I heard Edward groan softly as he ripped himself away from me. He ran outside faster than I thought possible. Faster than what seemed humanly possible. I wondered how Edward would get home for a second, but I was in too much of a daze to think about it much.

What had just happened? Does Edward want to kill me? I don't know the answer to either of those questions. Its probably better that Edward is gone anyway, as much as it kills me to say it its true.

Andrew would kill me if he found out about Edward, but that's not important he is going to kill me anyway does the reason really matter. There is nothing else he can to hurt me, he's done everything else. It really wouldn't hurt me to die though.

It would kill me if Edward got hurt because of me. That would be the worst thing in the world, I care about him so much more than I would like to admit to myself. The idea of him even meting Drew makes me sick.

I started on dinner to keep my mind busy, it didn't work. Cooking isn't one of those high mind power tasks. I sliced everything carefully and symmetrically though, just to waste time. I made sure everything was perfect when Charlie came home.

Charlie's heavy footsteps echoed as he thundered his way to the kitchen. He glanced to make sure his gun was where he left it, hanging next to the door in his holster. There isn't much to do as a Forks police officer, he hasn't felt the need to bring the gun.

I served Charlie my perfectly prepared meal, he loved it. It made me smile watching his face as he took the first bite. It was a mix of surprise and happiness. Charlie complemented the meal generously and awkwardly he isn't one for voicing feelings and what not. I know where I get it from. I just blushed and nodded when he thanked me, offering a few words when necessary.

I went up to my room to try and finish my remaining homework before sleeping. It made me oddly relaxed that Edward wouldn't be with me anymore. Of course my body and heart ached for him to me next to me, touching me but that's simply unavoidable. I will always want him by me, but I would do anything to keep him out of danger.

I know it's stupid and irresponsible to feel this way about someone whom you only met a month or so ago, but I can't help it. Edward is perfect; he always knows what to say. He makes it all go away. There's more than that though, it's the way sometimes I'll see him looking off into the trees thinking about something. It makes me want to push myself in front of a bullet for him. I know I would too.

I went to sleep that night smiling because even though I hate knowing that I wont be able to be with him I know that he will be safe from all of the danger I bring to people. I still had a horrible dream though, that wont be changing anytime soon. I went through the motions slowly and left the house with just enough time to get to school.

I was almost late to my first class, but it really didn't matter much. My mood was weird, I was dreading seeing Edward because I knew something had changed. We probably wouldn't sit together today, or even talk much. A part of me wanted to see him though, just to remind myself why I was staying away from him. To see who I am trying to protect.

Jessica walked with me to lunch, I could tell she was more than a little bit confused on why I was not walking with Edward. After walking in silence down the hall way she finally turned to me.

"Did you and Edward have a fight?" She asked, her dark curly hair bounced as she moved her head. I shook my head no.

"Then why aren't you sitting with him today?" Jessica pushed; I sighed and grabbed an apple placing it on my lunch try before answering. I wonder if they can hear me, I wonder if they are even listing.

"The family is very close, he likes to sit with them sometimes" I told her, I had gotten quite good a lying. When you do it every day its bound to become a new talent.

"Does that bother you?" she asked leaning closer, she obviously wanted some dirt. I glanced at the Cullen table and smiled lightly.

"No, why would it?" I asked as we sat down at the lunch table, she shrugged and looked away.

"Are you two dating?" She whispered to me, leaning over the table. She didn't do a very good job of whispering almost everyone at the tables head turned slightly my way.

"No. I don't date" I told them simply. Its true, now anyway. Maybe it would get Mike to back off.

"Why?" Mike asked, I rolled my eyes a bit. Of course they would ask 20 questions.

"I just don't" no need to go into detail about why.

"Have you ever dated someone?" the snobby girl named Lauren I think asked me, she sounded shocked.

"yes" I put my elbow on the table and rested my head in my palm, I was starting to rethink eating lunch with them, maybe alone would be better.

"What happened?" Jessica asked, at this point I had the whole tables undivided attention. I decided to go with the playing dumb tactic, the easiest one.

"What?"

"With who ever you dated, what happened to make you not want to date anymore?" Jessica clarified.

"Oh, nothing really I guess" I answered shrugging. Its so much easier to lie to people you don't know than to someone you really care about. Like when Edward asks me what's wrong and I look into his perfect eyes I cant seem to lie. Its very annoying really.

"humph" Jessica mumbled before turning away and talking to some other girl. I grabbed my apple and stood up from the lunch table.

"Where are you going Bella?" Mike asked frowning.

"To finish up some homework I need to do" I waved my hand dismissively and turned to walk away, I just wanted to leave the table before further questioning could occur. It also made my heart ach a bit to see Edward and know I wanted to be with him so badly. Its worth it though, I had to remind myself.

I sat down on one of the library chairs and pulled out a tattered copy of Romeo and Juliet a personal favorite. Before I knew it the bell rang, I frowned I was just getting to the good part too. I sighed heaving myself from the chair and slouching off down the hall way.

Biology with Edward was bound to be awkward to say the least. I have no idea what that boy wants, I've stopped trying to figure it out. I think I have figured out enough about him. Or maybe I'm just scared of the answer.

Edward was already in his seat by the time I got to class. I nodded a hello as I walked into the room but didn't say anything because I couldn't trust my voice to come out even and steady. Edward didn't try and say anything either, he just sat as far from me as the desk would allow. It kind of hurt me, why is he trying to push me away too. What's his motivation; at least mine has his best interests at heart.

I couldn't concentrate at all through the class, my thoughts were centered around Edward. I wish I could just go back to when I was alone and I didn't care. But now I want him, more than I should. As the bell rang I jumped in my seat, Edward stood quickly and let his eyes wander to me for a long moment before he ran out the door.

Gym is very easy when I don't have to get involved. Thanks to Carlisle I have a doctor's note and everything. I spent my time finishing Romeo and Juliet. The period passed quickly. I ran to my truck to get away from the rain.

I took comfort in the roar of my engine, I pulled out of the parking lot with a slight smile on my face. I pushed the first radio button. It was a news station. …This boy has been missing for two and a half days, it is suspected that he went to visit a girlfriend who moved away the deep radio voice blared over my speakers. I switched the channel to a generic pop song. I don't care anymore.

I almost slipped stepping out of my truck onto the wet ground but I caught myself. I stumbled into the house faster that I probably should have, my foot got caught on a stair and I tripped spreading my books all over the floor.

Lady stuck her head out of her hiding spot, once she saw it was me she ran over and started attacking my face with kisses. I smiled and pushed her off, I picked up my remaining books and threw them onto the kitchen table.

I started to work on my homework, but I often spaced out thinking about Edward or something Edward related. I need to get a grip on myself. This is just sad for me to be so obsessed with him. I slammed my biology book and grabbed a big pot from a shelf and lasagna noodles. I filled the pot and set it on the stove to boil adding a little salt so it boils faster.

I went to work on making everything perfect I spent endless time trying to make everything just right just to waste time. The front door opened, it must be Charlie I though to myself but I quickly glanced at the time and Charlie isn't supposed to be home for another half an hour.

The footsteps were soft, too soft for Charlie and a bit to loud for Edward. I called Edwards name anyway, he laughed. Not the musical godlike laugh that is Edwards, it was a darker sound. It was the kind of laugh that made flowers wilt and birds stop singing.

My breath caught in my throat, it felt like I was chocking. I know that laugh, too well. Its his laugh.

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