Chapter Seven

"I WISH YOU WOULD JUST GET OFF MY BLOODY BUTT ABOUT THIS!! IT'S MY BODY, SO I SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO WHATEVER I CHOOSE TO DO WITH IT!!" I yelled at David like I had been doing for the past five minutes.

"But you shouldn't be doing that to your body; it's not good for you at all." David never seemed to raise his voice an octave higher than his normal 'inside voice.'

"WHY DO YOU CARE IF I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO EAT?!!?"

"Because I love you. And I don't understand why you are doing this to yourself because you definitely aren't fat!"

"LOOK AT THIS," I pinched my stomach, "THAT'S ALL FAT. DANCERS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SKINNY AND I AM NOT!"

David's eyes and his voice roared, "LILY MARIE EVANS YOU ARE NOT FAT!! YOU ARE THE SKINNEIEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. YOU ARE THE PERFECT SIZE!"

"YOU LIE!!"

"Just out of curiosity have you eaten anything since Monday?" I pondered this question for a bit. It was now Thursday and I know I hadn't eaten much.

"Why yes I have; yesterday I had a salad." My eyes gleamed with triumph, but for safety wise I figured I'd leave out the part about me throwing it right back up after.

"And then what did you do? Hopefully not go to the bathroom ."

Crap, he knew me to well, "so what if I did. I still ate so it still counts. You asked me what I ate, not what I did after I ate."

David lost his temper for only the second time that night and started to yell, "FOR GOD'S SAKE WILL THE BULL NEVER STOP COMING?!?! YOU JUST TOLD ME THAT YOU ARE BOTH ANOREXIC AND BULIMIC AND ALL YOU SAY IS THAT YOU 'STILL ATE' SO THROWING UP DOESN'T MATTER?!?!?!"

"SO!!"

"Do you know what that can do you to?" He lowered his voice again, "it screws your insides up."

"I know and I'm willing to take that risk."

"Okay, well tonight sucks. Now you will probably be telling me that you are on heroin, you have stopped sleeping, and you plan on screwing James when he comes tomorrow."

"Well once is cor--"

"WHAT ARE YOU FREAKING INSANE?!? DO I EVEN WANT TO KNOW WHICH ONE IT IS?!?"

"I've stopped sleeping."

For a second he actually looked relieved that it wasn't one of the other two. "Lily, why?"

"I'm too scared to sleep. The same nightmare comes back whenever I fall asleep." It was true; so far I had killed Evan, Gloria, Graham, and Jenny. It was too much for me to bear now, so every night I took a sleeping potion that would make me stay awake.

"I'm so sorry sweetheart. Do you want to talk about it?" David's voice became softer and he pulled me into a hug.

"Thanks but I can't relive it again."

"Well then I better go. Are you going to dance tomorrow?"

"No, the gang is coming tomorrow morning. Renyoj said that I could take tomorrow off. We will meet you, Tori, and Hannah after class." I gave him a peck on the cheek.

"Okay, 'bye. And please try to eat something and not throw it back up." And with that he walked out of the door.