Suteki da ne? Chapter 12 Part 2

A/N: I'm sososososorry it took me so long to post something so incredibly short. But you have no idea how perfect this one felt! ;;

When I told him, I was shaking.

Just the thought of what he was going to say, how he was going to respond, frightened me. I was too young, perhaps I couldn't understand. He was leaving and he would leave again and again. That's just how it was. He was a powerful, great man, who had a job that saved millions of lives. But... one day, he will not return. What was I to do then?

"Sakura..."

A lonely girl that will wait for him every night. A child that will never know it's father.

"Why are you crying?" He came back, and I felt him smiling as he held me. "I thought it was every girl's dream--"

"It is!" I feel kind of embarrassed now. I don't think I've ever sobbed so uncontrollably. "It is..."

"Then I think you have a few things to do while I'm away." Pulling back he held my chin up. "Like, oh I don't know, informing your parents?" I gave him a sour look. He winked. "And s-h-o-p-p-i-n-g."

"Don't make it sound like such an aphrodisiac."

"Hmm..." He rubbed his thumb against my wet cheek. "I'm happy."

"R-r-really?" Those words were all I needed to hear. As long as he was happy, I was ready to start my new life, my new family. I still smile thinking about it. How excited I was! When he left, I was literally bouncing down the street. I ran to tell everyone: little-o-Sakura is going to be a mom! Being in that sort of mood, I don't think anyone could have disapproved. Thinking about the future always drifted my mind from missing him. When Kakashi gets back... As soon as he comes home... When my darling wakes me...

He never did come back.

The day after he was supposed to arrive with his team, I got the message. The Hokage delivered it himself, along side many others, I don't remember whom though... I don't remember much that day. The day the infamous Hatake Kakashi became MIA. I waited another 3 months until I believed that he was dead. Every single day I would wait for him to walk through that door, listening for the door to open and for him to crawl into bed. Kind of foolish, now that I think about it.

I gave birth to a boy in late November, when the snow stopped falling just that night. The first thing I thought was: Gosh, does he ever look like his father... little Kakashi. Before you ask, yes he's doing just fine and no, he hasn't asked yet. Having no father around must seem normal... I wish it wasn't. How can I tell my child when I can't even convince myself? I have grown too tired of all the tears shed these past years. During my whole life I have been such a crybaby. Its rather disappointing, I would have changed so many things.

No one told me that they had missions for recovering Kakashi. I suppose it was because they didn't want to get my hopes up. Some news of him being captured and imprisoned had already leaked into my system, but I welcomed it happily. If he was indeed alive, he would be fighting not only for me, but for the baby as well. That was the only news I heard.

Well, if he is alive, he will be home soon! And I will welcome him home with a kiss on the cheek and a cup of tea. Then, I will introduce him to his boy, and he will smile and say: "He's as beautiful as you."

I have a feeling that time will come soon.

A/N: If you are wondering if there will be more, my answer is: probably not. This is how I wanted it to end.
But if I do think of something to add on, maybe something a bit more happier, I will post it ASAP.
For now, Goodbye.