Meet the Past:
The long awaited chapter !!! Sorry I was grounded and it sucked. lol
I am a slow typer by the way….
( Chapters have names now no more numbers yes! )
Chapter 14
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Bella Pov:
Indeed I had changed….even though I was still just 15 years old, my face seemed aged…. I walked downstairs and I was greeted by Sarah's cooking filling the air….My stomach rumbled and I ran to the kitchen excited to get some of her delicious food in my system… " Good morning Bella!" Sarah beamed startling me slightly…. " Morning"
" I knew you would be hungry you had a long night…." she whispered setting the food down " thank you " I whispered feeling a bit uncomfortable and a bit angry with my family if I must say so my self…The room was quiet and Sarah just sat across the dinner table staring at me with her golden heavy eyes. Sarah obviously noticed my feelings and sighed " Your thinking…we should have told you….about your past" My back stiffened and I dropped my fork…She was good…… I should have known.
Like a bullet she was gone….out of her chair and at my side taking hold of my face. Embarrassed I looked away while tears began to spill down my cheek…god I was hopeless I cracked! she whipped them quickly and made me look at
her.. " Bella Please……we meant to tell you when you got older…." " You mean until my heart stopped!!!" I yelled without thinking…I didn't mean to…And Sarah dropped to her knees" Bella…I am so sorry… We didn't want to hurt you!" She sobbed dryly. This was too much although I felt bad making Sarah upset I couldn't get over what had been done. " didn't want to hurt me….?" I laughed as Sarah's eyes widened in shock. " your too late." I whispered coldly….. " Bella!" she reached for me but I pulled away and got up not having an appetite any longer. I ran outside, I couldn't be there right now… But I knew I needed to do something..
Edward POV
I laid on the bed listening to music in my room to drown away the thoughts of the world. It was a long night and I had a feeling today would also be long. As I laid there listening to music I could sense someone coming close to the door. I jumped up and walked toward it with human speed. Probably my family wanting to check up on me…even though all I wanted to do was be alone…..but when I caught the sent of the person at my door and opened it with haste. The door flew open and Bella's brown eyes met with mine. " Bella!" I gasped unneeded air. Her eyes widened with surprise…I probably scared her by opening the door so quickly…" Edward…" she whispered " May I come in?"
I nodded silently and stepped aside as she walked in my room….the music was still blasted and I turned it down a bit and turned to her giving indication she had my full attention….more than that. " I…I don't know why..I am here……" " but I had to see you…Edward I don't know what to say I'm still a bit confused and I …." I wrapped my arms around the girl I loved before she could finish, I couldn't bear this any longer I just wanted her back. I wanted her to belong
to me again…Selfish things to want.. I knew things wouldn't come that easily and that is was my fault, I deserved this. But Bella didn't deserve anything but happiness….and I could only hope it was with me…if not…. " Edward" Bella whispered…but stopped and looked at me in the eyes. I stared back getting lost in hers. Her face leaned closer to my face pressed her cheek against mine. I was breathing heavier now not sure if I could control my feelings I was
severely tempted to kiss her beautiful, soft lips but decided against it as tears ran down her pale cheek. I was
surprised when she put those lips to mine and leaned in closer …eliminating the space between us.
I lost it ! I pulled her closer to me and deepened the kiss. She sighed and put her shaking arms around my neck tugging at my hair slightly. I didn't let her lips go free except to give her time to breathe but even then I was desperate for her mouth. I knew long ago when Bella was with me that I didn't kiss her this way…but now I was
starting to regret it. Bella finally pulled away gasping and stepped away from me. " I didn't come here to do this.." I stepped closer to her thinking she back away and she didn't… " You didn't?" I smiled she blushed and I leaned closer wanting to continue…..she gave me a sad look and backed to the door.
" I don't know what to do" she started " I remember you and everything that happened…even when you left…" she walked toward the window as if in a daze.. " Edward….I need to know…why are you here? Back in the woods in Forks…you left.." she turned facing me… " please." I whispered " I need you to know Bella, that I didn't leave you because I didn't love you" She shivered at that. " I left because you deserve better than me…you deserve a normal life ……….and a life away from danger." she stepped closer to me this time with an expressionless face.
" so why are you here? " she whispered lightly " Your ghost told me about you accident…and that you were turned by Tomas into a 9 year old child." She only stared. " Bella, I couldn't get you then you just a confused child "
" Bella I saw your new life through Alice… that you where happy and I wasn't about to make you remember me ……
but then I found you, not purposely but…by chance as soon as I saw you I couldn't make myself forget and leave you again I became selfish again and tried to win you back…even though I could tell you where falling for Ryan I knew you had a strong connection to him… I was jealous and wanted you back…I still feel that way…I love you "
Tears rolled down Bella's face " Edward I love you too, but there's a part of me that will always love Ryan …I don't think it will go away…I am two different people…I love two different vampires… both have my heart" she cried. The room went silent as I comprehend that and I remembered Bella's past life….how she loved Ryan and died a cruel death. I wanted to be upset that my love also loved another but I couldn't blame her heart that remembered Ryan. I was still jealous of him…I wanted to claim all of Bella's heart " Then I will steal all of your love." she gasped and looked up at me. I could tell she wasn't expecting that. " what?" she breathed " I wont give up on you Bella!"
I was the one gasping now….I came at her and grabbed her waist ignoring her struggle. My lips forced themselves on her and she didn't stop me…she only sighed giving into the kiss she wanted.
Next chapter soon ! ASA as soon as I write it haha