so sorry it took me so long, i have my final exams for the semester comming up so I'm studying a lot lately.
Thank you so much for all of the reviews though, they really helped me crank this chapter out even though i should be reading over my notes and such.
After the sun was firmly under the water Edward kissed my jaw line just below my ear, he left it tingling and me blushing as we walked back up to the car. I slipped on my shoes, nearly tripping. I held his hand tightly, the day was perfect. Edward was perfect.
"Would you like to eat here, I hear they have good food?" Edward asked looking at me.
"How would you know if its good?" I asked looking at the little Italian restraint curiously. Edward just laughed and tapped his head, I smiled. "Sure" I finally answered looking at the place.
Edward got us a table, I didn't like the way that hostess looked at him. I stepped closer and held his hand firmly claiming him as mine weather he liked it or not. Edward looked down at me and smiled though, my heart picked up its beating, his smile broadened. As soon as we were seated the waitress came out she smiled as she saw Edwards magnificence.
"Hello, how what can I get for you today?" She asked her body was angled towards Edward, completely ignoring me. I wonder if she has a second job as a nurse, she has the blonde hair and the slutieness for it.
"Bella?" Edward asked me, she turned towards me her smile faltered once she looked at me.
"What would you like?" She asked, well I would like for her to pull up her shirt so I don't get a show but she might take offence to that. Or maybe I could tell her to stop being such a whore and back off. No wait that's mean too, damn it.
"I'll have… that" I pointed to the first thing I read, mushroom ravioli.
"Mkay, can I get you anything?" She had already turned back towards Edward, god he doesn't want anything ok!
"No thank you" he told her politely glancing up at her. She leaned a little closer as if she was going to tell him a secret… or shove her boobs in his face. God I am so mean, today what is wrong with me?
"Couldn't I get you anything?" she asked in what I assumed was meant to be seductive. She batted her eyes.
"Do you have something in your eye?" I asked, I couldn't help it anymore this was just too much. Edward coughed to hid a snicker.
"Um, no?" She was very confused.
"Oh I guess I thought you did. That could be your excuse for missing some buttons" I mumbled the last part quietly but Edward still heard it, he was smiling now still trying to hold in the laughter. She left quickly after that.
Edward and I talked about everything, anything really. Sometimes we had whole conversations about nothing, absolutely nothing. The only time we were interrupted was when the waitress gave me my food, she was quiet this time.
"you feel cold to me but are you cold all the time?" I asked.
"Well, I'm not cold, I could go outside in a snow storm and not be bothered. We don't even need jackets, but it would look strange not to have one. Alice or Emmett don't feel cold to me, they feel normal. I suppose I will always feel cold to you though" Edward said, I suddenly wished he wouldn't always feel cold. As much as I like the coolness of his body I want to be like him. I don't want to be a porcelain doll to him.
"Bella?!" a somewhat familiar voice called from across the room, I looked up to see Jessica's bouncy hair darting towards us followed by Angela. I took a deep breath and plastered a fake smile on my face.
"Oh, hi Edward. Where have you been Bella?" Jessica asked, she was momentarily stopped by Edwards godly presence it was almost expected though, around Edward.
"I got hit by a car" I told her bluntly.
"Oh my gawd! Are you ok?" Her eyes were wide and full of surprise, this was obviously very juicy.
"I'm getting there" I smiled, I felt like a Barbie or something, always smiling no matter what happens. That plastic smile, I have had a while to prefect it.
"wow, I can believe you got hit by a car, that's crazy!" Jessica's eyes were still bugged out of her head.
"Well Bella we should get going. Goodbye Angela and Jessica" Edward said nodding to both of them. We stood up and I waved shyly to them as we left.
"Bye Bella! Call me!" I heard Jessica shout, I barley heard Angela say goodbye but I know she did. I dropped the smiled as soon as we turned around.
"Bella that is eerie that you can fake happy so well, if I didn't know you so well I would have thought you were actually happy to see them. Jessica thought that" Edward noted looking down at my obviously unhappy face.
"Comes with practice Edward. But you know me well then?" I asked quickly so he wouldn't dwell on the fact that I practiced pretending.
"Yes I do like to think I know you well, not well enough though love. Your always surprising me" Edward put his arm around my waist gently.
"Better that than be boring" I commented.
"Yes life is never boring with you Bella" Edward laughed, I smiled up at him and rolled my eyes playfully. The rest of the walk to the car was silent, it wasn't that much further. I thought about my dinner, the waitress. The food was pretty good though, bad aftertaste but it was good at first. I wrinkled my face up at the taste.
"You don't have any gum do you?" I asked Edward once we were almost to his car.
"I cant say that I do Bella, sorry" Edward told me, I had figured he wouldn't have any though, why would you have something you can chew.
"oh" was all I said.
"Why?" Edward asked as he unlocked the car doors and opened my door for me. If he kept opening my doors for me I'm going to get spoiled and end up standing in front of a door waiting for someone to open it for me.
"The food left a funny taste in my mouth" I clicked the seat belt into place and leaned back into the chair relaxing.
"Lets stop at the store up here then and grab some" Edward said twisting the key in the ignition, the car purred to life under us.
"We don't have to, really" I told him.
