Hey, hey everyone! I know I said I was taking a break but I luckily found a laptop so i can keep up with my work. A bid thank you to all the amazing reviews I got from you and I'm glad you like this story! Especially cuz it was meant to be only a oneshot. Enjoy this chapter.
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Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of windows to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Lucas was discharged a few days later and his mother brought him back home with the help of all his friends. Between all, Nathan was the one who had been there the most.At Lucas' surprise, Nathan really seemed like a nice person and helped his mother a lot.
He was really pissed though because he couldn't seem to remember anything about the last year. The doctors said that he could eventually regain the souvenirs he lost but he might as well never remember anything at all.
His friends really tried to help him and stick with him but he was becoming more and more closed and he wouldn't let them in and tell them how he really felt. Haley couldn't stop blaming herself for what happened. If she had told Lucas to wait for the backups, he would never have jumped and he would remember everything he wasn't now.
The old brooding Lucas was back now with the fact that he almost died and that a part of his life was missing.
The whole drive home was silent. Lucas kept staring out the window. Karen couldn't help but check on him. She turned her head a few times to see if he was still there. Maybe he would lose himself in his thoughts. The thing she feared the most was the way he would react when old memories would resurface. She wasn't ready for a break down when he would learn that Keith, the men he loved the most was dead. She couldn't believe it herself but it would be really hard on Lucas. They all agreed to not tell him.
Lucas recognized his home when they got in the driveway. At least we didn't move out, he thought. He couldn't think of having to have another house and another neighbourhood. He got out of the car and walked to the door he remembered being the access to his room. Karen watched him in amusement as he climbed the few steps and waited in front of the door.
"You can go in you know", Karen smiled.
Lucas didn't respond and opened the door in front of him.
"Welcome home!", everyone was standing in Lucas' room. A banner was hung above his bed, saying the same message his friends just told him. He looked around at the room and it was exactly the way he remembered it.
"You friends put your room in the exact same way it was so you would feel like home", Karen said from the door. Lucas looked around and he remembered everything except maybe a few pictures that seemed recent because he had never seen them before.
"Do you like it?" Brooke asked with a smile.
"Well it's the same way it was…" Lucas moaned
"Does that sound this bad?" Haley inquired.
"No but there's just nothing new…"
"Maybe but it was that or a total new room you didn't know and we though maybe it wouldn't feel like home…", Nathan shrugged.
They heard a slight moan coming from Lucas then he looked around and didn't seem in the good place. He looked as lost as a rich boy in a poor town or a Chinese man in an English world. Haley started to wonder if he really acknowledged their presence. Maybe he didn't. The poor kid looked like he was trapped in his world with no way of coming back.
"Where's Peyton?" Lucas finally asked after several minutes of awkward silence.
Brooke took the punch and swallowed. He was supposed to remember being his boyfriend but the first thing he thought about was Peyton.
"Well, she's not here", Brooke shrugged.
"I can see that", Lucas turned on himself and clearly noticed Peyton's absence.
"We're not really on speaking terms right now"
"Why??"
"It's not important right now…". She smiled sadly and took her gaze off him so he wouldn't see her discomfort.
Where did I go wrong I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Lucas sat on his bed, legs stretched, staring blankly at the wall in front of him. He had asked everyone to go back home and get their sleep. He didn't want all the attention right now. The only thing he wanted was to be left alone in his 'fortress of solitude'. He felt like there was a lump in his throat. A mixture of anger and depression. Maybe he should've died in that river. Who was he now? He didn't even know who he was. It was like a part of him was missing. What do you do when you don't know what you like anymore and what you don't? When you don't know who your friends are and where you're not even sure if they really like you.
Maybe they had lied to him to make him feel better. Maybe he didn't have friends and maybe this bridge thing was all a lie. That the uncle Cooper who died from the accident was just an invention from Nathan to avoid telling him the real reason he was there. What had happened for him to lose his memories? Maybe he did this to himself. Maybe he jumped from a roof and knocked his head. Maybe he just had enough from the life he had and his friends hid it from him.
