I moaned and rolled over. The cloudy light streaming in from my window was making it increasingly difficult to fall back asleep. I tried shoving a pillow over my head but that made it slightly difficult to breath. I groaned giving up on more sleep and sat up in my bed.
I looked to my nightstand for the time, it was, wow it was 1:26 in the afternoon. The time didn't hold my attention for long though because there was a note sitting next to it. I could see it was addressed to me with elegant script.
Bella, it read Call me when you wake up please. 432-9384. Edward I smiled, but then frowned once I remembered what I had told him. I quickly got ready for the day and dialed Edward's number. He answered before it finished ringing the first time. I suppressed a laugh.
"Hello, how was your sleep?" His soothing voice sounded over the phone.
"Restful, and how was your…day?" I was going to say sleep, but apparently he doesn't. He laughed perfectly.
"uneventful, its quite boring waiting for you to wake up" Edward told me. I blushed, good thing he cant see me.
"Don't you have better things to do?" I asked him, surely he does.
"Nothing I would rather be doing" Edward sighed. I smiled and blushed redder. "Since I assume you are awake now care to go somewhere?"
"where?" I asked.
"I have a place I like to go when the weather permits, would you like to join me?" Edward asked, as if I could refuse him even if I wanted to his voice would make that an impossibility.
"sure" I managed finally. He chuckled lightly for a second, the sound made my heart soar. I care for Edward far too much than I should, I'm only setting myself up for disappointment. Someone like Edward would never want to be with someone like me.
"I will pick you up in an hour, wear something warm and comfortable" he told me, I nodded then once again having the amazing epiphany that I am in fact on the phone with Edward and not talking to him in person so he cannot see me when I make motions.
"ok" I sighed. He said goodbye and I hung the phone up and quickly jumped to go take a shower. I let the steaming water pound my back and wash away all of the past. I smiled as the smell of my strawberry shampoo filled the small bathroom.
I tried my best not to think about what I might be doing with Edward, no need to make myself nervous for no reason. God knows Edward makes me nervous, how could he not, the boy is absolutely beautiful. Inhumanly beautiful I reminded myself quickly.
I threw on warm cloths and comfortable shoes, I wondered where Edward was taking me before I heard a thudding nock on the front door. I grinned and jumped to get the door. Edward stood in all of his godly beauty on my front steps.
My eyes scanned over his appearance, as always he looked absolutely amazing. Seeing him brought back all of the memory's of what I had confessed to him. I felt dirty and embarrassed, I frowned and sighed, he looked confused.
"What's wrong?" Edward asked concerned.
"Nothing" I breathed out, Edward raised a perfect eyebrow I pursed my lips and looked away.
"Are you ready?" Edward asked after a tense moment. I nodded and tried to smile. I heard him sigh lightly. I followed Edward to the Volvo he held my door open for me like the gentleman he is. I stepped into the Volvo, Edward closed my door for me and walked to his own side and stepped in purring the car to life.
The car ride was silent. I wanted to talk, to hear his voice but I couldn't think of anything to say.
"Where are we going?" I finally blurted out. Edward looked at me, slightly surprised I guess he was anticipating a quiet ride as well.
"It's a place I found in the woods, I like to come here when it isn't too wet just to think" Edward told me looking back at the road. I just nodded leaning my head against the cold hard glass window.
"What are you thinking about?" Edward asked suddenly. I turned to look at him, he was staring at me with some unreadable expression on his face.
"Oh, nothing really" I answered looking back out the window; Edward pulled the car off to the side of the road. I stood leaning against the car with my arms crossed over my chest.
"Bella, I hate seeing you so sad" Edward said coming towards me. I chewed my lip and glanced at him.
"Sorry" I mumbled. Edward sighed and leaned on the car next to me. I looked up at him, his face was tortured. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and comfort him, but I knew it was me that was hurting him.
"I'm so sorry" I mumbled again turning away from him.
"What are you sorry about?" Edward asked, I looked back at him.
"I'm sorry I'm hurting you" I whispered. Edward sighed and took me in his arms, I leaned my head against his chest and closed my eyes.
"You aren't hurting me Bella, I just wish I could do something to make you happy. That's all I want Bella, just tell me what to do and I promise I will do it" Edward begged.
"I don't know Edward, don't worry about me. I'm just being stupid, I should be happy. I want to be happy, I'm with you. How could I not be happy?" I wrapped my arms around his cold waist.
"Close your eyes Bella, I'm going to run us to the spot" Edward told me lifting me bridal style, I tried not to think about that though.
"Run?" I asked nervously. Edward laughed softly.
"Don't worry Bella" Edward said and started running, the wind whipped through my hair. It was a smooth run though, I was tempted to open my eyes but then I wondered if I really wanted to know how fast we were going.
I took the chance after another couple seconds of deliberation. The air whooshed out of my lungs. Everything was a green blur, he was running so fast. So unbelievably fast, I couldn't even have imagined a person running that fast.
