining in my eyes. I wiped them away angrily. The image from my dream stuck with me though, Edward walking away from me. Would he do that? Leave me alone like that?
I decided 5am was a good enough time to get ready. I took a long shower and took the time to blow dry my hair, anything to postpone the day ahead. All morning I was waiting for the door to burst open reveling Andrew.
That's why when the doorbell rang I jumped and fell off the kitchen chair, a small shriek bubbled to my lips as I hit the floor. The door opened and Edward slid gracefully into my kitchen, I sighed in relief when I saw it was only him. He walked over to me and gave me a hand up.
"I thought you might like a ride to school, would you?" Edward asked. I just nodded and grabbed my bag. I hesitated before the door, I had to leave my comfort zone, go out there where he could be anywhere.
I followed Edward outside glancing around nervously, jumping at sounds small animals made in the forest. I desperately wanted to ask Edward if he would leave, but a part of me was scared of the answer. So I kept quiet, the ride was awkwardly silent.
In the parking lot a car door slammed I jumped latching on to Edwards arm, my heart rate sky rocketed. My hands were shacking so bad I gripped Edwards arm so no one could tell. I could hear the whispers as we walked up, everyone looked at Edward and I as we walked by.
"Bella!?" Mike called running up to us, Edward frowned in disgust.
"Hi Mike" I said meekly.
"I heard about what happened, are you ok?" Mike asked cocking his head to the side slightly.
"Oh, um yea I'm fine. Just a little freaked I guess" I laughed shakily.
"Yea, that's understandable" Mike nodded sympathetically, he has no idea.
"I should get to class" I mumbled walking off, Edward followed. I turned to face Edward before I walked into the door. I just stared wordlessly at his face before I turned quickly and walked into my English class.
The chatter stopped as I walked in, I lowered my head and walked to my desk nearly tripping on the way. A few people whispered a hello on my way to my desk, I nodded back to them.
I couldn't pay attention in any of my classes, I jumped at the slightest noise. Anything would set me over the edge, I eventually put my head in my hands and tried to block everything out. The lunch bell sounded like a chorus of angles, it was a much needed break in my stressful day.
Edward was waiting outside my Spanish class; I relaxed and gripped his cold hard hand in my shaky clammy one. He squeezed gently as we walked to the lunch room.
Lunch was the only time I got any sort of peace that whole day, it was only Edward and I. We were in our own little bubble, except that I jumped and looked at anything that made noise or anytime someone opened or closed a door loudly.
The end of the day bell was even better that the lunch bell. It meant I could go home and hide in my house, lock all the doors and windows. Do my best not to be so paranoid, but I hardly think its with out reason. Edward was waiting for me outside of gym, we walked to his car hand in hand. He knows how to make me feel safer, its strange.
Edward was about to start the car but I stopped his hand, I didn't want to go home yet. I just wanted to sit here with him, I scooted over and leaned my head on his shoulder. I closed my eyes and relaxed, it was wonderful. Edward didn't say anything, there was really nothing to say.
I eventually released my grip on Edwards arm and he started the car hesitantly. He drove much slower than usual, I kept my head on his shoulder not willing to move away from him. He opened his window a fraction then leaned into me.
Edward was weird when we got closer to my house, he scrunched his nose up like he smelled something gross. I looked around outside the window, but I couldn't see anything.
"What is it?" I finally asked, a hint of desperation and hysteria present in my voice. He turned to me, his face softened when his eyes scanned over my face.
"Nothing to worry about Bella" Edward said calmly, he reached over and stroked my face. I laid my head against his hand, letting his cold hand cool my hot cheeks.
I was looking out the window as we approached the house, a dark sedan was parked in the road in front of the house. A small strangled cry escaped my lips, who could be here? What could they possibly want? Edward turned towards me nervously.
"Its just Charlie's friend from La Push, Billy Black and his son Jacob Black" Edward told me calmly. I didn't ask how he knew that, I just nodded and stepped out of the car, but not before one last look at Edward. He nodded reassuringly at me.
"Bella remember, just one call and I'll be here" Edward reminded me, I smiled slightly and nodded. I jogged up to the door glancing nervously around a bit, it swung open before I got there. A large boy stepped out, he was very tan and had long dark hair I tried not to wince away from him. A man who looked like him was behind him in a wheel chair, he glared at Edward with fury I imagine only I had seen before.
I shuddered and wrapped my arms around myself before walking slowly to the house, I turned to get one last look at Edward but his car had already disappeared into the fog.
"Bells, your home!" Charlie called from inside. I forced a smile on my face and trotted up to the door. The boys moved back as far as they could so I could move past. It wasn't very far, I ended up brushing against them I hope they didn't see how I shuddered. My breathing was as shallow as ever.
"Why are you so late?" Charlie asked as he rounded the corner. I had to make up a lie on the spot, I hoped it was a good enough one Charlie is a cop.
"Edward didn't have enough gas to get me and himself home so we had to stop at a gas station" I mumbled.
"ok" Charlie nodded. But then again people only believe what they want.
"Oh Bella I would like you to meet Billy Black and his son Jacob" Charlie told me nodding at each of them. I smiled meekly to them.
"Anyone hungry?" I asked awkwardly, Charlie nodded but Billy and Jacob shook their heads.
"Billy, lets catch the score of the game" Charlie muttered, Billy nodded. Sounds of a basketball game were heard faintly from the next room. That left Jacob alone with me, I buttered the bread needed for grilled cheese quickly.
"Hi, I'm Jacob but you already know that" He had a husky voice, he seemed nervous. I smiled a bit, at least I'm not the only one. I dont think he has enough reason as I do.
"Well I'm Bella" I tried to sound casual, I'm not sure if it worked.
"Is something wrong with the truck?" he asked suddenly, I cocked my head to the side, very confused.
"Um, no" I answered slowly. Jacob laughed a little bit.
"It was my dads truck, I fixed it up as much as possible. I was just wondering if it broke or something" Jacob asked, grinning at me. I smiled slightly, he really is nothing like him other than the skin color.
"Oh well thanks for fixing it up... sorry if I took it from you. But no it works fine, I just got a ride with a friend today"
"Ha! I'm glad you took it, I could ride a bike faster that that thing moves. Besides now I can build my own car" Jacob beamed, obviously quite proud.
"Really?! That's pretty cool, I would never be able to do that" I decided to boost his ego. I slid the grilled cheese onto a plate and quickly ran into the living room to give it to Charlie trying to get back before mine burnt.
"Well you should be an Olympic runner that was some skill" Jacob commented when I got back, I laughed.
"Yea right, I'm just lucky I didn't trip" I told him while putting my food on my plate and glancing nervously out the window. It wasn't locked, the window. I quickly locked it and sat down on the kitchen table. Jacob sat down across from me. I ate quickly while bouncing my legs nervously.
"What's wrong?" Jacob asked, suddenly eyeing me cautiously.
"Oh nothing, I'm just nervous... about a test" I lied shrugging slightly, that seemed like something a normal teenage girl would be nervous about.
"Oh. I can take your mind off that" Jacob said leaning back in his chair and thinking.
"Do you like scary stories?" He asked lowering his voice and leaning forward resting his head on his palm. There isn't a story I can think of that is scarier than mine. So I just nodded.
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