If he wasn't desperate then why did he feel so bad and so sad since the time he woke up? His head might not remember anything but his heart still feels the same thing that in the past. He was sure of that. Even if he doesn't remember what happened, he was convinced that the emotions he had were still there. Otherwise, why did he feel sympathy for his brother and his dad? The last time he remembered seeing them, they were on his wall and he was throwing some knives through their faces. That might have been just a picture in his mind but he still hated the men. Dan always despised him and he hated him for the way he treated his mom.
He heard a soft knock and his door opened tearing him from his reverie. It was Haley. The small brunette stood in the doorway, not sure if she was gonna walk in or out. She just wanted to check on her best friend and make sure he was okay.
"Hey" Lucas said.
"Hey!" Haley responded, offering him a smile.
"Thought you left"
"I couldn't really bring myself to leave my best friend behind…". He nodded and she smiled to him. This smile, he applied it back on his face. Even though the last thing he remembered with Haley was their rough argument, he still felt good in her presence and figured they had sorted things out if she was still looking after him.
He motioned to her to take a seat next to him. Haley shyly walked on the side of the bed and sat next to her best friend. She hadn't recognized Lucas since he woke up after the incident on the bridge and this Lucas was scaring her, a little. At first she thought he became crazy when he was babbling some things about a fight they had then she understood he couldn't remember the past year and promised herself she would help him through this.
Let him know that you know best
'Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defence
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to god he hears you
"How are you feeling?"
"Lost I guess…", he lowered his head and Haley watched him for a few seconds before she noticed the tears in his eyes.
"Hey, it's gonna be okay!"
"I'm so scared! What would you do if you couldn't remember your own life?! I'm so scared Hales!!" he cried. Haley wrapped her arms around his shoulders and couldn't help but smile ate her nickname. She rubbed his back and calmed his sobs.
"It's gonna be okay", she kept whispering in his ears while patting his back. Lucas cried onto her shoulder and she couldn't keep the tears from forming in her own eyes.
That night, Lucas cried himself to sleep in Haley's arms. She promised she'd stay with him all along and for the first time since the accident, Lucas found the heart to trust. Seeing the kid had fallen asleep in her arms, she stroked her hairs and finally laid down next to him and pulled herself into a ball in his arms. She closed her eyes and listened to his heartbeat, remembering the old times when they were young kids and Lucas begged her to stay over and sleep next to him. She used to curl in a ball and fall asleep listening to the steady sound of his heart, beating. It was just like old times and Haley fell asleep really quickly.
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A little later that night, Karen came in to check on his son and found him out cold with Haley wrapped around him. The picture of them sleeping like that came back to her mind and she smiled. For the first time since a week, she smiled at the thought her son was safe. She closed the lights and headed back to her room and to the comfort of her bed.
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Lucas woke up in the morning and found Haley sleeping in a ball next to him. He smiled and made sure he was quiet so he wouldn't wake her up. It was the first time in a long time he saw her sleep and he thought he'd let her. After all, she looked so peaceful. He stayed there a few seconds watching her before he moved, with the most precaution, to his side and rolled off the bed.
He got to his wardrobe and picked up his old hoodie and a pair of jeans. The bathroom wasn't that far and nobody was using it so he figured he'd get a shower before he headed out to Peyton's house. Since he didn't see her for what seemed like forever, he thought he'd stop by and say hi.
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Haley woke up a little later and found that she was alone. The only thing she saw that was unusual was Lucas' absence and a note on the pillow next to hers.
'Morning Sunshine,
You looked so peaceful, thought I'd let you sleep. My mom made some breakfast and I don't want to miss that so wait for me and I'll be back soon so we can eat together. Just needed a walk to clear my mind.
See you in a few,
Lucas xxx
She folded the paper back and smiled. Lucas was odd but that's why she liked him. He always made sure everyone was okay before even thinking of himself. Thinking he probably went to see Brooke, she didn't think of a short wait. Maybe he wouldn't be back at all if things went well. She smiled and squeezed the bed sheets, bringing them to her nose and smelling the sent of it. It smelled so much like Lucas. She had always liked the way he smelled. This was an odour you couldn't really identify but it felt like home. There was no way you couldn't feel good with him. Only the thought of him made her smile. God, what would she do without him?
