Ok so here is another chapter, do I have to say they are not mine? Cause it just hurts too much when I say things like that. Please R&R, cause it makes me happy and I'll be your friend. I had Spring break so I got to write a little more, but school is taking up most of my time. Did you know if you became an English Major you have to write like a ton of papers? Maybe I should change to someting else, I just dont know what. Anyway hope you enjoy :)
Ranger was staring at his Babe he was torn between being happy that she was here and a nervous wreck about what might happen, because he was finally going to open up to this woman and he was almost certain that it would kill him. He stepped back to allow his Babe to enter the apartment.
Steph was nervous, after all she had no idea what was going on. One half of her mind was telling her that Ranger did not do relationships, that he would not like her in his life, because he was neat and orderly, and she was nothing but total chaos. But the other half? The other half was singing that song over and over. She wanted that song; she needs that song. She walked until she reached the couch, and sat down, watched as Ranger closed the door and moved over to her.
Neither one said a word for a few minutes, this was going to be hard for both of them, they were not open people with their feelings. Yet Ranger knew if this was something he wanted, and oh boy did he want it, then he knew this talk was important. How to get this ball rolling was another problem, who should start talking first? Ranger knew he should go first since; he was the one who initiated this talk, the question was how?
"Babe did you like the song?" See this was a good way to get the conversation flowing, Ranger thought to himself.
"I loved it, it was sweet." And then in a voice that Ranger was sure he was not suppose to hear she said "I can't picture you listening to that kind of music, but you do listen to classical music sometimes so I guess it makes sense that you would listen to that. Its just a bit odd."
Steph then turned to look at him, she knew this was going to be a defining moment in their life, I mean it is going to be big, that song had meant something to her, and it had to mean something to Ranger as well, she just wasn't sure what. The best thing she could come up with was to have Ranger explain what he thought about the song, and why he wanted her to listen to it.
"So that song was nice." Steph went on to explain "Why did you want me to listen to it?"
Ranger was quite for a moment, he knew what he wanted to say but he did not want to sound like a fool either. He wanted to find the right words to say to her. He looked at his Babe, she was perfect for him, this he knew, but he was worried, almost scared that he was not god enough for her.
"I wanted you to listen to it Babe, because what was being said was true."
"True?" Steph was starting to think that maybe just maybe…
"Babe what was said was true." Ranger needed to touch her at this moment, so he tucked a curl behind her ear. Touching his Babe brought everything into focus, he could think clearly. He needed to say this and he needed it now, the sooner he got this out the sooner he could know what his Babe's decision is.
"Babe. My life is complicated; I get called in for jobs at all hours of the day. A life with me is not easy; it can be hard at times. I have nothing to really offer you, nothing that you deserve anyway. I have money and I have things, but that is not who your are, you do not care about things like that. I want you Babe, I want you in my life, but it will not be easy on you." Ranger stopped there. He did not know what else he could say to his Babe it was up to her to see where things went.
Steph was shocked that Ranger had said that much, especially about his feelings. She knew his life was different, the question was did she want to be apart of it?