Chapter 1-Plunging Part 1

A pale, slender girl with deep crimson eyes and sky colored hair walked along the sidewalk. She had the girls high school uniform on along with a few bandages along her arms. Her bag for school was carried in her left hand carefully, as if she held it to tight her hand would break.

This was the physical appearance of Rei Ayanami on this particualr Friday afternoon. She was walking toward the Katsuragi/Ikari/Shoryu residence in Tokyo three. Asuka and Shinji were called straight away to NERV after school to do some more sync tests, so she was hoping Misato would be home sinc she hadn't been there yeserday.

She never imagined talking to Misato for more but a few words, and now she was approaching her with a whole beig topic. About emotions. About herself. About Shinji. And she wanted answers.

Misato was laying at home with a cold. She laid down, eating some instant Ramen, watching really bad daytime TV. A beer was on the tissue littered table, along with some of her freshly washed clothes that needed to be put away.

She expected to be along entil a little after six when Shinji and Asuka would be home. Asuka would go in her room and complain about something while Shinji, on the other hand, would see what needed to be done, do it, and close himself off in his room.

Misato egan to cough violently. It wasn't a simple cough, but the kind that scratches your throat. When she was done she took a swig from the beer can and seetled back in to a comfortable postion. Once she was comfortable there was a knocking at the door. She smiled while getting up.

'Kaji came to make sure I got better!' she thought happily to herself.

"Coming!" she said in a raspy imitation song like voice. She opened the door to reveal Rei. "Oh,"" she said, a bit perplexed by the girls apperence at her doorstep. "Hello Rei."

"Hello Major Katsuragi," Rei says nodding her head.

Misato sneezes and sniffles. Her eyes began to water as she patted her nose with a used tissure.

"God bless you," Rei sysa almost kindly.

"Thanks," she replies, blinking the tears out of her eyes. "olease come in. Afraid the place is a mess. I mean Shinji hasn't been home to clean it yet," she says placing her arms behind her head. Misato looksa t Rei's face and sees the light red tinge on her cheeks.

"Are you not feeling well also?" she asks innocently, "Or is this about something else?"

"Something else Major," the teenager says quietly. "I want to know about feelings."

"Oh, please leave off the 'major'. Just Misato 'k?" she asks. Rei nods as a reply. "What feelings do you want to know aobut Rei? I'll help as much as I can. I am far from an expert."

"Friendship. What does that feel like?" she asks, intensely looking at Misato.

"Friendship? Well friendship feels like confidence, as if you have back-up to do anything. You have the love and support of that person on a deep level, like they were there your whole life and you just didn't realize it. I suppose that is what friendship is."

"Really?" Rei says almost astonished. "So what makes it any different from love?"

Misato thought about how she should anser this. 'Should I use my feeling for Kaji and just go from there? Maybe. Or maybe I should just ask her what she needs it for. There are different degrees of love when you are a teenager after all.' She thought for a few more moments, looking at the clock. Suddenly the door flew open just as she finished her thinking process.

A certain red head came storming in, mumbling in German, tears welded up in her eyes. Her body was tense and her eyes looked as though they would shoot daggers at anyone who crossed her path.

She turns to Misato and screams, "Du haste mich!"

Asuka pushes through, not noticing the blue haired piolt standing there. She throws up her arms before entering her room and screams "Alles hast mich!" and stomps off.

The ever so comical sweatdrop appears on Misato and she holds a finger up to Rei, silently promising to be back in a moment. She walks off to the cusing German girl's room. Rei stands there looking astonished at the outburst.

That must be anger. An anger that is irreplaciable. Anger is caused by negitivity. What happened to make her react like that? I did not know humans were capable of such emotion. I have never seen such an outburst.

Is that what is expected when something bad happens to someone? Is there not 'sadness' as well? There are so many, how can she respond with just one? Or is she not? Is there deeper feeling that she feels besides anger? This is all so much, and I know so little.

How do Misato and Ikari-kun deal with it?

Misato taps gently on the door before entering. Asuka is crying heavily inside, her head resting on her hands, eyes already bloodshot.

"What did you say?" Misato demands, refering to the German phrases.

"Du haste mich! Alles hast mich!" Asuka repeats, sobing between breaths. "You hate me. All hate me," she then translates looking at Misato.

"Since when?"

"The commancer said I wasn't needed anymore. Kaji left. You don't care. Baka Shinji loves a doll and doesn't realize it," she begins. She closes her eyes and stops. "I am doomed to the same fate as my ancestors."

"Asuka! Knock this bull-shit off!" Misato screams, slapping her. "You think Shinji and me are bad? Listen to yourself. Wallowing in self-pity. I thought you were stronger."

Asuka keeps her face in the postion Misato slapped it to, as if unfeeling and uncaring towards it. "Who cares? My life is over. I am going back to German in four days," she states, looking away.

"Fine. And Shinji is not a baka nor does he love a doll. Rei has gotten past that if you would look past your own nose. And have you ever thought the reason you have lost your postion at NERV is because of your terrible demour? I mean there is the theory that your personality is reflected in your sync-ration," Misato says with her eyes narrowed. Asuka ignored her and just looked around the room. Misato sighed and stood up, going to leave when she heard the German girl say "Ich hast du," or I hate you.

NeoAthena: I don't own Evangelion

This was a really long chapter and I decided to split it in to two just for the heck of it. Please review, it keeps me going and gives me something to look forward to. Any problems with facts and stuff just tell me, and I will do my best to mention any correction, okay?