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Lucas walked in front of the big house that he recognized as Peyton's. He had no doubt that it was hers, seeing her car in the driveway and the way she parked it was all Peyton.
She was sitting on her bed, her pad on her brought up lap, her ipod close and a pencil in the hand. The blonde girl was drawing frantically whilst the music blasted in her ears. She didn't hear him when he came up and jumped when she got her eyes off her drawing.
"Jesus! You scared me!", she shouted taking her earbuds off.
"Didn't mean to I just wanted to see you" he said placing his hands in surrender.
"Really….I mean, he heard what happened at the hospital…"
"And I do remember you don't you think? Plus, I don't really know why but I feel something strong when I'm with you" he said blushing slightly.
"Really! How touching!", they heard from the door. They both turned to see an angry Brooke.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
I had known how to save a life
"Brooke, what are you doing here?" Peyton demanded.
"I came to pick the rest of my stuff before I moved out"
"So you're really moving in with Rachel?"
"Well, don't complain you have my boyfriend to fill the empty space!" Brooke spat in anger looking at both Lucas and Peyton, her eyes full of pain.
"Brooke, that's not what it seemed" Lucas explained
"Of course Luke, you weren't telling her that you loved her. I must have mistaken then because you are supposed to be my boyfriend and you tell her you love her again!" she shouted.
"That's…wait, again? Brooke I don't know if it happened before but I sure as hell know that I love you. I always loved you otherwise why would I remember dating you?!"
"Because she loves you!!" Brooke shouted pointing toward Peyton.
The blonde girl was startled that her former best friend had said that.
"I know that she loves me! She told me in the library the day I was supposed to pick my mom" Lucas yelled and then realised he just told Brooke that he had mistaken. Peyton avoided looking at the both of them and Brooke faced turned into a disgusted grimace.
Of course she knew about them sneaking in her back during the last year but the timing was different. Brooke had caught them after he broke up with her. He was at her place and they were kissing while Lucas had just told her that he needed some time to be alone and figure some stuff out.
Lucas told her he made some mistakes but were they seeing each other long before that? What was that library thing?
Lucas faced changed abruptly like if something had slipped. Well, something had definitely slipped. He told Brooke that he was seeing Peyton in her back.
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
"What are you talking about" she asked in totally different tone. It was more hurt and soft than angry.
"O and stop pretending that everything is fine Brooke! You knew what happened between me and Peyton last year. I'm the one who isn't supposed to remember! You told me at the hospital that you forgave us for that so drop it off okay!" Lucas yelled.
"That's because I didn't know you too were together before the accident!" she yelled in frustration. Peyton's eyes widened. Everyone agreed not to talk about the bad stuff that happened in Lucas' life. The point of what he remembered was right before it all started to go wrong. The accident, Nathan crashing the race car, Keith dead…they couldn't bring them self to tell him. Luckily, Lucas didn't seem to notice. "Right, so we didn't tell you. I don't know how but it never came…you didn't know. Think about me now. Just for one second! What have you guys told me recently, uh? I told all of you would be good friends and tell me what I missed. Nobody as talked to me since the day I woke up and realized I lost my memory! What do I know uh, that Keith left town, that I'm suppose to be dating Brooke and that the two girls I knew as best friend are mad! Nathan and Haley got married and I'm a senior…this looks not so clear to me does it?!", he spat the last words with so much anger that Peyton almost had to hold onto the closet door not to fall.
Lucas looked at them waiting for some answers. His face was red and both girls had never seen him so angry. They understood though…anyone that lost his memory would freak out especially with the few things they told him. They didn't tell him half of the stuff he was supposed to know. Peyton was looking around in desperation and Brooke was fighting with herself to keep her tears inside.
She noticed Lucas' slight frown and the change of look in his eyes. She studied him for a moment before he spoke again.
"What accident, Brooke?", his tone was totally different. He sounded almost worried.
"What?"
"You said 'you two were dating before the accident'…what…what are you talking about….", his voice was hesitant and low.
"Lucas…maybe we should really talk…" Peyton announced.
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
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