Author's Note: First of all thanks to all my reviewers!!! -gives out Crowfeather plushies- Ah, crappy chapter. Sorry, I wasn't in the mood and I was planning on a new story... Well, just read and flames are accepted!!

Waiting For You

I can't remember when I started to fall for him. Maybe it was his behavior or his looks, but pretty soon I realize I had begun to love him.

Every time my heart skips beats in front of him, I thought of how wrong I was. Forbidden love can be painful; my mother and father had proved that. When I was a little kit, I told myself not to fall for another Clan cat and now I did. But, I fought back on that thought, these are different circumstances right? I remembered Graystripe's story. He and Silverstream never had a happy ending. Even though I don't care much, I keep telling myself not to worry, love will find a way.

He was merely a young apprentice, while I was a warrior. But he was more than what a warrior can be. He was always trying to protect me, even though he is younger. During the perilous journey I had realized I felt safe when I'm with him. I actually wanted him to protect me. But I was glad that when I died, I died saving him. I had returned his favor; I am no longer in his debt, nor is he in mine. Crowpaw is now free.

But he didn't want to be free. He mourned all day, blaming himself for my death. Why, Crowpaw? It wasn't his fault, I did it myself.

I watched in horror as the huge cat, Sharptooth, cornered Crowpaw. His head whipped desperately from side to side, seeking an exit. But there was none. Sharptooth bared his fangs and got closer… For a moment, his eyes met mine. Fear filled his blue gaze and suddenly, it struck me what I had to do. "I am the silver cat…"I murmured, realizing the truth as soon as the words left my mouth. Looking up, I saw the sharp rocks jutting out from the top or the cave. Thinking quickly, I aimed at one and jumped. My paws caught one of them and with a shiver, it collapsed. I crashed to the ground, just in time to see Sharptooth fell back, not moving again.

I knew I had finally saved him. I would always watch over him, but I wished he would stop grieving, and get on with life. As soon as my paws touch the sky, I had seen his destiny. There would be a cat to replace me. No matter how much I envy that cat, I prayed that Crowpaw would realize it soon.

Crowpaw became a warrior pretty soon, and no one would have any idea how proud I was of him. When he requested to be named Crowfeather, I wanted to cry out. I was glad he truly loved me and remembered me, but I was sad that he couldn't put the past behind him. Everyone seems to be moving, but Crowfeather is stuck in the past. Perhaps it would take another cat to make him realize, there is no use in thinking about one's loss. Of course, I knew who this cat is.

Leafpool. How I hated her at first, and how I hated myself for showing such hatred to another cat. But now, I realized, I had died for a reason. It was my destiny, as well as Crowfeather's and Leafpool's. Our destinies are entwined together. It was my duty to be happy for them.

Now, I watched him through the pool in StarClan. He had confessed to her. I was relieved, but there was something else that slowed my heartbeat. Disappointment. Leafpool would have his protection now, just as I had when I was alive. The more Leafpool gains, the more I lost. I would never deny I didn't want Crowfeather to love Leafpool, nor would I deny my selfishness. I can only wish I didn't love Crowfeather so much, so much that I could actually detest another cat. Watching quietly from the sky of spirits, I accepted the fact that Crowfeather already loves another cat, and that I am merely a spirit, who can only wait for her love to join her in death.

Crowfeather and Leafpool never went through tough times. That is why I start to wonder if he really loves her, or is she just a substitute to fill up the gape in his heart. I wish I could know that if I'm alive, would he have fallen for Leafpool? If so, who would he choose?

No matter what, I cannot undo the past. Everything is already done, I'm already dead, Crowfeather has fallen for another cat. The only thing I can do is waiting for him to join me.

As I said, crappy chappie, even worse ending. But I'll be grateful if you review anyway!!