A/N: I'm not too proud of this chapter, I don't know why. Well anyways, when you finish the story, please suggest some pairings... I'm running out of ideas!

Don't Let Her Go

I would do anything for her. I can give her as much as Brambleclaw could. Will she ever know that? Even if it means giving up my life. I am even willing to let her use me to spite Brambleclaw.

Squirrelflight showed signs of her quarrel with Brambleclaw a while after we moved in to our new territory. I wondered what happened that caused her to despise the cat she loves so much. She never told me, because I know, she doesn't trust me as much as she does with Brambleclaw. Even though now the trust between them has been misplaced, it is still not worth the trust she has for me.

I can't understand. What is she doing? One moment, she was purring with Brambleclaw, the next, she was spitting. And without warning, she was by my side. Her acting was good, but I could see through it. If she can act, so can I. I did. I acted pretty well. All I wanted was to bury my muzzle inside her fur but I stopped myself. She doesn't love me. She was only using me. Her eyes were always full of longing when she stares at that tabby tom. But she still stuck to my side. And I was foolish enough to let her.

Love is foolish. I don't mind being used, as long as I can have her beside me everyday. The mere thought of her made me purr silly. She had turned me into a fool, a fool in love. Sometimes I wonder why am I doing this, and I couldn't find a good enough reason why.

I never demanded Squirrelflight to love me, I never asked for her feelings to be for me. But I just don't want her to push me away.

I could imagine every night, the sight of Squirrelflight and Brambleclaw purring as they make up. The feel of her fur beside me was trying to assure me that wouldn't happen. But I long knew that moment would come one day. That moment would come when my heart would crack.

I am merely a side character. Squirrelflight would be always with me now because there was no one else to lean on. I was the only choice. I know that some day, I would be left to mourn over the loss of my love and no one would even notice. One day, when Squirrelflight found where her heart truly lies in, she will go back to Brambleclaw, and I would be left mourning at the side.

What I really hate about myself was why I allow myself to be that side character which could have been any other person. I don't have the heart to tell Squirrelflight not to use me as bait. I even consider myself lucky that she chose me.

It hurts. It hurts so much that I feel like I am about to die. It really hurts, you know that, Squirrelflight? I'm always looking happy and cheerful, but the truth is that, I am worried and very scared. Scared to lose you. I just tried not to show it.

Sometimes I feel the new territory is so strange. Danger is everywhere, and problems are weighing every cat down. The distress of my Clanmates hunt over our camp so heavily I suffocate under it. It was only because of Squirrelflight I was able to breathe.

I should never expect too much from Squirrelflight. The higher my expectations, the bigger my disappointment. She would care for me occasionally, but eventually, it is Brambleclaw who she really loves. She will never look at me the same way. Her heart belongs elsewhere.

When the time comes for her to return to Brambleclaw's side, I will not complain. It is my duty to let her follow her heart, to love someone more worthy than me. I will ignore the breaking of my heart and swallow the pain I would feel. At least she would not be upset again. I would let her go and purr encouragement at her. I will slink back quietly into the shadows.

I know the time is coming soon. I would lose her any time now. That is why I must treasure the moments we share now.

There is ever so little chance she would choose me over Brambleclaw. She doesn't know what I will be reduced to if she ignored that little chance that I would be her mate. Every single word I think of is true; it came from the bottom of my heart. I despise myself because I can't bring myself to say those words I wanted to.

But Squirrelflight, I will let you go. That is a promise I will keep until I join StarClan. I will bury you deep in my heart. Your joy is mine, but my joy isn't yours, so I will do anything to make you happy, because it will make me happy too. But if one day you want to come back to me, I will accept, regardless of when that time is.

I would still be ready to take her back if the tabby tom mistreat her again. I would be ready to let her use me again. Even though it hurts badly, I am still glad fate had brought us together, whether through friendship or love.

Bramblclaw, don't let her go

Bad chappie! In my opinion, that is. AARGH! My skills are going down! -gasp- Ah, poor Ashy... thanks if you reviewed! Again, please give me more ideas!