What Have I Done To Deserve This?
Jason, Eyes Wide Open, PG13, 295 words, Title from Grey's Anatomy
He lies on the hospital bed, tries to open his eyes, but his entire body is so weak he just can't do it. Everything is a blur. One second he's throwing the ball and the next he's laying here. He tries to remember what happened, pictures getting on a stretcher and having people flip him on his stomach. It's too much to bear. Can't think. Gotta get up. Gotta get out of this bed.
But something isn't right.
What the hell, what the hell. Why won't my legs move? Oh my God, oh my God.
He tries to calm down, tries to breath slowly again. Maybe this is all just some twisted, screwed up dream, he thinks. He'll wake up in a little while and everything will be okay again. But he feels the tubes up his nose, the IV needle sticking into his arm and realizes that he's wide awake. This ain't a dream. This is really really real.
He pulls the blanket up so that his feet are sticking out. He stares at them, tries not to panic, and then closes his eyes. They'll move, they got to, c'mon toes, wiggle for me. He doesn't feel anything, so he opens his eyes and tries to do it that way. Maybe this time it'll work. But it doesn't.
He feels the tears coming out of his eyes. Tries to wipe them away with his fingers, but something isn't right about them either. He can't spread his fingers apart all the way like he's supposed too. Now he's really freaking out. How did this happen to him? Why did this happen? What did he do wrong to deserve this?
The tears are still falling from his face. He tries his hardest to wipe them away.