Edward slowed down though and came to a stop, not soon enough though. I was dizzy and not feeling so great. Edward tried to put me down but my legs wouldn't work so I almost fell into the tall ferns, Edward caught me of course though.
"Bella are you alright?" Edward asked nervously? I glanced at him, my eyes still wide and my head spinning.
"uh yea" I mumbled, he chuckled slightly. I closed my eyes until I didn't feel so crappy then I got Edward to let me down. I looked around the forest, there was an opening in the trees. I looked at Edward he nodded towards the opening, we started forward. The closer we got the more excited I got.
I grabbed Edwards hand and pulled him, he let me lead us. Right before we went through the opening Edward stopped, I turned to look at him.
"Do you remember when you asked why I couldn't go out in the sun?" Edward asked, I nodded "Well I am about to show you, the day has turned sunny" Edward looked hesitant and worried.
I tried to smile encouraging as I turned and walked into the most beautiful place I had ever seen. It was a perfectly circular meadow, wild flowers were blooming. They were every color and absolutely beautiful. I turned around wanting to share this with Edward.
Edward wasn't walking behind me, I spun around anxiously freaking out for a second before I saw him under a tree on the edge of the meadow. I stretched out my arm inviting him to grab it.
Edward took a deep breath and stepped into the sunlight. I gasped, his skin sparkled now glowed, it actually sparkled like a bag of glitter was dumped on him. Or maybe diamonds were covering his skin.
"wow" I breathed, this made him even more beautiful and perfect. I stroked his arm with my finger tips Edward closed his eyes. We sat down on the soft grass. I exhaled loudly intentionally blowing the air into Edwards face, I noticed his eyes turned a slight shade darker before he closed them.
(AN-this is where Edward and Bella talk about the whole blood thing, you remember morphine, drug addicts and such. I'm not going to repeat that it would be boring)
I looked at Edward, I really looked at him. He was perfect, everything I had ever wanted. He cared for me, he was good to me. And as much as I don't want to admit it I care for him too. Edward opened his eyes and looked at me, my heart sputtered he smiled that godly perfect smile that makes my heart melt.
Oh my god, I'm in love with Edward. What is wrong with me?! I just get out of a horrible thing and I fall for the first guy I meet. Seriously how sick is that, what am I thinking? And how could he feel the same way about me. He isn't human after all, he is so much better, why would he want to be near me a pathetic human.
I frowned and sighed, Edward rubbed my shoulder with his arm. I smiled and scooted closer to him leaning against his chest. I remember his words, I am his brand of blood but they didn't scare me I didn't care.
"Bella how can you want to be so close to me after what I just told you?" Edward asked. I looked up at him.
"Honestly I don't care if you do kill me. At least I would die happy right? I think I would rather die than be away from you" I told him, I cursed his eyes for making me tell the truth again. He probably wouldn't like it.
"Bella, how can your life have so little meaning to you? Don't you care about it at all?" Edward asked shocked, I looked at him again.
"Its not that my life has such little meaning, it's that time with you means more. I just want you to be happy" I muttered that last part looking away. Edward moved my face so it was looking at him.
"How could I possibly be happy if I killed you? I would never forgive myself, you mean far too much to me" Edward eyes bore into my soul, tears welled up in my eyes.
"Really?" my voice cracked, Edward smiled.
"yes" He whispered, I wanted to tell him how much I love him but I bit my lip. He says he cares for me but I don't know how much, instead of saying anything more I crushed myself to his body.
After some immeasurable amount of time I looked up at the darkening sky and sighed, Charlie was sure to be worried sick by now not to mention Renee. Lady would also need to eat, so much responsibilities I wish I didn't have any so I could just stay here forever.
"We should get going" Edward sighed, I nodded reluctantly. We stood up, Edward lifted me up again. I groaned we were going to run again. Edward laughed loudly and stood me on my feet.
"Come on little coward climb on my back, I can run better that way" Edward was still chuckling. I heaved a sigh and climbed on his back, I was terrified. Edward sensed this.
"Calm down Bella, I will keep you safe. Maybe you should close your eyes though" Edward added with a chuckle. I rolled my eyes before I clamped them shut, before I knew it the wind was whipping through my hair.
I grabbed onto his neck with a hold that would choke a human. Edward didn't seem to mind though, he didn't seem to have any trouble breathing either. The wind had slowed down but I wasn't sure if we were stopped or not. I was deciding to open my eyes or not when I heard Edwards laugh.
"Bella we have stopped" Edward told me, my mouth formed and "O" shape and I opened my eyes. I let go of him and dropped to the ground with a surprised oomph, Edward roared with laughter as I sat arms crossed on the ground.
"so much for a gentleman" I muttered, Edward turned to look at me. Suddenly I was in his arms, he was still grinning. I was so close to his face I could lean forward and kiss him. I don't think I have ever wanted to kiss someone so badly as I did Edward.