Chapter 3: Lost and Unfound
A/N: Kk readers, I will be started a new fic, CSI: October Road Style (title needed). I've also written up to part of the 5th chapter of this. I WON'T POST MORE UNTIL I GET REVIEWS. By the way, sorry for the delay, my internet was down… :( and then there was the homework flood before holidays, and one DURING holidays. And then I got caught up in downloading songs onto my iPod XD.
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"…don't try to find me…"
Sara's words rung in his head over and over. He respected her wishes, but he wasn't sure if that was what he should do. He loved her, no doubt; but when the one you love runs away do you run after her? What if she loves you but hates that fact?
"…I'll always love you, even though I hate that I do…"
What if… she's pregnant with your child?
"… I'm pregnant…"
A knock on his door brought him back to reality.
"Who is it?" Grissom groaned.
"It's me…"
"Cath, leave me alone…"
"Look, I know you don't want to talk, but you just need to hear this."
"What is it?"
"The guys and Brass are looking for Sara; they're trying to track her down…"
There was a moment of absolute silence.
"Don't let them, stop them; it's not what I want… it's not what she wants…"
In reality, he wanted it more than anything, he was desperate.
"A-alright, I'll try…"
Cath returned to the breakroom to find the guys pacing back and forth talking.
"Where would she go?" sighed Nick.
"I dunno, back to San Fran?" guessed Warrick.
"Nah, to obvious…"
"Umm… LA?" suggested Greg.
"Greggo, why would she go to LA?"
"I dunno…"
"Umm… Canada?"
"Nah…" they all sighed at once.
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"So, let me get this straight. You and your boss have been having an affair-" Julie was cut off.
"Julie!!!" snapped Sara, "don't call it that! We've been together for 2 years!"
"Ok, ok; you and you boss have been in a relationship for 2 years."
"Yup"
"And you're pregnant."
"Uh-huh."
"And you left because of that?"
"No, I left because he spent the night with his dominatrix friend who sold her life to someone because she lost her granddaughter. Then, that left me to listen to how everyone said they where good together and their so called 'past', and left me to take a pregnancy test alone." Sara suddenly burst into tears.
"And now," she sniffed, "these damn hormones keep making me cry!!!"
"It'll be ok honey; you won't go through this alone. I'll stand by you."
"T-thanks, you're a good friend."
"Your welcome, anything else I should know?"
"Yeah, n-never and I mean never, call me honey… it's what he used to call me…"
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"Guys…" all of them ignored Cath.
"How about Miami?" asked Warrick, recalling the time he and Cath traveled there for a case.
"Nah, I don't think so?"
"Guys!!!" she shouted, Cath was still ignored. Greg asked,
"How about Cincinnati?"
"Cinca- what?"
"Never mind…" sighed Greg.
"GUYS!!!" screamed Cath, you could tell she was PO'ed.
"Uh….. yeah?" She sighed.
"You have to stop this, you can't look for her."
"Why not?" demanded Nick.
"Grissom doesn't want this…"
"How'd you know?"
"His exact words were 'it's not what I want, it's not what she wants.'"
"But…"
"Nick, he told me to stop this, he doesn't want it…"
He doesn't know if he does!!! He loves her-" argued Nick, but he was cut off.
"Exactly, he loves her and respects her wishes, end of story. Now call Brass and tell him the search's off."
"But-" Cath gave him the death glare; the one that said Do it, you're life depends on it.
"Fine…" Nick got out his cell and dialed up Brass.
"Hello?"
"Hey Brass…" sighed Nicky sadly.
"Sup Nicky? You sound down…"
"Well… I am… we have to abort…"
"What? Why?"
"Gris' orders…"
"How'd he find out?"
"Cath…"
"Oooh… bittersweet betrayal…"
"Yeah, but it may actually be better for Grissom…"
"Maybe… you think he'll ever be the same again?"
"I dunno… I really don't know…"
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"You know how long you've been pregnant?"
"I dunno, at least a month."
They were sitting on the couch in Julie's condo watching one of her favorite movies, The Notebook.
"Pass me the popcorn…"
"Course… hey, don't you wish you could have a fairytale romance like this Sar?"
"Call me a pessimist, but nothing like this could happen in real life… only in television, books, and movies is it possible."
"You sure?"
"Yes, absolutely possible."
"What about you and Grissom?"
Sara was silent.
"Don't ever mention that name again…"
"Sorry, I just…"
"Just don't ok? I want to forget him…"
"Alright…"
"Let's just watch the movie…"
"M'kay…"
Sara couldn't concentrate for the rest of the movie; there was only on thing she could think about, Grissom."
"Since when have you been interested in beauty?"
"Since I met you."
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"Pin me down…"
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"… at least have enough time to say goodbye to the people I love…"
"I'm not ready to say goodbye…"
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"Well, I'm pretty sure I don't make you sad."
"No, you make me happy."
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"I'm pretty good at mouth to mouth."
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"Would you come tape me up?"
"I love my job."
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"Do you trust me?"
"Intimately"
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"I don't even have to turn around… Sara Sidle."
"Sara…"
No response.
"Sara….."
Still no response.
"SARA!!!"
"Huh?" she asked, snapping out of her trance.
"The movie's over…"
"Oh, uh… sorry, I zoned out…"
"It's ok, but what exactly are you going to do? Ya can't sit in my condo doing nothing forever." Sara shrugged.
"I dunno, I want to go back to grad school and start over. Get a degree in Literature or something like that."
"Anything else?"
"I've kinda considered teaching, and I wanna change my name too…"
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A/N 2: I've never actually watched The Notebook….