I looked up into Edwards topaz eyes, he looked back at me with some emotion I couldn't place. My lips felt dry, I licked them to wet them. I felt Edward take a deep breath, then he looked away. I frowned. He couldn't feel the same way about me as I do him, that would just be too much good luck. I'm not that lucky.
"We should get you home" Edward sighed, I just nodded feeling disappointed. Edward led me to the car silently I got in and so did he. It was a rather awkward silence, neither of us knew what to say. I was almost happy to be home, maybe Charlie could provide some conversation.
I hated to admit it but, I was hurt that Edward obviously doesn't feel the same way about me as I do him. Every time I looked at him I felt sad and alone. His cold beauty reminded me that he could never want me. If only I was on the same playing field as him, then we might have a chance.
I spent the car ride tapping my fingers on the door handle and staring out the window, I could see Edward glance at me from the corner of my eyes. I wondered what he was thinking. Once he stopped the car I didn't wait for him to open my door for me I got out as soon as we were stopped.
Edward and I walked in silence to the house. He opened the door for me and Lady ran up to me I walked in the housed and petted her robotically Edward stood at the door. I motioned for him to come in, he hesitated but did.
"Bells that you?" Charlie asked from the family room, I could hear some sports game going on.
"Yea" I called, my voice was empty and bland.
"There is a message for you on the machine" He called. I walked across the kitchen and pressed the play all button, it was quiet so I had to lean in to hear it.
Hello Bella, this is Agent Salvin calling. I wanted to let you know Agent Brath has been removed from your case and we are so sorry about his actions. We also need to have another interview. Please call as soon as you get this. If you don't call by 8:30 I will call back. I sighed and picked up the phone, I pressed talk but hesitated. I turned towards Edward.
"What number do I call?" I asked quietly.
"846-2937" he said quietly. I punched it in and pushed the phone to my ear. Someone answered on the first ring.
"Salvin" she answered.
"This is Bella" I said looking around for Edward, he was leaning against a wall staring out the kitchen window.
"Oh hello Bella, are you ready to set up an interview?" She asked.
"mhmm" I responded still looking at Edward.
"How about tomorrow morning at 10, come to the station" She told me.
"Ok" I mumbled then hung up before she could say anything else. I looked at Edward again, he was looking at me. I sighed and walked upstairs. Lady followed me, I couldn't be sure if Edward did. Every time I look at him it just reminds me that I am in love with him so much and he could never feel the same way about me.
I opened the door to my room, leaving it open just in case Edward did follow or maybe wanted to. I kicked off my shoes and crawled under the covers in my bed, I curled up on my side facing the window. I just stared at the wall, not really thinking. Well I tried not to.
I heard my rocking chair creek, I turned my head to see Edward sitting in it. He was looking at me just looking at me. I looked back at him, wishing he was closer, so maybe he could just hold me, and maybe I could pretend for a little while.
I sat up in my bed and looked at him, he looked at me. It was strange, like we were caught up in our own world. It was nice though. Edward stood up from his chair, at first I thought he was going to leave. I frowned, but he started walking slowly towards me a ghost of a smile appeared on my lips.
I sighed contently and let my eyes wander over his perfect body. He stepped up to the side of my bed and reached out and stroked my face with his cold fingers. They left a tingling cool trail on my skin. Tears welled up in my eyes, I looked at him sadly.
I couldn't be mad that he doesn't love me, its not his fault. It's only my own. Edward lifted me up and laid on my bed, I snuggled up against his frozen chest he wrapped my blankets around me.
I hung on to his body like my life depended on it. I maneuvered so my head could rest at his neck. I breathed in his scent, nothing could compare to how he smelled. I bit my lip so I couldn't tell him how much he meant to me, so I wouldn't tell him how much I love him.
"Bella" Edward sighed. My heart thumped rapidly in my chest as he spoke as perfectly as ever.
"Edward" I answered after a couple of seconds. I pulled back to look into his eyes. I suddenly realized I was only a few short inches away from his face, from his lips. I stayed frozen my heart fluttering hyperactively.
Edward leaned in slightly, he paused looking into my eyes. His eyes were fearful and unsure. I'm sure my eyes were glazed over. Edward leaned forward slowly, keeping eye contact with me. I broke the eye contact to look at his lips then back to his golden eyes.
Edward gently pressed his lips to mine, I lost all control. I thought I might cry from happiness. I pushed myself closer smashing our lips together harder. I was breathing harder than normal, I though Edward might be too.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, I felt Edwards cool hands on my waist. I pushed myself further against him, I could feel the chill through my cloths. I smiled in the kiss, I could feel Edwards lips turn up too. Edward pulled away far too soon though.
EPOV
Bella looked at me with her big beautiful brown eyes. I kissed her, I kissed Bella. It was amazing and terrifying, I could rip out her throat and drain her blood at any moment. It wasn't as hard as I thought it might me though, most likely because I had been close to her before.
Its amazing how resigned I grew to Bella's mouthwatering scent, of course it is still amazing. Its just not as forceful anymore, not a pounding at my senses, just a gentle knock. I pulled away from her warm body.
I don't know why I kissed her, I don't know if she wanted me to kiss her. If she didn't want me to kiss her things might never be the same between us. Maybe she did though. Of course a relationship with Bella would be immensely difficult, but possible. I did still have the slight problem of figuring out if Bella wanted me to kiss her.
