Chapter 4: You've Got Mail

A/N: Ok, so this chapter isn't really in my notebook, but I felt I just had to type this after listening to this one song on iPod that haven't listened to in like, a week. I know, not long, but I've only had this iPod since X-Mas. So if later chapters don't make a connection with this one, I'm sorry.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY 33333

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1 Year and 3 Months later, August.

8-month old Jocelynn McKenzie Sidle took in her surroundings; she was in Vegas alright, where neon lights line the strip and where crime never rests. She looked out the window of the Mirage. About 2 months ago Julie had suggested that all 3 of them could go to Vegas to get away from work and everything. It took Julie hours on end of persuasion to finally get Sara to come.

"So, happy you came?" asked Julie, sitting on one of the beds. Sara was typing on her laptop and didn't look up.

"Well, we haven't done anything yet, so not exactly."

"But we're away from work, how could you not be?"

"If you haven't noticed, I'm still doing work while I'm here." Julie got up and walked over to Sara.

"What exactly are you doing anyways?" Sara quickly closed her laptop.

"None of your business my nosy friend." Julie rolled her eyes.

"Whatever, I'm gonna go to the casino. Wanna come?" she asked sarcastically, knowing she'd refuse.

"Of course not, but I'll meet you for lunch later, ok?" Julie nodded,

"Sure, where do you wanna go?" Sara shrugged.

"You'll find out later…"

"Uh… ok, you're the one who knows this city." Julie grabbed her purse and headed out the door. Sara sighed and reopened her laptop. She clicked the little send button and closed it again. Then, she got up and walked over to Jocelynn lying in her travel crib and picked her up.

"Let's just hope daddy gets my message and does what it says…"

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Grissom was getting ready to go home and get a few hours of sleep when he received a new email. He walked over and looked at the email address. first thing that came to mind was it was her. She had brown eyes, her initials were SS; why not? He sat back down and clicked it. He missed her, no denying that; but did she miss him? His eyes scanned the email.

Grissom,

Please do what I say. Listen to the radio station that I used to listen to when I was still here. I'm certain you remember it, if not it's 94.5; please listen to it tomorrow at 7pm. Wondering how I arranged it? Listen to the radio to find out and receive my message. I can't say this in person of write this down, so this is how I have to tell you.

-SS

He sighed, could he just follow the words she wrote? He need more time to think. All the feelings left behind by her leaving and his mistake still lingered; and he doubted they'd just disappear with this. In fact, all the wounds would probably just be reopened. He just needed time to think. He shut down his computer, grabbed his keys and drove home.

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When he opened the door of the townhouse he was greeted by Bruno. He rubbed his head, kicked off his shoes, put he keys in the table and then plopped onto the couch. What to do, what to do? He wanted to know what she had to say, well more like a need. They needed each other in a way, but without each other; would they be better off? He shook that thought out of his mind and tried to get some sleep. About 10 minutes later he drifted into a deep sleep and off into the dream world…

They were in a forest, and a big on at that. He was chasing after her playfully, but every time he got close enough to kiss her she slipped away from him and ran away again. He knew it was all in a romantic gesture, but he started to get tired of this monotonous routine. Soon, he lost sight of her, he couldn't find her; it was like she just disappeared.

"Sara!!!" he shouted, but got no response. Soon, he came to a clearing with a river. Still no sign of her, but something drew him to it and she just appeared on the other side. He shouted for her to come over, but she ignored him and turned away. He couldn't figure out what she was doing… until it was too late… She had dropped into the rushing river and was swept away forever…

Grissom woke up in a sweaty panic. He rarely had dreams and when he did they were never like this, usually they were calm, but never ever like what he just experienced. He still wondered, should he listen to the radio or not?

It was only 11 am; he decided that he should get some more sleep…

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Julie got back around 11:30 to find Sara playing with Jocelynn.

"Hey, ready to go?" asked Julie.

"Oh yeah, let me just get everything." Sara grabbed her purse and Jocelynn's baby bag. She then careful picked Jocelynn up and put her in her stroller. "Ok, ready."

"M'kay, so were we going anyways?"

"Well, I was thinking The Grill; it's out by Lake Mead. They have some really good seafood and vegetarian dishes."

"Ok, let's go then." The three of them headed out the door and towards the elevator and as Sara pushed the down button Julie asked another question;

"Uh Sar, what'll happen if we run into Grissom?" Sara's head jerked the mention of his name, she hadn't thought much of running into him, the room was under Julie's name so if he looked into the hotel he won't find her; but actually running into him on the streets?

"Uh… well… we'll just have to leave it at seeing him; no interaction of any kind." This wasn't necessarily true, because she already sent him an email.

"And if he approaches us, we………" Sara bit her lip.

"I'm not exactly sure…"

"You think you'll tell any of your friends you're here?"

"Nah," Sara paused, "I'm not sure that they'd keep their mouths shut. Especially Cath, she'd tell in a moments notice."

The elevator dinged and the doors opened. It was relatively full so they had to squeeze, but once they were in she caught sight of someone she hadn't seen for years.

"Oh god," she whispered. She had seen Cath; probably here for business due to the fact she inherited Sam Braun's fortune, but none the less. She couldn't let her see her. So she nudged Julie in a rib.

"Ouch," she grunted through gritted teeth, "what was that for?"

"One of my… uh…" she paused, what exactly would she call them all? Friends? The Team? "Cath's in this elevator, I have to make sure she doesn't see me."

"Well, uh, maybe she won't recognize you?" Sara looked at her was a yeah right look. "Ok, ok, umm… maybe oh shit…" Julie looked at her helplessly. Sara sighed.

"Take Jocelynn, I'm gonna inch away from her as far as possible." Sara carefully let Julie take hold of the stroller and inched to the back of the elevator, out of Cath's sight. Jocelynn was happily shaking a rattle not noticing that her mommy had moved away when the elevator came to an abrupt stop. At the stop Jocelynn dropped her rattle and started to cry. Most people ignored it, but some heads turned to a crying Jocelynn and Julie trying to calm her down.

"Its ok sweetie," cooed Julie, "I'll find your rattle." She looked around on the ground but couldn't find it. Then, she got a tap on your shoulder.

"Excuse me," she asked, "but is this what you're looking for?" Julie looked up to see Cath holding out a rattle.

"Oh yes, thank you." As Cath handed her back the rattle they both turned to Jocelynn.

"Awww," sighed Cath, "your daughter's adorable…" Cath notice there was actually something familiar about the baby, but thought nothing of it.

"Thanks, but she's not my daughter. I'm watching her for my friend. We're gonna meet her at the Grill for lunch."

"Oh really? That's a nice place. Well, nice talking to you."

The elevator came to an abrupt stop and people, including Cath, filtered out.

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A/N 2: I know, I spelled Jocelynn wrong, but I like it better with 2 N's. And, from March 17-April 5 I'll be in China, so, limited updates in March /