Thanks for the reviews everybody D

They convince me to write more.

Yes, to those of you who didn't figure it out yet, this is a Jacob and Bella fanfic.

I know that Edward wouldn't do some of the things I'm making him do, but it is still his personality and I need him to do something wrong to make Bella choose Jacob instead.

Chapter 4

"He's such an idiot for leaving," Jake growls.

"What do you mean he went willingly?" my heart's beating three times as fast as usual.

Watching my face he says, "One of the female vampires came up to him, said he had to go with them. He said he'd rather not. He needs to stay here. Then they started speaking really fast. I didn't understand most of it, but from the sound of it, he didn't really want to go. But no one forced him to."

No one forced him to. But he didn't want to go. What was so important that he needed to go to the fight?

"He was trying to help Sam. Leah had gotten into some trouble, trying to take two at a time by herself. Edward saw it, and came. Then those other bloodsuckers came," he continues.

"Sam would have died if Edward hadn't come," he admits.

Why did Edward go with them? He wouldn't if he didn't want to. He's as stubborn as I am.

My heart threatens to burst in my chest. Jacob's here. He's always here. Edward's not here. Sometimes he's here, sometimes he's not. Jacob, Edward. Edward, Jacob. I love them both. What am I going to do?

"Jake, I'm so confused," I crash into his shoulder.

He wraps his arms around me, pats my hair.

Whispers, "It's ok Bella, honey."

We go sit on the couch together, and fall asleep.

I'm awake. Ugh. I don't open my eyes. Dreamless sleep is bliss. Nothing to worry about. Now I'm awake, and I have to face my life. I force my eyes to open.

Jake's snoring next to me. Everybody's gone. Billy must be in his room sleeping, Sam in Jake's room. I have to choose. No, I have to see Edward. Why did he do that? Why did he leave me? I get up, walk over to the phone, and call Alice.

"Hey Bella. How are you doing?" her voice answers on the first ring.

"Not so good. Have you heard from Edward?" keeping it casual.

"No, I'm sorry Bella. But I've seen him. He's-he's with Tanya," she says.

"You mean he's with Tanya?"

"Not really. Tanya's keeping him there, says she needs him there to help them with Victoria. We didn't get her yesterday. Seems she went near their place."

"Why didn't she ask the rest of you to come?"

"I know what you're getting at. Tanya's really pushy. But Edward loves you. Just wait for him."
"I don't think I can anymore Alice."

"Bella…it's your choice."

She hangs up.

I'm not going to wait for Edward. But I am going to see him. I walk back to the living room, and over to the couch. Jake's stirring. He must have heard me talking on the phone.

"Hey Bells. How are you doing?"
"How would you feel about going to Alaska?" I ask slowly.

"With you?" he asks.

"No, with Billy."

He breaks into a grin.

"Let's go."

One advantage to being friends with supernatural beings is that you get places easily. Like Alaska for instance. Who could get to Alaska from Washington in one hour? First I drove over to the Cullens and Alice gave me money to get to Alaska by plane because even though Jake can run fast, he can't run over water. I felt bad about taking the Cullen's money, but this is Edward we're talking about.

Being on a plane with Jake is just in the slightest bit weird. He's just so big. He practically takes up two seats. Not physically, just for air space. Plus, he's so warm. It's not really a plane that we're on. It's a private jet. Alice wanted me to be safe, since she couldn't see me. So it's just me, him and the two pilots. He doesn't say anything. I guess he's happy I asked him to come. He's always up for anything I say. I love him. But I love Edward more, right? I guess it's time to see.

The plane lands and we get off, the wind lashing me about like a rag doll. Jake comes to me, puts his arms around me. How are we going to find their place? I stand there for a moment, helpless, looking out at the vast sea of white. He can hear thoughts dummy! I smack myself in the head.

"Well don't do that. We need to see your head," Jake says teasingly.

That makes me smile, but I haven't forgotten my idea.

"Jake, can you call Edward? Like, I don't know, think Bella's here really hard or something.

His face shifts. What's up with him?

"Sure, I'll think of something," he says, a grim smile on his face.

A flash of white stirs by him, and Edward turns up on my side. I don't know why, but his appearance shakes me up even more than usual. I start hyperventilating, but quietly. I don't want Jacob and Edward to notice. I guess it's because I almost lost him. His expression registers in my brain. Livid's the word.

"What did you say Jacob?" I ask in horror.

"I didn't say anything" he says with a sneer.

"Well then what did you think?" I ask.

His face softens, then turns back.

"I just was thinking about how much of an ass he is, for leaving you. Again," he adds.

"Jacob," I scold.

A cold hand drops on my shoulder. I look up at his face. He's looking at Jake.

"Why did you bring her here?" he asks.

He doesn't want me here? My heart starts to flutter. My face crumples. I can tell Jake was going to make a retort, but then he sees my face.

"Look what you did," he says softly, and starts to move towards me.

Then he stops, looking at Edward, hand still on my shoulder.

"Why did you bring her here?" Edward repeats.

"I didn't bring her here. She did that herself. I just came along for the ride," Jake says.

Edward looks down at me.

"Why did you come?"

"Why did you leave?" tears threaten.

"I'm trying to catch Victoria, so you can be safe," he says.

"With Tanya?" I ask.

His face falls.

"Bella, I love you. Nothing's going on with me and Tanya." He glances at Jake, "We're engaged Bella."

Split moment decision. I take a deep breath. This could be the worst choice of my life. As I open my mouth, my throat threatens to choke me. My heart threatens to stop beating. But it's only for now. Just until I get my head on straight. I'm betraying him, thinking about Jake this way while I'm engaged to him. At least, that's what I tell myself. Maybe it's just annoyance, and jealousy.

"I…don't…think…we……should…be…engaged anymore. I mean…just for now, you know. We can get engaged again later," I manage, one word at a time.

His face crumples. I've never seen Edward cry before, but I think he's close to it. Then his face clears, and he is very still.

"It's your choice," he says, and begins to walk away.

"Edward, I…," he picks up his speed, only a blur.

I turn around and see Jake standing there, his emotion unknown. The tears start to fall.