-1Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters except the dumb bimbotic Lilly.

A/N: No bimbotic is not a real word.

Alice lied in bed that night, trying to clear her mind. She felt Jasper's eyes staring intently at her as she walked to the door, and down the hall. She headed straight to Edward and Bella's room, not even bothering to knock before entering.

"Bella, are you there?" Alice's voice brought me back to reality. I looked up and saw her panic stricken face, and for the first time since I had known her, she was scared. Her eyes told me everything. She was terrified. I stood up and embraced her, letting her place all her weight on me as a balance.

"Alice, darling, what's wrong?" I asked as calmly as I could. The small change in pitch gave me away, taking away my false sense of security. "It's going to be okay Alice, it's going to be fine."

"No it won't Bella! He's going to die!"

I took a step back, looking at her in shock. She was on her knees now, sobbing tearlessly. "No he isn't…he can't die! He won't! I won't let him!" I ran over to Edward and shook him furiously. "Edward Cullen! Look at me right now!" I screamed at him, trying to keep from sinking into the same state as Alice. He didn't move. Not a muscle. I gently kissed him and then pulled at his lower lip. Nothing. I turned around and yelled at Alice. "What's wrong with him! Tell me Alice! Tell me!"

"I don't know…usually 'Blood poisoning' as we call it lasts for a few days….a week at the most. It's much worse for him….so much worse…" she whispered through sobs. With that, Alice glided back to her room, leaving me alone with Edward. I laid down next to him, making sure that he could feel me. I stared at the ceiling until everything blended into one.

"Bella! Bella where are you? Why did you leave!" I was knocked out of bed by Edward thrashing about. He was screaming my name, and his eyes were wide open in panic. I sat on his chest to keep him from hurting himself and spoke softly to him, trying to calm his frightened screams.

"Edward, love, I'm right here…sweetie…I'm right here. Calm down….please…Edward, listen to me. You're going to be fine…I love you Edward. I love you." I kept my voice calm, but inside I was dying. I had never seen him in so much pain, nor had I ever heard him call my name with such worry.

"Bella! Isabella! Please come back, I didn't mean it! I…I…never meant to do that to you….make it stop hurting Bella. Please…" He continued screaming in agony. I applied more pressure to his chest to stop the movement long enough for me to get Carlisle.

"CARLISLE!" I screamed, hoping that he could hear me. "CARLISLE! ESME! SOMEBODY!" I heard Carlisle hurried footsteps coming up the stairs and into the room. He looked at both Edward and I with sad, hollow eyes. He nodded for me to release Edward, but as soon as I did the screams got worse.

"Bella! Bella…why? Why…I didn't mean it…I swear I didn't…" Carlisle walked over to Edward and let out a long sigh.

"Bella," he said, trying to get my attention, "I think it would be best if you left for a little while. Maybe you could go shopping with Alice, or Rosalie…I just…Edward wouldn't want you to see this." I knew he was right, but the idea of shopping while my beautiful, loving, Edward was stuck here in pain angered me. How could Carlisle suggest something like that? Didn't he know me by now? Even if I went out, I would be worrying about Edward the entire time. "Carlisle, how in the world can you suggest that! What makes you think I'd be able to be anywhere but here in the condition he's in? For gods' sake Carlisle, he's SCREAMING in PAIN. What kind of girlfriend would I be if I left him!" I was sure he was only trying to help but I would not leave Edward. Not willingly, at least.

"Isabella, he wouldn't want you to see him like this…" I glared at him.

"Well screw Edward, because I'm staying. If he has a problem with it, he can open his damn eyes and tell me so his self!"

At that precise moment the screams started back up, this time louder and more heart wrenching. "Make it stop! Bella…why are you letting this happen to me? Why?" He cried out, making me realize just how helpless I was. After everything he had done for me, I had to sit and watch him suffer…possibly even die. No. I shook that thought out of my head. Edward would NOT die. I wouldn't let him leave me, not after all that we had gone through just so I could be with him for eternity. I sat down next to him once again, this time raising his head slightly so it was in my lap. I stroked his hair gently, humming softly so that only he could here.

"I love you Edward…I truly, deeply, forever love you. Don't leave me…hold on okay?" I whispered as I watched Carlisle leave the room. He turned around and gave me one more sorrow-filled glance, before continuing down the hallway. I hear him mumble something about "…he won't be happy…leaving her in there…" Oh well, Edward would get over it.

"Bella?" I looked down at him, his eyes almost completely black with white around the pupil. I leaned forward and kissed him gently.

"Yes Edward, I'm here."

I thought I noticed him trying to smile for a moment before grimacing. "I didn't want you to see me like this…" I let out a small giggle at this statement. He was in agonizing pain, and what all that he cared about was how this would effect how I viewed him.

"Oh Edward, I'm not leaving until you're better? Okay? I don't feel comfortable leaving you like this…" He tried to sit up once again, but I gently pushed him back down. "Stop moving around…"

"I didn't say anything did I?" I looked at him with confusion, not sure what he meant by this statement.

I hesitated before answering. "What do you mean exactly?"

"I didn't scream or anything right?" He looked at me, trying to tell if I was going to be honest or not. Thank the gods he couldn't read my mind, because I wasn't going to tell him about the episode he had earlier.

"Nope, it was as if you were sleeping love. Completely silent." He eyes me suspiciously. I kisses his eyelids and then stood up for a moment to stretch.

"You're lying Bella….you're eyes say everything." I shrugged before laying back down next to him. His strong arms wrapped themselves around me, making sure that I wasn't going anywhere. I didn't mind.

"Edward, I love you." I was trying to change the subject and he knew it. It seemed for the moment he would let me get away with it.

I'm in the middle of a breakdown, watching you scream. I'm in the middle of a breakdown, with you screaming my name.