"I insist" Edward told me peeling out of the parking spot expertly. We were quiet as he drove down the slick black pavement.
"What were Jessica and Angela thinking?" I asked, wondering if they believed me being hit by a car. Its true I was hit by a car I just left out some of the details in the situation, I needed to know if they believed me.
"Jessica was thinking about how she is going to be so popular because she knows where you have been and how she has never known anyone hit by a car before. And she was wondering why I was out with you, because I don't go out. Angela was hoping you were ok" Edward kept his eyes on the road even though I knew he didn't need to he could drive perfectly with his eyes closed.
"why are you?" I asked.
"Why am I what?" Edward turned to look at me this time, confusion written all over his face.
"Why are you out with me, why me?" I asked, turning away from his penetrating stare.
"Because Bella, love, you are the only person I really want to be out with. I wish you could see yourself how I see you. You are funny, smart, mature, and Bella you are beautiful" Edward said, I blushed furiously and shook my head slightly.
"Bella, stop that. I do love you. I love you Bella. Its alright if you don't love me, I understand that you just got out of a very bad relationship and I would never do anything to push you. I am out with you Bella because I can't stay away from you" Edward said, I felt his finger tips brush a strand of hair from my face I was still blushing bright red.
"Edward, I love you too" was all I managed to say, tears filled my eyes. This is too perfect, he is too perfect. Edward pulled into a parking lot and got out of the car and opened my door for me quickly.
I leaned into him and rested my head on his shoulder smiling happily. Edward wrapped his arm around me and pulled me to his side, he used his other hand to tilt my chin up so I looked into his face. Edward leaned in his chestnut eyes sparkled with happiness.
His cool lips pressed against mine, I couldn't help my reaction I pushed myself up against him and moved my lips against his. At first he froze for a split second but he moved his hand to my lower back and pressed me to him further. All too soon Edward pulled away though, he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and lead me into the store.
The store was nearly empty, there looked to be a man in the back of the store, at the alcohol section. Edward walked over to the candy isle dragging me with him, gently of course. There was a lot of gum to pick from.
"What kind do you like the best?" Edward asked. I grabbed a cheap pack of mint gum and started walking towards the counter. The man from the back was standing at the register paying for his bottle of hard liquor.
He was standing in a way that I could see his profile. My heart sped up and I could feel myself going into slight shock. I knew that man, he looked different, more aged life had taken a toll on him.
His ice blue eyes much like his sons had become sunken in and cloudy. He hadn't shaved in at least a couple of days, he looked awful. That did not look like Robert Mort, not like when I knew him to always have a clean shave and a power tie.
The package of gum clattered to the floor, I hadn't even realized I dropped it. I spun around on my heel and walked in the opposite direction, I walked fast to where I hopped he couldn't see me. I hoped he hadn't already seen me.
Edward was standing next to me, but I didn't even notice him. I concentrated on not thinking, I needed to think about anything else. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths through my nose. I sang the happy birthday song in my head over and over again until I was sure he would be gone. I peeked my head out and sure enough he wasn't there anymore.
"I don't want gum anymore, can we just go" my voice was strangled and breathless. I didn't give Edward a chance to say anything I started walking, I didn't even know if he opened his mouth. I walked out of the store quickly but just as I was outside the door someone grabbed my wrist.
I jumped and made a surprised noise, Edward was standing next to me so I was face to face with Mr. Mort. He dropped my wrist once I stopped. I had to concentrate to keep the tears from welling up in my eyes as I looked into the face of the father of the boy I killed.
"you didn't have to shoot him" he said weakly, Edward started to pull me away but I was rooted to the spot I couldn't move, I couldn't even look away from his lifeless eyes.
"we would have gotten him help" he continued softly, his voice was empty and hopeless. "You could have just said something" tears were filling up my eyes but I still couldn't seem to move. I forced myself to listen to this soft torture, it was worse than yelling ever could be.
"he didn't mean to hurt you, he was just mad" he pleaded with me, the tears spilled over my cheeks and ran cold down my face I didn't make a sound though. "he was just a boy" Edward finally managed to yank me away and lead me to the car.
My face was contorted in agony, that poor man. I sat in the car quietly letting the tears run down my face, I could sense Edwards internal debate. He probably had never had to deal with this in his long life.
"Bella" Edward started but I cut him off shaking my head.
"don't, please don't" I begged quietly, I didn't want to hear that it wasn't my fault or that he deserved to die, even that he was a horrible person I just didn't want to hear it. I leaned my head back on the car rest and closed my eyes, the tears oozed out still though.
Edward pulled up to my house, I got out of the car. I saw Edward start to put the car in drive again and I slammed my hand on his window. His eyes widened and he opened the window quickly.
"I don't want to be alone" I whimpered. Edward immediately got out of the car and wrapped an arm around me and lead me quickly up to my room. I lay on the bed and pulled him on with me so I could lay in his arms. I cuddled close to him, finding refuge in his stone arms.
We should be like this forever, alone and peaceful. Away from everything, from everyone we know or knew. We should run away, run away from it all. We would never have to see any of this again. Never would I worry about what to tell someone from school, or seeing Mrs. Mort after she is out of the hospital.
Running away sounds nice.
ok well please review because i will be writing more soon, i have a three day weekend comming up so yaya!