AN:

Sorry it took so long for an update but this chapter is crucial. I wanted to make it felt right. Thanks to Denece and Adri for their help. Enjoy!!

Kelly

Chapter Nine

Jason stared out the window into the night. He thought back to his life before he met Courtney. Before he was changed. His family wasn't something he allowed himself to think of often. After all they were all long dead. But for some reason tonight they were all he could think of.

Jason's thoughts drifted to his parents and his grandmother all of whom he loved. Then of his bother and sister. Even though they had their problems he loved them as well. Finally he thought of the boy he was before meeting Courtney. He was self centered when it came to his personal life. He used woman giving little thought to what they might want or need. He had been what people now might call a player. And he had little if any remorse. Even now.

His sister Emily however had warned him his actions would lead to nothing but trouble. Little did she know how right he would turn out to be. Courtney came in to his life at a time when he needed to feel needed. She quickly came to depend on him more than anyone ever had. It all changed the night Courtney turned him.

The moment he woke Jason knew something was wrong. Then Courtney explained. She was in love with him. She insisted they could be together forever. Jason was furious. He knew he didn't love Courtney at least not the way she wanted. He raged at her for taking away his choice. For forcing him in to a life he didn't yet understand.

In the end Sonny had somehow found them but not before Jason had completely lost control. After awhile the rage had subsided. Over the years Sonny became more than just his mentor. Jason even grew to love what he was completely embracing it. But part of him still detested how it all came to be.

The beast growled making its restlessness known. He needed something. He just wasn't sure what.

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Elizabeth was just starting to paint when there was a loud knock at the door. She yanked the door open already frustrated with whoever was interrupting her art. "Jason, what are you doing here?" she asked as her frustration quickly vanished.

"I... I just ended up here." Jason stammered out with a shrug.

"Come on in." she smiled as she opened the door wider and motioned him inside.

"You were painting." he said as she closed the door.

"Yeah I have this piece I have to finish for class." she explained as she joined him in front of her easel.

"I wanted to see you." he said minutes later as they stood in silence.

"I want to see you too. I'm glad you're here." she admitted with a smile as he took her hands in his.

Jason smiled at the admission. Then it occurred to him why he was there; he wanted her. Now. He trapped her between himself and the wall. His mouth slamming down onto hers. Jason roughly nipped at her bottom lip till she granted him entranced into her mouth. Their tongues dueled feverishly.

Elizabeth moaned in his mouth as she managed to push the leather jacket to the floor. Her hands tugged at his shirt desperate to feel his skin against hers. Jason pulled back long enough to pull his shirt up and off his body. Moments later his mouth was back on hers. Jason ruthlessly plundered her mouth swallowing her cries of pleasure. His hands began to undo her shirt but after two buttons Jason grew frustrated and ripped the shirt open.

His hands immediately went to her breasts. Jason squeezed the creamy flesh till she was panting. He looked down at Elizabeth her face flush and eyes filled with desire. And he stopped. The love Jason felt for the woman before him prevented him from treating her like all the others. She wasn't like them she was different, special.

Jason kissed her softly before backing away. "Is something wrong? I thought you wanted me." she whispered, her confusion evident.

"I do so much but not like that. You deserve better. I never want to hurt you." he said softly as he cupped her face gently in his hands.

"I want you too. How doesn't matter to me." she told him craving his touch, his possession unlike anything she had ever imagined, much less known.

"It does to me. I love you." Jason said as he looked deep into her eyes.

"You do?" she gulped, feeling her heart burst with love for him.

"More than I ever thought possible." Jason admitted.

"I love you too." she said and then pulled his head down to hers and touched her lips to his.

"You love me? Why?" Jason asked, because he couldn't understand how someone as perfect as Elizabeth could love someone as evil, as dead as him.

"Because you let me be who I am. Not who you want me to be." Elizabeth answered immediately.

"You're so beautiful, so amazing. Why would I want to change that?" Jason asked with a tender look.

"Everyone else has." Elizabeth sighed.

"I'm not everyone else." Jason replied as he cupped her cheek gently.

"No. You're not are you?" Elizabeth smirked.

"I love you." Jason told her again.

"I love you too." Elizabeth said softly.

"I want to make love to you. Is that okay?" he asked as he pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her.

"Yes. Make love to me." she whispered softly. Their lips met in a slow sweet kiss. Everyone and everything else just faded away. The only thing that mattered was their love.

Jason spent most of the night simply pleasing Elizabeth. For the first time he was caught up in someone else, in someone else's needs, someone else's wants. He found that his wants didn't matter because very simply her wants were his wants and he loved her. God, how he loved her.

Later they laid tangled together on the couch. Jason watched Elizabeth as she slept peacefully in his arms. He glanced at the clock. Knowing the sun would rise soon and as much as he hated it Jason had to leave. "Elizabeth, I have to leave."

"Hmm. No. Stay." she pleaded as she reached out for him.

"I wish I could." he admitted sadly.

"Why do you have to leave?" she asked with a pout as she sat up and looked at him.

"Because I have a meeting." he answered as he kissed her forehead gently.

"Okay. Fine. Leave." she whined.

"Can I see you tonight?" he asked with a smile as he looked at her lip poking out in a sexy pout.

"My shift ends around 7." she said with a sigh, knowing she could never refuse this man anything.

"How about we go for a ride?" he suggested knowing how much she loved flying down the road with the wind in her face and her hair flying.

"I love you." she said softly as she leaned into him and kissed him softly.

"I love you too. Go back to sleep." he said and then kissed her again before walking towards the door. He knew he better leave now, or might not ever leave at all.

Benjamin watched Jason leave the run down building. Jason had spent most of the night with the young waitress he was following. It only proved what Benjamin already knew. This girl meant something to the enforcer and was the perfect way to get to him.

Elizabeth was almost back asleep when there was a soft knock on the door. Thinking it was Jason she opened the door without thinking. She gasped when she realized that the man standing there wasn't Jason. Elizabeth tried to shut the door but the intruder forced his way in. "Let me in bitch!" he yelled as he pushed the door open with all his might.