I feel so hated !!! Haha I know I know its my fault…. For all the cliffhangers! but I kind had too!
Cuz I already have the story down in my mind its just taking the time to write it down…
So my delay isn't writers block its just the actual writing part…
and I've been busy!
ENOUGH OF MY EXCUSES!!! lol CHAPTER 11 its a little longer...(a little.)
IMPORTANT CHAPTER!!!!!!!! explains alot.
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Bella POV
I was falling.
Falling inside myself… past all the memories and events my past lives lived.
But its not fair….Why am I paying now…for who I used to be? But Who am I now?
Am I the same as them?….without the memories… my ghost held inside herself.
But she Is me.
Do I want to be? I just want to be Bella…..is that enough?……no
This is what I asked myself as I continued to fall….and suddenly I landed. Apart of me was relieved but another part
was afraid of where I had landed. I was laying down in the middle of a room
….more like a cafeteria…full of people….Teens….sitting down….talking to their friends…..eating their lunch….
I waited for the impact…
of suspicious eyes wondering why I was spread across the floor…but they did not look at me.
I waited scanning the room but no one took notice…. Can they not see Me? Am I the ghost now?
I stood up and walked In the rows made from the tables curious now….where am I?
"Bella!" a familiar voice called…. I turned around expecting now that I wasn't invisible but then…I saw myself..… and Edward?
Just as I thought….I met Edward before….and this was a memory….
I saw myself walk to a table with Edward and she…We….talked to him while eating lunch….
I was smiling and very familiar with seemed the same…..but had a look of caution.
Edwards POV
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The Ghost closed her eyes and was silent for a moment … she seemed to be more connected to Bella than before ….
Now that Bella was beginning to remember the memories she held within her…..
The ghost opened her eyes and looked at me.
" Edward…..In Order to save her …Ill have to show you…..what happened all those years ago…" She whispered.
She the turned to Rosalie, Emmet, Esme, and Carlisle. " All of you…" she continued
" We are going to go into the memory of that night….in 1915.…she will be there…..reliving it.
And we will try to convince her to come with us….. Before its too late and she dies for real…"
Bella's Ghost stood up and walked to Ryan, Tomas, and Sarah
" You already know…..what happened and I need you to stay and watch her body….just in case…"
They nodded and Ryan walked next to her and held her hand.. The ghost came towards us now…
" Close your eyes…." she whispered.
We all did and as soon as I closed mine….I felt myself falling into chaos.
Bella's POV
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I Kept falling From Memory to Memory I couldn't stand it!!! I felt as if I would loose myself in them!
They passed by making sure I was not to forget them again…..like they had been waiting…..and here I was….
I Now Remembered…….
My life in Forks.
about Edward and my love for him…..and how he left…..
Jacob……and his secret…..and my strong connection to him.
And even Charlie! Oh Charlie! He was dead now…….
And the car accident….that almost killed me if Tomas hadn't saved me….. Turning me into a child and taking my memories….. And half of my heart.
Tomas….. Sarah….Ryan….. What happened with them in the past?
And why did Victor want me….. I had a strong feeling in my Gut that I was going to find out…..
And I fell……
I landed in a dark room….. And felt a draft of sorrow and death…. It was a large place and the room was neatly decorated.
The door was shut and retained a streak of blood smeared on the handle.
I didn't like this….. I wanted to run but I heard breathing, No! Gasping. I found the sound coming from the bed and I looked underneath it surprised…..
A small fragile little girl was underneath it, covered in blood. She wasn't crying but was breathing hard not knowing what was to come as
the door opened slowly I was laying on the floor next to her.
She looked at me!
And gazed intensely as a figure came closer….moving slowly…..
She didn't look up but stared at me….and we became one. I became her.
I winched as someone pulled me carefully from under the bed and held me in his cold arms.
" are you ok?" He asked
I gasped It was Tomas! Holding me and wiping the blood off my face.
These memories where different… this time I wasn't a ghost I was reliving the events myself…..
I fell again and this time I was running in a meadow near a river. I wore a lacey blue dress and had flowers in my hair as a little boy
with blonde hair chased me " Bella! Bella!" he called with need.
…. But he wasn't little…I was little and he seemed a year or too older than me…..
We laughed and he tackled me to the ground holding me tightly as if I might fly away. Sarah Watched over us smiling.
" Ryan! don't be too rough on poor Bella!" she laughed.
We ran inside passed the large halls of the mansion….and raced to Tomas's Office.
" There is my Princess! And her Knight!" he cooed as he picked me up swinging me around in an embrace.
