Authors note: ok so yeah the rushed into it but you'll start to understand why this upcoming chapter. Thanks for the reviews. I could use some more.

I walked out of the room and into my bathroom. where above the sink I reached and found, my only way out of the madness in my mind. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized how much different I looked. I had an actually sincere smile shinning back at me, and my eyes are lit up like the 4th of July. Giving myself one last look I turned the lights off, and made my way back into my room.

Before entering I had to stop and think for a second. How was this going to work? How am I supposed to be with this person, if I don't know what feelings are mutual and what are just curiosity? I spent most of my time trying to understand why she is even here. This all came out of nowhere and I'm not sure of what it's going to become…

She hadn't moved, except that she was wrapped up tightly in a ball under my white feather comforter. And that image brought me back.

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My grandmother and Spencer's mom left about 2 hours ago for London. Spencer and I were in my grandmothers bed, she had this huge king size bed with down blankets and pillows, it was pretty much the most comfortable place in the world. as Spencer use to call it her" white heaven." We were watching that movie Anger Management. It was cool and calm for the first hour or so, but I couldn't help but begin to get bored. So she pulled her laptop in-between us and started showing me random things online, including her ex boyfriend on Ha-ha like I actually want to see that? I think sometimes she knows how I fell but she doesn't want to show she knows.

I sat closely listening to everything she was telling me. Being the devil that I am. I insisted that she play that game called "the scary maze." Sp while she was paying attention to the movie I was trying dsepriitly to hold in a laugh as I set the game up. She was laying to my left and the computer was half way on her lap the other half on the bed. I hade to make up some story so that she would play.

"Ok, so here's how it works. You can't let the mouse out of the blue lines or you have to start over, if you make it to the 4th level you win $200 dollars."

She nodded in understanding and began the game. What she didn't know, is on the 3rd level it gets so hard, and you get so concentrated, that a random scary picture pops out of nowhere scares you. So she sat there playing the game, it's been about 10 minutes and I lost my interest in watching so I payed more attention to the movie. Not even realizing she was playing anymore, I heard this blood racking scream come from Spencer, and it scared the hell out of me, so I went tumbling off the bed, and she threw the laptop in front of herself in scarce.

"Are you out of your f-ing mind? That was the scariest thing I have ever seen." She said still trying to brush off the face that was burned into her eyelids now.

"I know right." I said as I made my way back to the bed and began tying to regain my attention to getting the laptop back to the top of the bed.

"Hey, you want to see something really cool? Its like about ghost sightings?" she looked at me like I was crazy and kept saying it was another scary thing and how I was so mean. But eventually after showing my puppy dog pout she let me show it to her. So we sat there in taking scary pictures of ghosts in others people's pictures. After watching it we were so scared.

"I need cookies now!" she said scared to walk out of the room. let me remind you I was 14 years old, it was ok for me to be scared, on the other hand she was 21 at the time. She as more scared then I was. So as we talked through the house and to the backdoor we made a plan to run for the car. Of course she took off without me to the car, leaving me in the dark by myself. So I ran as fast as I could to try and get to the car, but when I did she locked the doors, I started banging on them. I was scared out of my mind. Eventually she opened them; I swore to myself I would get her back.

I approached the bed again and sat down on my side, reaching into my night and for my cigarette hitter. After finding it I packed it into a bad and placed the bother end in my mouth. I lit the packed side and took in as much smoke as I possibly could. I immediately felt my body start to relaxe.

"What are you doing?" she asked out of curiosity, but she knew what I was doing.

"Getting my mind to slow down. Do you want some? I asked handing it over to her.

"Uh… sure… I guess I could try it." She said. I'm guessing she has never done this before because she didn't know what she was doing. So I took the liberty of showing her what to do.

" ok put the brown end in your mouth, when I lit it suck in as much as you can, and hold it for as long as possible" she nodded in understanding. She smirked at me, almost as if she was embarrassed. After that she started liking it. We smoked a few more hitters and began laughing our asses off. She leaned into my lap and said

"This is awesome, I love it." For the 1000th time. I could keep my hand off of her but I needed to talk to her badly

"We need to talk." I aid and her face dropped….. She new what needed to be discussed but I'm sure she didn't want to admit, admit that this whole thing went to fast.

"Ok… well I think we should start over, this whole thing has been a big question mark, and if you want this to work as much as I did I think you would agree we start off on a clean slate. I love you more than anything in this world, an I am glad that I can finally say that but this isn't going to be healthy trying to act like were past what had happened over the years! So what do you say?" she removed herself from my lap and looked at me.

"I don't know if…"

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