"Was that too forward?" I asked suddenly. It was the only thing I could think of to say. Its amazing, in all my years of living I have always known exactly what to say. The one time I need to know what to say, I have no idea. Bella blushed, I didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing yet.
"No actually I don't think it was" Bella murmured hiding her face from my view. I wrapped my arms around her. I could feel her veins pulsing, just reminding me that I am a monster.
"Bella, I could kill you. I am so scared that I might kill you" I whispered pathetically. What if I do kill her though? That would possibly be the worst thing to ever happen, I couldn't think of much that would be worse than knowing Bella, sweet innocent Bella would be dead at my hand.
"I know, I would forgive you if you did though. It would be a happy death." Bella told me. If I had a beating heart it would have stopped in that second.
"Are you saying you want me to kill you?" I nearly stuttered getting the words out. I was to shocked to form coherent thoughts, they were all a jumble.
"no, I would rather not die. I am just saying if you happen to slip up or something, don't beat yourself up too much" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I moved her so she was sitting in front of me, so I could look at her face.
"Isabella" I started, she seemed slightly surprised. "There is no way I would not feel unbelievably awful if I hurt you in any way. You mean far too much to me. I cant even bear to think about it, the thought of you still and cold haunts me" I nearly shuddered as the image flashed in my mind.
"I wont slip up, and you will not die. I will always protect you" even from myself I added silently.
"Do I mean much too you?" Bella asked so silently I almost had to strain to hear it. I looked at her once again shocked at what escaped her perfect pouty lips.
"You mean more to me then you could imagine, you mean the word to me. No, no that's not enough, you mean more. You are so very important to me Isabella Swan, you are my life" I couldn't explain the rush of feelings I was getting. I felt warm and happy just looking at her. I felt this amazingly strong affection for her, maybe what my family members feel for each other. Love maybe?
BPOV
"You mean more to me than you could imagine, you mean the world to me. No, no that's not enough you mean more. You are so very important to me Isabella Swan, you are my life" Edward told me quietly and urgently. My heart fluttered at his words, he said he cared for me.
No he said more than that, he said he cares a lot about me. Even if he doesn't love me this is enough. I breathed a shaky breath as I looked into his burning gold eyes. I threw my arms around his neck, Edward rubbed my back lightly.
"I care about you too, so much Edward" I mumbled into his chest as I nearly strangled him. I couldn't explain the happiness I felt. It was like I was floating, I couldn't keep the smile from forming on my lips.
"Sleep now my Bella" Edward murmured in my ear as my eyes drifted closed.
"stay" I mumbled most likely incoherently.
"I will" were the last words I heard as I slid into the dark abyss of sleep.
EPOV
I smiled as she once again mumbled my name in her sleep. There was no explanation for the happiness in my heart except, love.
"I love you Edward" I looked down at Bella in surprise. She was curled up at my side her head rested on my chest one slim arm draped around my waist. I reached down and whipped the hair away from her face so I could see her. She looked like an angel, she is so beautiful and perfect.
And she loves me. I smiled even though I knew the dangers of her being with me.
BPOV
I sat up in my bed quickly scanning the room for Edward, he wasn't here. Was last night all just a cruel dream. I frowned, I was just sinking into despair when the door to my room opened.
The smell of burnt toast filled my room quickly, Edward drifted in looking slightly guilty. But he was here, that's all that really mattered to me, we could deal with the house burning down later.
"Good morning Bella" Edward said, I smiled at him and sniffed the air again. "I wanted to make you breakfast in bed. Cooking is harder than I remembered" I laughed.
"don't worry about it Edward. I believe I can fend for myself" I grinned at him, just happy that he is here at all. I stumbled out of bed, I of course tripped I flinched expecting the hard floor to great me. Instead I was met with hard arms, and Edwards lopsided grin.
"Bella what will I do with you?" Edward asked, love me I wanted to say but I just smiled. No need to scare the poor boy, he does like me after all. Edward set me down on the floor.
"I need to go get ready" I told Edward he nodded.
"I'll go clean up the kitchen" Edward told me, I opened my mouth to protest but he silenced me. "I insist it was my mess" I rolled my eyes and walked to the bathroom.
I threw on jeans and a big comfortable sweatshirt, I nearly tripped down the stairs but I managed to catch myself. I stumbled into the kitchen where Edward was sitting at the table. When I entered he walked over to me a bit fast.
"you look beautiful" Edwards passionate voice made my heart sing and my cheeks taint pink. I looked at the clock it was 9:45, crap!
"I'm going to be late!" I scolded myself.
"What about breakfast?" Edward asked, I snatched a apple.
"happy?"I asked as I took a big bite, the juice ran down my chin.
"Come on I will drive you" Edward told me pulling me to his car.
"But Edward then you will have to wait for me" I reasoned with him.
"I know I would like to know what's going on with everything" Edward said tapping his head. I sighed once again thankful that he can't read my mind we stepped in the Volvo. Edward placed one hand on the steering wheel and held my hand in his other.
I stepped into the station with Edward at my side. He squeezed my hand before letting it go. Edward went to sit in the chairs in the front part. I walked up to the desk, I was about to ask for Agent Salvin but she appeared and motioned me to follow her.
I followed her into one of those rooms with everything nailed to the floor and the big one way window. She sat down across from me and pulled out a tape recorder.
"I will be needing to record this for later evidence" She said apologetically, I sighed this is going to be a long day.
hey sorry it has been taking me so long to update.. i had to write a paper it was 10 freaking pages long. but we get winter break soon so i will be updateing a lot then. yay
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