Thank you to the few of you who reviewed. It looks like only two of you reading this, but I will continue, because one of you said please.

Caterpillar- I thought the last episode was great, also. I love that it looks like Derek and Mark are slowly regaining their relationship, even though Mark screwed him over.

Okay, here is another update. I'm sorry the chapters are so short, I'm so busy all the time, but I will try my hardest to make them longer.

I am the worst girlfriend ever...

Meredith was lying in her bed, staring at her ceiling. It was ten in the morning and she couldn't bring herself to get out of bed. The idea of staying bed all day sounded way more appealing than getting up and taking a shower, and doing the errands she needed to run.

I'm such a whore...

Meredith laughed aloud at that one.

Are you a whore if you haven't had sex in a year?

She threw herself around in her bed. Now, she was facing the window.

Nine more days. I have started a countdown until my "boyfriend" comes home. But not a good countdown. A bad one. I am such a bad girlfriend.

Meredith rolled over in her bed. She was now face down, on Finn's pillow. It was the oddest thing. She elevated herself with her hands and stared down at the pillow. "Huh." She let herself go again, her face was in the pillow again. She could of sworn she smelt the faintest smell of Derek in her bed. Which was, of course impossible because they were just friends.

Right? Are we just friends? Sexy friends? Friends who make out in the kitchen? What if I thought of this "friend" as more than a friend?

Meredith was now clinging onto the pillow that she thought smelt like Derek.

God! I hate men! They are so confusing! First you find an okay guy, who asks you to move in with him, then he has these stupid rules in bed! I can't even touch him! I don't move all night. Geeze, I hate Finn. He's such an asshole.

Suddenly, Meredith threw the pillow across the room, realizing it didn't smell like Derek at all, but it was Finn's scent. She ran into the bathroom that was connected to her room, and emptied the contents of her stomach.

"I am the worst girlfriend ever." Meredith said aloud to her reflection in the mirror.

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Meredith walked into her house with a large amount of shopping bags in her arms. She was struggling to not to drop them all. She was looking down at all her bags, making sure she got them all, when she ran into something. She promptly dropped all her bags and jumped about a foot in the air.

Meredith screamed, "Oh shit!" She looked up and saw Derek's eyes twinkling down at her. He had a grin on his face. "God, Derek, you scared me half to death! You really need to stop breaking into my house." She paused and looked down. "Wait, how did you even get in here?"

Derek laughed a little as he bent down to get the shopping bags and the contents that fell out of them. "Meredith, it's not a good idea to put a spare key under the mat."

Finn's idea.

"I know."

"Then why did you put one there?"

"Because Fi-" Meredith paused and looked at Derek.

I can't tell him. If I tell him, it will all be over. I can't hurt him. I can't... I...

"Meredith?"

"Oh, um, what?"

Derek looked at her with concern in his eyes. She looked like she was lost and confused. They just stared at each other, each with their respective secrets. Secrets that would hurt the other. Secrets that would make the other eternally happy. Secrets that would shock and surprise the other. A secret that would determine their fate.

Derek just smiled at her, but it was a smile that didn't reach his eyes. "Oh, nothing. It's okay."

When all of her purchases were picked up from off the ground, they both stood and set them down on the counter in the kitchen. Derek looked at Meredith once more. "Um, is, um everything all right, Mer?"

Meredith looked back at Derek's beautiful blue orbs. She trusted him, already. She trusted the man before her, and she hasn't even known him for a week. Meredith wanted nothing more than to truthful with the man she trusted, but she knew she couldn't be. She wanted to run into his arms, and cry her eyes out and tell him everything. But she didn't know how he would react. Would he take her into his strong arms and protect her from everything, and tell her everything would be all right? Or, would he scream and yell, and walk out the door, to never see her again? That was a chance she couldn't or wouldn't take. She was fighting an internal battle that she knew she would never win.

As the tears pooled up in her eyes, Meredith looked up at the man in her kitchen. The tears glistened in the setting sun, making her eyes gleam. She lied to him and said, "Yeah, Derek, everything is fine."

Derek stepped closer to her, "You're lying to me." Meredith blinked and the crystal tears cascaded down her cheeks. Derek wrapped his arms around her and she instantly relaxed in his embrace. He dropped a kiss on Meredith's head and said, "If you want to talk about it, you know you can trust me, right?" Meredith nodded her head against his chest. "But you don't want to, huh?" Meredith shook her head in a negitive response. "Okay, that's fine with me."

They stood like that for a few minutes longer, while Meredith's tears stopped. "Meredith, I'm going to carry you to bed now. Is that okay?" Meredith nodded her head yes. "Okay, but I did actually come here to ask you a question, but it's okay, I'm going to let you rest, is that fine?" Meredith nodded again. "Okay."

They pulled apart and Derek bent down a bit to catch Meredith in the backside of her knees and on her back. Her head found a resting spot in the crook of Derek's neck. He walked into her room and deposited her on the bed. He went to the foot of the bed, removed her shoes, then pulled the blankets up to her stomach. Derek paused and smiled down at her. He grazed his thumb against her cheek and bent down to kiss her forehead. "Okay, Mer, call me on my cell if you need anything. Are you comfortable?" She answered him with a nod. "Okay, I'm gonna go now." He bent down again, and kissed her cheek. "I'll see you soon, Meredith." With that, he walked out of her room, then exited the house.

When she heard the front door close, Meredith's eyes welled up again, and the tears started all over agian.

Okay, I know this wasn't what you were expecting, but it was necessary for Meredith to realize her true feelings towards Derek. I promise the next chapter will be better.

Please update! Thank you.

-Mary