He put me down and smoothed Ryan's hair affectionately. Later Ryan held my hand as we watched the moon come out.
" Ill always protect you" he whispered as we fell asleep near the window.
As much as I wanted to stay in this memory I felt myself fall ……down….down….down…
it was like in was in a dark pool that pulled me in deeper….holding me tightly…..
I came up for air and I found that my body was older ….
I was in my teens again dresses in Victorian style clothes that suited the time.
Ryan, older also was talking to me as We walked in a Marketplace in England place with Tomas and Sarah.
It was cloudy and perfect but among the crowd of people walking by I caught two people staring at me…
Their eyes where red and when they realized I was staring back They smiled maliciously.
I stood there frozen, afraid. Until Tomas Grabbed my arm quickly and pushed me fast against the crowd away from their sight.
Even then I didn't feel safe. " Tomas?" I asked as He hurried me to a car.
When we got home Ryan was frantic around me never leaving my side holding me to him like when we where children.
Tomas was pacing in the living room thinking, Distracted.
" Tomas? What's wrong?" Sarah asked anxiously
" Victor….and Warren….they are here in the city they spotted me…..and unfortunately, Bella……"
Ryan face turned worried " Who are they?" he asked
" Two Vampires that are known for feeding on humans…..
I used to know them a long time ago…and we are not on good terms with each other…..But that's not what worries me……
Its Bella…they saw her and once they spot a victim they will go through great lengths to hunt them…." Tomas growled.
I gasped and stepped backwards comprehending what he was saying they wanted to feed on me….
Sarah held me close to her growling….. " they aren't getting her!!! "
" How will we stop them?!!!" Ryan yelled desperately
"We will have to send Bella away ….!" Tomas resolved as he dashed upstairs to my room
" WHAT!? Why????" I screamed tears filling my eyes… " Please I don't want to go!!!"
" Bella its for your own safety! And Not for long….just until I handle Victor and Warren." Tomas said in a soothing voice.
" If Bella's Going then so am I!!!" Ryan yelled wildly
" Yes….perhaps both of you should go…." Sarah smooth voice contrasted Ryan's
" Then Its settled Ill send you both on a boat to America…
and Handle the Vampires after your safe." Tomas decided
Oh! No the floor caved in on me and I new I was going to fall into another memory
I fell but this time I had a feeling I wasn't the only one falling.
I landed.
and realized I was on a boat and I walked on the deck filled with dancing people….
Wondering….until Ryan found me
Edwards Pov
We fell and stopped suddenly. I opened my eyes to see the ghost standing in front of us
sorrow filled her eyes.
" Bella is here now reliving this Memory….but she wont see us…for we are ghost….but she will see us when the right moment happens….and then we wake her up….." she ordered
" another thing, This might be hard for you to see… and you cant stop it….for it already happened."
I realized we where on a ship and it was obviously lavishly for the rich…. People where dancing and music played as lighted decorated the ships decks….where she was….. Wondering….only to be found by Ryan who was a human???
took her hand and guided her to the dance floor…. I could feel the jealousy filled my body as I remembered her and Ryan on the couch ……
Ryan held her in a waltz position and the music started they glided across the room and I could see in Bella's eyes that they only saw him. And He had eyes only for her….This didn't help sustain the anger inside of me….I would have ripped him apart but I was a ghost….for this memory…and no one saw me or my family as we watched with Bella's own ghost.
The music finally stopped and Ryan and Bella walked along the deck talking…..
" I am worried….Do you think Sarah and Tomas are ok?" Bella asked anxiously
" I am sure they are fine….well see them again….soon" he answered trying to calming her.
She gave him a weak smiled and put her arms around him….tears falling from her cheeks…..
" Ryan…" she Whispered…. He was shocked but quickly held her close to him…
My family and I watched their embrace trying not to look at me…
I glanced at Bella's ghost whose face was emotionless…..
Finally in what seemed like forever…. Bella began to let go of Ryan and pull away….
but he wasn't having any of that!! To my surprise and hers he pulled her close to him and Kissed her!
Rage built up inside me as I watched this…..Bella's face was surprised and was blushing deeply…
Ryan took this in and pulled away seeing her shocked face….
" Bella….I….I am sorry…." he whispered bowing his head and strode off…..
" wait…." she called as he took off but he couldn't hear her soft voice….
She sighed deeply apparently to my dismay sad that he ran away….
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Sorry I have to end it here I already delayed my homework as long as I could!
but Ill get chapter 12 up hopfully tomorrow cuz ill be free : I hope this story is getting clearer and
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